Lost

Lost

Do you ever just try to heal, to get better, but sometimes it's too taxing, and the thoughts get too loud, so loud they drown out your attempts to get somewhere and then you lose yourself, and then when you find yourself again you're back at square one, and then you hate yourself just that little bit more than you did before because now all that effort was for naught.

Honestly? I just want their next title song to really be titled Sleep. 😂😂😂

I think what every ARMY wants for Bangtan's next comeback is for them all to have quiffs so we can die gazing at their beautiful foreheads.

- Admin Cupcake

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Heartstrings [Yoongi]

Pairing: Yoongi x Reader Genre: Angst; Fluff Words: 4405 Author: Chloe Description: Min Yoongi. 23. Diagnosed with paralysis and Acute Myocardial Infarction. Should probably also be diagnosed with/as a: sassiness, arrogance, the most dangerous handsome looks, a closet romantic, lovesick. Author’s Note: My Yoongi fics always turn out to be the longest and I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because he is niceu to write for. Also I love Yoongi a lot and when I write angst for him I cry. Bye Min Yoongi. You stole my heart. 

You, as a medical student and intern at the largest hospital of the city, have seen your fair share of blood. In fact, it is probable that you have seen more than your fair share of blood by now, with all the blood tests and stained scrubs and patients getting wheeled in and out desperately on stretchers. It is safe to say you have gotten used to it; as the days passed, it became no more than a color. You hate the tangy, metallic smell of blood, the way it is iron in your mouth, weaving into the air and forcing its way down your throat.

In the hospital you work in, everything was white. It is supposed to be a color of peace and health and whatnot, which you found awfully ironic. You have long since begun to tire of the color white. It is stained with the color of blood and death.

He’s no different when you first meet him: dressed head to toe in white, staring into nothing, reeking of inevitable death. The standard hospital-issued white robe (flimsy, horrible things) only looks whiter against his pale skin (milky, not pasty and gaunt like you’d become so used to seeing). With blonde hair splayed on his white pillow and lower body swathed in a thick white blanket and index finger tracing invisible constellations on a white wall, he seems almost insubstantial, as if every cell in his body screams—begs to disappear.

But then he turns towards you, and his eyes lock into yours, darker than black yet filled with a silver that promised life, and glinting with something you couldn’t exactly place your finger on. Even as your mind wiped itself, there is one thought that fixed itself in your mind: he can be covered in the color, but he will never, ever be white.

“Nice to meet you, I’ll be your nurse starting today.”

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All these ideas, time to let go

I have so many ideas. Like any normal person who reads and stans people and are part of many fandoms and basically just have a life outside of life, we all come up with so many ideas. Either regular old “original” ideas, or ideas for fanfiction that gets me jumping all over the place in glee. And, I don’t know if I’ve simply been spending way too much time on tumblr, but I feel like this is where I want to let these ideas surface to confront the world. I kinda like this place called tumblr. I mean, I have yet to meet the mean people, but all in good time, yes? I’m not a terribly social person, so half the time I have no idea what to do with the bunch of accounts I have on social media and sharing platforms, but hey, tumblr is growing on me, and since I need a place to chill outside of life, I’m kinda inclined to head here. Anyway, guess it’s about time I start showing the world my ideas and actually face some criticisms. This blog is pretty messy to begin with anyway, so why not just wing it and go all freestyle with no fixed format? After all, it IS my fangirl blog. ;) I’ll pop by again later to post something if I can make the time. Hello to whatever followers I do have as of now, get ready to unfollow me if I become too much, or join in the fangirl/boying. The choice is yours.

3 new songs AND a longer version of Wings. Is that not enough? And, at the end of the day, is it not enough to buy the album as a way to support the boys? Please just appreciate what they have prepared for us and enjoy it, and stop the hate and blatant tagging of the boys in your disappointed posts. If for nothing, then at least for the boys to feel appreciated, and not broken-hearted over how unhappy the fandom is with what they worked hard on. We all know how hard they have and are willing to work; have they not just spoiled us with the WINGS album? So please let them take a break now; let them have time to carefully piece together their music as they see fit, so that they may continue to amaze us in future albums. Let's always make the boys feel loved, yeah? Thank you.

Am I already going to have to reiterate my post from last year when the Day and Night repackaged albums were released? Yes, there are only four new songs on the You Never Walk Alone album. Yes, it is unfair that we are not informed during pre-order whether the album is a full, a mini, or a repackage.

But just remember that pre-ordering the album is a decision that you make, and you are the one who happily goes in and blindly purchases the merchandise. When it turns out to be the opposite of what you expected upon reveal, it is kind of pointless to complain about it and act as though BigHit literally forced you to submit your payment with their bare hands, because they certainly did not. At the end of the day, you are the one who went through and made a purchase in the dark when the pre-order remains to be available until the day before the album drop. I understand that excitement can overrule patience, but that is your own doing. Stop trying to blame your faults on the company by insulting them because you are pissed.

Remember that the boys have released a full-length album no more than four months ago. Remember that the boys are about to go on a world tour and releasing another full-length album right now would be an immense amount of pressure and stress on them. Remember when you complained about the boys not having any rest in between the Wings release and the tour with the sudden YNWA comeback, yet you have the audacity to be outraged when they only put out a repackaged album with four new songs. 

I am definitely not saying that the fans do not have a right to be upset or aggravated due to the lack of information provided beforehand. But when it gets to the point where some people will literally not accept that blindly pre-ordering was their own doing and keep blaming BigHit with labels like money-hungry when it is one of the greatest and supportive companies out there, it simply reflects an ungrateful light on the fandom.

So, let us make the comeback an exciting and delightful time for everyone rather than focusing on the fact that it is another repackage. Nonetheless, we are going to be receiving four brand new songs that are bound to be absolutely amazing. After all, four is better than none, right?

Please please please can I have this please

hi everyone! so me and my twin sister @holyfuckmark have decided to do a giveaway in celebration of our upcoming birthday. there will be 6 winners!

*PRIZES*

first winner: GOT7 mini album repackage MAD WINTER EDITION (merry version) 1 CD, postcard set + lyric/photo booklet (ALL MEMBERS), vertical calendar + horizontal calendar, sticker 4 pcs, diary extra gifts from us: jaebum photocard + youngjae gotoon 

second winner: GOT7 mini album repackage MAD WINTER EDITION (happy version) 1 CD, postcard set + lyric/photo booklet (ALL MEMBERS), vertical calendar + horizontal calendar, sticker 4 pcs, diary extra gifts from us: yugyeom photocard + bambam gotoon 

third winner: EXO album vol.2 repackage LOVE ME RIGHT (korean version) 1 CD, photobook, XIUMIN photocard (signed) extra gifts from us: baekhyun photocard, exo group postcard + 9 photocards (ALL MEMBERS)

fourth winner: EXO album vol.2 repackage LOVE ME RIGHT (korean version) 1 CD, photobook, CHEN photocard (signed) extra gifts from us: chanyeol photocard, exo group postcard + 9 photocards (ALL MEMBERS)

fifth winner: BTS mini album vol. 4 THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOMENT IN LIFE PT. 2 (peach version) 1 CD, photobook, SUGA photocard (signed) extra gifts from us: 4 photocards (rap monster, jhope, suga, jin)

sixth winner: BTS mini album vol. 4 THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOMENT IN LIFE PT. 2 (blue version) 1 CD, photobook, SUGA photocard (signed) extra gifts from us: 3 photocards (jungkook, V, jimin)

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