Look Okay I Was Sad And I Cant Write Angst But Damn You Can And You Nailed It You Ripped My Heart Out

look okay i was sad and i can’t write angst but damn you can and you nailed it you ripped my heart out and river dance stomped it to death. I loved every minute. i regret nothing

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Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Relationship: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi x MC, (Implied other pairings)

Characters: 707/Luciel Choi/Saeyoung Choi, Yoosung Kim, Zen/Hyun Ryu, Jumin Han MC, Unknown/Saeran Choi, Jaehee Kang

Additional Tags: 707 reset hallucinations, Angst cause why not, what's going on? you tell me

Notes: Blame @joy1579 for this

Saeyoung didn't know when it started, but it persisted. The hallucinations. The nightmares. Waking up without MC in his arms then suddenly feeling her hair tickle his neck.

It happened without warning. Watching MC kiss Jumin at the Christmas party only to blink, finding his hand casually held in her own. Blinking again for his ears to pick up her chatter about decorations instead of whispered sweet nothings and giggles under the mistletoe.

MC playing with Zen's hair in the shade of a tree. Matching sets of adoring eyes meeting then darting away at Yoosung's graduation. All this to wake up or blink or yawn and see her beside him, sense her hand idly tracing the lines of his palm, and feel shame in his veins. Shame for the jealousy her felt towards his closest friends. Shame for MC's constant reassurances that he is more than enough and not believing it himself. Shame for being unable to stop what was happening to him.

The next "reset" happened at a coffee shop where he swore Jaehee was the cashier.

Another reset, playfully dodging Zen's kisses as she booked his next audition.

Reset. An extravagant wedding. Jumin standing tall at the alter, sweeping MC into a kiss.

Reset. MC broadcasting live with his brother. Their hands clasped firmly in defiance.

MC and V... STOP!

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Tripping down the stairs of Rika's apartment building. Chasing her. Watching her leave. Knowing this wasn't the first time.

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She pulled out her phone and opened the door, "I'll be back. I just need to save him!"

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"It's the last time. She needs my help, if not for herself then for Yoosung."

RESET.

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"Saeyoung! Are you okay?"

She hovered over him, holding onto his shoulders tightly.

Saeyoung reached up and pushed back her bangs. Tiredly searching for answers in her hazel eyes, "Please don't leave me again."

Her gaze softened, "I never left."

Saeyoung blinks. The warmth of her hand is gone. She's gone.

Reset.

Hi! I love your works and I check every day for new ones! I'm just wondering if your requests are open bc I don't wanna send smthn in and have them not be open or for you to be overwhelmed :) thanks 💓💓💓

awwwwwe your so cute and sweet um ive actually been hesitant to open requests for that very reason i’ve been worried about getting overwhelmed or not being able to do one well

all that being said i do want to take requests i love getting comments and feedback and other peoples ideas

so send em my way oh i should probably set some rules huh

um i guess i don’t want to write for V it hits to close to home for me and i don’t think i’m very good at NSFW so if you request that i guess expect it to be vague at best

heres mine!

This is mine. What’s yours?

Jumin x MC and the fate of C&R’s cat projects

this is the first thing I’ve written in literal days and its scattered and short and honestly I’m not to happy with it. it feels less then great. actually it feel a peg below adequate if we’re being honest but I’m forcing myself to write because when i got out of the pavilion they said to force yourself to do something that made you happy before because it can help. so ya know, I’m trying because i want to believe it will get better.

okay without further ado Master List

MC takes over all Jumin’s cat projects

o   She gets some help from Jaehee at first to learn more about organization, scheduling and other job necessities

o   Soon MC is on roll not only finding ways to make the cat projects profitable

o   But also finding ways to connect them to actual charitable organizations so what isn’t profitable is written off for tax purposes

o   Jumin has never been happier he can see his wife at work discuss cat projects and grow C&R

o   The chairman is also impressed and Jaehee doesn’t have to worry about Jumin’s crazy cat projects now

o   Zen is Not modeling for the cat projects themselves but MC and Jumin plan to venture into allergy medicine research soon (MC convinced him talking about all the cats that don’t have owners because their perfect person is allergic)

Jumin and MC foster kittens

o   The devote 3 interconnected rooms to the kittens and their mothers

o   Them and their children help socialize the kittens to prepare them for adoption

o   On stressful days Jumin goes into the kitten’s rooms and lays down on the floor the kittens love him and crawl all over him.

o   He likes to watch MC bottle feed the especially small ones that the mothers tend to give up on

o   The first few adoptions are REALLY hard on Jumin but MC thinks it’s probably good for him to learn how to open up and let go like this

o   Elizabeth is still his number one kitty and she even takes to helping the newer cat moms wrangle the kittens in and groom them

o   The install a special cat door to the foster area that only lets Elizabeth through that way she can come and go as she pleases

Jumin and MC create cat café and adoption centers

o   The café portion and the cat portion are technically separate but café patrons can watch the cats play romp and explore through the glass and a series of tunnels, shelves and walkways that connect several enclosed play areas around the fairly large café

o   MC helps create recipes for the café that all look like cats or kittens. She also designs cat healthy cat treats shaped like fish or mice for customers to feed to the cats

o   Jumin connects them to shelters and charity groups all over the nation to get shelter cats that may have otherwise been put down into the cafes

o   The café cats get a new lease on life, veterinary care, treats, meals, toys and attention

o   Many are adopted and the ones that aren’t become welcome lifelong café employees

o   Jumin and MC spend most dates in the café

o   When everything has run smoothly for a while MC starts to organize cat handling classes for children (and seven) so that people understand how to care for bond with and avoid hurting cats.

MC absolutely wears cat ears to work

o   It started small cat paw earrings only but after a week of seeing her desk name plate read “head of feline enterprises” she got bolder

o   Cat paw earrings and a cat charm bracelet

o   The next week she added a cat yin and yang necklace

o   Then she switched it all out for cat ear headbands that matched your hair

o   It looked like you legitimately had cat ears and you were thrilled

o   Until you showed Jumin and his face tinted red and he called Jaehee to tell her neither of you would be in today. (hard wink)

o   The ears became a daily thing after that if for no other reason than that you really enjoyed how hard you got to see Jumin work to stay professional in all your meetings

guys i have a legitimate question okay.

why do you like your favorite mysme character?

for instance

I like Jumin best because i understand how hard it is to express and even understand my emotions sometime. also i like people who are bluntly straight forward since i don’t pick up hints well i feel like if he wanted something or had a problem with me he would tell me. which is comforting because then i don’t need to worry about if he’s secretly upset about something. as if all that weren’t good enough i adore cats and dry humor.

now reblog and tell me why you like your guy! please?

depression: your worthless you should never sleep or eat again you don’t deserve it

literally the entire RFA: don’t forget to sleep and eat well so you can feel good we love you so remember your self care makes us and all the other people who love you happy. lots of people care about you

yoosung: like your classmates!

jaehee: and your coworkers!

jumin: and your pets.

zen: and your friends!

saeyoung: and your family!

v, rika, & saeran: and all of us!

a lot of people care about you. so take a moment to make them and the RFA proud by taking care of yourself.