Thinking About When I First Decided To Write Fanfiction, Without Really Understanding The Community.

Thinking about when I first decided to write fanfiction, without really understanding the community. I was dead set on only writing if it was some new idea that hadn't been touched on yet.

The first thing I wrote? A coffee shop AU.

I always read through Wayward Son as fast as possible because if I focus for even a second on Baz and Simon’s relationship I start crying. They feel as if they don’t deserve each other and can’t talk it out. Simon is too insecure to talk about any of it. It’s sad and too relatable and the traumatic things that they’ve gone through are mentioned so briefly it’s easier to ignore them. It’s such a good book, and one of my favorites of all time.

I’m mad about how accurate this is.

Smith Smith-Richards gives off youth pastor energy

WIP Wednesday

This is from my current WIP and it's double anything I've written before. It was supposed to be short and sweet but adding two more POV's and a habit of using drawn out metaphors made it longer.

Basically, it's looking at Simon and Baz's relationships from the perspective of places and things in Watford (think the Crucible, Shepard's truck etc.) with Simon and Baz chiming in with their thoughts and feelings on the events through the series and after.

Anyways, this is an excerpt from the POV of the Catacombs from about 5th year:

Baz would always come down and escape. He’d hunt the ever present rats, wander around for hours, and spend time at his mother’s grave. From what I picked of his conversations with Natasha, it was hard for him. His father pointedly ignored who he was. Baz felt that he had to be the absolute best to meet his mother’s standards. He was a vampire, not even a human, and he had no support when he was at Watford. Hence waking in the small hours of the morning to hunt rats in the dark to stay alive.

I was struggling so much on my current WIP, until I decided that the only way to fix it was to write at least 2 times more words, making the timelines and POV's hopelessly intertwined. This is my longest piece by far, and I haven't even reached halfway through the rewrite. Fml.

Part two:

It’s totally normal to know exactly the features your sworn enemy has.

Simon didn’t hesitate for a second to help Baz. And he was absolutely willing to skip all lessons to find Natasha’s killer.

I’m talking about both of them. Simon talks about how Baz has ‘a face for pouting’ and Baz goes on a full monologue on how basic and blue Simon’s eyes are.

The Mage is spending so much time searching for an answer to Simon. But Simon doesn’t need an answer, he just needs someone to love him.

I’m rereading Carry On for the 4th time in less than 18 months and here are some things that stuck out to me. I was reading around a friend and they were so suprised about how into the story I was. But it’s Simon and Baz and Penelope and Agatha. How could you read it and not be fully engrossed? Anyways:

Simon and Agatha didn’t believe for a second Simon would live past this year. That’s why she broke up with him, because she thought she was dating a future funeral.

Penelope is in denial about Simon’s fragility. She believes that Simon would manage to live through the Humdrum if she also fights hard enough.

Simon- Baz’s-eyes-are-the-shade-of-gray-that-happens-when-you-mix-dark-blue-and-dark-green-together Snow.

Simon is obsessed with Baz because Baz represents what the Mage is fighting against. Dark creatures, the Old Families, power. He notices all that as a rebellion.

Also, head over heels in love. But we’ll get to that.

The Mage did everything to fix Simon. Instead of, I don’t know, being a good dad, he became headmaster, did away with the oral exams, reformed the entry so anyone (Simon) could enter, made Simon his heir, gave Simon his sword and wand, started raiding homes for artifacts to fix a child HE broke and made numpties kidnap Baz, and tried to get Simon away from Watford so Simon wouldn’t hear any visitings. Just keep the kid around, man.

Fuck the Mage.

Rainbow putting 3 straight chapters of Baz’s POV is such a good move. She was obsessed with him, Simon was too, and the world deserved as much Baz as we could get.

I will forever love how the millisecond we get Baz reflecting on himself, we get the line “And I’m hopelessly in love with him”.