MY LIBRARY
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DEAR READER
Includes:
Sierra Six
Bucky Barnes
Jon Snow
Kayce Dutton
Javier Pena

SIERRA SIX
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5

MAYBE Series/ Bucky
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10

BLACK AND BLOOD/ Jon
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
A/N

HELPLESS/ Kayce Dutton
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Inserts
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14: Part 1
Chapter 15: Part 2
Chapter 16: Part 3
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20

GHOST/ Javier Pena
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Not Part Of The Story
Family

Dimitri Belikov
Shadow
Porcelain Skin
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BLACK AND BLOOD
Y/N L/N is the daughter of the Great Khal Drogo although she was raised by the king of the unknown lands. After finding out he died she travels and finds the one who caused his death. Along this adventure she meets the mother of dragons. Jon Snow. Night walkers. We will see if she really has the Dothraki blood flowing through her veins.
Chapter 7:
After the fight I stood victorious. I look down at the man and I am kind of glad he face planted right on the floor. I can see and feel the anger from some people around the arena. âI will say this once!.â I look around. âWe are not the enemy. For years my family has allowed you to live the savages life you wanted, that is until you came here to attack us in out own homeâ
âYou led our people through the posion water!â one screams
âI didnât put a knife to their throat!â not like I did this guy on the floor. âThey choose to follow me under the loyalty they had to Khal Drogo. And as you can see, I have no problem doing it the Dothraki way to earn yours!â Silence fills the room. I look over to the man who I saw standing next to their old Khal. âI will not ask you to follow me, but I will ask you to leave my home if you decide not toâ The man walks slowly to me. He drops his weapon and walks past me. The breath I was holding in release.
âAll is fair!â I turn to the man screaming at the Dothraki. âRones did it his way and most of us didnât agree. What she says is true. They allowed us to live beyond their walls and now we came and invaded their homes.â He turns to me speaking loud and clear. âYou beat the Khal and now as our tradition states you are our new one!â Dothraki scream. I donât know if it's cheer or if they are unhappy. âI will ride with you. And people who choose to join us will too until our last breath. That is when I heard the Dothraki scream. The scream that I heard years ago when Khal Drogo was made Khal. Up in my room I looked over to the distant lands. The light of their fire could be seen from miles. The loud scream sounded more like a roar. The screams were kept quiet when a real roar caught our ears. In the air you saw Drogon flying over us.
âStand down!â I screamed as the Dothraki pulled out their weapons to my family's guards. Throught the main entrance came my father walking with my brother walking next to him. The dothralo soldier who pleadge himself to me first stepped aside on my command. My father, tall and proud, stood before me and took out his knife.
âThere are many things I could say right now.â My head moves to look down at the floor. âLike how stupid you are for moving across the sea and for trusting these people who not even a day ago were planning to kill us!â That made my eyes shoot up towards him. I move forward only to be met with his knife to my ribs. âHow you decide to bleed for them when your family bled when they shouldnât have because you werenât hereâ His sharp knife pierce my clothing and the cold steel touches my skin. He moved his face closer but I know it was hard for him to talk.
âDo it. I will bleed for my mistakesâ his hand moved fast and didnât feel the sting until he had walked away from me.
âOh dear sisterâ I lay myself against Grisill. âLet's get you insideâ When I made it inside I had two things in my mind. Daenerys and the Dothraki. âI have never seen father this angry,â He says, starting to clean up my wound.
âHe has never lost a wife and a daughter before. Its grief.â
âDid you come back to stay?â I hear the hopefulness in his voice.
âI think I should let father be alone and heal without me hereâ He wasnât a man with many words but in his eyes I knew he wanted to say many things.
âThis wound has been opened plenty of times. You already have bad tissues so how about you let it heal completely this timeâ I hiss as he pats my cut over the wrap he had just finished.
âYes sir.â I got up to thank him. âI am leaving before I cause more damageâ I open the door and at the end of the hall I see Jon standing there.
âThey came and set us free from the dungeons' ' I turned to my brother, shocked. âThe mother of dragons and father has been introduced but it wasnât as pleasant as you thinkâ I laugh knowing he was just being sarcastic.
âWouldnât think any different.â My smile fades and it's like I forgot how to let words form.
âThey are okay. I sent them once we got the word that the Dothraki were close. We didnât think it was a civil meeting they wanted.â I nod. I give him a quick hug before saying goodbye. âCome back soon. The wedding canât start without you!â I wave him off as I catch up to Jon.
âCame here to try to redeem yourself?â I smiled but he was kind of awkward. His long cold gaze could be felt even if I wasnât looking at him. I kept walking waiting for him to say something but nothing came out of his lips. âWe have more Dothraki to take to Winterfell. We have ships so there will be no problem on taking them.â We come to the open common area of the castle and I see the Dothraki, Daenerys, Davos, and Jorah standing there waiting. I turn to Jon who at once glance he is walking down the stairs. I shake my head ignoring his actions. I walk down telling Daenerys everything and we start the departure.
âYou had us worried Princess,â Davos says, coming up to me on the ship. I watched the castle disappear into a small spectacle until I couldnât see it any longer. âWhen we met up to the Dothraki and didnât see you there, everyone thought the worstâ I look over at his point of view seeing Jon going into his cabin.
âIt was short notice. I told Greyworm to inform you on my whereabouts''
âYes. He spoke to Daenery and she thought it best to not tell anyone but once Jon and I found out we couldnât just not do somethingâ I see what he was saying but there was no need for that. âStragic wise, the unsullied and dothraki follow your lead and yes you put Greyworm to command but what if he was killed? Who would they follow then?â
âMy people are loyal. They would follow who I followâ I look over to Daenerys at the dock.
âYes. But do remember the person you follow values your stance here, they would have helped you in your causeâ With a smile he walks away. I hate this feeling. Like I was just lecsured by a parent. Like my choices werenât the right ones. Like if I needed their validation for protection who I love. Like if my death would cause a dark hole in their hearts. I turn myself towards the cabin to walk in without knocking.
âYou donât get to judge me with your eyes! I did what my heart told me. My famil-â I didnât see Jons shocked face. I was the shock one right now. I didnât see his dark eyes staring at me fiercely because my eyes were closed. The only sense I was focusing on was touch. The way one of his hands pulled me in close by the waist and the other grasped my neck. The way his fur coat and leather armour felt through my fingers as they grabbed onto his chest. But the thing that I didnât know would feel like this was his lips. The kiss wasnât rough but they felt demanding. Not filled with desire but with a soft touch. How can something so simple as just two pairs of lips meeting have a person's mind explode? I pulled back once my head got out of his warmth. I open my eyes and still wrapped in his arms I pull him closer. âI donât apologise for what I did. You had a war to fight and I knew I could win mine aloneâ He pulls back from the hug but only enough for us to come face to face again.
âBut you are not alone anymore.â I shake my head smiling. I move my hands towards his face and pull him in.
âI know.â but it's not easy. All my life I have been alone. Yes, surrounded by family and friends but alone. Too stubborn to trust someone with my family's safety. Too skeptical to think that if I took the chance to put them in harm's way they would get harmed. I couldnât let this much mind help me try to save them because they might mess up something, I prefer being the only one responsible for anything if something happened. âDonât make me promise anythingâ He closed his eyes with a smile. When he reopened them he pulled me in for a quick kiss. His eyes blew open and stepped back.
âI'm so sorry.â he turned around looking everywhere but me. âI shouldnât have kissed you. I should have known-I mean I just saw you two together-â
âShould have known what? Saw who together?â I walked up to him, taking a hold of his hand so he would turn to look at me.
âThe man you said goodbyeâ I wanted to laugh so bad but my curiosity won. I wanted to know what he was thinking.
âWhat about the man?â he looked shock at me
âHe said something about a wedding, arent you two to be wed?â I shrug letting him go.
âNot anymoreâ I kept my blank face not wanting him to catch up on me. âYou know back home a kiss is not only a kissâ I turn and take a seat on the end of the bed. âIt's an engagementâ I look up towards his face. âWe are practically married since you took my first kissâ A small smile could have been missed on his face but I knew he was spectacle of my response. He didnât say anything for a couple of minutes. I let out a sigh. âI am lying, your grace.â I laughed getting up to walk out the door but he grabbed my hand, pulling me towards him.
âYou didnât tell me who the man wasâ I laugh
âMy brother, Grisill.â he let out a small oh. My head moves a little to the right admiring him from upclose again. He was beautiful.
âWas that really your first kiss, or were you lying about that too?â I could feel the heat in my cheek as I nodded.
âYes. and donât you dare say anythingâ I was nervous when he kissed me. I didnât have any experience before him. I didnât know if I did it right or not.
âI wasnât going toâ he laughs as I playfully hit his chest. âBut you know what I was going to say?â I look up to see a grin on his face. âWe can keep practicingâ
Chapter 3:

Chapter 3
Just a couple months went by and I can safely say that I am not prone to heart attack anymore. Not funny. My body has never felt more relaxed. I open my eyes, feeling a shadow over me. âI told you only if your dyingâ I let out a groan sitting up.
âYeah well my life is in danger and I thought instead of being close to death you can help me before I get thereâ Her clothes were dirty and it seemed she was panicky.
âGet insideâ I tell her. I grab my stuff getting myself out of the sun chair I was in and into the house. âWhats going on?â I close the windows and start making coffee.
âA couple days ago I was on an assignment. One of the Sierras escaped and now the Carmicheal is doing everything to find himâ She sits down pulling out her phone. âI need you to help me look for him before they get to him first. Carmichael threaten me and I am not going down for his mistakeâ
I stir my coffee. Dark with 5 spoonfuls of sugar. âSo you need me to find him?â I sit on the chair infront of her.
âYes. Whatever he knows, Carmichael will kill to have. Whatever that might beâ Still on her phone she speaks moving her fingers quickly across the screen. âI know you left but I am here to collect the favor you oweâ I roll my eyes knowing exactly what she meant. A couple years ago before I came in for the CIA I met her. She was one of the person I didnât tell the whole truth but the only one who I trusted on helping me. She didnât asked question.
âDani.â I sit up pushing my coffee aside and taking ahold of the phone she extended to me. âAfter this I repaid my debtâ her smirk was clearly shown as she nods.
âThat is his file. He is one of the top most trained agent in the operation. After our mission he ran and I donât know why yet.âThat face. Six. âI need a location and help to capture him so I know what the hell is going on so my ass is not on the lineâ As much as I want to say no, I owe her. Just like she is afraid for her life, I was afraid for mine when she saved me. I get up and connect her phone to my computer.
âI will track down the phone he was last tracked on. If he is one of the best he will run without any technology but I can hack into the CIA system and figure out anything they might have on him.â I get up grabbing my stuff. This was the last thing I am doing when it comes to this life. After this is over, I am over for good.
âI got it. Lets goâ Once I finished everything was pulled up and she grabbed her phone making her way to the car she had outside. A couple hours later we arrived in Vienna. âSeems like Lloyd got orders to kill tooâ We got out the vehicle making our way up some stair of the building. Hearing an explosion we stayed put.
âWhos Lloyd?â She turns to me as I see dust clouding up the side of the building. I point over to the man pointing the gun and Six. âFuckâ She rushed over shooting out a dart to his leg. It made a smile seeing fall over. He deserves so much worse, but who am I to judge right?
âIt sounded like a questionâ Once I arrived next to them she already had his wrist zip tied and faceing the direction of the car. âHow did you find me?â Following closely behind but not making myself known. Last thing I want is to look at him. I know that is going to be impossible but now that Dani had what she wanted we can go to a safe place and I can leave once again. But only if things were that easy.
âHad a little helpâ He turns his head around as I stop behind the car. âGet in the trunkâ She motions it with the gun as I open it up his eyes are on me.
âNot the trunk. I could use a comfortable seatâ Before I could say anything he fell forward with the dart going straight into his leg. âCan you help me?â I grabbed a hold of him. Dani helped me place him into the back closing it. She kept on driving. It was an awkward silence.
âWhats on your mindâ I say leaning the seat back to rest my eyes.
âHow do you know him?â
âNever met him in the office. A friend of ours needed help so we worked together then, outside the field. Just a couple weeksâ
âHow long ago was this?â she started blankly at the road. Following straight to the place where I swore never to set foot in unless I needed to.
â2, 3 months agoâ She only nodded. I donât know but it got even more akwards. A couple hours go by and I turn to see the back seat kicked down.
âYou look like shitâ She speaks. I turn my eyes on the road again. Not wanting to show how much he affected me. How could he?. Damn it.
âThis is the most sleep Iâve hand in 36 hoursâ Bruise in his face. Track suit that didnât go well with him. Leg stabbed and fatigue.
âThey pulled me from the field. They think I have something to do with you and you are going to tell them that I donâtâ
âWhy do you think they are going to believe me?â
âYou are an asset. This is my career on the line.â her words stinged. His silence might seemed like he didnât care but If I learned anything from the couple weeks we were close, is that he thinks critically of everything.âWhat did you steal?â
âTechnically I didnât steal anything. Four handed it to meâ
âAnd why didnât you give it HQ?â I feel her patience breaking and his sarcasm too.
âFour gave it to meâ I almost let out a laugh but I hold it in looking out the window.
âWhat was it?â
âAn encrypted driveâ
âWhat does it have in it?â
âIts encryptedâ
âI want to see it where is it?â
âWhy should I trust you?â This going back and forth is real giving me a migraine
âBecasue I just saved your life!â
âFair pointâ He sighs. âI sent it to Margaret Cahill the U.K Agency Chiefâ I sit up removing my seat belt. My mind went blank for a second. Fuck why does everything have to haunt me.
âSeems like we are going to Pragueâ I came back to the real world feeling the car speed up. âWe get the drive and figure out what the hell is in it, use it to save my career and then you get to go home.â We drive close enough the Maggie.
âYou donât need me to help with this part. Youâre a big girl.â I say grabbing my stuff. âStop the carâ She presses on the brake pedal. I open my door as she gets out aswell. âYou can call me if youâre in trouble but I canât put myself so close to their radar, you understandâ
âI do. Iâll have you on speed dialâ she smiles and I walk away. I donât look back hearing the car drive away. I go into the nearest store and grab a phone.
âWhere can I use a computer?â
âA couple streets down you will find a public show room.â I thank the clerk and head down the street. I have to figure out what Lloyd was doing going after Six. I have never seen him going after another agent. Not creating such a chaos. Carmichael might need this bad and he is deemed to make a mistake. I need to find out what it is a finally put an end to the trickery Lloyd is into to, just like Maggie and Fitz tried to do for so long. I log into the system again. Going into any indication of Lloyd.
âBingoâ I smile. Cameras pop up. Multiple body cams. Lloyds voice could be heard. They surrounded a house, opening fire on Lloyds command. My heart sank. The next minute I hear the phone ring.
âI never wanted to betray your trustâ Tears were coming out. I watch them moving in throught the dust and damages of the building. âThey are lucky to have you. I have an envelope, you know where to find it. It is a free pass to start over with no problem, like I know you always wanted.â
âI thought you werent the sentimental typeâ I tried to be strong but I know she heard my voice break.
âGive them hell. And after you are done, go and be happyâ My eyes focus back on the cameras seeing the men standing before her and everything disconnects.
âFuck. noâ I pull out of everything rushing out the door. The dilemma was there. I could fininish what she started like I have been planning or I could walk and start the life I always wanted, like I was planning. I see swat car moving down creating chaos. âLloydâ I rush down the street going towards the rackous. Multiple guys surrounded the center plaza infront of maggies home. They were shooting at a bench. I take out my gun shooting to get close but there was to many people. âSorryâ I say to the officer down on the ground as I get into his car. âAlright you go thisâ I push the accelerator and before it could go into the statue of the man I jump out.
âHaving fun?â I cover my head feeling the assault vehicle being blown up.
âSeriously?â he looked at me while pointing over to him being handcuffed to the bench. Oh of course. I roll my eyes. I point my gun up. âWait-â
âYouâre welcomeâ I smile. He stood up grabbing my arm and pulling me out the way before a van hit the bench. We rush into the train hiding behind the some seats.
âYouâre welcomeâ
âDonât count victory yetâ I grabbed a hold of his jacket rolling us over to the next section avoiding the bullets. Straddling his hips I sit up shooting the gun men.
âI can count this as a victoryâ I roll out seeing a man rushing towards us.
âShoot at himâ I scream off, tossing my gun to hit another guy in the head.
âThats not how you use a gun!â Well no shit dumbass. The train is hit by police cars knocking us to the ground.
âIf we survive you can give me a lesson!â I get up running towards the back of the train while Six covered my back. âOur ride is hereâ Dani gets close to the train allowing me to jump and get into the passenger side. But a harsh blow to the side of a train knocks the car over.
âTake my gun!â I grab a hold of take out the swat car shooting at us
âWatch outâ I stick my head back inside embracing the force of a car hitting us on the passenger side, Making us go out of course. âStep on it!â We watch Six running on top of the train.
âHold onâ Dani said putting the car is reverese. The pain in my ribs becomes worse I closed my eyes not wanting to see the train derailing hitting the building. Suddenly the car stops and I hear her let out a sigh. âAre you okâ
âYepâ I whimper sending her a smile. I look back seeing the remains of the big building barely missing the car. The back door open and six throws himself in.
âThanksâ
âYouâre welcomeâ Dani puts the car in drive and we are off. âMaggie said you would come back. She said you always finished the jobâ I nod. To be truthful I didnât know what to say. âAre you hurt?â She looks at the rear view mirror as the car stops.
âMy ego is a little bruise but am ok.â I crack my neck trying to take the focus away from him. âI would like to repay you two one day, not that I want any harm to come to-â
âYou mention a girlâ jealousy of curse Jealousy was the first thing that hit when Dani mentioned a girl. Now is not the time, I thought to myself. âHow do we find her?â
âShe has a pacemakerâ I eyes shot open turning my whole weight to him. âLloyd had her a random as well as Fitzroyâ first Maggie now The girls?
âWait she said girl?â
He nods, sitting up right in the back seat. âClaire. Victoria is out somewhere safe. The next day after you left she escaped. Maggie helped find her and giver her a new life. The free life she always wanted. But not Claireâ
âShe could never leave Fitzroyâ I sigh looking back to the road. âGet us to a hospitalâ Dani nods, starting to drive again.
âYou donât have a handcuff key by any chance do you?â I shake my head hearing the rattle in the chain. The day became dark once we arrived in a location far away so we didn't look suspicious. The emergency room was full. Six was leaning against Dani for support trying to get into a room but were ignored. I see them walk back and I just turn around finding and employee.
âAm so sorryâ I say mistakenly walking into the nurse. âAm just in painâ I move my left hand to my rib and he shows his concern
âHow long have you been waiting?â He starts helping to a room. I grabbed his ID and unnoticed by anyone Dani grabbed it from my hand. He took me straight for some scans and the first chance I got I left. I walk out the building and cops are outside and people are scattering.
âWho throws a loaded gun?â
âI asked for a loaded gunâ I laugh seeing them argue.
âNo one throws a loaded weapon, okay?â I just shake my head at six pushing him aside from the drivers door of the police car.
âYou look like shitâ Their head turn to look at me like I had two.
âWhile you were busy with the nurse man, I got stabbed two timesâ he grunts putting his hand up so I can see the damage.
âOh poor babyâ Dani unfazed moves towards the car. âGet in the carâ I start the car and drive once Six is in. âWhere is she?â
âCroatiaâ from the rearview mirror I see him struggle to get comfortable âAlso this man attacked us and got the driveâ I look over to Dani and she only nods leaning back in her seat. âI think he is working with Lloydâ
âYou thinkâ I whisper to myself not wanting to feel irritated. I park a couple feet back from some establishments. While Dani shoots the cameras outside I break open the window of the vet place. âHereâ I thow a bottle to Six. He looks at me weirdly. âI got it from the man nurseâ he opens the painkillers and takes a few.
âI will just wrap it up and leaveâ I stand by the door waiting for him to scavenge whatever he needs.
âWhy did you go to prison?â I turn my head wanting to get an answer to.
âWhy do you ask?â
âBecasue I want to know?â He continues to grab things from the cabinet
âWill it affect if you help me or not?â
We turn to look at eachother only nodding. âMaybeâ We both say at the same time.
âFair enoughâ he sighs finally turning around. âPuppy mouth washâ He walks over to sit in a stool. I walk over quickly before he can put that on his wound. I break the lock on a cabinet and take out alchol. âYou saw me struggleâ he whispers to me as I grab some cotton and pour the alcohol straright in. âFuckâ he hisses
âYou were saying?â No matter what he said I needed to go with him to save claire. But it will answer the questions I have in my head running around.


BLACK AND BLOOD
Y/N L/N is the daughter of the Great Khal Drogo although she was raised by the king of the unknown lands. After finding out he died she travels and finds the one who caused his death. Along this adventure she meets the mother of dragons. Jon Snow. Night walkers. We will see if she really has the Dothraki blood flowing through her veins.
Chapter 5:
âLet's go!â I scream, continuing to run across the ice. The horde of undead is coming down the valley and I am not dying that way. We rush until we are stuck in the middle of the frozen lake. The horde surrounding us on the shore. The remaining of the ice still standing give way under the pressure of the undead and some fall into the cold water. The undead keep trying to come closer and each second they are closing on us.
âThoros?â I hear them behind me. Beric calls out to him as he just lays on the ground. âThoros!â I turn to see him cover Thoros with a cloak.
âI say it's one of the better ways to go.â The tall man says. Sandor. He kneels down taking his flask and drinking what was in it.
âLord of Light, show us the way. Come to us in our darkness and lead your servant into the light.â Beric speaks. Sandor moves to take another sip but his flask is ripped away from him by Jon.
âWe have to burn this body.â Jon pours the remaining liquid on Thoros body..
âAnd all the clothes behind him. Unless the Lord of Light is kind enough to send us a bit of fire.â We see Beric light his sword. âCome to us in our darkness. For the night is dark and full of terrors.â Thoros body starts to burn. Berics sword moves to another direction and we all turn. He points towards the Night King who sits on his horse at the distance. âWe kill him. He turned them all. All of them will fallâ
âYou don't understand '' Jon moved blocking Berics view.
âThe Lord brought you back, he brought me back No one else, just us. Did he do it to watch us freeze to death? I've been waiting for the end for a long time. Maybe the Lord brought me here to find it.â
âEvery Lord I've ever met it's been a cunt. Can't see why the Lord of Light should be any different.âSandor says, pushing him off. The tension lowers and now we are just stuck here. Standing in the middle of the undead, it seems like we are about to become some in a minute. Sandor hits it with a rock. Another rock is thrown and this time the jawless soldier starts to advance.
âFuckin idiotâ I move next to him warning him with my eyes
âFuck it!â Sandor screams rushing to meet the soldier. I donât know how long we have been fighting the undead but I know we werenât close to being done. I slash one man. Push another to sink into the water.
âFall back! Fall back!â I hear Jon scream
âCome on!â Tormund slashes the undead infront of me, pulling me by my hand. The brotherhood tries to form a line. Pushing back as much as they can but the undead are too much. I turn to see Tormund wrestle the soldier and as he slashes him two more knock him down again.
âFucking hellâ I rush over cutting the arms holding onto his legs trying to pull him into the water.
âNO!â is the last thing I hear when I feel a pull on my leg and the icy warm engulfs me. I canât see but I start kicking until my leg is free and I gasp for air at the surface. âDid you know it was too cold for a swim?â I roll my eyes at Tormund as he helps me up. âMove to help pull that undead captiveâ I turn and see Jon moving in further back.
âJonâ Once I reach towards the back to him there is nowhere further to move. We are cornered and all I can do is look around, the amount of soldiers is too much to take on. Our heads turn as we hear a dragon screech. We see Drogon blast the army before us wiht fire. Her other two dragons trailing behind her continued her lead. They melt the ice sinking other soldiers. Drogon lands on the ice island inviting Jon to climb onto the dragon but the dead get to us first. We hear a screech not a pleasant one. An ice spear can be seen pierced into Viserion and he rapidly falls to the ice. âEverybody hurry!â The brotherhood continues moving until they are all in the dragon.
âGet on the dragon Y/Nâ I turn to Jon and see him trying to hold back as many soldiers. âY/N! JON!â Jorahs voice screams. Jon runs towards us but is tackled by some undead.
âDaenerysâ leave! Now!â Jons body disappears underwater. I rush over taking care of some soldiers on the way to Jon. I jump into the water trying my best to feel around for him. I open my eyes and see a figure, hoping it was him. I grabbed whatever I could and swam up to the surface. âIf you could get weigh lessâ I get up on the ice but trying to pull him up is hard. I look up seeing the night king back away but as they notice my resurface some of the undead start rushing towards us. I feel a strong pull from my side and Jon is on the ice now. The man drops his hood revealing his face.
âGet him out of hereâ He helps me mount Jon on his horse then rushes me to mount.
âWho are you?â
âMy nephew never spoke of me? How sadâ He pushes me up
âWe hadnât had that much time to speak.â I reach out my hand âCome with usâ
âGo. Iâve got timeâ He slaps the horse making it get going. I see from the distance multiple soldiers surround him until I canât see his figure any longer. The horse rides towards the wall. I check my surroundings making sure no one is around. I stop the dark horse and bring Jon down.
âCome on you canât die on meâ I push on his chest and the next minute he starts coughing. âThank the godsâ my body falls back taking a deep breath. He turns around surprised to see me.
âDid you-?â I roll my eyes helping him up.
âYeah no, let's go. We are not talking hereâ We mount the horse and continue towards the wall. âA man with a hood showed up and offered his horse. He said it was your uncleâ
âBen. The last time I saw him was in castle black. Before I swore into the night watchâ I heard his sad voice. âThe last thing I heard about him was that he was lost and probably deadâ well it might be more true now. The ride was silent until we got to the wall. The man up high could be heard screaming about a rider. My head falls back onto Jon. âAre you feeling okay?â I nod lazily. Other than the fact that my body feels warm and my sides burn hotter, I am great.
âAre you?â I can feel myself smile stupidly up at him. His face looks exhausted and I was probably making it worse by leaning onto him.
âGet them downâ Davos' voice can be heard from the top of the stairs. My body is removed from the horse and brought to an unknown room. âLet's see what damage you caused to yourselfâ He removes my clothing enough to see my stomach.
âAm I going to die?â I smile but he is not amused. He removed the only wrap and prepared to clean up my wound. âSo. Did Daenerys agree to help?â
âI am pretty sure when she saw it with her two eyes it made her realize the real threat hereâ That was not my question.
âEven if the queen doesnât agree to put hold on their war?â I hiss, feeling the cold water touch my sides.
âLet's take a step at a time, we still have to give her the reason on why they shouldnât go to war yetâ I nod my head laying it back down.
âCan I close my eyes for a minute?â I hear his laugh as he continues to wrap me up. When I said a minute I didnât mean it literally. Greyworm comes in and tells us that the ship is ready to sail back. Once Davos is finished I get up and make my way to the ship. All the way I stay behind while the unsullied and the rest ride in front of me. Jon was taken asleep. He must be exhausted. âWhen we get to King's landing we will be right in the front linesâ I turned to Greyworm who stood next to me in the dock.
âWill there be a fight?â I shake my head
âNo.â I hope not. âBut we canât risk anything. My dothraki should already be in King's landing.â He nods then excusing himself. The water became turbulent but not enough to cause me fear.
âYou should get some restâ I hear Daenerys' voice to my side. âWe have a long way ahead and you need your strengthâ
âAs soon as I am done hereâ She smiles, chuckling a bit.
âThinking or looking at the view?â
âBothâ I speak plainly. Silence now fills us until she starts to speak again.
âJon has bent the knee and swore to meâ I would be lying if I said I wasnât surprised. I am guessing Tormund really got to him.
âGoodâ I didnât know what to say. I didnât want to come out as sarcastic when I said something like congratulations.
âYou should go rest, we will be reaching Kings Landing at dawnâ The sun is setting at the edge line of the water. I am sent off with a smile. I walk into the cabin on the ship.
âY/N?â A voice said while I crossed the slight open door. I walk up pushing it open to see Jon laying there. âY/Nâ his voice just above a whisper. I turn to close the door and then walk to stand beside him.
âYou donât look so good, Your Graceâ A slight smile on my face. I kneel down beside him and look into his eyes.
âWell princess you might not look as bad as I do but probably feel as exhausted as I am right nowâ My knees hit the floor and I stretch over leaning against the edge of the bed. I shake my head seeing him try to talk again. I know what he was going to say, his eyes were soft and his gaze was charming.
âYou donât have to say anything.â I move my hands to his face, caressing his features.
The scar he has is close to his eyebrow. Removing the curls that circled his face. His eyes close and I run my fingers through his eyelids paying close attention to his lashes. âI may not trust easily, but somehow I trusted you the moment you walked into Dragonstone.â My hands move to his jaw moving it to turn more towards me. âI trust in what you're fighting for.â His hand moved to caress mine. âI heard you bent the kneeâ I look down towards our hands as they move away from his face. He nods as he responds. âSeeing what you are facing I am glad. You need Daenerys help if you want to even stand a chanceâ I feel a tug on my hand. I look up and my body starts moving on its command without him saying anything. I lay beside him as his arms wrapped around me.
âLets get some sleep Princessâ He lets out a sigh covering me with some fur.
âYou need to start calling me your Knight in shining armourâ I hold in my laugh look up at him. Let's just say he wasnât amused. âYou can be the princessâ I see him react to that. He closed his eyes and I moved my focus away, the last thing I saw was his smile.
âYou can call me whatever you pleaseâ I rolled my eyes pulling in closer to him before letting my exhuastin take over.

BLACK AND BLOOD
Y/N L/N is the daughter of the Great Khal Drogo although she was raised by the king of the unknown lands. After finding out he died she travels and finds the one who caused his death. Along this adventure she meets the mother of dragons. Jon Snow. Night walkers. We will see if she really has the Dothraki blood flowing through her veins.
Chapter 3:
We come up to the royal guards trailing behind and making sure every crop and gold gets to kingslanding. âDonât let another wagon move an inch!â I scream to the Dothraki. The horses rush fastly towards the soldier standing now guard with their spears and shields. The armyâs in line as we make contact with them. Daenerys can be heard above with Drogon. His fiery breath fires from above down to her enemies. All you can hear now is our screams while we take care of the soilders and the soilders scream as the fire burns them to dust. Men on both sides are being slaughtered. A second wave of Dothraki Screamers ride in. They switch from a seated position to standing atop their saddles shooting bow and arrow. While fighting a soilder I notice Daenerys being shot at. âMalakho! Get rid of himâ I scream in Dothraki and motion to the crossbow that was being used. I moved behind him taking care of the soldiers that tried getting in his way.
âArenât you something?â His sword swings over my head and when he comes around I stop him with my arakh. Push him back, regaining my balance. I aimed towards him with force as he did the same but his only fault was that he wasnât fast enough. I look over to find Drogon on the ground. I run towards him but the flames throw me to the ground. I stand up feeling a sting on my ribs. Darn.
âNeed to get you backâ Lasdar on my people tows a horse my way and helps me on. âI will make sure the queens get back safelyâ I trust him. He hushers my horse to move. I didnât notice that the soldier made contact with me. I closed my eyes once or twice and I canât remember now where I was headed. Everything was a blurr. Maybe it was because of the loss of blood or because the night was falling and I had no way to see. I fell apart when the horse finally came to a halt.
âCouldnât go without any drama could you?â a faint smile crossed my face until blackness overtook me.
âWhy didnât you go? They would have never happened!â
âOh come on, she is old enough to take care of herself. Look! She made it back in one pieceâ
âYeah and a cut that might have cut her in two!â
âCan yall both shut upâ I groan feeling the wrap around my waist. âWhat did they say? Am I going to die?â I sit up and notice my siblings staring at me. âWhat?â
âYou are an idoit. Why did you have to go into the fight when you knew it was 10 against 1. You werenât needed thereâ I grab the first thing I could find and throw it at my brother's head.
âOut!â
âNo! You will listen to us, if father finds out you almost died-â
âI almost didn't die! It's not like this hasnât happened before. And he knows that there is that risk that I might not return homeâ
âYeah well he made us promise to make sure nothing happened if we could stop itâ of course he did. Of course he would be the one to make them promise to make sure if anyone had to die first it would be them. âSo donât put yourself in this situation if you can help it or next time take us with you!â Our attention moves to the knock on the door. âCome inâ
âI wanted to see how you were doingâ Daenerys comes in as Tyrion trails behind her. Joia and Grisill excuse themselves out.
âMuch betterâ the wound hurts but how can it not. I have lived through this pain before. âBut I am sure that wasnât the only reason you stopped by.â Donât get me wrong I understand she likes me but she has more serious things she needs to worry about other than me.
âYou saved me from Dothraki rebels and fought alongside me to take back my throne overseas. The Unsullied and Dothraki are more your people than mine. They follow your lead. I need your help with something. Jon got a message from Winterfell and the so-called Night king and his army are marching towards Eastwatch.â
âJon has agreed to bring one along for us and Cersei to see a real night walker. I will be going to King's Landing to make that agreement with my brother Jaimeâ I am waiting for Tyrion to continue or Daenerys to get to the point on how she needs my help. âDavos is coming with me and Jorah is going with Jon.â They both look at each other and somehow agree on Daenerys to tell me what the request is.
âI need you to travel back with Jon and the unsullied. Not one of our people will travel north of the wall but if he is speaking the truth and soon he becomes an allie we will atleast cast trust on the northernersâ
âWhat if the queen denies the request and attacks dragonstone when we are not here?â
âYou will see a dragon flying above and bring back the unsulliedâ This is a horrible plan. She was the first one to not want to do anything but give the dragonstone to Jon if he wasnât going to bend the knee. Now she wants to send an army to protect the north from the undead. âYou don't have to to cross the wall with them, just stay in the castle and wait for them to come backââ
ââGo to Winterfell. Keep a lookout for a dragon flying around. Wait for Jon to show back up and hope Cercesi accepts to meet, what can go wrong?ââ They both nod. The pain is bearable. I put on my clothes and pack to leave. I donât tell my siblings anything again knowing damn well if I do they would fall behind me.
ââI heard you got hurtââ I turned to look back, seeing Jon walking up to me. The men can be seen packing up the ship. Food and most importantly dragonglass.
ââYes, one of the queen's soldiers got to meââ
ââYou are going to need more than those clothes to keep you warmââ I look down at my clothes letting a chuckle escape
ââDonât worry about me, I have experience in the coldââ he walks closer to me taking hold of my hands.
ââI donât have experience or know anything about your land but I can assure you, nothing will be colder than the winters in Winterfell and you run warmââ right now i am running warm. I hope he canât see the pink shade in my cheeks, what is happening? I mean i am not stupid but there is no way this guy has made me feel more things than the man i fell in love with 5 years ago when I was 15.
ââWell I hope that the King of Winterfell is kind enough to lend me some warmthââ My eyes move from our hands to his eyes. ââI meant clothesââ I smile feeling nervous start to raise
ââOf course Princessââ
ââBegging your pardon, Your Grace. Princessââ Our hands move away hearing Davos' voice. He is alongside a young man.
ââYou survived King's Landing.ââ Jon answers. I step back but donât move far as thereâs a hold on belt. I look down noticing Jonâs hand.
ââYet againââ Davos laughs. ââYour Grace, this isâââ The young man steps forward in front of Davos extending his hand
ââIt's Gendry, Your Grace. I'm Robert Baratheon's son. Bastard son.ââ Jon shakes his hand as I just smile awkwardly just standing a little back from Jon
ââWe was meant to keep that to himself.ââ Davos tried to add but I new that didnât matter when he mention that part
ââOur fathers trusted each other. Why shouldn't we?ââ I felt as the young man Gentry was talking it was something I wasnât supposed to be here for
ââI saw your father once at Winterfell.ââ Jon keeps a straight face. I moved my hand towards his yanking my belt away but that only got him to get a hold of my hand.
ââI met yours in my shop.ââ
ââYou're a lot leaner.ââ
ââYou're a lot shorter.ââJon stops smiling and pauses a moment. Then he chuckles.
ââI grew up on stories about them.ââ It made my heart feel nice to hear Jon speak about something other than hurt about his life. I wonder if he had more nice stories to tell
ââAll I ever knew was they fought together and won. Ser Davos told me where you're going, Your Grace, and why. Let me come with you.ââ Jon looks back at me seeing my expression. This was his move. This man was asking to join him, it wouldnât affect me in any way.
ââDon't be a fool. You're not a soldier.ââ Davos butts in
ââNo, but I'm a fighter. And he won't be needing a smith with a sword like that.ââ
ââDo you know how to use one?ââ The young man shakes his head ââWell, that's a problem.ââ
ââI prefer a hammer.ââ Jon smiles at him, agreeing to have him join as a blacksmith and if he wishes,a soldier soon enough. They both walk away to the ship leaving Jon and I alone again. I take this opportunity as he stays frozen looking at the castle to move closer. I donât press myself against his back but close enough to hear his breathing.
ââIs there a reason you keep holding my hand?ââ My head now reaches up to whisper in his ear. I couldnât help but grin. I see his eyes close pushing his head back a little and taking a deep breath
ââI had to keep you close to make sure the new guy wasnât a threatââ I laugh a little. âThe mother of dragons allowed one of her advisers to come along with me, I have to do my job and keep you safeââ He turns around enterwining our hands. My breathing was unsteady now and his eyes have never looked more beautiful.
ââYou should go hold Jorah's hand too then, I can assure you he needs more protection than meââ it was his turn to laugh.
ââHumor meââ my smile fades and I back up. I let go of his hand.
âWe should get going. The faster we get there the faster we come backâ I turn around standing by the boat waiting for the rest to come. Mormont can be seen kissing Daenerys before he departs towards me. Tyrion standing beside her like always. Jon walks forward talking to her.
âGlad to see you in better shapeâ I smile at Jorah.
âMe tooâ He laughs âYou know I met your father beforeâ I give him a questioning look. âI never said anything because he asked me not to.â He turns towards me, almost casting over my body. âI was the one who delivered the message of Khals death to the castle. Khal told me to find you before he died and lead his men with Daenerys after his deathâ
âHow come I never heard about this?â anger started to raise. This would have made things simpler yet I donât know if it would have. I trust Jorah now but back then he was just a stranger. If he would have told me this I wouldnât have believed him. It would happen like it did, I came and tried to kill Daenerys until everyone including my own brother advised me against it. She told me how it happened and I choose to believe her and everyone else but yet I canât help but still not trust her.
âYour father chose it would be best. He said you always had a way with people. You always trust your gut and that somehow everythings always goes your wayâ I smile
âHe likes to say the gods are the only ones who can keep up with me. When I was younger he prayed to the gods to look after me becasue he had a feeling nobody in this lifetime could''
âHe mentioned something about your stubbornesâ yes. That is what he called all my antics. âI'm glad you chose to help Daenerys. Yes she has three dragons but she needed people like you and Tyrion beside herâ There is sadness in his voice. I know things werent as good with him and her but the only thing he wants now is for her to be happy.
âAnd your Jorah. I know she missed youâ
ââââ-Maybeââââ
Description:
You work alongside Matt and Foggy at the law firm. Of course, as one of the most successful lawyers in the city the one and only Tony Stark would recruit you. As you are trying to find a meaning of your life you find life in someone. It may be a rocky start for you two but maybe itâs worth taking.

Chapter 7:
I walked out a metal door when all the stairs were finished. Quietly I walk on the overhead squaring over the main floor. My back was backed up to the closest wall. I felt like if I just walk normally trying not to be seen or heard I would eventually fall on my face. Trying to clench the wall and feeling the cold concrete was what I needed to calm my heart down. I came this far, canât turn around now. âMaybe I should take you and with that your team will leave me aloneâ A dark voice was heard. I look over and see a tall broad shoulder man who was talking to Nat. Fuck. Her head was restless, unable to pick up her head. Both her arms are tied with chains and hanging like arag doll.
âYou killed an innocent person, you really think we will let you go that easy?â While they continued talking I walked down some stairs in the back, careful to watch if anyone else or anything else was in the room. In the back of the man who I am guessing is Kidd, there was a table. He emptied his pockets. I grab a gun hand and press it to the back of his head.
âI was wondering when you were going to show upâ He turns around to face me with an evil smile on his face. I had the gun and the upper hand but he was the one who was calm. âI did my own research on youâ Every step he takes I take a step back. âI know where you came fromâ
âShut upâ I take the gun closer to him. âYou have nothing to say to me. Let her loose '' He chuckles, turning around and before I could do anything he pulled out another gun aiming it to the cieling and taking a shot. The glass crumbles down with dirt flying everywhere. I pull on the Nats lever and cover her.
âY/N. The place is about to fall down. Take the door to your right. The yellow one! Hurry!â Maria pleas were the last thing on my mind. More dirt came down and I could hear the building crumbling over us.
âNat?â holding onto her cheeks to make her face me. Her eyes were drifting and if I let her go her body would melt. âShit. Nat. Wake upâ Fuck. I get up, placing my arms under hers, pulling her towards the door.
âI got herâ I look up and see Vision coming down. I nod. I see him carry her through the opening where everything was falling. I made sure they were gone as I ran safely past the door.
âWho has the upper hand now?â Goddamit. â I should have done some research before targeting you. I thought you were going to be a normal person who if they are threatened they would always watch over their shoulder not involve the one and only avengers team." What kind of villain circles someone as the place is about to come down on us?
âNever did plan on it but since you literally tried to bomb me in the avengers tower, you kind of did that to yourselfâ
âRight now is not the time to be a smart mouth donât you think?â He drew the gun closer to my face.
âSo let me get this straight. Your boy fell for Jessica. Jessica was killed by the 3 suspects. Then your son committed sucide so you went on to kill the three suspects and Mr. Miller to cover up your tracks of revange?â
âYesâ He huffed, taking a look behind me. He lets go of the gun and starts walking away. âNow I know they wonât stop until I am captured but if you die here and I go to court for any of that, well lets just say corpses cantâ He makes it to a covered door and locks it before I could stop him. Fuck. I run back to the yellow door and debris blocks the other side. What kind of ward, maze, or fucking warehouse is this?
âY/N?â oh thank god
âMaria? How Nat?â
âReally? You are stuck underground. Mrs. Romanoff is a couple of minutes away from
the tower. Bruce is with her.â
âThank god. Trust me I am freaking out. I donât like being stuck in place more when its
underground.â
âYou know what the good news is?â There's good news?
âMy hair still look good?â I slide down the wall ready to collapse and stay there until I die
of starvation
âI canât tell through infered but what I can tell is we have Kidd under custody and is on
the way to jailâ another sigh of relief. âAre you ready to get out of there?â Before I could answer I hear a loud explosion and the hallaway I am in starts moving.
âWhat the hell is happening?â Please let it be an earthquake and not the ground underneath me falling.
âWe cleared the ground above and now we are taking the enclosure you are in out to the surfaceâ I could hear the container I was in hit the ground. Enclosure? What the hell am I, an animal? The sound and the smell of something burning was opposite of me. The metal rectangle opening fell, the light came through and an annoying and pissed off Tony did too.
âI should have kept you in here. Cut an opening on top and fed you like a hamster. That way you couldnât get stupid ideas an act on themâ
âCan we go home now? I did enough heroing today?â I know I didnât help and probably interfered more than helping but I was tired and I hadnât had anything to eat. No one got hurt and the criminal is underarrest.
âYeah. Get in the quinjetâ I smile passing by him. Never have I been so happy to touch the ground.
âYou okay?â Steve says as I am walking up the ramp
âNext time I tell you to get out you do just as I say so I donât have to come to you and have something like this happen againâ I hear his slight chuckle. I take a seat and close my eyes.
âYou saved Nat you know?â Lazily I open my eyes and see him kneeling infront of me. âWe werenât going to give up that easily. We have gotten into bigger messes before. As for you coming over that was a bad idea yes but if you didnât we wouldn't have gotten to Nat in timeâ His smile always makes me feel better and he always knows what to say.
âAlright let's go homeâ Tony demands, walking into the quinjet. âAnd Bucky is, I would say angry at you but I donât think that begins to cover itâ Fuck! I forgot about Bucky. Fuck Bucky. Lydia. I am a horrible guardian. Leaving her alone with a guy who might have nice intentions but probably doesnât even know how to take care of a plant. All the way I had two things on my mind. One Lydia and second Nat. When I told you I ran I ran to my room. I think all I saw was tunnel vision.
âOh thank godâ I pressed a hand over my heart seeing Lydia sleep soundly on my bed. His stare was very distinctive so when I felt a stare I knew it was him. I turn around and see him leaning with his arms crossed in the door entry. âHey Tinmanâ
âAre you serious? Leaving me alone with a baby?! No. Leaving Lydia alone with me! To go to a mission that didnât include you. That you could be injured or worse, died from!â
âAm sorry I wasnât thinkingâ I walk forward tailing out the door so Lydia wouldnât wake up. I knew saying sorry was enough when his face wasnât angry but sad. âI understand-â

âYou donât understand anything! You could have died while under my protection! Lydia could have been harmed while I was with her. Goddamit!â I was looking at the ground like I was some little kid being screamed at by their parents. I didnât know what to say and I guess he didnât want to hear anything of what I was going to come up with. His footsteps moved quietly down the hall until he went into his room. The elevator dings and I see Wanda walking out.
âEverything okay?â Why did I feel a sting in my eyes? I never liked people screaming at me. But it never made tears form like this before. Not since the last time I saw my mother. âY/N you need to understand way better than the quick storyâ She is right. I donât know who Bucky is but I really do feel sorry and I have to make him believe me. âI will stay with her. Goâ
âThanks Wandaâ I walked towards the door but stopped before I could try the knob. My mind was a mess or words. Every word that I think has no meaning because I am scared it's the wrong ones to use. âBucky?â He probably hates me more than he did before now. That's why he doesnât answer the door. Even trying to take a deep breath was a mistake. My breathing was out of order now. I turn the door thanking it for being unlocked. The lights were off but the light from outside gave me enough to see the form of the bedroom. He wasnât in bed and the bathroom or closet door was wide open with the lights off. Where is he?
âNormally when people donât answer the door it is because they donât want to speak to anyoneâ Shit. I turned to the dark corner his voice was coming from.
âNormally people donât seat in dark corners in their own room with the light offâ Everystep I took towards him I had a bad idea in my head. What if it wasnât Bucky? What if it was a serial killer pretending to be him? What if it was my imagination or just a dream? What if I walk into the dark corner and get sucked in a different demination?
âFor someone who has a lot of thoughts in their brain, you canât make decisions rapidlyâ I stop immediately after bumping into him. I kneel infront of him. I donât hear him even flinch in the chair.
âTinman I came here to apologise and you are making it really hardâ Fuck I canât come up with words now and that basically in my job description. But I canât help this feeling, I donât want to hurt him or have him hate me even more becasue I donât know how to apologise to someone. I have never been the one to show emotion or love towards somebody. Maybe a hug and a smile with friends but never this. With Bucky it's like a connection and as stupid as it sounds I just crave him more than a physical way. Wanda always said I would find someone who would change my mind on belonging to someone. Having to give everything to them no matter the pain. To make myself vulnerable to them. I would tell her she was crazy. If I did find someone they wouldnât rule my life. I wouldnât be someone who would do that. I thought I was strong but with him, it just feels different. Words canât explain that. âI am not good at apologising because I donât do it oftenâ I place my hands on his knees. Why? I donât know!. His muscles tense but I canât remove them now. âYou can ask Wanda. I hardly apologise to people one because I am hardly in the wrong and two because most of the time it is something stupid. I canât even accept and thank you because I hate feeling like I have to keep up an act of being someone they like-â
âYouâre ramblingâ His voice was above a whisper and If he wouldnât have moved a little I wouldnât have quit talking to hear him talk.
âRight. Look I just want to say I am sorry for leaving Lydia with you. I should have thought it through but when I saw that the team needed help, well I bolted. I know you, Bruce, or Sam could have been of better service but it was my problem to fix. So I apologise for that. I donât know everything,â Shit. I feel a problem coming. âI just know that I am sorry for making you feel like a danger to someone.â more a baby. â I wonât do it againâ I hope he could hear my sincerity in my voice. How can he make me feel so vulnerable? Like I want to cry because I caused him some kind of pain. I met him not even a week ago. Yet he makes me feel like we have been friends for years.
