I Just Learned Tonight That This Is Called Stigmatophilia

I just learned tonight that this is called stigmatophilia 

I'm definitely into it too.

Why would you bruise your pups? :(

…because they like it.

brandedbulltank, can you vouch for this?

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October

October was an absolutely terrible month. Lots of family crap, and somehow it was even worse than it usually is, so I didn't really have much desire to post stuff up here. For the last week I had what was probably the worst case of strep throat I've ever had, but I'm FINALLY over it. So here's to November - may it be a better month than the last one.

How are your marks by the way?

They're starting to fade a bit, unfortunately. But I can still see them when I look in the mirror, and they make me really happy. Thank you so much for marking me, Sir.

I’m so tired.

Family: *says something racist* Family: *says something sexist* Family: *says something homophobic* Family: *makes fun of people with tattoos* Family: *tells you why you’re bad at life* Family: why don’t you wanna spend time with us?

SF 2015 (Consummate weekend) Part 2

After dinner on Saturday I walked back to my friend’s place. I watched a few shows, read some more, and eventually fell asleep. I wake up fairly early and see a message from Sir Dylan. He’s still up, so we start to chat for a while. It was great. We talked a lot about the previous day - the visit to Mr. S, and how we felt when we were there. I really enjoyed finally being able to explore my submissive side. Getting to wear that collar and having Sir pull me around a bit was great. I told him how much I enjoyed the feeling it gave me, but also how I wasn’t sure if I can let that be a part of my life with my obligations to the military. But he made me feel better, telling me not to worry about that, and how I should enjoy that time. Stop holding back, and let that need to submit grow stronger. To think of how excited the thought of seeing him made me. We kept talking and he had me take a deep breath - focusing on that feeling I had, and that he had brought out. “How do you feel, pup?” “ It's like a warmth in my chest and stomach. And a pulling sensation - like how being pulled by the collar feels, but more subtle and more constant, if that makes any sense, sir. “ Hearing that made him happy. That made me happy. “I want you to associate that feeling with me, pup. Whenever you see me, whenever you talk to me, those feelings come back... Stronger.“ “ Yes sir. “    He asked if I had the collar on, and seemed happy when I told him I did. “Tug on the ring for me, imagine it's me.” “ Yes sir. “ “ You like wearing that collar, don't you?” “ Yes sir, I really do. “ “I picked a good one. It suits you.When you wear it, I want you to feel like you are my pup.” “ Thank you, sir. Yes sir. ”

We talked a little longer, and then said goodbye so that he could get some sleep.

I pretty much went through the next couple hours looking forward to the wedding, and getting to see Sir and the pups. Finally I got dressed and made my way there. It didn’t take that long to get there, and I was actually the first in line. Big Pup saw me and stopped to say hey. They finally let us go inside and I made my way upstairs. The groomsmen and Best Men were up there, and @djseanmac was playing some music. I had some fruit, walked around, and said hey to some of the guys there. Sir eventually saw me, and tugged on my collar when he saw me. I was happy to be there. Everyone looked great, especially the grooms and groomsmen. People started making their way inside, and started dancing a bit. I saw brandedbulltank and Alpha happily dancing together. I stayed upstairs for a while. I don’t have the slightest idea how to dance (even after doing it later that night). It seems so natural when others do it. Anyway, Sir and Big Pup and everyone kept checking on me, asking if I was ok... Sorry guys. I was doing having a good time, just out of my comfort zone a bit. But you all helped a lot. Thank you. :-)

The wedding was beautiful. Everyone looked great up on the stage, and Sister Roma did a fantastic job with the ceremony. I was really happy to be there, and felt so happy for Sir Dylan, Big Pup, and the rest of their family. I’m very grateful to have been able to be there.

I kept wandering around for a while after the ceremony, usually going over to where Sir or one of the pups was when they waved me over, before making another lap or two around the building. The music was really, really good. DJ Kitty Glitter did an incredible job the entire time she was up there. I was still trying to relax bit (not really an easy thing for me), and standing around watching everyone dance. I sat down with Big Pup for a bit on one of the couches, and we talked a bit. akbearcub had given me a thing for a free drink earlier, so I figured I’d get a rum and coke (it’s the only drink with alcohol I've ever had, and it’s decent enough) and I sat back down with Big Pup until I finished it. I think him and Sir Dylan danced a bit after that. I went upstairs, took off my button up shirt, and then decided to wear it without my t-shirt, and unbuttoned.  My apologies to anyone who saw me from that point on. I still don’t know what the hell I was thinking.

In any case, I went around like that, and spent some more time with Sir and Big Pup. Sir would tug on my collar, force eye contact, hug me, and so on. It was incredible, and I loved it. He had Alpha wrap his arms around me from behind, and then Sir came up and kissed me. It was fantastic. A while later I was up in the nuptial lounge and I was finally talked into dancing for a bit by brandedbulltank. It was nice, though I didn't have any idea what I was doing. The movements all felt forced. In any case, I kinda enjoyed it, and I’m glad he talked me into it (thank you, Tank). I went downstairs for a bit and sat down with Big Pup some more. It was nice just relaxing with him there. I put my arm around him rubbing his shoulder, and we just sat there for a while. We got up a couple times to go on the dance floor. I went upstairs after a while, planning to grab my other shirt and put it on (It felt cold in there and it was making my back hurt a bit), but I kinda stumbled upon Sir Dylan and some pups up in the nuptial lounge. I was gonna turn around, but was called back in there. I got on my hands and knees beside Tank and Aphyr, while Sir and Alpha were on the couch. It felt right, like I belonged there. I was happy. 

We stayed there for a while, before Sir led us all downstairs. We ran into Big Pup, and seeing him and Sir Dylan together made me smile, like it always does. They’re really incredible together. I was very happy for both of them. We were all out there for a while, though I would take a break every once in a while. I was really having a great time with everyone - I got quite a few hugs, was introduced to a few people, got to dance with some pretty handsome men, and was dominated a bit. How could I not enjoy myself? :-D

Towards the end of the night Big Pup and I went to sit down for a bit and drink some water. Sir came over to where we were sitting and kinda got on top of Big Pup. I was gonna scoot over a bit and leave to give them some privacy (although in hindsight I suppose it still wouldn't have really been that private), but I was stopped and told to stay. More specifically I was told that I hadn't been told to leave. I stayed there and enjoyed watching the two of them, and I have to admit it was pretty hot to see the two of them kiss like that. Sir Dylan then got on top of me like he had been with Big Pup. He pushed me back into the couch, had me look up into his eyes, asked how I was, and then kissed me. It was even better than the last one. I wish it had lasted a bit longer. But when it ended I was pretty surprised. Sir ordered Big Pup to kiss me. It was great. I haven’t kissed many guys (Big Pup makes #4), but I think his kisses seem a lot softer/more gentle than the other guys I've kissed. Sir said he thinks we kiss the same way. Anyway, Sir got up and Big Pup and I stayed there for a while, relaxing, talking, and even kissing a bit more. We got up to join the rest of their friends, since the place was closing soon. They did a final song, and everybody went to grab their stuff or change. I grabbed my other shirt and then sat inside the entrance with Big Pup, waiting for everyone else. He invited me to go with everyone to the bathhouse the next day, but I wasn't sure I’d be able to go. My flight was for 10 in the morning, so I’d have to try and change it in order to go.

We all left together, and I was invited to go back to the hotel with them. I really, REALLY wanted to go and spend more time with them, so I decided to go. More in part three. :-)