"To Be In Doubt Is A More Normal Condition Than Certainty. To Confess That You Doubt, To Admit That You

"To be in doubt is a more normal condition than certainty. To confess that you doubt, to admit that you never know for certain, is the supremely human condition; for to be able to suffer the doubt, to carry the doubt, means that one is able to carry the other side."

— C.G. Jung

Susan Nathiel, Daughters of Madness

hi, can my feelings of sudden and unexplainable guilt be linked to people being mad at me from their self made projections about me. it's like a spiritual warfare that's going on and it's because of them not me. and lot of times i also intuitively feel the need to adapt and adjust to a different me so that doesn't piss off people (who don't know me, i get projected a lot) in order to keep the peace

i have 1st house lilith, 12th house sun, pisces rising and scorpio mars in vedic

Hello,

You say sudden and unexplainable guilt... to adapt and adjust to a different me so that does not piss off people. And that people project a lot to you.

Could it be that you feel guilt because you change yourself around people? See, every situation is different and we do unconsciously adapt to the environment and mirror the feelings of other people. This is necessity of social life. But after this trip around the town, do you come back home?

Guilt is a relatable emotion and I can say I feel guilty when I do something that is not consistent with my... values. I do not have any strict written down values but when the heart says something is not right, it wants to analyze some event or interaction.

A sudden pang in the chest, a quiet voice persistently whispering at the back of our mind, we experience guilt when our actions, or deliberate lack thereof, infringe upon our personal ethical code or societal norms.- https://thisjungianlife.com/guilt/

So perhaps the guilt is invitation to build a home inside yourself, where you feel at equilibrium, peace, safe beyond the influences of other people. How a home feels just right.

There was something almost agonising about speaking and being misunderstood or found unintelligible, something that got right to the heart of all my fears about aloneness. No one will ever understand you. No one wants to hear what you say. Why can’t you fit in, why do you have to stick out so much? It wasn’t hard to see why someone in this position might come to mistrust language, doubting its ability to bridge the gap between bodies, traumatised by the revealed gulf, the potentially lethal abyss that lurks beneath each carefully proffered sentence. Dumbness in this context might be a way of evading hurt, dodging the pain of failed communication by refusing to participate in it at all. That’s how I explained my growing silence, anyway; as an aversion akin to someone wishing to avoid a repeated electric shock.

Olivia Laing, The Lonely City

Emotional turmoil that feels like motion sickness

Have you ever done something against your conscience? For eg, cheated someone who believed you to be honest. Have you ever done something that is supposed to give positive feelings but instead make you sick? For eg, giving a dance performance but feeling guilty and wrong about it.

Emotional turmoil is the downward spiral of negative emotions like guilt, shame, confusion, resentment. It may make one sick, physically sick like motion sickness. Motion sickness gives one nausea, dizziness, fatigue and vomiting sensations. It is something you understand with experience.

There are similarities in symptoms of emotional turmoil and motion sickness. Emotional turmoil usually happens because of internal spiritual or psychological conflicts. Whereas motion sickness happens while travelling via sea or car or airplane or swinging or when you run round and round.

"A man is ill, but the illness is nature's attempt to heal him." - Carl Jung, CW 10, Para 361

When one does not understand the nature of emotional turmoil, they resort to methods to numb or escape them. But there is so much potential in the turmoil for depth and inner realizations.

I don't want to call emotional turmoil as a tool for personal growth or self improvement or self actualization because I think that neither improvement nor actualization is lasting and permanent. The effects last for maybe 4/5 minutes and then emotions are back to the same behaviour as before.

Emotional turmoil, however, can be a tool for psychoanalysis and self inquiry.

Whenever we talk about emotions we symbolize them with water. Water is volatile, flowing and has a lot of power. Just like emotions are moving inside our body and hold a lot of power.

So, to realize that sickness is around the corner if you do certain behaviours can actually take you to a path that is more honest to your inner life: a path where you don't feel as sick anymore. Whenever you feel the sickness coming in, it is symptom that the path has to change a little or maybe a lot.

planets in the eighth house: 📝

last month, i ran a poll on twitter and my followers asked me to write a thread about pluto in the eighth house (8H). so i decided to make a post about every planet in the 8H:

the sun: these people can feel like they're constantly uncovering more about themselves and always going through some sort of transformation. they can really care about public judgment, but feel like they must go about life as if they are unaffected by the opinions of others. usually have a fluctuating relationship with attention

the moon: prone to bottling their emotions, but go out of their way to absorb the emotions of others. brilliant at dream magic and interpretation. they become more merciful as they experience hardship throughout their lives; compassion is very central to them. sensitive to misunderstanding and can take it personally

mercury: this placement makes for excellent actors. naturally very inquisitive and perceptive people — they have a somewhat compulsive need to understand the details of things, even if they're unimportant. can have a 'speak when spoken to' personality and are quite sensitive to body language, proxemics, etc.

venus: known to be tattoo or piercing lovers. exceptionally drawn to witchcraft and other spiritual practices. very contract-based people in the sense that they often examine things as a transaction; they don't borrow without the intention to pay back. they usually enjoy art that is disturbing or creepy to others

mars: these people can struggle with resentment and hide their anger from others to not seem explosive or uncontrolled. their appearance is often a subject of discussion or gossip due to jealousy. always develop abundant talent in what they're passionate about; they continuously seek improvement in their skills

jupiter: gifted at understanding agreements and reaching them — they are very diplomatic people. these placements particularly benefit from having an altar or praying to their spiritual guides. they have a tendency to look at all of their dreams as prophecies or messages from a divine entity

saturn: extremely selfless and humanitarian people; they can end up draining themselves because of their altruistic personality. often feel that marriage is a bit controlling or overly bureaucratic. they're regularly disappointed by elder figures and those around them with power due to their standards of maturity

uranus: have an inherent talent for capturing people's attention. though, they can have a complicated feelings about friendship and social expectations as a whole. they also have an on-and-off relationship with technology. these placements strive to make unique contributions to society and those around them

neptune: known to be smokers. particularly skilled at digging through their own emotions and understanding why they experience things the way they do. they enjoy finding meaning through suffering (much like 8H jupiters). as a consequence, they can ruminate over their sadness for a very long period of time

pluto: tend to enjoy psychology and love examining people's thought processes. pluto here can cause them to be especially private and protective over their personal lives; they really do not like feeling supervised or watched by others. have a love for thriller films and video game horror

do you have planets in your 8H ? let me know how you resonated with my interpretations !!

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