My Dad Instilled In Me From A Young Age That Crying Was Bad And Manipulative. He Says I Would Cry As

My dad instilled in me from a young age that crying was bad and manipulative. He says I would cry as a child to get what I wanted, but of course I don't remember that.

I do remember being stoic, being "so grown up" from a young age. Not crying for years. Only allowing myself to cry when watching movies of listening to music. Crying in the shower, crying in secret.

Even now, after learning how to cry again, and my dad admitting crying is okay and encouraging it, I still feel guilty when I cry around someone.

Ex my bf and i got into a fight, our first real fight, and I started crying.

When we get inti little disagreements I often feel guilty for wanting to do something different from him, and we're both pretty hard headed so it takes convincing for one of us to concede. I usually end up crying and trying to hide it bc I don't want to manipulate him, but in the end I always feel guilty.

We work things out whether I cry or not, and I don't get my way every time, or even half the time, so I know logically he knows I'm not manipulating him, but I still feel guilty

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I love this hairstyle so much, ever since I saw Scott pilgrim I've been in love with this hair!!! Mines reallu short tho so I can't do this style lol

the fact that people can see me makes me kinda uncomfortable not gonna lie

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