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TW RESTRICTIVE ED

ok so by some miracle of the eating disorder gods i actually LOST WEIGHT AFTER MY TERRIBLE DAY YESTERDAY???

i weighed myself last night and i was at 103.4, which was LOWER than in the morning, and this morning i was 102.6 which is INSANE to me and i dont understand

I weighed myself like 20 different times and reset my scale to see if it was glitching but it seems to be true?

Anyway, i decided to have a small meal before work today to keep me fueled and since i already lost so much yesterday.

very comforting feeling to stop caring about anything besides losing weight

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Fell off for a couple days :( I didnt gain anything im still around 103, so its not too bad

My goal is to be below 100 by the start of May, which is a totally achieved goal (3 lbs in 10 days), so I wont have to sacrifice my ability to like function by eating nothing, gotta stay on the grind even if im restricting ykyk

School is also killing me rn, my senioritis is BAD, ive been skipping like every day

my grades are still pretty good so its not the end of the world but i just need senior year to hurry tf up, i wanna be out of this bitch NOW

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ok today did NOT go as planned at ALL

I caved and had a bagel with cream cheese and some veggie bacon with a dunkin coffee, which had to have been so many calories in itself, but then i had to go to the Indian resteraunt with my grandma and OH MY GOD

the food was good and i feel like i didnt even eat much but i felt SO FULL I WAS ON THE VERGE OF THROWING UP (not of my own choice), it was AWFUL

I was so full and uncomfortable and i never want to feel like that ever again, but at least nobody is gonna suspect anything since i definitely ate like normal

gonna do a fast tomorrow to make up for this shit show of a day, ill only have herbal/green tea and a sparkling ice from cvs :/

if nothing else, this has to work as a metabolism day to make sure i dont plateau, so ill take what i can get