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A while back my pharmacist saw my deadname on my profile and accidentially called it out, he corrected and deleted my deadname from the system so only my preferred name shows up now. There was a crowd of people behind me, so as he hands over the pills he apologized, in equal tone and volume as when he called my deadname and lied saying it's been a long day and he didn't mean to call out -his own- name. I quietly told him it was fine and he didn't need to do that for my sake.

His response: "No, it's my name now."

I went to the pharmacist yesterday, his nametag is my deadname. He informed me he's immigrating and in the process he's changed his first name to my deadname to have an English sounding name. That's why he's now able to get a reprint of his nametag to be my deadname. And repeated, with the intense seriousness of someone who is going to die on this hill: "It's mine now. Not yours. I'm taking." His tone indicated that decision is final.

Bro literally deadnamed me once, and has committed to flat out stealing my deadname. It's his now. Legally. Officially. I over heard his co-workers call him by the name.

I haven't really watched any snapcube dubs except for little snippets, could you reccomend me some stuff to watch?

Could you also share any other memes or videos (specificly your favorites) I may have missed out on that are filled with shenanigans?

- 佳月

This one is more of a gameplay, but is a banger cuz of how cray-cray it is XD

It's resident evil, but there's other gems like RE but with the facial expressions cranked up to 500%

Also HL1 but its google translated?! So goofy

(bonus snapcubes thingy that constantly, lives rent free in me head, however, eggman's twitter callout post on shadow is the top one there)

hey speaking of undertale I think bill would learn a lot from it,, sure you can give undertale to the pope but can you give it to the dream demon :3

YOU JUST ACTIVATED MY HYPERFIXATION YAPPING CARD

He's not gonna hear the end of it now >:)

I wanna know what Bill thinks of this meme. And had he played 4D chess before?

This is heavily Bill approved

Also apparently yes

HE'S FINALLY TALKING ABOUT SIXER?!?!!

HELL YEAH, He seems pretty cool, being a scientist n shiz.

Started to ramble about portals and I ended up bringing the portal game series. (He seemed interested when i mentioned it's sci-fi and most of the characters have one eye)

I wanna save up for copies for my steam account so Bill can try it out (tho, my laptop is an old toaster and might not handle the graphics)

Maybe the sixer dude would like portal 1/2 as well (but damn, they both fumbled with their situationship 😭)

... OP, do you remember your childhood/past? Is it clear? Does it has any dark or blank spots you dont remember? How was your memory as of late/since Bill appeared?

It might be nothing, but be wary of how mental demon's presence can affect your psyche, even not intentional

Gonna be open, I forgot Bill's some kinda demon. Hasn't done anything demon-y.

As for my past? iiit's a bit all over the place, but i still know most of it. (Forgot some of the traumatic stuff ig)

Most i'll say is 'disfunctional, but managable'.

karaoke?!?! what is bill singing,,, what is that funky little guy's music taste,,, the internet wants to know.

Omg, we're absolutely VIBING to Prom dress, Charlie's inferno, Miss Miseryguts, some meme shenanigans, and other stuff (story of undertale cuz it's a banger)

Turns out our tastes in music is hella similar ^^

have you shown him the "look at the buns on that guy" one?

my personal favorite

Bill loved that one, thanks for the recommendation

P.S: we may or may not be having karaoke with drinks rn (hehe sparkly wine)

Has bill's condition gotten any better??? If so, maybe you guys should do something fun. Like go outside for some fresh air. Or post misinformation online (I think bill would like a distraction from his current predicament)

Real shiz

Meme aside, Bill's doing better (I think)

A bit wary of me for some reason, keeps calling me a 'weirdly convincing fleshbag'

No clue what he means by 'he can't even see me face'.

BTW, he likes the sonic snapcubes dubs, as well as vines.

We started this dumb thing where one of us says 'road work ahead?'

And the other says 'yeah, i sure hope it does'

Happens at random. Also gave him a kazoo in case he has another panic attack and he wants to spice it up

Random outfit stuff

(felt pretty slay in these)

Idk how to pose dynamically, i'm so cringe ;-;

Slightly 'older' photos (aka, last week stuff lol)

Sorry for the lack of updates today, was busy (had a FoodSafe class, I passed!^^)

Bill's doing alright, slightly lively today. He's been walking around the house doing whatever (been dragging a small blanket around like a cloak)

Left lunch/breakfast for him before I went out. (Tho uh, I think we both had seeing issues. I couldn't bring him with me)

This. I might have a crazy theory - either its his demonic nature affects surrounding when hes unwell or. You and Bill are connected somehow?

You did smth that made his vision's bit better and then your ability to see improved. We need to know if it works vice versa. Do smth helpful to yourself and see, if its gonna have same effect on Bill?

Omg, symbiosis real (not clickbait) /j (ha)

Jokes aside, this is

Mildly alarming.

Yet again, he's a being I can't understand 100%, but I didn't mean to get THAT attached, zoinks-

He's gotta go at some point, right?

hi! I found this patient file for bill, I think its from theraprism, but its so vague, Something tells me that these doctors weren't actually very helpful, why are they so cryptic???

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

PATIENT FILE: BILL CIPHER

GREATEST LOVE: himself

GREATEST FEAR: himself

ART THERAPY NOTES: all he draws is red and blue triangles

PATIENTS ODD PHOBIA'S: 3D glasses, Venetian blinds, TV static.

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------

and that's literally it, nothing else. istg these doctors are so useless- not going to explain anything?? like, how or why?

but anyway, I hope any of these cryptic messages help, i would imagine nursing an intergalactic demon back to health isn't really something people do often, unless you work at theraprism lol

YOOOOOO HOW'D YOU GET YOUR HANDS ON THIS INFOOO???? /gen

This is kinda helpful tbh, I mean, it's definitely half-assed written (i mean, surely there has to be more in 'greatest love, greatest fear besides himself)

Though i've definitely seen him freak out over the blinds and anything static here. Heck, even the sound of clothing static gets him alarmed.

And then there's the triangle thing.

Poor dude, must be h̸̰̀ ̴̽͜o̴̭͐ ̶̺͝m̷̱̉ ̸̫̈́e̴̱̔ ̸̯̑s̶̟̿ ̵̢̕i̶͙̍ ̸͋ͅc̷̲̐ ̴̩́k̶̘̃

the scars didn’t get any bigger, right? that’s what those funky little lines are?

Yeah, They didn't grow worse (thankfully)

He's not only bandaged together, i had to use some duct tape to keep the broken bits from shifting/falling off again.

Not the best solution, but it works (learned from experience, ran outta bandages before)

Sorry I didn't get to these earlier, Bill's situation was way too sudden. Focused on his wellbeing.

Here's the current list of possible nicknames! Thanks for the recommendations ^^

Bermuda (lol nice),

Buddy (simple but nice),

Billy (makes me think of Billy bob from rockafire),

Cipher (lowkey a banger),

Dorito/nacho (used that a few times as a joke before),

and Muse (that sounds so tumblrcore, i'm tempted to use that one)

Are you a morning person or a night person?

I dunno man, i'm barely even a person lmaoooooo

Heya guys/gals/and fellow nonbiney pals!

hey, just noticed, the last picture you took of him? the one with the bandaids,

his pupil looks.. off? its way more dilated and it looks like static if you squint, you might wanna check his vision if the eye still hasn't changed. serious falls or head injuries can lead to loss of vision or damaged vision (as well as hearing but I don't think we would be to tell, he doesn't seem to have ears) permanent or temporary. could explain why he's dissociating quite often. with sudden lack of/less visual stimulation. his vision seems to be his main sense based on how he looks as well, perhaps gently try test his vision out when hes more coherent?

Gave him a lil check-up (well, on his eye)

Swatted my hand away with annoyance when i used a light (i guess that's a good sign???)

Idk what you meant by there being S̷t̴a̷t̴i̷c̵, it was just cloudy.

I had some spare eyedrops for when my eyes get dry, so i tried it on him, just to see if he needs a lil boost on hydration,

Good news is that it worked!^^. Not a whole ton, but he's able to see that it's just me around, even if it's blurry.

Main part is he's probably aware enough (i think)

Hey, just a warning, if Bill is still super delirious/dissociated, try to avoid red and blue?? We think that’s what his parents looked like, and the last thing anyone wants is to remind the poor dude of his dead family :[ (and home dimension)

What the hell.

So

He's fresh outta therapy and is STILL experiencing extreme trauma from losing his family???? 😭

Gonna be hard to avoid those two colors, cuz most of my wardrobe is red and blue stuff-

Maybe just like,, try to make sure he knows you're there and trying to help him? It sounds like he's disassociating, and that can be a huge shitshow if you don't know how to ground yourself (which he obviously doesn't) so maybe try to hold his hand, get him to eat something or talk or just anything that isn't stairing off into space. Some things that help me personally with disassociation and similar issues is things like pressure (ex: clenching my fists and then letting them go, pressing my palms or heels into something flat) or other strong sensory imput like nice smells or tastes or textures. Talking to others helps too. Just make sure to show him care and try your best (none of this is your fault at all, by the way. There's no reason to think you failed if you can't get him out of this funk he's in.)

Oh shit, i didn't realize/notice he was disassociating (and i do that a lot too)

I feel bad that I left him alone afterwards ;-;

I'll try to make up the time I missed

TYSM for the tips on grounding (gonna come in handy for the both of us)

Anything interesting happen or is everything going steady so far?

Sorry for the lack of activity, I had some stuff to do and left Bill with my phone to watch vids n whatnot.

(just got it back cuz he fell asleep again. He had some soup and snacks today)

I think he might be a lil sick as well, gave him some ibuprofin (the kids dose, dw. Idk how much 'mortal meds' what he calls it he can handle with how weak he still is.)

He's only a tiny bit better. At most awake, but he'll be stuck in bed for a bit.

I did get the lil update that something feels wrong when i'm away from him for too long(????? I don't think he misses me. I mean, we're only craft/doodle buddies at most. It'd be silly to go beyond that, i suppose)

how’s the lil guy doing? Is he Alr?

The cracks are covered. Ran outta bandages so i had to use duct tape and paper towel 💀

He's sniffling a little (no clue how, has no nose)

Thankfully, he's slightly responsive now.

Lad's still pretty out of it. Might even be hallucinating(?)

Still hella weak, reaching out at nothing. Making sure he's bundled up well.

Any tips on how to comfort a barely aware/awake triangle dude?

"Couldn't go beyond the driveway, I don't know. It's like he was tossed/pushed/dragged back by something. That or he was trying to break down some wall by force?"

Some kind of energy barrier that surrounds your home or connected to you/smth in the house? He tried to interact with it/walked into it without knowing and got damaged? I dont think he would've run into it desperately trying to break it down physycally and his powers are no use as of now. Plus he might be a bit desperate if he got to you from Theraprism/right after death(?) but i dont think he'd keep on doing something that was noticeably hurting him. Though, this one is questionable 😔 (he might be prone to selfharm but im not sure)

Last guess - car hit? Any wheel marks on the driveway or road, trampled grass?

Noone here is a bad driver. That's what I know.

Though the barrier guess could be right (somehow???? Still gotta check it out further when i'm able to)

The mess doesn't go beyond it, so it just, ends, before the road. No car tire tracks.

You should probably lay off the heavy questions while he heals for now. I do wonder, though, what the hell happened? Did he trip, or?..

I followed the trail that was left behind (was a looot of cleaning)

And from where it ends. He couldn't really get out of the area.

Couldn't go beyond the driveway,

I don't know. It's like he was tossed/pushed/dragged back by something. That or he was trying to break down some wall by force?

But nothing is/was there????