I Keep Asking Myself, When Did I Take A Wrong Turn? When Did I Become Who I Am?

I keep asking myself, when did I take a wrong turn? When did I become who I am?

I grew up in a good family, I was brought up independently and could always count on my family. I have both feet on the ground and don't have to be afraid of the future.

But what went wrong?

When did I start struggling so much to pretend to be strong in front of my friends and family, when all I'm doing is breaking inside?

I don't know what I've done and why I'm no longer allowed happiness and contentment.

i feel like the only option i have left is to give up..

No matter how much I struggle psychologically to survive every day, I would never have the courage to end my life under my own power.

Where did we go wrong?

And then they will leave you ..

“How do you know someone is for you? They bring peace you haven’t found anywhere else. They support your effort. They water your growth.”

— Unknown

Will I ever be happy again?