My Grandma Wants To Go Out To Dinner With Me On Monday For A Late Birthday Thing, Im Not Too Worried

My grandma wants to go out to dinner with me on Monday for a late birthday thing, I’m not too worried though, my plan is just to not eat anything until dinner and fill my stomach up with water during the meal

I don’t want to force myself not to eat the food at the restaurant, or have it be obvious that I’m not eating so I’m definitely going to order as normal, I’ll get full fast tho so it’s not a big deal

I’m so excited to get under 100 lbs, I’m always on-and-off with my restriction and I haven’t made it under 100 in soooo long, I can’t wait for a 2 digit number on the scale again 😩

I FUCKING ATE THE FREE FOOD I GET FROM WORK IT WAS SO MANY CALORIES and then cuz I was trying to feel better I talked to my boyfriend and then ended up eating a fucking cinnamon roll as well

I feel like absolute shit, hoping for my weigh in tmrw morning to not be horrible

If I keep doing this shit nothing is ever gonna change, I either need to fix this or just go back to being normal

TW RESTRICTIVE ED (block dont report)

ok I got my food log for yesterday, im not gonna actually count every calorie for now, cuz everytime ive done that in the past i just obsess over food too much and end up binging and giving up, so im gonna be more reasonable with my restriction so that it actually lasts lol

Breakfast:

Black tea w/ sweetened milk (my favorite thing in the world omg)

Lunch:

1 apple

Diet coke mixed with some lemonade

Dinner:

One packet of Maruchan ramen

Large bowl of ice-cream w/ chocolate sauce and strawberries :/

Everything went amazing until (as always) after I ate my planned ramen for dinner my cravings went insane. I decided to just have some icecream because i mean fuck it, i love ice cream, and since i really ate almost nothing the rest of the day it shouldnt be too bad, even if it wasnt ideal. I was right tho! I weighed myself this morning and I still lost about as much as I had hoped to from the day before, so Im happy i got to enjoy my ice cream and still make progress :)

(I am definitely making sure not to give into the cravings today tho, cant make this a habit)

listening to music to fuel your ed>>

TW RESTRICTIVE ED

Food log from yesterday:

Breakfast: coffee with sweetener

Lunch: veggie burger with 1 slice of bread, and a bowl of instant miso soup (around 260 cals)

Dinner: 4 slices of no cheese veggie pizza, two slices of cheese pizza

Ok yesterday was almost perfect, I planned on the 4 slices of the no cheese veggie pizza, but my cravings got the better of me with the cheese pizza, they were all very small slices tho, I work at a pizza place so I get free personal pizzas and they are not very big

I was worried when my cravings got bad I was gonna end up eating smth else but thankfully they went away after I ate the pizza, and I weighed in at 103.8 lbs this morning which was exactly what I wanted! :)