Look Okay I Was Sad And I Cant Write Angst But Damn You Can And You Nailed It You Ripped My Heart Out

look okay i was sad and i can’t write angst but damn you can and you nailed it you ripped my heart out and river dance stomped it to death. I loved every minute. i regret nothing

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Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Relationship: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi x MC, (Implied other pairings)

Characters: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi, Yoosung Kim, Zen/Hyun Ryu, Jumin Han MC, Unknown/Saeran Choi, Jaehee Kang

Additional Tags: 707 reset hallucinations, Angst cause why not, what's going on? you tell me

Notes: Blame @joy1579 for this

Saeyoung didn't know when it started, but it persisted. The hallucinations. The nightmares. Waking up without MC in his arms then suddenly feeling her hair tickle his neck.

It happened without warning. Watching MC kiss Jumin at the Christmas party only to blink, finding his hand casually held in her own. Blinking again for his ears to pick up her chatter about decorations instead of whispered sweet nothings and giggles under the mistletoe.

MC playing with Zen's hair in the shade of a tree. Matching sets of adoring eyes meeting then darting away at Yoosung's graduation. All this to wake up or blink or yawn and see her beside him, sense her hand idly tracing the lines of his palm, and feel shame in his veins. Shame for the jealousy her felt towards his closest friends. Shame for MC's constant reassurances that he is more than enough and not believing it himself. Shame for being unable to stop what was happening to him.

The next "reset" happened at a coffee shop where he swore Jaehee was the cashier.

Another reset, playfully dodging Zen's kisses as she booked his next audition.

Reset. An extravagant wedding. Jumin standing tall at the alter, sweeping MC into a kiss.

Reset. MC broadcasting live with his brother. Their hands clasped firmly in defiance.

MC and V... STOP!

Reset.

Reset.

Tripping down the stairs of Rika's apartment building. Chasing her. Watching her leave. Knowing this wasn't the first time.

Reset.

She pulled out her phone and opened the door, "I'll be back. I just need to save him!"

Reset.

"It's the last time. She needs my help, if not for herself then for Yoosung."

RESET.

RESET.

"Saeyoung! Are you okay?"

She hovered over him, holding onto his shoulders tightly.

Saeyoung reached up and pushed back her bangs. Tiredly searching for answers in her hazel eyes, "Please don't leave me again."

Her gaze softened, "I never left."

Saeyoung blinks. The warmth of her hand is gone. She's gone.

Reset.

the RFA bois react to empath MC

so in this context im gonna say MC is an empath in that she can feel other peoples emotions. they feel separate from hers though as she’s had a lot of time to learn to compartmentalize her emotions separate from others. she can also promote emotions to other people but not force them. think of it like the difference between being near a small campfire and wrapped up in a blanket in you house. if your feeling sad she can help you feel a little better help you not slip too far into depression but she cant solve the problem. if your surrounds by cold sadness she can be a small campfire to warm up next to until you have enough strength to make it home. some people can tell the difference between her promoted feelings and their genuine ones but its difficult and often takes a lot of practice.

I might add jaehee and Saeran a bit later. if you guys want me to leave a comment. otherwise i’ll probably move on to my next project.

oh and master list

Jumin

Curious, defensive, once he accepts it he’s thankful that you can understand his feelings so easily

-        He doesn’t believe you at first. At least he says he doesn’t but you can feel his curiosity

-        You tell him to ask any questions he has and he does

-        “Can you make people feel something?” Sorta but not really, I can promote or encourage feelings but not force them

-        “Can you tell when people lie to you?” it depends on why their lying. I can fell maliciousness and that can tell me if their lying.

-        “Have you ever used this power on me?” You can feel the anxiety behind that question. He doesn’t want his love for you to be something you created. You don’t have to be an empath or a mind reader to see that concern.

-        I can’t turn off feeling other people’s emotions that’s how I knew how much you were hurting. “you know that’s not what I’m asking MC”

-        You sigh defeated yes, but it isn’t what you think. I didn’t make you love me; I could never do that. there isn’t a point if those feeling aren’t genuine. I tried to calm you down, make you feel more safe and secure. You were so anxious I couldn’t stand to see you so hurting like that so I tried to encourage peace

-        You could feel him processing that, you watched as his grim and serious face slowly melted into the gentle smile you loved you could feel his warm and soothing love

-        can I show you something? I, I’ve never done this but I want to try to make you feel how I feel about you.so you can understand “you may”

-        you instructed him to breathe deeply. The way he did when he meditated (a hobby he had begun after reading about it in a book about Romanian vampires)

-        it’s easier if your empty and open. A blank slate to receive what I’m projecting are you ready?

-        He nods and you start. You pour every ounce of energy you have into showing him how much you love him the warmth in your face when you catch his eye, the tingles in your fingertips when he kisses you, the giddy bubbliness in your heart when he makes those silly dry jokes of his and last the hunger in your blood when he smirks at you.

-        When you stop sending him your feelings you can feel them mirrored back at you with their signature Jumin charm.

-        His face may not burn but he’s never found it difficult to fight a smile before he met you, his fingers may not tingle but they twitch with the need to hold you, and he feels that same giddy bubbliness when you laugh at his jokes, last but certainly not least you feel the aching need for you when you glance at him slyly

-        You laugh at the cosmic ridiculousness of it all, you two felt so similar yet so different two sides of the same coin.

-        You wouldn’t have it any other way

 Yoosung

Embarrassed, thinks you can mind read, tries to not think anything naughty thinks EVERYTHING naughty

-        When you tell him he turns bright red and you almost choke on the embarrassment he’s feeling

-        Why is he so embarrassed though? you don’t get it feelings aren’t embarrassing

-        “so you um you know all my thoughts?” oh okay now you get it he doesn’t understand

-        No I can’t read your thoughts I just feel your emotions, like if your happy I can feel your happiness or if your sad I can feel that sadness

-        “so um can you feel if I feel um like nope never mind no its nothing I’m going to go study”

-        Now you’re curious so while he’s studying your focused on him searching for something anything beyond the pure embarrassment he’s feeling

-        Slowly you can feel a small piece of his emotion a wavering flickering determination to hide something

-        You don’t approve of spying. But he was acting so strange you were worried. So you watched him for the rest of the evening as you scampered around doing everything in his power to stay busy and avoid you

-        You can’t keep avoiding me forever Yoosung what are you so afraid ill feel that I haven’t felt already

-        That’s when he locks eyes with you and you can feel his need ;) at the same time that his face flushes a near impossible shade of red

-        “MC can you feel when I have naughty thoughts?” He blurts clearly a little panicked

-        You can’t help but giggle because you can feel his nervousness under laden by the obvious thoughts he’s been trying not to think

-        Only when you think about them really hard *you wiggle your eyebrows at him*

-        And now you’ve broken him he’s a puddle of embarrassment on the floor you should probably stop teasing him now

-        Yoosung listen if you’re worried about me thinking your weird, or not feeling the same way myself. You don’t need to. Honestly most of the time I feel how sincerely you love me, how much you enjoy being with me, how much you cherish me. Every now and then I feel you get a little needy and to be honest, I feel the exact same way. I love you of course I feel that way sometimes.

-        Then his lips are on yours and your drowning in the intensity of his emotion

-        How can such a cute and innocent looking boy feel so, hungry. You have to admit its intoxicating

-        you hold him tight against you and try to make him feel your love the way you feel his love right now

-        you don’t know if it comes through but you figure you probably have the rest of your life to keep trying.

-        At least if the devotion and love you feel from him is really as strong as it feels

-        You know better than anyone that feelings can change in the blink of an eye

-        But you have no intention of letting this go

Saeyoung

skeptical at first, he jokes about conspiracies and magic because they seem so far fetched to me so you’ll have to prove yourself.

-        when she tells him he doesn’t believe you

-        “prove it what am feeling right now” he said teasingly

-        Skeptical? You replied blandly it didn’t take an empath to figure that one out

-        Saeyoung laughed at that and you couldn’t help the bloom off love in your heart

-        “okay that wasn’t a good example” he joked “how about this what’s Saeran feeling”

-        “emotionally exhausted, a little depressed, but mostly apathetically curious

-        ... it’s the best he’s felt in a while to be honest but it’s getting better” you said solemnly

-        You felt his heart sink the all too familiar weight of guilt he carried quickly pushed aside to focus on more pleasant things

-        “that would have been a better example if I could fact check it but it seems right” he said with a glance to his brother lost at the computer in the corner of the room

-        I can try to affect your mood would that prove it? You offered

-        He brightened instantly at that “oh yeah! that’s a good idea bet you can’t scare me”

-        “I can’t force emotions but I can promote them so let’s try it out. First it’s easier if you clear your mind and start with a blank slate” you instructed

-        “my minds always a blank slate” he quipped giving you his signature goofy grin

-        you couldn’t help but laugh for a moment and you felt his pride swell at your giggling

-        after a moment you calm yourself down and begin to focus on proving your point

-        suddenly he’s stiff and trembling in front of you

-        “I don’t like that” he whispered stopping you immediately

-        “I’m sorry did I push too hard” you fretted

-        “I, don’t, I believe you just don’t do that again”

-        “of course I’m sorry” you promised worriedly

-        “I haven’t felt like that since, never mind I just don’t like it”

-        “here let me try something else something better”

-        This time you sent warmth, comfort and love. the feeling of stepping inside your warm home on a cold winter day. you can feel him beginning to relax into it and you hope this makes up for your earlier faux pas

-        “I recognize that feeling you’ve done this for me before”

-        you caught me I did this a lot when you were with me at Rikas place I didn’t like you feeling bad so I tried to help usually the calls helped with they didn’t I did this

-        he pulls you into his arms and hugs you tight you can feel his adoration and gratefulness

-        “you’ve been helping me since the beginning. thank you”

 zen

instant belief (because he has psychic dreams after all) probably falls more in love with you because you can completely understand his feelings

-        now he knows why you believed him about his psychic dreams so wholeheartedly with no hesitation

-        no one had ever believed him so quickly and honestly it meant so much that you had trusted him

-        then his eye’s glint and he asks if you can feel what characters are supposed to be feeling

-        you almost laugh at that but he’s serious

-        he thinks about how helpful that would be for his career, how easy it would make character analysis

-        you almost wish you could when you see how passionate and ambitious he is

-        but you shake your head and explain

-        “I have to be with the person”

-        He nods at that but you can feel his confusion grow mixed with curiosity so you continue

-        “and if there’s multiple people I have to work harder to focus on just the person I want to read.”

-        it’s in this moment that clarity dawns on Zen’s face you were so good at isolating people’s problems focusing on exactly who you needed to. the reason you were always so focused on him and his feelings was because you worked at it. You had practice.

-        You could feel his admiration though you weren’t sure what thoughts a brought it you had started talking and now it felt like you couldn’t stop you had never told anyone about how your power felt and now it was pouring out of you

-        “It’s like being in a crowded room and trying to isolate one person’s voice from all the others. it can be overwhelming because people don’t have inside emotions like they have inside voices. when something exciting happens in a movie, sometimes it feels like the whole theater is screaming.

-        “that’s why you hadn’t heard of me before we met. You avoided the theater because it was to emotional?”

-        “I couldn’t get into the story because the actors never felt genuine and I got a headache from all the people in the crowd it was easier to watch things at home where I couldn’t read people so easily”

-        “but you come see my plays now?”

-        You blushed at that averting your eyes “your acting is different. You actually feel the part. You make it easy for even me to believe you. if it’s you, I think it’s worth the headache from the crowd. If it’s you I think I understand how the crowd can get so worked up.”

-        He lunged at you and in a flash your back was against the couch as he loomed over you hungry and full of adoration he leaned down to whisper in your ear

-        “can you tell how I feel right now?”

-        You shut your eyes tight and nodded face red with embarrassment.

-        “then you must have some idea of how much I love you. still I’d like to prove it, if you’ll let me Jagi”

RFA boys meeting an MC that’s currently pregnant as a surrogate mother for her sister.

swear that someday i will play jaehee’s route and write more for her but I’m stuck in V’s route right now. she’s next i promise!

fun fact i would love to be a surrogate mom but i can not because i have not had my own child which is like a requirement where i live, and i get that I guess. so alas its never meant to be. anyway in this I’m pretending those rules don’t exist and this is MC’s first pregnancy cuz idk i don’t want to think about MC having a child before meeting the RFA. at least not right now. 

anyway masterlist

Jumin

-        He was shocked to say the least

-        He’s concerned that you already have a significant other and simply didn’t tell him

-        “MC I, you never mentioned you were expecting.”

-        You can’t help but laugh because his face is so priceless.

-        Wide eye’s mouth slightly ajar you never expected to see Jumin so lost for words

-        Once you explain that you are acting as a surrogate for your sister he was more supportive than you could have imagined

-        He’s proud of you for helping your family especially since your helping your family create a family.

-        He gets the chef to make you the absolute most nutritional food possible

-        Provides you with all the pre-natal vitamins you could ever want

-        Offers help to your sister to unsure everything is perfect

-        He already thinks of this baby as his niece or nephew.

-        You have to real him in when he starts attempting to discuss the baby’s possible future at C&R

-        When you show up at the party and he proposes the rumors EXPLODE

-        He handles it like he handles most rumor’s

-        Ignore them they don’t matter he knows the truth.

Yoosung

-        Absolutely 100% freaked the heck out when he locks eyes with you at the party

-        Is suddenly super concerned because he’s never even had a girlfriend now his girlfriend is pregnant and he hasn’t even kissed her yet

-        He is not ready to be a dad; but he’ll do it for you. no matter how scared he is

-        He is terrified

-        He still kisses you and thinks you’re the most beautiful person he’s ever seen

-        But you can see how he nervously glances at your belly

-        Once you explain you laugh at how visibly relieved he is

-        “you mean you wouldn’t want to have a baby with me?” you tease jokingly

-        Suddenly he’s spluttering and red faced and choking on his drink

-        You can’t quite keep up with his babble but you could make out

-        “in the future” “of course” “once we’re married” “later”

-        You had to cover his mouth and instruct him to breath so he could calm down

-        You stole another kiss and giggle as you watch him flounder for words

-        He’s supportive and excited and can’t wait to help you babysit (as long as he doesn’t have to do it alone)

Saeyoung

-        He knew from your background check

-        Honestly it makes him all the more anxious about being with you at first

-        You have a family, a sister and a soon to be niece or nephew

-        Not to mention being pregnant made you that much more vulnerable

-        But you’re so sweet and gentle. He watches you play music to your belly and carefully manage your food to make sure the baby gets everything it needs

-        He watches you somehow manage to will away morning sickness because you heard it can cause dehydration and that’s bad for the baby

-        He watches you stand your ground against the intruding hacker and experiences your gentle scolding when he doesn’t eat properly

-        He starts to think that his life would have been much different if he had a mother like you

-        The baby isn’t even born yet and already you care for it more than his mother ever cared for him

-        And your offering to care for him too. He should say no. but how can he say no. he can’t

-        So instead he simply doubles down on his efforts to protect and provide

-        He also builds you a phone so you can keep in touch with your sister throughout all the chaos of well everything that happens

-        Absolutely doesn’t cry when the baby is born (don’t look at him he’s got something in his eye shaddup)

-        Offers to babysit but your sister politely refuses unless you are there as well

Zen

-        He thinks you positively glow

-        He doesn’t judge you whatsoever doesn’t even ask just, yep your pregnant no problem he loves you anyway

-        Then you explain and he thinks you are the sweetest person on the planet

-        He absolutely sings to the baby because as long as you are pregnant he will 100% play the father role

-        You have to remind him that this is NOT his child

-        Your honestly worried he will get too attached and be hurt when the baby goes home with its real mom and dad

-        You have him meet them and he is the perfect gentlemen. Until after wards when he mentions that your sister’s husband had better treat her and the baby well

-        You smack him playfully because we get your chivalrous or whatever now mind ya own dang business

-        There are rumors. So so many rumors, most of them are not nice and he is fighting desperately to protect you but it isn’t until the baby is born and the press gets a picture of all of you together that the rumors stop

Ahhh no one had messaged you yet?! Seriously?! I'm so surprised that you're new to MysMe, you already have all of the characters' personalities down so well in your writing! Keep up the good work!

I hope your the same person that asked me to add Saeran and V to the Depressed MC and MC that leaves when angry

I added Saeran to both but umm I’ll be honest I’m 8 days into V’s route and i don’t think i can write for V. I have a pretty long history of being a codependent enabler and V hits a bit close to him so it’s really hard for me to write that without going back to some really unpleasant hurts. 

sorry. i really wanted to write both for you but even just playing his route is really difficult for me because i see so much of my past in his actions.

um anyway i did add saeran so i hope you enjoy those at least.

RFA + Saeran react to MC with depression

RFA + Saeran react to MC that leaves when angry

Since we have 'surrogate mother MC' can I request how the RFA members + Saeran with pregnant/meeting their child for the first time headcanons?

ahhhh yesh yesh yasss

okay so i was halfway through writing this request when i realized i wasn't sure if you meant meeting surrogate mother MC’c surrogate baby, or their flesh and blood child so what does a reasonable and stable individual do? (probably not what i did if we are being honest) spend literally all day writing both in the hopes that you (my lovely internet stranger you) will smile and praise me for my hard work (guys my job is 95% of my self esteem most of the time and its been shut down because of quarantine this writing is my therapy and my validation i love each and every one of you your interaction makes me smile so much)

but enough about me.  let me link you those two posts just in case you haven't seen them yet.

RFA boys + Saeran helping surrogate mother MC through pregnancy and meeting the baby

and

RFA boys meeting their baby for the first time

such a good comic i love cal in protective dad mode!!

Webtoon vvv

https://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/between-worlds/list?title_no=199399