More And Merrier

more and merrier

i never know if I should try to get people to stop beliving they can welcome tulpa, spirits, soulbonds and force themself into having "headmates", that the people in their head are disscocations of a fragmented, or a mind that never assimulated. or just tell strangers, vunerable strangers and children they can. like if I see a little kid hug their Super Mario Princess Peach doll, say "did you know she is real, and in another universe, and if you try really hard she can live in your head, and you can talk to her. and, maybe with some work, visit her in the depths of your mind!". because, people tell you this on line. I know in the past I told someone Sailor Moon's Nephrite "was real and is my spirit friend". I wasn't into thinking I can give myself plurality back then. but I had weird beliefs that I didn't come up with myself. I thought what I was doing was "soulbonding" but I seem to be mistaken. I feel bad for sending him to Denmark as if he is some trading card. but treating soulbonds like trading cards does seem to be a thing, and frowned on, in that community. am I helping people who don't have D.I.D with this? am I hurting people with D.I.D? half of that community alredy thinks it's twisted people think it is cool to "be a system" and "have headmates". that they want that life, while they struggle and barely function, so now you get , what is assumed 16 year olds, finding out these things, and people who say they were born with multiple, viable, valid, real people in their head. even to the extent those can come and go. go into other people's heads, go to other universes where they came from. and yet, they whinge about when hollywood gets "multiplicty" wrong. I can see being mad that the psyco murderer with rage issues shares a body with 30 other people being upset about. but I've seen so much nonsense from the "plural" community I don't really care what story tellers get wrong. I won't stay in my lane. if I want my personal character to of been a "headmate" and he gets pulled out, and actualized and becomes his own real person, then they have no reason to be mad, as they sit there and talk about how their dog headmate tells them they have a second body on Lippe, or how they can enter their neighboor's body when not using theirs.(as well as telling people on line they are fluent in Farsi while never hearing the languge in the first place)

ah there it is

https://jackrabbit.thecomicseries.com/comics/1#content-start I think of this time to time. fond memories. i don’t know if I had made friends on the forum. or if i went by kuroyami there, or kuwaizair. or......anything else. dark kennith....

is this masking?

I killed off parts of my self. once in middle school and I don't "sing anymore". and at age 17 because I didn't feel like I was growing up much. I invisioned invicerating a Goldilocks looking character. and then ...uh. I wasn't the same. is that ultra masking? it's just a smoldering hole. I assume one should be a little over the top when role playing, and not drull "yes I want to grab the sword, please give dice" and not, sit there and act like I'm telling a story. I couldn't do that. maybe in text, role play chat rooms.  or if I ever have to entertain a child. "i ain't playing dolls with ya kid" or, the singing, just sit on a bus and just make up lyrics on the fly. and be jovial about it. I don’t know if I have any kind of Autism. I stoped the singing because it embrassed a friend of mine.

if you say so

It is terrifying how fast time passes, and with a same old same old stagnation

I looked at old emails and I was on Lexapro and lamictal for 15 years. I rexeo went off the 10 mg Lexapro and swapped it out for 0.25 respradone( I think)I don't know how long I was on the 10 mg for Lexapro or how long I was on another doasage

I wish I could talk to that " rain crystal"( yes, the one who knew Jenova from that soul bonding fiction kin drama )woman again. Maybe I pushed her away.bibeont know. I deleted some emails and now I regret it. One I must of mentioned gender problems and I am upset I did, what did I say?

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