Tag Yourself: Autumn Edition

tag yourself: autumn edition

tea or hot chocolate? cozy books or halloween movies? plaid or corduroy? foggy mornings or twinkly nights? orange or black? pumpkin or apple pie? wool or velvet? picking fruit or carving pumpkins? libraries or coffee shops? cinnamon or peanut butter? spooky or cozy halloween? candles or fairy lights?

If you’re in need of ‘faith in humanity: restored’ news, a duck suddenly appeared on a remote island in the Pacific and no one’s sure how he even made it (the closest landmass, New Zealand, is about 1700 miles away) but, like, the entire population is now devoted to the duck’s wellbeing and that’s the first duck they’ve ever seen so they named him and Googled what he eats (not bread!) and built him an artificial pond and now ‘there are concerns he might be lonely’, so there’s talk of importing other ducks to keep him company and yeah, the world is still batshit insane but isn’t this the sweetest thing?

Anyway, meet Trevor.

my aesthetic is the direct opposite of minimalism and its called clutterbitch

I was asked to rate my pain at 0 being none and 10 being “would send you to the emergency room”. When I said 10, she looked me over and then said, unbelievingly, “10, really? Right now, you could go to the emergency room for pain?”

Well, no. Because I know they can’t help me, so why would I bother? That doesn’t mean I’m not still in excruciating pain, it means the methods we had tried I already KNEW didn’t work. So it would be a waste of everyone’s time for me to be in the ED because they CAN’T or WON’T help (depending on the situation).

Also, asking about my “pain” without being specific is a useless waste of time. Do you mean in general? In regard to the thing I just had surgery for? Do you mean right this minute, when I’m sitting here not moving? Or today as a whole? As the post directly above mine points out, are we also considering my state of mind and energy reserves in this “Pain” you’re asking about? 

And beyond that, what is the point of you asking, when you clearly (based on cumulative experience) are NEVER going to mention the answer I gave again in this visit?

My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.

I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think “Well, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot more” so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that “10” is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said “6” because I thought “Well, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.”