The Younger Days.

The younger days.

Excuse me while i go on a rant. This is one of the apps my family doesn’t have. So i need to rant for a moment and get this out.

When I was a kid, I remember having everyone in my family just go off at me except my papa (grandpa). Whenever my mom got upset at me. To be mindful, I lived with my mom, dad, 2 little brothers, my uncle and my papa. We live with my papa since my mom had her first son. Skipping ahead my mom and i use to butt beads. Which is normal for a mom and daughter to do so. But it would usually be for something i didn’t do, something my brothers did that upset me and the rare moments i did something. So this is how it would work whenever i got in trouble. From first to last this is how it work. My mom would get upset. My dad would say ‘you shouldn’t make your mom upset she does a lot for you and your brothers.’ My uncle would tell me to stop having an attitude and get over myself. My brothers would get off free like they never did anything. I would stay with my papa and he would listen to me. My papa was my safe space but over the years as me and my brothers got older. My brothers started taking up most of my papas time. Which led me to turn to music, which you know what most depressed, anxiety filled teens do. However, to me as school got more stressful and friends started turning into enemies. My parents would just play it off and say your young get over it. Couldn’t talk to my papa because my brothers would run to my parents and they’d tell me to stop going around telling people. When high school hit, i completely shut down around sophomore year. I didn’t care anymore, nothing matter. It felt like no one cared and my life is better off ending. After high school, i started living with my aunt and her family. I started mentally healing and i do have moments where i feel like I’m going to get yelled at. Also being told to stop stressing. I cannot explain how much pain I’ve Cause to people around me because of childhood trauma. I cannot explain or apologize enough to people who I’ve wronged. People have always told me i have a good heart and all i feel is guilt over the years of pain. I started this rant to get off my chest because i just want to heal from my past. But honestly i just think i needed to say this where my family can’t see it. So far I’ve been able to talk to my family. Not too much drama has happened between me and my family.

y’all

a mutual of mine

suddenly has posts on their blog

with links to “find women to have sex with”

my mutual is NOT POSTING THESE

tumblr just got even worse

Today I saw a woman with a green face mask on buying pastries at the bakery and I told myself : this is the level of confidence I want to achieve.

Something Lost

i bet being a dad didnt really hit him until bra came along lol. 

first one of three lil short comics im workin on about the King and his lil Princess 💘  

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unpopular sally face opinions that should be more popular

sally isn’t ur innocent bean who did nothing wrong uwu he’s a morally ambiguous character that while not evil certainly isn’t good!!!! he’s still a murderer even if he did it for understandable reasons :/

ash had to deal with the trauma of losing her best friend to suicide, finding out her other best friend is a murderer, finding out said friend killed her other friends, and watching her other close friend fall apart and be put in a mental hospital, basically being the only memeber of the gang who’s alive & sane. also even if she had gotten evidence the whole thing is run by the cult. sal would have died no matter what she did

niel being against sal in the trial is a totally understandable thing! niel found most of his friends along with his boyfriends parents were murdered by someone he thought he could trust! his boyfriend is injured and in a hospital because of what everyone assumes is trauma from seeing sal murder anyone!! niel thinks this man made him lose his boyfriend bc of the false knowledge thrust upon him which is a totally reasonable thing !

basically stop pretending sal did nothing wrong and leave ash & niel the fuck alone