Mini-yoongers - Crying Over Yoongi

𝗘𝗡𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗡𝗧𝗘𝗗 ✦ 𝗛𝗨𝗘𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗞𝗔𝗜 💫

pairing : huening kai x reader

genre : fluff (?), angst, unrequited love, one side pining on your best friend

word count : 517

synopsis : again at 2am you find yourself lying on the vast green field, staring at the starry night sky. with your enchanter lying beside, a sense of longing and delusion fills you inside.

warning : angst, tissues maybe, reader is delusional (we all are), sad sad sad

a/n : my first fic! idk why this song reminds me of your name. it reminds me of hyuka as well, cuz he's so mystical and moon night sky water painting coded as you see in the pics up there (if that makes any sense). i cried while writing this, i hope you enjoy! m.list

Under the numerous stars, you are both lying on the soft field of grass, the leaves tickling your skin as a breeze blows by. The two pairs of gleaming eyes are mesmerised, absorbed with counting the endless glitter granules sprayed across the prussian blue sky. At times you break contact to look at the boy beside you, who represents a star himself. You can call him the sun. Though hidden in the depths of the night sky, the sun has it's presence through it's glowing moon. You can call yourself the moon, basked in his bright light that makes you shine in the darkness.

He stops his random rambles, which have been deflected from his counting, to look back at you. The sound of the breeze fills the silence between you two, while you have your eyes locked with each other. After a minute of silence, a gentle smile graces his lips that your lips reciprocate. A warm nostalgic feeling fills your heart, which reminds you of all those coffee hangouts you had with him in the winter mornings.

The last 2am you are spending with him before who knows when you will see him again, or will you ever. Shifting to a far away place to pursue your dream has its prices. If that includes losing another dream of yours, another star that you want to keep close to you forever, you nod. As if a needle has pricked your heart, the bittersweet nostalgia has morphed into the sourness of despair and hopelessness. Anyways it's too late, the words you wanted to say all along would be meaningless if you aren't going to stay for another tomorrow with him.

Your eyes well up with tears and he reaches out his hand to wipe them off. The smiles are now laces to keep the emotions within yourselves intact. You feel it is far fetched but you can't help yourself but hope that he has just you as someone who will wait for him and that he would do the same for you for years. It feels foolish and selfish to want to keep him all to yourself as you will never be ready to let him go. Those buried feelings made you hope that there isn't someone else he will fall for in that undefined timeline. You hope it isn't someone else that may cross his mind every time he looks at a star. And you feel guilty. Because you know, you don't deserve him. And you know deep down, that the stars will not fall for your wish.

That's when his phone rang. He takes out his phone, his smile spreads a little wider as he reads the name on the phone screen. He does have someone who has been waiting for him already, the same who he has fallen in love with. And it isn't you. Will never be.

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ilysm for protecting soobs

— the biggest soobrangdan ever

Ilysm too nonnie.

If he had actually done anything wrong, I'd be glad to critique.

But he didn't, so I will continue to defend him and all of tubatu to the ends of the earth ⚔️💙

pretty boba eyes for @yeonbins

https://www.tiktok.com/@fozmeadows/video/7303811057179495722

Not to keep dragging up the anime controversy but I feel like this tiktok makes some good points that I haven’t seen people discuss yet (censorship, thought policing, etc.) Wanted to share with you cause I thought you’d find it interesting

I wish I was feeling more articulate these days but fortunately fozmeadows is out here doing the lord's work.

Tbh, the thought policing that is happening in supposedly "leftist" and "progressive" spaces these days is kind of terrifying. I know redneck conservatives in my area who are more laid back and accepting than a lot of people I come across these days.

Especially in younger kpop circles, there is so much purity culture, so it's almost not surprising that this blew up the way it did.

People enjoy dark media for a variety of reasons. I love watching explorations of the lengths people will go both to damage each other and to survive. It helps us to confront the dark aspects of humanity in a safe way.

Anyway I just woke up so idk if any of that makes sense. I don't usually participate in "kpop drama" but as a writer and artist who consistently explores dark themes in my work, and a millenial who is absolutely terrified of the purity culture forming amongst gen zs and zoomers, I felt obliged.