GHOST

GHOST

Chapter 19

I can feel it in my bones that it was too early. It should be illegal to wake up this early. Those animals out there should have a shut off button or atleast be gracicious enough to let me sleep until the afternoon. “Javi?” I looked over hoping to snuggle into him for some warmth but his side of the bed was cold. The bathroom door is wide open with the lights turned off. I look over to the balcony and find him leaning against the railings and of course, with a cigarette in hand. I get up throwing on my clothes quickly on knowing it was colder in the mornings. “Have you ever tried quitting?” He turns with a smile and a shake of his head follows.

“Goodmorning sunshine” He pulls me against him giving me a side hug. I snuggle up against him, wrapping my arms around his waist. “Does it bother you?” He simply asks after placing a kiss on my head.

“Yes. It's a love and hate thing. Everytime I smell it, it reminds me of my father or the fairs in my childhood” It probably wasn’t good inhaling or loving the smell but whatever. “He never smoked infront of us but the smell always lingered, even after a shower” I feel Javiers tighten. “Although I wouldn’t see it I knew he would smoke atleast 2 everyday and so sometimes hearing my mother argue about how it wasn’t good for your health well,” That meant I could have a short time with my father. “I couldn’t say anything to him, thankfully he is still alive and well” I didn’t see Javier dispose of the cigarette but I knew he didn’t have it in hand when both hands moved to cup my face.

“This will be my last one” He places a small kiss on my lips.

“Javier I didn’t-”

“I know” He gives me another kiss. I couldn’t help but smile a bit. “Mi princesa shouldn’t have to ask” I roll my eyes with a laugh.

“That's so stupid” I hit his chest jokenly.

“It's not stupid” He pulls me closer to my face. “Either way I was planning to quit” His face inches closer, hovering over mine. “You were my incentive”

“Yeah?” I whisper, holding on to his shirt.

“Mhm” He nods. We probably looked stupid with a grin on our face looking at eachother in such a way.

“How about we play a game” I pull my face an inch away so I don’t get tempted to just give into those brown puppy dog eyes. I move my hands and down his chest.

“Listening” He smiles.

“If I smell a cigarette on you,” I pause as one hand makes its way under his shirt. “If I see you with one,” The other hand moves under. “If I see you near one,” I unbuckle his belt. His grasp on my face loosened. “If I hear you snuck one,” His belt loose and his zipper down I sneak my hand in.

“Fuck” He hissed. His head falls against my shoulder. His body twisted a bit to cover my actions from who? I don’t know, it was an empty field with animals. My hand starts to tease his tip already spilling with precum. His hand grip my hips pulling me closer.

“No more fun time” He quiets his moan as my grip lowers. “No more kisses” His whines sounded like he was a teenager getting touched for the first time. Like he didn’t wet his dick less than 12 hours ago. “But if you hold out” My hands come out and I lick my palm going straight back to give him attention.

“y/n” His voice low, barely above a whisper. I cradle his head with my other hand, playing with his hair in the process. My hands moving with speed his pants allowed me to, but it seemed to be enough for Javier.

“You don’t even have to ask for my promission” He grunts. His grip on my hips trying to crush me. I knew I was teasing him but I wasn’t joking. I would allow Javier to do unimaginable things to me whenever he wanted to but that's because I trust him and he would never do anything I wouldn’t be okay with. My hands speed up. His pants against my ear.

“I don’t want to cum in my jeans like a 14 year old kid” He kisses my neck. “I want to know what your tongue feels like choking on my cock” He made my knees buckle in 2 seconds. He continued to kiss me but his breath got caught when I felt him twitch in my hand. “No wait” He groans. I smile, pulling him into a kiss. He desperately held on to me, pouring all his noises into my mouth.

“Javier?” Our bodies move away in a hurry. Thankfully like I said, his body covered our actions. If people were looking up to the balcony they would see just two people kissing with their hands wrapped around eachother. I hear Javier clear his throat and I could start feeling my cheeks turn red. I look over and see an older guy.

“Goodmorning Pops” Javiers looks over to me and smiles. “This is y/n” He says softly. I wave over.

“Nice to meet you” A big smile appears on his face from down below.

“Canijo” The older gentleman whispers, shaking his head. “Nice to meet you mija” He sends a smile before looking over to Javier. “You and I will have a talk later, I taught you better than this” I look over seeing Javier with slump shoulders. “Come have breakfast” He smiled at both of us. “It's his teenage years all over again” It seemed he wanted to keep that to himself as he made his way into the house but we heard that. I turn to look at Javier whose smile disappeared.

“Do you think we have 5 minutes?” I look up hopeful, which I respond with an eyeroll and walk into his room again. “Come on! I am going to die if-” I shook my head and decided to cut him off.

“So what did he mean by, his teenage years all over again?. Were you the one who sneaked girls into his room and paraded them in the mornings?” I was praying for a no. When I didn’t hear an answer I turned to look over at Javier. I raised my brows seeing him only staring back at me.

“Are you jealous?” Of course he would try to turn the conversation to favor him. I roll my eyes once more and turn to finish looking presentable.

“That was years ago, unless you plan on sneaking another girl here-” A hand grips my waist turning me around to be pushed between his dresser and him.

“It wasn’t as many girls you may be picturing” My head twisted a bit wondering if he would continue. He softly exhaled and continued, “It was only one and it wasn’t a one time thing” Now I was beyond intrigued. “She became my fiance at one point” Shocked. It was the only words I could think of to describe my state. “We were young and things got in the way” He spoke like it was instructions on how to cook an egg, quick and simple.

“You can’t just spill something like that and just leave me hanging” I hit his chest. “What was her name? How old were you guys? How did she look?” I see him close his eyes trying to fight himself. “How many times did yall do it on the bed? Wait!, did yall do it in the bathroom?” I gasp jokenly, “Against this dresser?” I pushed myself off but I was against it in a quick second. His grasp on my hip pushed me harsher.

“Her name was Lorraine,” He whispered. I look up, his eyes intensely looking at mine. “I can’t remember where we did it” His tone lowered. “The only thing I remember is you on my bed” His face moves closer but to the side of my face. He places a kiss and another moving lower towards my neck. “How I want to remember you in the shower” I close my eyes. His breath was hot,traveling further down. “On the countertop” He moves my shirt to reveal my shoulder. “On this dresser” Slowly I came back to life. I felt his hand circling my back. His pelvis rubbing against my stomach and his lips which already left marks on my neck was currently leaving some on my shoulder.

“Javi” I pull on his shirt trying to grip something for stability.

“Mi amor?” He pulls back and I groan, already missing his attention. “Years ago my horny teenage self would stop at nothing to have you in his bed” I chuckle.

“I can always count on you being romantic” I laugh, shaking my head. My laugh quiets down as a small smile is on his face.

“I just want you to know that it was the past” He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into a hug. “My whole existence is stained with you. My past nor my future matters to me because I am stuck in the present with you” That tugged on my heart strings.

“Javier Pena” I smile looking up. “I don’t care what happened back then” I move my hands to grip his face. “As long as you stay here with me” Before he could answer a soft knock interrupted us.

“Breakfast is ready! Hurry up you two” We looked at eachother and smiled.

“Coming Pops!” Javier answers. He looks down, stealing a kiss before enterwining our hand and making our way out his room to the kitchen. I was always able to control myself, but that was when I was in charge of a minimal situation. This was not the case here. This was huge, I had never met someone's parents. We didn’t even know what we were. I know I'm not a little kid but having been caught in someone's bedroom by their parents as an adult is worse. I have never done such a thing.

“I have coffee and conchitas in that bag” he points out to the table. “Bacon and sausages will be out in a second” I thank him before he heads back into the kitchen. I guess Javier read my body and noticed I was stressing.

“Baby?” I felt a tug on my hand which guided me towards the table to sit down. “Do you feel okay?” I look over trying to calm myself down

“Yeah” I cleared my throat making sure I was okay in the chair. “I just havent’ been in this situation before” It was his turn for his eyebrows to furrow.

“What? Like having breakfast with someone?” I look over and roll my eyes.

“No, I havent met someone's parents or have had breakfast or any kind of meal with one. I have been caught with someone's son in their bedroom! What could he be thinking of me” I looked over freaked out but a stupid grin appeared on his face.

“You’ve never met a boyfriend’s parents before? Never sneaked into their bedrooms?” I give him an, are you stupid look? Do I look like the kind of girl who would? Well now it was a different story, I was older but that still didn’t make it okay.

“I’ve never had a boyfriend before let alone try to do these sort of things” I hear a gasp from Javier.

“So?” I look over to see him scooting closer. “You mean am your-?” His stupid grin was just waiting for my answer to grow bigger. Like a medal of ownership.

“Technically no” Grin disappeared. “You haven’t asked me properly or even taken me on a date” I shrug, turning my attention to the older gentleman who walked with a plate of bacon and sausage.

“So tell me,” He starts to speak as he settles down. “Javier told me about you but I still have questions” I give him a gentle smile. I look over to Javier who looks embarrassed. I held back the big smile, Javier spoke to me to his father.

“What do you want to know Mr. Pena?”

“Please, call me Chucho” He smiles as he passes me a cup of coffee. “So you are mexican?” I nod

“From Veracruz”

“Beautiful place” I agree. After my other grandmother died there was no use to visit

anymore but as a child I remember the bright pink roses in her garden and how wonderful the people were there. “But your family lives here?”

“Yes. I don’t have a huge family so most of them stay in a communal farm made up of a couple houses”

“Where?”

“Pops” Javier shakes his head.

“Right, I am sorry I asked” I gave him a smile. “Javier tells me you have many talents” I heard a sneaker from Javier who covered it with a slight cough. “Do you mind sharing?”

“Not at all” We spoke a while about my job and what I did for college. He embarrassed Javier with stories of his childhood. I enjoyed talking with someone and enjoyed it even more seeing the relationship Javier had with his dad.

“Well I better get started on my day” He stood up grabbing his hat. “Will you be staying for lunch?” I turn to Javier who slightly nods. Under the table he takes hold of my hand reassuring me it was okay.

“I have to go back to town-” I had to tell Javier why I was here and who knows how that is going to end.

“Well we would love to have you.” Chucho smiles as he excuses himself to go outside.

“What's wrong?” Javier makes me nervous hearing him acknowledge my discomfort.

“I am just going to come out and say it” I took a deep breath. “You have been called into the embassy” Javier nods

“For an evaluation, I think I can explain it to them so there's nothing to worry about” I shake my head

“It's not an evaluation. The ambassador sent me out to talk to you first.” I didn’t even know what details to give him to make it make sense without hurting his pride. “You are not going to continue with the Escobar case” Jaiver straightens up. His nose flaring trying to take it in.

“I expected that” He simply says leaning back against the chair. I grab his other hand making him look at me again.

“That's not it.” I know how much Escobar’s case took a toll on him, would he be willing to put himself in that situation? “The USA counsel wants to place you on another case”

“What? What case?”

“Once Escobar is captured, which could be any day now, they want you to lead a team to capture the Cali Cartel” His eyes fall to the ground. He was searching for an answer. “Javi?” When he dropped my hands I knew he was having a difficult time taking in the news. I took a chance and decided to invade his space. I got up and moved to sit on his lap which he surprisingly took with open arms. His arms moved slowly around me and I engulfed him in a hug around his shoulders.

“I need you to talk to me about what I am going to tell you next” His head fell against my chest. He nods without looking up from his spot. “I made a deal with the Mexican embassy who helped get to that decision” Now his eyes were plastered on mine. I nervously played with his hair. “As an agreement whether you take the position or not I have to take mine”

“What position?”

“Before I worked for the Embassy directly looking for people I had another job.” How do I even start? “I started off as an intel person. I went into bars, clubs, and even joined girls on the street to get information.” His eyes widened. “I never had to do anything else other than listen” I grab his face hoping to ease the thought that may be forming in his mind. “It got to the point where I was in deep in the Cartel”

“How deep?” He took my hands knowing it was a defense machinism.

“Deep enough to be considered family” Of course that wasn’t the worst part. “I was young so it was easy to lead the guy I was involved with into a trap and when he fell, the rest fell with him”

“So you are going to go undercover again?” Kind of.

“I can’t tell you much about it other than that I will be using an old member to create a new group. That group will infiltrate a cartel,”

“And then?” He spoke harsher

“I don’t know Javi. The goal is to capture or threaten them enough to weaken them”

“What happened to moving to Colombia together?”

“Javi” I cup his face pulling him into a kiss. “I think we are in the right time to do this” It pained me to say but it was the best for us both. “I think you are going to take the job and I have to take mine. Either way I have to do it and I know you wouldn’t move with me because you are a man who can’t stay still and would hate seeing the Cali Cartel winning”

“We made it work before” I smiled knowing that was not true. He took it hasrsher than I did at the time. I opened my mouth to talk but was interrupted with Javiers father walking in. Javiers face was filled with thoughts. Like millions of dots were trying to connect to make it work.

“Javier, I need you to-” Javier suddenly removes me from his lap to stand. He takes hold of my hand and walks over to the door.

“Sorry Pops, I have to do something important first” I tried to hold myself back knowing he wasn’t thinking straight.

“Wha?” Chucho asked as he walked after us. I was asking the same thing, what was Javier doing?

“I need the keys to the truck” Javier stops turning to his father.

“Javier?” I moved infront of him before he took another step. He looked down at me and then at his father.

“I am taking her on a date” He announced. He lifted his arm catching the keys in a quick move. I look over to Chucho who had a smile filled with pride. I didn’t have time to think when Javier pulled me to the truck and into the passenger seat. “Do you have your passport?”

“What do I need-?”

“Answer me woman?” He closes the door pulling my head closer to his through the window. I looked for answers in his eyes since he wasn’t going to tell me anything even if I ask. His eyes were soft. No anger nor confusion. I think about the man infront of me, it was a man I could trust, my Javi.

“Yes” He plants a kiss on my lips before running around the truck to get in. He put the vehicle in drive and we were on our way. I looked over to him and I couldn’t help but smile. “Javi?” I grip his hand to make him aware I wanted to talk. “Are you okay?” A smile appeared as he shook his head. He moved our hands to place a kiss on mine.

“I am taking you on a forever date” I laugh a bit. I have never seen Javier this way. “A date you will definitely say yes too” I looked into his eyes and knew I would definitely say yes to the date.

Chapter 20

GHOST

Chapter 18

I had everything I needed to find Pena. The address of the house he was staying in and what time he usually leaves and comes back. The name and ages of everyone around him. Rodrigez didn’t mess around when it came to details. I was currently standing outside the house. It was getting dark and I didn’t know if to come now or later but then I saw a figure on a window.

Tall figure leaning on the balcony railings. The only light in view was the faint light of the cigarette in hand. It had to be Javier. I felt like a stalker but I couldn’t help the slight amusement it caused me to sneak up to the door. I carefully hold myself up and start climbing once I see him walk inside. I start to think about what I should say to him. I haven’t spoken to Murphy in about a week and I got news from Rodriguez he probably would have a hard time with. Maybe I should have waited until morning, called him and set a time and place to meet. I look inside once I settle myself on the balcony floor. The faint light from the bathroom lights his tan skin as he walks around taking off his shirt and grabbing some other clothing from his dresser. I wait until he walks into the bathroom before messing around with his door. “Have to show you how to use a lock Pena” I whispered to myself when I realized the door was unlocked. I don’t close it all the way as I make my way inside since it was already making too much noise opening it. I hear the sound of the water running from the sink. A quick cough before footsteps become louder. I stay near a corner hoping the light from outside wouldn’t give me away. I wonder as I see him turn off the bathroom light and fall back to his bed how he became an agent. I waste no time taking quiet steps towards his bed. I could make his figure out. He was spread out in the middle of the bed. Arms under his head and his legs are intertwined with another. His eyes must be closed because his head doesn’t move as I walk around to the other side of the bed. I can call myself a creep now. I loved to watch him like this. The only noise being the faint sound of his breathing. It calmed me down to now he was okay and safe. I lean over his figure and make out his face in the darkness. Unable to hold enough strength to just hoover I place a kiss onto his lips.

“What the he-”

“Javier!” I groan. The first thing I felt was the heavy weight ontop of me. “It's me” I roll him off.

“How did you get in here?!” He turned on his light and my eyes were slow to adjust. I lift my head a bit not really wanting or having the strength to get up. “Shit” Javier's eyes turn to the soft sound of knocking on his bedroom door.

“Javier is everything alright? I heard a loud thump” It was a man's voice.

“Yeah, tripped” He looks over quickly coming to my aid and lifting me up. He places me on my feet, still holding me tight. “Are you okay?” He whispers, removing the hair from my face. A slight smile placed on his face so how can I not be okay?

“Son, I know it was difficult for you today, do you want to talk about it?” It was seeing him in a new light. Here he wasn’t Agent Javier Pena from the DEA chasing around Escobar, he was Javier Pena, somebody’s son. I smile wrapping my arms around his neck.

“Am alright. Can we talk tomorrow?” I carres his face pulling my close but only to move my attention to his jaw and all the way to his neck I leave a trail of kisses.

“Okay, goodnight”

“Good-night” I pull back biting my lip. His response was shaky but I decided not to tease him about it, atleast not yet. “How are you here?” he pulls me close, grabbing onto my cheeks. His eyes scanned my face like he didn't believe it was actually me.

“Had to see you” I tried to pull him into a kiss knowing my body coouldn’t go another second without it but he pulled away from it.

“How did you know I was here?” Guessed?

“Steve” I was unsure if he would believe me. Technically it started with Steve.

“Okay, so you heard” His hands drop and he walks over to sit on his bed. I turn around nodding my head. He goes to speak but I shake my head. I come forward lifting his gaze to mine. I position myself between his legs. I couldn’t tell what he was feeling but I knew he would talk if he wanted to. Then, in a sudden movement, he reaches out and pulls me into a tight hug. I wrap my arms around his head and shoulders, holding him close as he buried his face into my chest. His shoulder slowly drifted down. As I stroke his hair, I try to comfort him with words which I am not the best in.

“I know you had your reasons Javi” I whisper. His grip tightened like if I was a sort of lifeline, an unyielding grip. “I came with some news, if you are up to it” I continued to play with his hair but the moment fell silent. Was it so hard to hold him like this forever? A moment that felt like forever, our own little world was not enough.

“No” His voice was soft. As they spoke, Javier's grip on me relaxed, his body language calming. He looks up, moving my body to turn and make my back lean against his chest. Adjust on his lap he embraces me again.

“Javi?” I grip one hand but the other is loosely trailing up and down my thigh.

“Yes amor?” He looked into my eyes once more and I decided I couldn’t ruin such a night with news that could be the worst thing he could hear or a sigh of relief. I wasn’t going to take the risk tonight.

“I need to know you are okay” I fiddled with his hand. Then I hear a low chuckle. He romoves his hand and grabs my face to pull me close.

“You don’t need to worry, I am okay” My lips part wanting to tell him, how can I not worry I-, my thoughts were cut short as his lips meet mine. It was soft and romantic. His lips moved so in sync with mine. He tightens his hold on my thigh running his fingers closer and closer to my core.

“Javi?” I moan. One hand pulling me forward to rest my forehead on his as the other one continues to roam until it slips into my pants. I close my eyes as it sends shivers down my spine.

"I've missed you so much, mi amor," he whispers, his lips tracing a fiery path up her neck. "I've missed your touch, your taste, your scent..." Is it a surprise my heart starts to race as Javier's kisses grow more insistent, his hands exploring every curve of her body. I feel myself melting into his embrace, my own desire igniting like a flame.

"Javier, we should..." she starts to say, but he silences her with a deep, passionate kiss. At the same time his fingers work my panties to the side and slips in. I moaned against his lip not remembering there was somebody in the house too.

“We should" talk, he whispers, his breath hot against her skin. "But first, I need to take care of something more pressing..." And with that, he deepens the kiss, his hand pulls me closer and without warning the other adds another finger and starts moving. My mind was screaming as my mouth held in the moans and any other noise. “You need to keep quiet baby, don’t want my dad walking in on this” His kiss trails down as I nod. Holding on but not for much longer. One hand goes to grip his neck as the other wraps around his wrist. “Fuck, I love hearing how wet you are” He moans. Fuck you Javier Pena. I throw my head back trying to grab hold of his movement.

“Javi, I can’t” My head falls to his shoulder. I bite the flesh provided and it helps muffle my scream. His fingers, although restricted by my jeans, moved perfectly without any trouble in and out of me.

“Almost there?” He teases. I shake my head, getting all the strength I had to pull away. The last experssesion on his face was shock as I stood up and walked over to turn off his lights. “Corazon?” I smile. I undress as I walk back to his bed. I stood infront of him once again as he tried to help but only roamed my exposed body until I had no clothing left. I snatch his hands away and move to lay against the headboard.

“I want to cum with your dick in me” I demand.

“Yes ma’am” I couldn’t help but giggle hearing his bed creak as he jumped on top of me. He hovers over me as he takes my legs and pulls me down to lay flat on his bed. He starts to leave kisses on my leg and slowly trails up my thigh. It felt nice but I didn’t want any role play.

“Pena if you don’t fuck me I will leave and find someone who will” I whisper scream. Suddenly his dark figure was on me again. With a swift move he pulls my legs apart and settles between them. One arm holding him up while the other moves down to remove his night pants.

“I know everyone in Laredo, If you do I will find them” He leans down to whisper in my ear. “And it won’t be pretty where they end up” Fuck, I didn’t know if it was his words are the fact that he was coating his tip with my juices, but I lost my ability to talk. My body moves against him wanting to come closer.

“My Javi” I moaned unexpectedly. His movement stopped. I can feel his gaze on me.

“Fuck” he groans and in a second he was in me. “Tell me again” He grunt pushed harder against me. “Please me amor? I need to hear your voice as I feel you cum” He whispers. How can I deny such pleas? More when he is fucking me so lovely.

“Javi, my Javi” My hands move to caress his chest until they move around his neck. I wanted him close so I pulled him down until his body was flushed against mine and my legs wrapped around his torso. His hips slow down his pace but the intensity increases. I tighten around him wanting to feel every inch, every vein, everything he was giving me. “My sweet Javi” I groan, feeling my lower stomach tighten. His face fell on the crook of my neck. Heavy breathing and panting against my ear was my new favorite melody. My hand gripped his skin trying to make the moment last. “Mine” I could hold on anylonger. His pace was death but it felt damn good. Sweet kisses on my shoulder as I came around him.

“Mi amor” He grunts as I feel him cumming. His grip tightens as he fucks me throught our orgasms.

“Holy shit! Javi” His hand quickly covers my mouth. My chest lifts, unable to contain the ecstasy feeling. My body was tingling and it continued until Javier slowly slowed down his thrust. With one last kiss on my shoulder he pulls back taking me in his arms. I lay on his chest as my hand traces circles on it. When our breath regulates is when he speaks first.

“If I am yours?,” He whispered, moving to look down at me. “Does that mean you belong to me?”I smile. One of his hands moves intertwined with mine.

“No,” I say quickly. “Not yet, but you do belong to me” I shrug like it was nothing. I was waiting to hear a smart remark but he only nodded.

“I’m okay with that” He grips my jaw and makes me look up. “You are mine in so many other ways, and you may not admit it yet but, I know the most important part is mine” He points at my chest, where my heart is. I laugh quietly.

“So corny” I pushed his hand. I try to leave to clean myself up but he pulls me back into his embrace. “Javi we made a mess” I rub my legs, unable to be comfortable.

“Fine,” he grunt, getting out of the bed. “Hurry because I need som y/n time” He stomps to the bathroom and I let out a quiet chuckle. As I hear him soak a rag I remove the bedsheets.

“Next time can you get better sheets?” I throw the percale fabric to the grown next to me. “Something like polyester or cotton. Heavy and soft” I groaned, putting on the new sheets he threw on the bed. “It's too freaking cold to be sleeping in that” I grunt.

“Yes mi amor” I didn’t notice him kneeling infront of me until he grabbed my hips and turned me to face him. “May I?” With your tongue, yes. He smiles as he guides his hand to clean my inner thigh until he is at my core. “So pretty” He whispers and I can’t help but laugh. “What? She's beautiful” He places a kiss and that was my cue to walk away.

“Can I borrow a shirt?” I continue to set the bed on the other side.

“No” I roll my eyes. I finish the bed by throwing the pillows on top. “Javi!”

“Shh-, lets go to sleep” My hands wrap around his head and start to stroke his hair. Brown and wavy. He was beautiful. He pulled us to settle in the middle of his bed. He covers us and pulls me in tighter once we settle comfortably. I look over to the balcony door that I know is still opened.

“Javi” I remove his hair from his eyes but he doesn’t make a noise to acknowledge me. “Amor” I tried to see his reaction but it was too dark. “Javier” I tried to shake him. “Pena!” I groan really trying to push him away. I know he was awake, truly ignoring me at this point. He held me tighter and his response was to hook himself on my boob. “Javi” I grip on his hair. “Fuck..” I moan trying to move for some friction. “We already broke the rule” It was a stupid rule too. Who would have thought we would last until we had a date? “Stop” I throw my head back pushing my chest closer to his mouth. His tongue moved skillfully across one to the other. Licking and tugging until he latched on and started to suck. “Javi, the door” That was my last attempt before I gave all my strength up. I grip harder and wrap my legs around him. At this point I was grinding, wanting him inside of me once more.

“It's open,” He says, pulling away.

“What the fuck Javier?!” I sit up in horror. How dare he just quit and get out of bed? I know that stupid face has a smirk. His dark figure walks and closes the door and then walks over to lock the bedroom door. He was taking his sweet time. I decide to turn around and close my eyes. How dare he do that? I was angry and upset but of course it was hard when his naked body was flushed against my back. His smooth hands creep around me pulling me close. His warm and beautiful face falling in the crook of my neck.

“Darling?” Oh and his voice. Jesus help me. I close my eyes tight not wanting to give in so quickly. “Are you mad?” No. “Want me to continue?” Yes, you piece of shit. “Are you going to keep acting like a brat?” His hand finds my breasts and starts to massage them, pinching them to finally get a reaction out of me. “Mi nina, I don’t want to go to be angry” He whispers as he places a kiss on my cheek. I move my hand to intertwine them with his.

“You had your chance now it's over” I wasn't angry. I turn my head over to capture his lips for a simple longing kiss. “Tomorrow you can make it up to me” I smile, pushing against him more.

“Yeah?” He groans, settling back behind me.

“If I give you the chance” A faint chuckle comes from him. He and I know deep down that I will surely give him a chance but we also know it won’t come easy for him.

“Am very persistent” Javier Peña sure was.

Chapter 19

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 2

“When were you going to tell us?” I turn around freighten at the voice only to see Pena standing infront of the exit door. “Were you even going to tell us that you were this involved?” He walks closer, the only light being the light of the moon coming from the windows.

“Pena,” I warned in a low tone. I look through the window discreetly noticing signs of people on the other side.

“Don’t Pena me! Answer my question” I took the rest of the steps forward to be right infront of him. I slowly roam my hands up his chest and I find his lost eyes narrowed on mine.

“People are watching from the other side. I know you have questions but you can’t come in here and put us in danger like this” His eyebrows relaxed. I don’t know if it was because of the explanation or because by this time my hands were wrapped around his neck and my body pushed against his. “I check the room regularly so it's not bugged but they can see us” I lean my face forward pulling him down towards me to make it seem like we were kissing. “I don’t need to explain anything to you but I will for the sake of you not mess this operation up for all of us” I pull his hair back earning a groan of dislike?. I smirk, pulling away. I go to the window acting as I am happy with company as I close the blinds. I turn around walking into the bathroom to get unready from the hell of the day that I just had. “How did you find me?”

“DEA, remember?” I walk out standing in front of him with my hand on my hip not fooling with his sarcasm.

“I know that stupid.” I rolled my eyes taking out my jewlery as I continued to speak to him. “The only people who know about this would never blabbed” I walk closer looking into his eyes in case he lies. “So either someone went looking into something they shouldn’t or you got really go instincts'' There goes that dumb smirk again

“Thanks for the compliment” He turns around and sits on the bed. I had turned the light on in the bathroom so it cast a light in the room but not enough to make a shadow from the inside.

“That wasn’t a compliment” I say coldly. “If you figure it out somehow, that means anyone from this side can easily look into it.” I was beyond the breakpoint of stress and this made it break somehow even more.

“I was careful. I followed you from a distance then I heard a description of a woman around this side of town.”

“From who?” I ask walking back into the bathroom with a change of clothes.

“Miguel from the bar” Of course. I turn on the water and need a much refreshing shower. “Said you go there every friday and take shots like there is no tomorrow” I smile.

“Water shots that is” I have a guy working in that bar that is not Miguel. That's where I give my daily intel. “What else did he say?”

“Not much” I looked up as I waited for the shower to heat up. I focus on the mirror and see him standing behind me as I remove my makeup. “At first I thought it was just some woman who he seemed to have a fascination with, a hooker” I rolled my eyes again. “But then he told me of a certain tattoo of hers' ' His right hand circles around my waist. His face lay gently on my shoulder to look straight into my eyes using the mirror. His fingers ghost over my shirt until he finally pulls it up to reveal the tattoo on my hip. “There is only one woman with this tattoo” A while ago he spilled coffee on my dress. I knew he did it on purpose but he denies it. He walked in on my change and happened to catch a glimpse of me without a shirt.

“Hate to ruin it for you but it's fake” I hear a quiet hmm. I focus back on him, his eyes are focused on roaming and tracing the tattoo with his finger. I would be lying if I didn’t want to relax against him. Close my eyes and just soak in his presence. I'm making myself believe it's because it's been 2 months without actual human contact. Someone that I don’t have to put my defence up with. It’s a sort of relief from the fake life I am living for god knows how long.

“Either way you choose this tattoo for a reason” He looked up with a smirk playing on his face. Truth was he was right but the tattoo had nothing to do with him. The letter J in a cursive font that fades into a life line and a heart. The only color being the red heart. The whole thing inside a picture frame with selected flowers growing on the borders. I rolled my eyes pushing him away.

“It had to be an over the top ridiculous tattoo that matches my story” I grab a towel and wrap it around my body. “I need to shower” I thought it was obvious what I wanted him to do but what could I expect?. He nods, turning around to sit on the toilet seat.

“And I want to hear more about the story behind the tattoo and your story behind disappearing for 2 months and not telling us about this” I roll my eyes once again letting out a frustrated sigh.

“Fine” I did say I was going to tell him the truth. As I begin speaking I start to undress under the towel. “Pablo is tied together with an investigation I am running. I needed all the evidence but not to take it away from you and Murphy like you accused me of” I threw my final piece of cloth on the ground. “ I can’t tell you what the investigation is about but I can tell you what I am doing here.” Which is plain simple. I get into the shower and close the curtain. I throw the towel out and get under the water. “The ambassador does know about this and thought it would be best to not get you involved. The whole thing with Pablo has taken a hit and we couldn’t risk anything going bad”

“How the hell does that help us? If we are not supposed to know about this, how do we get the information you collect?” The man is not patient enough.

“The random hits you get from locals is how. In the bar there's an intel who spreads the information and he makes sure it gets to you”

“Miguel?” I chuckle, shaking my head.

“No” He would cry with such an easy task. “You don’t need to know who he is.” I finish washing my hair and moving on to my body. The soap here sucks. “I am collecting evidence on Pablo. We couldn’t run on crooked people such as the police to tell us the truth about him. We needed trustworthy information so the ambassador brought me in”

“For how long?” That was the dreaded question I have been asking myself for the past 2 weeks.

“Another month tops” And that is what I have been telling myself for those 2 weeks so I don’t go crazy counting the seconds I have to be here.

“How are you going to get out? Is it just you and the intel? I hope you have a plan because if you are close to Pablo or any of his men you won’t be able to get out easy” I nod my head waiting for him to stop saying things I already knew. I crack the curtain open a bit to grab the towel from the floor. “They will find out and come-”

“I understand” I stand infront of him, making him look up at me. “This isn’t my first rodeo” With that I turnt to walk out of the bathroom.

“So you do have a plan?”

“Yes Pena, I have a plan” I grab my clothes and as soon as he steps out the bathroom I go back inside but stop at the entrance. “But that's none of your business” I closed the door so I could finally be in private. Knowing Pena he is going to make it his business. I need him to mess this up for us. But he is not the only one I am worried about. My undercover story would never justify this. It's not the kind of person I pretend to be. “Pena” I walk out to tell him my idea or to figure out one but now it seems we are running with mine. He probably laid back and sleep took over. I grab a throw blanket and cover him. My plan involved him being here for a couple of hours so having him asleep is perfect. I don’t have to hear him while I do some work.

So as I was currently working at the kitchen table hoping it would make time go by faster but no luck. I closed my computer taking in a deep breath. Pena was currently taking up the bottom half of the bed and I had no strength to move him and I needed to stay awake to make sure I got my plan in place. The ringing of a phone scared me. I ran quickly over and answered it. “Why haven’t you texted me? I know you have been looking for her but-”

“Murphy, I have no time. Pena will explain everything but I need you to promise me something” I look out the window hoping he wouldn’t give me hell right now

“Y/N” he said in a low tone

“This phone call is probably being traced. I need you to listen” I hide behind the blinds again. “Pena will probably want to look into what I am in. I don’t need that. I need you to promise me that neither you or him or anyone else would get involved”

“I don’t understand”

“You don’t have to. Promise me”

“I promise” . With that, I hung up the phone. I like to keep my phone calls under a minute.

“Pena” I shook him carefully. “Pena” I said his name a couple more times, losing hope. I probably needed to say it a little louder but I can’t run that risk. “Pena!” I say in a hush tone. I move to sit on the bed next to his head. I grin a bit as I place one hand covering his mouth and the other pitching his nose. I wait a couple seconds and his eyes pop open. “It's me” I grunt as he got up grabbing my hands and pinned me to the bed.

“You don’t do that” I lost count on the things he had told me I couldn’t do.

“Well you wouldn’t wake up” I moved my wrist with no luck. “Can you let go?” I narrowed my eyes but nothing.

“It's my turn to have some fun” He was currently leaning over me with his legs on the floor. But within a second he crawls up, placing one knee in the middle of my legs and the other on my right side. I tried to push myself up but his free hand pushed my hip into the mattress.

“We already had our fun” I pushed him with all the strength I had and took advantage of his confusion to get up. “They think we had our fun” I point outside. “I think I gave you enough credit. Don’t you think so?” I pick up hit jacket and throw it towards him

“Honey, I can last longer than 2 hours” He stands up with that same grin. I roll my eyes looking back at him.

“I bet you could baby” I say with a seductive voice. Once I am in front of him I run my hand up his chest without looking him in the eyes. “I bet you could make all these people in this motel jealous” I push him back as he grips both hands and kisses my wrists. That act almost made me change the direction I was pushing him towards. “I bet-” I choke on my words as I turn the door knob but not because of that. He gently places his arms around my waist and pulls me with enough strength to take my breath away. “I bet the millions of girls you brought to bed gave you enough practice” That made his smile drop. One thing, the only thing that has kept me away and awake from his charm is the fact that many women have fallen for it. But that's not all, we all know his reputation and know he makes them fall but never catches them. I played the part as I pushed him out the door but not before leaving a kiss on his cheek and smiling as I closed the door. I shake my head not wanting to think about it any longer. I had to get this job done and now with Pena involved I have to get my head in the game and be more careful. I turn off the lights and get into bed. It was 3 in the morning and sleep was the other thing keeping me sane.

Chapter 3

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 9

I decided to stay a couple of days in Cumeral. I got a phone to get in contact with Steve to make sure things were okay to come back but it was never good news. In the operation to catch Gacha alive went downhill when Pena gave orders to shoot him. It meant a huge success for Caramillo and his Searchbloc. Then of course after the new presidential candidate chose to back up extradition, Pablo attempted against his life. Causing innocent lifes to be lost in a terrible plane crash. Since then there have been two other bomb attacks around the area of Bogota. Pablo was now seen by the people as a terrorist. I needed to get back now, Pablo and his cartel were busy building the war to focus on me. Of course it still wasn’t safe to just be walking around but Noonan will get the safe place ready at the latest tomorrow. I park the car in Steve’s building but have no way to get in. Thankfully I learned useful skills. I turned around carefully picking on the lock until it opened. I did the same with Pena’s door that almost fell apart from excess pulling. For an agent who could be killed at any second, finding him spread out on the couch without flinching on the slightest move was astonishing. I dropped the keys on the counter and came around to see his eyes closed peacefully. Black casual button up coming half way. The bottom half untucked from his pants that was unzipped too. Shoes off with one leg hanging off the couch. Arms resting under his head probably after he ran it throught his hair. You could see pieces going in different directions. I had a thought run through my mind but I know it wasn’t the best. I know moving closer wasn’t the best. Leaning over him and fixing my eyes to see every detail of his face wasn’t the best. My hands unbuttoning his shirt slowly wasn’t the best. Moving my hands up his chest while my leg moves over to straddle him wasn’t the best. I hear a soft groan coming from his chest and I freeze. Seeing as his arms come loose falling to my lap unconsciously he settles back down in his sleep. His subtle hip movement caused a friction against my panties I couldn’t deny. Thankfull for the skirt I was wearing it was easy to move out the way. I started to grind and I was unable to stop on the force that kept building in my strides. I grip his big hands and place them on my breasts. How stupid do I feel grinding on a man asleep on his couch. Trying to cum solely on the contact of his jeans and as I force an unconscious man to grip my breast for more friction. The answer to that is I don’t, I feel fucking great. “Holy Fuck” I look down seeing Pena stirring awake as he moans. He takes over his hands and does his own teasing himself. I remove my hands to slowly run it up and down his chest putting more pressure on our connecting bodies. “Baby” he whines once he opens his eyes.

“Should I be worried how you so calmly woke up to this?” I hold in a moan as his cold strong hands move under my shirt to grip my skin.

“How can I be angry or deny this?” He pushes himself up removing my shirt to find no bra underneath. “Or this?” fuck. Breath cut off half way as he connects his mouth to one boob. He doesn’t kiss it or licks it, no, Javier Pena attaches himself like a leech and just starts sucking.

“Javi” I grip his head, wanting him to continue forever but of course he is such a dick and pulls away. “What the fuck?” I hit his shoulder. His face filled with that stupid grin he always carries. “Do you tease every girl like this?” he shakes his head. “Right.” I roll my eyes.

“Every girl doesn’t get a chance to wake me up like this” He wraps his arms around my waist, pulsing me closer. “Not every girl would get a chance to manipulate her way to this” I grunt, blocking his words. He removed one arm at a time that was covering my chest from him.

“You probably would let any girl do this to you aslong as you are getting some” I wasn’t angry or upset, I just didn’t want this to get up in his head.

“I remember your scent” He ignores me. He places a kiss on my cheek. “I remember the way your hands feel against mine” He goes down to place another kiss on my neck. “How your soft whines and moans sound” He moves his hand to grip on boob and places a kiss on it. “And how perfect this tits fit in my hand and how fucking great the taste” With those last words he latches on again with more force.

“Oh my god” I squeal, pulling him closer as I wrap my hands, cradling his head. He sucks and I start to grind against him faster and faster each second that goes by. I throw my head back in ecstasy. He gripped my other breast, playing and tugging. “Javi?” I look down, moving his hair out the way to see his eyes. “Can you just fuck me?” I don’t want any more foreplay or words to be exchanged. I only want to feel him against me, inside me, and intimately. He removes himself without another word, only a nod. I move my hand downward and help him remove his pants. I look up seeing his own eyes focused on mine. The sun was going down so the yellow glow on his tan skin made this feel more like a dream. I took him in my hand. His throat letting out a grunt as an impulse thrust caused his tip to rub against my inner thigh.

“No teasing” He whines, placing both hands on my hip.

“I wasn’t planning on it” I raise my hips just enough to position him right under me. I go down slowly feeling every inch go inside me. It hurt me feeling the stretch get wider and wider but what pretty sounds he made that distracted me.

“Querida” He whispers as I settle all the way down. My pussy tigting against him. Molding together, never wanting to let go.

“You feel so good” I grab his face bringing him in for a kiss. A slow dominating kiss. I don’t think I could ever get tired of them. “Are you going to fuck me like one of your girls?” I didn’t mind becoming one more on the list. I already had him here, with me. What use will it be remembering how many more girls he has done this with? Not when I have him here,body and soul, just like he has me.

“You will never come close to one of those girls” He grips my face. “Yes, I’ve had many but not one that holds me as tight as you” Fuck. “Not one that says my name so sweetly” His words were fuel to me. I started moving slowly, up and down. “Not one that could get me on my knees begging if she only asked” I hold in a moan. “Not one that fills all my daydreams and nights fantasies” My hips move up and down at a rapid speed. My head falls back with my eyes closed. I don’t know how I could hear his voice with the moans and whimpers coming out of me or the clapping that we cause everytime I go down. I grab on to his shoulder feeling a sheer coat of sweat. “You’re not like one of those girls” He pushes me against him, starting to kiss my chest. “Far from it” He trails his kisses up to my neck.

“Javi” I hold him closer and my pussy clenches even tighter as I feel the pressure build. “Fucking me so nicely, mi amor” I take the chance to bit into his neck earning a groan. My nails create crescent indents on his back.

“Always imagine you like this when I first saw you” He whispers into my neck and he starts to rub my back. His hips moving at an even faster pace. “Tight skirts and those blouses that you purposely don’t button all the way” Fuck I was so close. “Wondered how easy it would be to bend you over my desk and fuck you”

“Shut up” I cover his mouth slowing down our movement but slamming harder and tighter on his dick. “Baby, I need you” I pushed back, grabbing onto his face. “Inside” I leave a quick kiss on his lips. “Cum inside me” I didn’t say the word please but everybody hearing would know I was begging. He nods, wrapping his arms around my hip thrusting with more force.

“How could I deny you?” He grunts. I hold on to him as his dick goes deeper and somehow it feels tighter. All we hear is the painting of us two. The sound of clapping and my juices by us two. The feeling of us two being the only ones that matter right now.

“Javi” I moan, holding him close as I feel my high. “Fucking hell”

“That's it mi amor. Just keep taking it” I ride out my high as he continue to fuck me. As I come down I feel his cum spill in me. He doesn’t stop.

“Javi!” Insatiable for more I don’t push him away. I like the idea of him using me. His eyes clenched shut. And his hands are leaving bruises on my hip. Soon his movement slows down until we are back to the start, except this time sweaty with a mixture of us sliding down our legs to the couch.

“When?” Breathing heavily I cocked my head to the side. “When are you going to start calling me by my name when we are not alone?” I smile looking down as I trace a figure on his chest.

“If I start,” I pause, moving the trail up to his face. “All I will think about is the times we spent alone”

“That's something I can handle” I laugh pushing his shoulder playfully “Having your mind filled with images of us, like you filled mine doesn’t sound back” I roll my eyes. I didn’t have time to reply as I heard my phone ring. I go to remove myself from Javier but he pulls me down.

“Fucking hell” I groan starting to feel sore from our past actions. I give him a glare. “I need-” I grunt, not really wanting to fight. I leaned down as far as I could and picked up the phone answering it. “Hello?”

“L/N. I know you are back, I need you back in the office”. It was the ambassador. “I will send a car to pick you up-” I smack Javiers hand away as he goes to touch my breast. “Or, I know you are in Murphy's place so I can order Javier to escort you down?” With his antics I wanted the conversation to be over so I just agreed. “I will need a full-” I cover the phone glaring at the little stubborn boy infront of me.

“Can you stop for a quick second?” I groan, placing the phone back in my ear. He shakes his head and I didn’t have to ask why, I could feel it. He was getting hard again. “Okay. I will get to it”

“I will have everything prepared for you then” We say our goodbye and I hang up. I throw the phone behind him and start hiting him.

“That was the ambassador you stupid” I hear a slight laugh. “We need to head into the office”

“She wants you back soon? It's not safe yet” I roll my eyes. I hold on to his shoulder as I get up slowly, feeling like a baby deer.

“I need to go back one day, this job will never be safe” With that I go take a quick shower locking the door behind me so It wouldn’t take longer if he comes in. I leave the bathroom dressed and styled and wait for Javier to do the same. While waiting for him and as he drove me to the office I pictured a new routine. How easy this feels and it's scary. Most people who take this job realize they have nothing to lose or because they have so much to lose that they will die to protect it. Thankfully I am one of the first ones. I always thought the second group of people were stupid. It always caused trouble and heartache. But as I look to my left I realise I am becoming one of those stupid people and I don’t mind. But at the end of the day my mind wins.

Chapter 10

GHOST

Javier Pena x Reader

Chapter 8

I spent most of my day just like yesterday. Talking with Elisa and binge eating, normal things a girl does with their girlfriends. Except Elisa wasn’t a girlfriend, she was an informat. Part of the communist groups fighting for another cause. Taking her in puts at risk the job of Pena and Murphy. A girl who I am pretty sure slept with the guy I couldn’t stop thinking about. Now that it comes up in my brain I can’t stop picturing those two together. Wrapped up in his bed or even this couch. He has been inside her. His amazing tongue and I can only imagine his dick. Moaning and sweating. Great, now I am pissed. Couldn’t be angry long when a knock is heard. “It's Steve” I felt relieved.

“Hey” I furrowed my eyebrows to see Connie aswell coming through the door.

“Pena got your documents. You will be travling to Cumaral.” Elisa knew this was happening so she had her bag prepared. Steve turns over to me trying not to look so stressed but ever since I’ve known him, stress is part of his everyday look. “I got the information you needed” He lifts up a folder but quickly yanks it away. “First I need you to tell me what it is about. I didn’t look at them because I trust you but I can’t continue putting my job at risk for anyone else '' He took a quick glance down before focusing back on me. I know it was stressful worrying about Pablo and how at any second he could be a target. But having to risk his job for some information and risk being fired or seen as a traitor, well that's tough.

“Okay” I nod. He hands over the files and I motion him to follow me into the kitchen. I watch Elisa get out of the spare room but Connie calls her over. “I am part of the DEA but from Mexico. Came over to the states following a trail and it landed me in the ambassador's office. The job I was doing left me for dead so I was no longer an issue for the cartels. So we used it to our advantage.” I open up the file and see the said documents and pictures.

“So you act like some sort of ghost going in and out of undercover missions?” I nod

“Something like that. Everything from birth up to my credentials have been erased or deactivated.” I look at a confused Steve. “I don’t believe that we will ever put a stop to cartels and drugs in this world. We can capture or kill the leaders but there's always another one that follows, atleast I can save innocent people or give some families closure” I pull out a picture of girls lined up. “Melissa. 16 year old” I pointed at a girl with short black hair. “I know the rest by heart” I shake my head putting the picture back in the file. “Escobar might not had anything to do with it but his partners did”

“I think we are making a difference. Saving people aswell.” I chuckle a bit.

“Of course Steve, but you are following a rope with no end”

“So if you work as a search and rescue team” I roll my eyes knowing he was teasing. “Back then in the office you said-”

“I say a million things. Some are true and some are not. That part of the story, I don’t need to share it with you”

“She’s ready” Connie comes between us, putting a hold on the conversation because Steve’s stare wasn’t telling me we were done just yet.

“I’ll put the bag in the car” Connie nods. We walk over to Elisa who is pacing the floor by now.

“Try to stay calm. Pena got you a valid Id and soon you will be safe in Cumaral” Elisa nods, stopping her tracks and taking a deep breath.

“Thank you Connie”

“Of course,” She smiles.

“There is a recorder in the vehicle. So that means Wysession is not far behind” Steve starts pacing now.

“What are we going to do?” Steve stops and looks over at me and Connie. He takes my hand and leads me to the door.

“I know you are trying to stay low but I need your help with this and I don’t want to put Connie at risk”

“Of course. What do I have to do?” I was cursing at myself every mile that went by. Steve had the idea to trick Wysession, making him think he was traveling with Elisa but the truth was I was driving Elisa on a different route. He let me know Pena was with Carillo catching Gacha so he couldn’t help Elisa get to his contact who will keep her hidden.

“Thank you. I know this puts you at risk too” I turn over with a smile.

“Its does but I owed Steve one”

“And you care for Pena too” I shake my head ignoring her comment. “How long have you two been together or?”

“We used to work together. Acquaintance and nothing else” I say nervously fixing myself in the seat.

“Oh I just thought-, He speaks about you all the time so-, never mind” She shakes her head and turns to look outside. I didn’t want to add any more questions because it would turn into a statement and I don’t want to start an argument. Like, Didn’t you fuck him? Why would you think we were something if he messed around with you? You slept with him so you must know he doesn’t care much about womens feelings or in general after he sleeps with them. “I mean the first day I stayed over I tried to you know-” That got me twisting my neck so quickly towards her. “But he told me it was strictly information he wanted and walked back into his room locking the door” Her laugh makes me chuckle a bit. “Of course I am not begging so I didn’t make any more advancement but as we started talking he always mentioned you” Shocked was an understatement and I had mixed feelings about it.

“So you two didn’t sleep together?” Elisa laughs, shaking her head. Why didn’t he deny it when I mentioned it?

“Is that what he told you?” I shake my head.

“Well let me tell you one thing” She shifts towards me. “A guy like Javier doesn’t act obsessed with a girl but if you look up what that word mean it describes him perfectly when it comes to you” I roll my eyes shaking my head once again.

“There are plenty of guys like Javier in this world. Those bachlors who can’t hear the word no so they don’t stop until they get what they want. It's not obsessed more than it is pride. But that doesn’t stop them from jumping on the first moving things that get in their way.” I speak of him like I was spitting poison. It was what every girl in the office who slept with him described him as, who could blame them? Javier isn’t a man of one girl and I understood that when I decided to let him kiss me. When I decided to let him make me cum in his mouth. When my own body decided that if I don’t have him I can continue. It goes on beyond my morals but I prefer being dead than being one of those girls. It's just pure lust surrounding what we have, after getting it out of my system things will go back to the way they were, him working in Colombia and me in Mexico.

“Maybe, but don’t you believe in change?” I chuckle an, are you serious?. I shake my head.

“I don’t either. From experience.” She laughs. “But if you asked me, a guy who doesn’t stop talking about a girl and hasn’t brought women home or took advantage of one living there, well I’d say that's a change” Maybe but that is a big stretch for Agent Javier Pena.

Chapter 9

NOT A CHAPTER

Chapter 20:

“Are you sure about this?” I shake my head no. I am not sure about this or many other things but when I think of that one thing, it makes everything feel right. “You could always do it here at the ranch. I can tell all the workers to leave for as long as yall need” Rip bumped my shoulder with his and the glare I gave him set him back right again. “Sorry. Have to be careful with your state nowadays”

“Shut up or I am revoking your rights” he lifts his hands in defeat. “Plus it's still not set in stone until Kayce says yes” I turn around noticing Rip wasn’t following beside me anymore.

“So I am doing this for nothing?” I laugh looking at his stupid expression as he holds the last pieces I needed to finish what I had planned for Kayce.

“Your love for me should be enough” I continued walking knowing he would follow eventually. “It's not even that far away either” I roll my eyes looking at the distance. It is far but I wasn’t going to admit it knowing he would offer to ride the horse down to the water.

“You know what I just realized?” I don’t turn or respond knowing he would just continue talking. “Recently you have been letting yourself go” I stop at the remark, turning to look over at him.

“What is that supposed to mean?” My eyebrow rised and a hand on my hip.

“Not in a bad way” My head turns a little to the side still waiting for him to continue. “You came down here with a wardrobe and it has gradually changed and it's good on you” I was still waiting. “You looked great before and it was what you were used to, do you like what it is now? You used to say you would never get used to this and how it wouldn’t look good on you” ah.

“Things changed Rip” I shrug, turning around to continue walking. “I certainly never saw myself staying in a place like this. I was born in the country but my heart always belonged to the city. A place where people don’t sleep. As early as 5 in the morning people are already out and about. You don’t need cars because you turn a corner and everything you need is there. But things change. I was never afraid to get myself dirty. I had boundaries and now it has expanded. Kayce made me love this place even more and settling here is what I crave more than anything now”

“Love changes you” I burst out laughing shaking my head. “Yes, big guy. Love does change you” Beth has certainly done a number on him since they got officially together. Before he could ask I left him with a bigger question in his head. “When are you two going to get hitched?”

“That's personal” I rolled my eyes.

“Aww. Is Rip the big bad wolf getting nervous?” I chuckle setting down what I had on the floor.

“I pick my timing. It's not time yet” He lowered his voice and I nod understandingly. What Beth and Rip has gone through hasn’t been easy and now that they are together, they aren’t rushing it.

“Alright big guy. Last trip.” I smile walking back to the ranch. By the time we reached the ranch it was 10 past 6.

“I will go ahead and take the last thing there and I will be on my way”

“Thanks” I smiled heading to the main house. I walk in seeing Beth, Tate, and John sitting in the living room talking. “Hey” I smile at them before taking a seat.

“I heard you’re doing something special for my little brother” Tate stands in attendance curious when he hears his dad mentioned.

“Something like that” I smile leaning further into the seat. I didn’t tell them what I was doing purposely. “I felt like it was my turn to do something for him. I know I am no romantic but I better up my beat if I don’t want to lose him”

“Trust that boy won’t leave unless he is ripped away from you” We laugh hearing the front door open.

“Can we have a talk in my office for a minute?” I look over at John and nod. We both stand heading to his office. I look back noticing it was Kayce walkingt through the doors. I leave him with a smile before walking into John’s office and closing the door. I turn around and take a seat before eyeing the folder he was sliding across his desk.

“Can you talk to me?” When John found out about Kayce and I, it wasn’t a pretty ride. It took months before he could even turn to look at me. But of course like a true Dutton he came to find me when he needed a lawyer who knew how he liked things done. I didn’t deny him since I owned him for everything I was. I still wasn’t going to stay if he didn't do something bad against me because I am still a person. But since then we have been getting closer and closer. He leans forward resting his elbows on his desk.

“When I saw you on my land years ago I wanted to do what I do with everyone else” Get rid of them one way or another. “I wanted to, but that was until I looked into your eyes. Scared. Alone. Broken. I saw that look constantly in my kids” They have had their share of it. “When I decided to bring you in I was going to make you a cowboy but I knew with those clothes you wouldn’t last a minute” I laughed knowing he was right. “You gave so much prospect to someone who belongs in a place like this.” He stands up reaching around the desk to lean against it infront of me. “And one day when I saw you and Kayce speaking. I saw the conversation unfold and it was like seeing two old people '' I furrowed my brows unsure on where he was going with this. “I didn’t want anyone messing with his future since he left. I wanted him to learn when he decided to leave this land that he wasn’t going to get better.” Tingles in my legs start moving all over my body. “I knew you being here would change his mind” I stood up and was a little dumbfounded.

“So you paid for my schooling to teach Kayce a lesson?” This has to be a cruel skit. I don’t know why I was angry. I believe in things happening in the right time so I wasn’t angry at the missed opportunity to be with Kayce years ago, I was upset that I was part of a lesson.

“You have to understand that back then you were just a little girl who came into our lives. A chess piece” I let out a frustrated chuckle shaking my head. “Since that day I saw the attraction between you two and my eyes were blinded with anger to see Kayce just give up”

“Wasn’t that what you wanted years ago? It would have made him come to his knees and beg you to come back” I sigh letting the upsetness defuse. I go to take a seat again. “What is your point in telling me all of this?” He takes the folder and places it on my lap as he kneels infront of me.

“I wanted you to know everything. You are about to be family although I considered you family for a long time "I look up in disbelief. “I was telling the truth when I told you, you are better than this place. You were already broken and this place would finish breaking you but when I saw how Kayce helped you and how you helped him I realized you two are strong enough for eachother to stay together.” He moves to open the file and reveal papers that needed signatures. “And for it to work properly with no further headaches I need you not to be attached to us professionally.”

“You’re firing me?” I was shocked.

“I need you to make your own choice. If you want to continue with the Dutton Ranch you are more welcome but if you decide not to, you are still part of this family regardless” I smile nodding my head.

“Either way I am here to stay” I close the folder and throw it on the desk. “You will be receiving an updated contract in a couple of days. I can’t let my number 1 client go” I smile standing up.

“Send it to my lawyer” He smiled gently, motioning me to follow him to the door. He stopped me by my arm as soon as I tried to open the door. “Thank you” I only smiled at his words, nodding before I left towards the living room.

“Is everything okay?” I nod going over towards Kayce and wrapping my arms around him.

“Everything is fine.” I look outside seeing the sun setting. “But nothing will be for what I have planned if we don’t leave right now” It was already past 6 so I was running behind schedule.

“You know you can’t get rid of me right?” I nudged him a bit as we walked down the path.

“Not like I have an option now” He furrowed his brows looking confused at my comment. I hold up my hand. “I would have to return the ring and it's too pretty” I smile, grabbing onto his forearm.

“So all it took was a pretty ring” I shrug

“Yeah! You put a ring that sparkles in front of a girl and a man with pretty eyes and they would fall to their knees in a second”

“I didn’t have to put a ring in front of you to get you on your knees those other times” I turned around shocked.

“Shut up” I slap his arm pushing him away. “And for your information I wasn’t as happy those other times” I cross my arms and speed walk to get to the destination faster.

“You seemed pretty eager” I try my best not to chuckle as I feel him wrap his arms around me making us tumble a bit until he caught balance.

“Yeah well, I was pretending. It helps the moment” I look away. I hear his low chuckle and his head falls inbetween my neck. I almost melt to the touch of his lips placing careful kisses.

“Baby,We both know that is a lie but.” He grabs on to my jaw making me look at him. “If you don’t like it, I am more than happy to be the one on my knees all the time” I held on to what I could but my legs were functioning less and less as he pulled me closer.

“If you don’t stop we won’t get to the surprise” I whisper as he hover over my lips. I want him to kiss me. Just like a couple hours ago.

“Alright” He sighs. I cursed at myself. I wanted him to see the surprise I had for him but the feeling for him was stronger. “Ready?” I nodded with my eyes closed trying to take a deep breath in and suddenly those strong feelings slowly started turning to sadness. “Are you okay?” He cups my face as I try my hardest to hold in the tears. “My love, talk to me” I shake my head as I tried to speak but no words came out. I feel his arms pull me into a hug and that is when the tears start to spill. “Whatever it is we promised to talk about it and figure it out together” I feel a kiss on my head before he pulls me in closer. “If you are not up for it can we go back? I won’t be disappointed” I lift up my head to look at him shaking my head no. He goes to remove the hair that was now sticking to my face due to the tears. “You sure?” I worked too hard on this and it was something important to not due today because if I wait any longer I will die.

“Am sure” I grabbed his hand and removed myself from him and continued on walking. “Am okay” I say, feeling his eyes on me. “I don’t understand my emotions right now but I can tell you that showing you your surprise will make me feel much better” I look back sending him a smile and pull him closer so I could wrap myself in his arm.

“Baby-”

“Shh” I quickly quieted him seeing the lights lit up. Fairy light hanging around the closest trees. A blanket on the floor with pillows just like he set up for me. But with the exception of something big in the middle of the set up.

“You got me a horse?” I laugh seeing his expression. His small smile with confusion trying to be nice to me. I grab on to his hand and pull him forward. “Baby?-” I roll my eyes walking around the young horse and pull the rag around his neck so Kayce would see it. I lift my eyebrows trying to give him a hint to go on and read what it said. As he walks forward I walk around to move behind him. I wait and I wait for a good 5 minutes.

“Kayce?” The humor in his reaction soon became anxiousness. I was worried to look at what reaction he had to the words. I took a step forward but soon froze as he turned to look at me.

“You are not joking with me right?” I shake my head quickly. “Because if this is a joke, it’s one cruel one” Soon I was on the verge of crying again.

“It's not a joke Kayce” I walk forward taking his hands and placing it on my stomach. “This is real”

“A baby?” A smile finally appeared in his face allowing the stress and fear to slip right off my shoulders.

“Our baby” I smiled bigger, pulling his eyes to look at me.

“Our baby” He connects our lips for a short second before wrapping his arms around me. “You are having our baby” I laugh feeling even happier than when I found out. “A baby,” He whispers, still holding on to me. “Really?” He pushes me back carefully to look at my face.

“Yes Kayce. I confirmed it with the doctors last week”

“You went to the doctor without me?” I roll my eyes laughing at his sadness.

“I just went to confirm there was a baby. I promise, you didn’t miss anything that important. You will be invited to further doctors appointment when it really counts”

“I better be. That's my baby in there.”

“Sure is Cowboy.” I smile grabbing onto his face to pull himin for a kiss but he takes them off but doesn’t let go. He only pulls me around so my back is now leaning against his chest.

“How are you feeling about it?” I sigh. I was content. There was nobody else I would rather do this with. He is caring and respected my wishes to wait until I was ready. Truthfully when the positive test came I forgot how to breathe. Tears came and I fell to the floor crying. It felt like hours before I could stand up and take another test to make sure. Once that one came out positive too, that was when the tears were happy tears. Saying I wanted to have a baby was one thing. Knowing it actually is happening and now it's a reality, it stomps you. “I can’t lie and say I was 100 percent ready. My heart stopped and all the confusion and uncertainty came to mind.” He rubs my hands and arms listening to me. “But then I came to feel happy. I realized that I wouldn’t be doing this alone. This baby is going to have a wonderful father” I look up smiling at Kayce. “A crazy family”

“Yeah they can count on that” I laugh.

“You forgot to mention me!” We looked out to the darkness as now the sun had gone down and the only light was from the fairy lights.

“Tate?! What are you doing out here?” We looked left and right and didn’t see any small figure.

“Oops” I hold in my giggle looking over to Kayce. “Forget I am here!” That was when I lost it.

“He is part of this. I felt it wouldn’t be right without him here” I whisper. “But he was supposed to come way later when the food arrived” Kayce smiles. “You can come out bud” We turn our heads hearing footsteps.

“Did I mess it up?” He came out shyly towards us.

“Of course not” I motioned him to come closer. “Do you want to tell him about that” I point at the horse.

“Yeah!” He takes Kayces hand and starts pulling him. “I picked it all by myself for my baby!” I smiled hearing him call the baby his. Of course I had to tell Tate about the baby. Well truthfully I had no other choice. I was in the bathroom for too long. He came to check on me. He wasn’t oblivious when I told him the test was a thermostat. Since that day he has been calling the baby his baby and I couldn’t be more happy about his reaction. I smiled at Kayce who looked back as Tate ran around the horse telling him how he is going to prepare and train the horse for the baby. As Kayce turns his attention to Tate again I tell myself this is what I needed. I needed someone like Kayce to come into my life. So I could love and be loved and getting Tate is a bonus.