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I'm graduating from college this saturday.

so insert some sentimental dribble about these last four years being incredible and all the people that I met are amazing and I'll never forget anyone and blah blah blah.

one great thing about graduating with a degree in art: first major to receive diplomas/empty folder. I will be the 8th name called.

one not so great thing about graduating with a degree in art: what am I going to do?

I have something to admit. I am really hesitant about breaking the status quo that has been established as of late. the status quo being living with my parents and working in retail. and that hesitation, my dislike of change, is prohibiting me from making art, moving forward. why am I hesitating? nothing original. I am scared. terrified that once someone gives me a chance I'll blow it and no one will give me a second thought. I'm scared that I'm not good enough to be a real artist. I can be an art student at a small liberal art school with a very supportive team of professors surrounded by friends and people in the same situation. that is easy. this is hard.

The third pattern I've been working on. Unlike the first and second, I did use a straight edge while working on this one because I needed to grid the paper. I could have done that free handed, but I didn't want to. I'm stubborn like that. 

today was the opening for my show! it went wonderfully! now I have a lot of sleep to catch up on.

Buffy vs. The Gilmores

I have been thinking about the similarities between Gilmore Girls and Buffy the Vampire Slayer. While there are not that many, there are some striking ones that made me wonder. They didn't make me wonder very much, but nevertheless, wonder I did. Lets go through a list:

7 seasons?

check

mother and daughter with absentee father?

check - Lorelai & Rory, Joyce & Buffy

[note: pre-season 5 Buffy. Granted, the relationship between Buffy and her mom is very different than the one that Lorelai and Rory shared. Also, Christopher is more present than Buffy's dad, but the title still holds for the most part]

first three seasons about high school then off to college in the 4th?

check

drops out of college?

check - Buffy never returns, but Rory does

[side note: I never understood why Rory dropped out of Yale until I went to college and found myself seriously considering dropping out for a semester or so. I didn't, but I was this close]

sleeps with first boyfriend, which causes far more problems than it is worth?

check - Buffy sleeps with Angel, he loses his soul and almost brings about the apocalypse, after doing some other nasty stuff. Rory sleeps with Dean and they continue their affair. Even after his wife finds out. 

[note: while Rory didn't sleep with Dean until season 4 after she had dated Jess he still remains her first boyfriend]

boyfriend with bad hair during season 4 and the beginning of season 5?

check - Riley, Dean: the bad hair is self-explanatory

said bad-haired boyfriend just seems to hold protagonist back?

check - Riley feels inadequate to Buffy and her Slayer strength/powers. Dean can see that his and Rory's lives are heading in two different directions.

season 5 ends with sadness?

check - Buffy dies. Rory gets arrested and ultimately drops out of Yale for a bit [note: Rory getting arrested is not as heartbreaking as Buffy dying. But I was upset still]

dark phase for protagonist during season 6?

check - Buffy, having been ripped out of heaven by her friends, goes into a dark depression because of being alive again and no longer at peace. Rory drops out of Yale, becomes estranged from Lorelai, and joins the DAR with Emily.

relationship that began as a hook up ends badly but ultimately leads to a stronger one in season 7 but the two still do not stay together?

check - Buffy begins sleeping with Spike in season 6 when she is depressed in order to feel something and finds he is the only one he can confide in. Is it because she hates him almost as much as she hates herself? Maybe. After she ends it he tries to rape her, she stops him. He goes to Africa to get back his soul and during season 7 the two form a trusting friendship and are truly there for each other. But then he burst into flames during the season finale, saving the world. Rory and Logan start hooking up casually because Logan feels like he is not boyfriend material. They soon do enter a relationship, but a fight about Jess gets them on a break/broken up and after reconciling Rory learning that Logan slept with three of his sister's friends did not go over well. Season 7 they are back together and, while there are some rough patches, they truly seem happy. But then Logan proposes and Rory says no.

protagonist breaks up with boy who is arguably her soul mate in season 3?

check - Angel leaves Sunnydale for Los Angeles, Jess runs away. While Angel being Buffy's soul mate is arguable, anyone who questions whether or not Rory and Jess were MFEO is completely insane. I will always have a soft spot for Angel, though I do enjoy Spike.

said arguable soul mate continues to show up every once in a while, sometimes causing tension between himself and new love interest?

check - Angel ruffles Riley's feathers and in a particularly humorous exchange:

RILEY:  Sometimes things happen between exes and when I saw that he was bad-

BUFFY:  He's not bad.

RILEY:  Seriously? That's a good day? Well, there you go. Even when he's good he's all Mister...Billowy Coat, King of Pain.

Angel shows up again in season 7 and some jealously arises between him and Spike. Jess shows up in season 6 to see Rory and Logan is a jerk to him. I don't remember if he ever confronts Dean in season 4.

snarky dialogue?

check - do I need to provide examples? I don't think so.

Let me know if I missed anything.

oh. by they way, there are spoiliers in this.

keyboard malfunctions

Recently the keyboard of my macbook has been giving me great difficulty. Specifically, some of the keys have stopped working. The keys in question, chronologically as best as I can remember, are the "esc", "p", ";", ":", "/", "?", "-", "_", "\" , "|",  and "return".

All but "return" are refusing to work at all while "return" is still at the stage where it chooses when to work and malfunctions at its leisure. I've had to resort to copying and pasting whenever I've needed to use one of the keys in question. "esc", or course, has simply fallen into extinction in terms of its usefulness. I wonder which keys will become defunct next?

Has anyone else been afflicted with similar frustrations? If so, how did you fix it? I haven't found anything useful in my searches through the interwebs and I'm not really jumping at the chance to take my dilemma to the Apple Store as my warranty ran out.