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미안해 •| ᶜʰᵒᶤ ʸᵉᵒⁿʲᵘⁿ |• [ ᵖᵃʳᵗ ⁴ ] final

Mention or reference to death

Again those pain-filled cries broke through the air. And without being able to help myself, I made my way through the place to get to where they came from.

A big group of people was gathered near what seemed to be the most damaged area of the building, I approached

What was going on?

But the image that flashed in front of my eyes completely devastated my heart.

I can't tell you how sorry I am.

I tried, I tried as hard as I could.

Soobin hugged you while everyone cried inconsolably.

Your crying burned my soul, I wanted to hug you, I wanted to come back but that was the moment when I realized that it was no longer possible.

I no longer belong on that plane.

I am sorry, I love you.

This was so unfair, we had so many things left to live, so many years left to live together.

I prayed to God to let me come back to your side.

But nothing happened. Today I left you.

Everything began to look in slow motion, my vision was blurred.

What would I do now? How could this even happen?

I saw you walking away with the boys and I knew it was time. It was time for our goodbye, it was the moment to say goodbye.

Honey 미안해. I'm sorry for all those times I was a jerk and didn't know how to value you. I'm sorry for all those times I made you forget your pride so that you would forgive my bullshit, for every rant, for the fights, for each and every one of my failures. I hope someday you will forgive me, but above all I hope you never forget how much I love you and how grateful I am to you. Thank you for always being there, for supporting me and for loving me as purely as you always did.

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"The funeral ceremony for singer Choi Yeonjun who was a member of the Idol group Tomorrow x Together will be held tomorrow, October 27 this year in Seongman City, Gyeonggi Province. The ceremony will be held behind closed doors. The dear singer will be bid farewell by family members, friends and agency colleagues. However his family surprised by releasing a statement informing that MOA, the name by which the supporters of his former group are known, will be able to say goodbye to their idol before he is transferred to what will finally be his eternal resting place."

﹝---﹞

We bid you farewell amid tears and praise. A sad vibe haunts us since your goodbye. But for you we will go on, for you we will live our lives again.

Days after our sad farewell I accompanied your mother to your room in the group dormitory.

They were happy to see us and went out of their way to be kind to your mother. I am sure that for a moment she was happy again, but she still missed you.

While we were there, we had many memories of you. We laughed and talked about your habits. We laughed and had fun with the guys, because we promised ourselves not to cry for you anymore.

But in the end we ended up doing it. It was inevitable.

We found countless things in your room, letters and plushies, gifts and details, thousands of things that moa gave you and you kept with fervor.

We also found hundreds of photos of immemorial occasions. Beautiful photos of family dinners, or group outings. Photos full of feelings and love.

But when we got to It, when we found it hidden in your night table, we could not stop our endless crying.

It was still in the bag it came in and it was so beautiful.

We admired it for minutes and I really couldn't stop looking at it, it was so beautiful.

Your mom mentioned that she knew about it, but had never seen it, she knew that you wanted it to be a surprise for everyone, and that you had taken the time to make the design.

What a beautiful detail.

Knowing you, I'm sure it could have been the most beautiful and romantic proposal I could have ever seen.

And you would have gotten a yes. Yes I want to marry you.

Because it was what I wanted most in this life.

But now you are gone and I can only move forward without you in my life. To move on and get over your absence.

In tears your mom confessed to me what she knew about what you had planned;

—He mentioned that he planned to ask you in the new year or on your birthday, he had something really beautiful and romantic planned. He wanted us all to be present and make it something unmemorable for your relationship, he was a good guy, and would be a good husband—.

I couldn't say anything, I couldn't do anything but hug her, she seemed so fragile to me now and it made me want to always protect her, but I couldn't. I had to let her go at her own pace, let her take the mourning you deserve.

She left first and I feel it was mostly the fact that it hurt her to be among your stuffs and not feel your presence. But I did, I felt your presence as something warm that flooded my heart and embraced my soul. Because the fact that you are no longer here does not mean that you just left me alone, I know that you are still by my side.

When I had enough of you, when I felt that my heart was filled again with your essence, when it was time to leave the boys made me promise to come back, to visit them as much as I could, that as much as I wanted to, I would not leave them alone and aside.

Kai came up from behind everyone and with tears in his eyes he caught me in a sweet hug and with his words he made me feel the affection of a universe. I couldn't fail him, I wasn't going to leave them.

—We don't want to lose contact with you Noona, we love you and we don't want to lose you. Please keep coming back. Please remember that we are a part of Hyung just as he is a part of us—.

And I promised him, I promised him that I would come back. And I promised him that I would be there supporting them always, because as he said, they were part of you, and with them I would have the opportunity to relive that part of you that they had in them.

It wouldn't be the same, it never would be.

But just as I needed them, they were needing me, because I was a part of you too, a part that they were now going to need and I couldn't deny them.

Jun, 미안해. I'm sorry for you being gone now and all I can think about is how much I will miss you. I'm sorry for being selfish and only thinking about me. I'm sorry for not wanting to forget you and not being able to let go. But thank you for being a part of my life and teaching me everything you taught me. I will never forget how much you loved me, so please don't forget how much I was able to love you.

I will be happy, that's a promise to you.

Goodbye.

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미안해;

                  I'm sorry

What are you waiting for? — Beomgyu [ TXT ]

I keep repeating the same thing over and over in my mind. I like Her, that's all.

Voices and the sound of the television invade my room from the other side of the door.

Outside her laughter fills every corner of the house causing my heart to ache.

It hurt to see her laughing with the boys, it didn't make sense she had always been like that. And if I just liked her why did it bother me so much?

I stirred once again, unable to fall asleep. Her voice sounded loud and high quickening my heart.

I stood up tired of not being able to sleep, I didn't know what to do. Should I join them? What are they doing? I slowly opened the door to look further down the hall. I could see her profile, she was sitting right next to Yeonjun. She was laughing and joking with him as he held her lightly by the shoulders. I felt my soul leaving my body.

I couldn't go on like this, I had to do something.

I had to figure out my feelings.

I left the room ready to go to the kitchen, from there I would have a better view of where she was. I had to keep an eye on her, I couldn't let her be with him.

It's not like Yeonjun hyung was a bad person, but she didn't have to be in his arms. I stared at them as my mind traveled elsewhere. I didn't just like her, she was the person I wanted to be with the most. I wanted her to be mine, I wanted her to just spend time with me.

A hand waved in front of my eyes snapping me out of my trance.

— It's Something wrong Gyu?.— And there she was, as beautiful as ever, I blushed as I shook my head slightly.—Are you sure?

She tilted her head a little bit trying to look me in the eyes. I nodded running away from her gaze.

I stood up and tried to move away from her, but she was quicker and grabbed my hand.

—Why are you running away from me? Lately you don't spend time with me and you always run away from me. I don't understand what's going on... Did I do something to upset you?— Her voice was a whisper, one full of feelings that attacked my heart, I couldn't leave her there. I couldn't leave and run away from her again.

I turned and looked her straight in the eyes, I didn't know how to do it. Did I say it all at once? Did I just say it? Nerves were beginning to flood my being. I couldn't do it, I couldn't.

I tried to turn around again but her words left me frozen.

—Is it 'cause you've realized that I like you? Is that why you're running away from me? I know we are friends, but I couldn't control my feelings, I'm really sorry if that causes you problems—. Her voice was getting lower and lower as she spoke, it became a whisper. She was going to cry.

My movements were fast, I brought her to me in an embrace, I leaned my head against hers while I gave small caresses to her hair. I was an asshole, she liked me, she liked me. God how could I not have noticed.

—Did you really like me?—. A silly question, but I wanted to confirm it, I wanted to hear it one more time.

—Don't make me repeat it Beomgyu—. I pulled her a little away from me to see her face, she was red as a little tomato and she was trying to hide her eyes from me. I laughed, she was so cute.

—I like you too, I like you a lot, but I couldn't decipher my feelings, I was confused and I moved away from you. I had no idea that you felt the same way I did.—

—Then what are you waiting for?—. I looked at her without understanding, she laughed while her cheeks filled with a crimson pink, she had blushed. I was about to tell her how cute she was when she caught my lips in a kiss, it had to be hard for her, she was on her tiptoes, with her arms around my neck. But to me it was the most tender act in the world. She really was the person I wanted by my side.

Playing with fire Park Chanyeol / X-EXO Chanyeøl

* gif not mine *

I thought it would be a quiet day, but nothing had been like that since I discovered his existence.

Chanyeol was worried but most of all angry and this guy appeared everywhere we went.

Chanyeol's mood changed as soon as I saw him, he looked annoyed and uncomfortable whenever he was near or around us.

I didn't want to add to that, so I never mentioned to him that I had discovered this guy following me, watching from afar what I was doing, among other things.

I wasn't afraid of him, I was very intrigued. Where did he come from? What was he looking for?

×××

The day I found him outside my apartment, injured and almost unconscious it was impossible for me to ignore him, for me it was like turning my back on Chanyeol and that caused my heart to ache.

With the little strength he had left and my help he was able to make it to the sofa in the living room, where he collapsed totally defeated. I felt bad for him, he looked weak and looked totally harmless.

I watched him for a few seconds before going in search of the small first aid kit. I was cleaning the wounds on his face when he suddenly opened his eyes, he watched me for a few seconds before looking around.

He seemed to be looking for someone, when he saw us alone he seemed to relax and let me continue with my work.

After finishing I let him rest while I prepared dinner, my mind was in chaos, I didn't know what to do. Chanyeol would be here soon and if he was still here there could be trouble.

I wasn't afraid to be alone with him, I didn't feel that he could harm me, but I knew that Chanyeol would be totally out of his mind when he found out about this.

The jingling of keys and the small muffled noises on the other side of the door signaled his arrival, my nerves rose to an unimaginable level, there was nothing to do...

He walked straight to where I was, he greeted me with a small kiss on my forehead while he commented that he was starving, for a moment I remained static. He had passed in front of the sofa where his other self was and he didn't react to it, the nerves were still running through my being in a way that I couldn't bear any longer.

𝕔𝕙𝕠𝕚 𝕤𝕠𝕠𝕓𝕚𝕟 ;; 𝓇𝓊𝓃𝒶𝓌𝒶𝓎

Gazing at the stars next to him had never been so sad, think that this it might be the last time.

The sky looked particularly beautiful, the bright full moon illuminating our night and the stars, filling every space in that dark ocean, twinkling like beautiful sparkles that usually filled me with peace.

I turn my face to look at him. In the moonlight, he had a beautiful smile and his eyes were shining. Try on learn by heart every part of his face, so i always take it with me. I took his hand giving it a little squeeze, his smile got bigger.

—Okay, don't be afraid, we'll be together—. He gave me a small look along with a wink and then he continue to admire the stars as if nothing will happen.

—Bin, do you know what's going to happen? You haven't forgotten, have you?—.

—You must go, I know ... They're going to move but you don't want to, you don't want to go so far away.— his eyes roamed the vastness of the sky.

—I'm going to miss you, I'm really going to miss you—. My eyes struggled to don't shed those tears that flooded them, cus i don't want to cry in front of him.

—Maybe we can do something ... Should we run?—. I looked at him in surprise. What was he saying? How were we going to run away?. —We could go anywhere, nothing would stop us, not even the end of the world. You and me forever together.—

Silence reigned in the place after his last words, that was our promise, we promised to always be together, but this was bigger, my parents would not allow it.

—Soo, you know we can't fight this, my paren...—

—No, it's fine.—He interrupted me. —It doesn't have to be now, I'll go for you wherever you go, I'll be with you at any time, so when it's the time, run away with me—. His eyes sparkled with amusement.

And there i understood it, he would go wherever i was when i necessitate him. This didn't have to end here, he was willing to keep on, i also wanted do it.

—Should we run now?—. I smiled at him, Soobin nodding closer to me. He gently caressed one of my cheeks and then placed a small kiss on my forehead.

—We can run away when you want, just don't take your heart away from me, please don't move forward without me and when you need me please, call me, wherever, I swear, I'll go there—. His gaze fell on my lips and without hesitation he approached to kiss them, sealing our new promise.

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𝕙𝕖𝕖𝕤𝕖𝕦𝕟𝕘 ::

Stop it, it's not funny

𝕛𝕒𝕪 ;;

nothing yet

𝕤𝕦𝕟𝕠𝕠 ;;

My only wish

𝕛𝕦𝕟𝕘𝕨𝕠𝕟 ;;

nothing yet 

𝕟𝕚𝕜𝕚 ;;

nothing yet

𝕤𝕦𝕟𝕘𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕟 ;;

nothing yet

𝕛𝕒𝕜𝕖 ;;

𝓦𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓻𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓯𝓲𝔁 𝓲𝓽?

Daniel Ricciardo - I'm here baby

I admired the photograph in my hands sadly, feeling my eyes burn with held back tears. I couldn't cry, not in the privacy of an aeroplane. I miss her so much, I have missed her so much these last few difficult months.

My heart is full of desire to see her again, to hold her in my arms again.

—Passengers on flight 6033 France Airways to Perth, this is Captain Antoine Bélanger, I am pleased to report that we are about to land—.

The Captain's voice broke the silence that had settled on the plane, everyone began to prepare for landing, and I couldn't help but think that I was just a few minutes away from seeing her again...

When I finally arrived home, I entered in total silence, I tried to remain as quiet as possible, I wanted to surprise her.

I left my luggage at the entrance, I took one of my cameras from a cabinet nearby, I used to leave them within reach for special moments. I started to look for her around the place, it was about 10 in the morning, there were three options; 1.- In the kitchen, having breakfast. 2.- In the living room, studying. 3.- In the greenhouse.

I knew the answer very well, I was in the last one, I loved taking care of her flowers.

I approached slowly, I could see her through the glass door, surrounded by chrysanthemums, carnations and tulips. Her beauty stood out among those colours and flowers.

She looked as beautiful as I remembered, my heart fluttered. I moved forward to slowly open the door, positioned my camera at the perfect angle and pressed the little button. I captured her image, her scenery and her beauty in a picture next to a path of flowers.

The sound emitted by the camera surprised her, making her jump slightly and turn in my direction. She opened her small lips slightly as she looked at me even more surprised. She brought her hands to her face and let out a small sob. I walked over to her and took her in my arms, wrapping my arms around her with all the love I had to give.

—I'm here baby, I'm back—. Little sobs left her body as her hands clung to my back.

—Dan, I missed you so much. The time went on forever—.

—It's okay babe, now I'm finally back, I promise I won't leave you alone for a long time—.

I was promising her something that I might not be able to keep, but I couldn't think beyond the fact that I had her in my arms, I had her with me. I was back home and I didn't want to go far away again.

—I missed you, I missed you so much. Damn it Daniel, I love you so much—.

I pulled away from her and took her face in my hands, gently wiped the path of her tears and looked her straight in the eyes.

—I missed you too, you have no idea. I love you so much—. I pulled her face slightly to join our lips in a kiss, because after months we were together again.

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This is my first time posting on this platform about F1, I hope you like it; in case you like to read any of my previous posts in F1 version, you can find them on wattpad (Hira hdx).