Look! I Found Myself

Look! I found myself

But also

So at the end I still don't know who I am.....

I feel like you two would have better fun without me

Again

Asking me to join you had any purpose?

Except from making me feel like a burden

No ?

Why I am not surprised?

Tell me

Why it doesn't surprise me anymore?

Oh wait

I know

Because it's not the first time you treat me like that !

I was the second option now and ever

I know

So please stop being nice to me if you don't actually mean it

My "dad" made me feel awful this morning

And after that he acted so surprised

And later my "mum" said she suspects that I want to do something....and by something she meant kill myself

I mean she's not so wrong but yet wrong

It's not like I am preparing something but I am thinking about that every day

Reblog if..

● your parents called you fat

● your brother/sister called you fat

● your friends called you fat

● you called yourself fat

● a stranger called you fat

It's fun to have ed friend

I have one

Why is that fun ?

Because we hype eachother

We remind ourselves that we have a goal

And for me it helps me to keep motivation for not eating or eating less

You should find someone like that

So today I've been at little competition that took place in my stable (I wasn't a participant)

And I got kicked by a horse in my hand

And my emotions after that were literally like that

And after I told my trainer about that "those plates" fell on the ground and shattered in million pieces

I've been crying for like 20 minutes

I felt bad about me crying, I felt weak, useless

I wanted to be buried alive that moment

My hand is okay btw....just swollen and bruised but fine