I've Mostly Written About Wangxian On This Blog, But I Thought I Should Mention That I Am All Over The

I've mostly written about Wangxian on this blog, but I thought I should mention that I am all over the place with shipping, fanart, fic, etc. I have a satosugu fic I may never actually write and I recently picked my ShinZawa fic back up. WX hits so many buttons for me, but the fandom that got me back in after years of being off Tumblr, watching anime rapidly again, writing fic and trolling for fanart... is My Hero Academia. I'm a Bakugou stan and I lost my mind over krbk a few years ago. Good times (yes, it was quarantine and we were coping LOL).

Just thought I'd throw that out there in case anyone actually paid attention to my little void space over here, so no one got surprised by the teacher/student content or disparate fandoms that don't really overlap at all. My Twitter is far more NSFW and more active, though I don't write anything there because I've never been able to stay under the character count. 😌

Boku no Hero Academia || Hitoshi Shinsou Episode 144

"...I'm not done telling you all the things that I wanted to say; there's still so much. It's been so long since anyone listened to me talk. Won't you stay?"

Heaven Official's Blessing, Vol 8

studying alone on a friday night? 🤨

Just finished Waiting for Spring by thievinghippo despite actively not giving af about baseball and had that postfic high of the closure and relief that so often comes with Wangxian. I love them so much. I love how well they can be put into so many AU and still be them. Different authors always highlight different themes from MDZS, whether it's A-Yuan, WWX's exile or sense of justice, LWJ's moral growth or clan challenges, all the side characters, family dynamics, betrayals, grief, hope... I eat it all up.

(And whew the quality smut of this fic and the fandom overall is definitely a huge plus.)

The discourse around "Wei Wuxian was oblivious" or "Lan Wangji was mean and didn't show his feelings" makes me so tired.

Clearly, many people have not loved someone so much it terrified them, loved a person in such imminent danger that every interaction became tense and difficult. The desire to remove that person from danger, control the situation (or even the person themselves), see them safe makes you yourself a different person entirely.

And on the flipside, the sense of belonging and care so absent and broken that you cannot see what is in front of you. Trust so destroyed (in yourself and others) that you no longer do the work (as you were trained to) to see beyond the cruelty and control as a facade for love and care. To see yourself as a sore and soft creature, encased in a hard weaponized shell that has to fight everything every second to survive, until it no longer seems worth it.

There is no nuance in either perspective, just a profound amount of fear and a drive for survival. MDZS is about war, class disparity, violence on a massive scale that also impacts every single relationship. One of the many reasons I love the story so deeply is that, yes, we see the connection between the two and the potential for so much, but the very reasons they are soulmates -- their values, sense of justice, intensity, dedication, sincerity, etc -- are also the exact reasons there was no option for them to be together under the onslaught of systemic violence.

They both understood that in their own distorted ways, and did not have the time or space to discover what they could make together instead. I think if they had even an iota of a chance to do so -- so close, teased at in LWJ's visit to Yiling with A-Yuan -- they would have tried. But they didn't.

It's all painfully human and real and I love mxtx for that.