If I Was A Man And Looked Badass, I'd So Wear Stuff Like This, Too Bad I Look Like An Art Student Most

If I was a man and looked badass, I'd so wear stuff like this, too bad I look like an art student most of the time and me wearing stuff like that wouldn't surprise anyone

had a fun experience on the subway the other day

So my phone died today so I had to take it to a repair centre to see what was wrong with it, long story short; I don't have a phone anymore.

ANYWAY I kinda realised when I was out walking without a phone that I, for once in my life, didn't feel lonely. I had no way of checking if anyone had sent me anything, they usually don't so I feel lonely, but this time I couldn't check so I just had to go about my day. I had no music no nothing, and I felt at peace. Just roaming about Stockholm without a phone wasn't as scary as I thought it would be, I did realise tho that I need to buy a watch haha

This is what I did during the pandemic after I'd lost a bunch of my friends bc of some stupid fight. I had to almost force myself to be happy. I said, "Joy!" like Starfire does in Teen Titans Go whenever something positive happened. I trained myself like a dog with positive reinforcements and words, and I'd like to say it kinda worked.

I'm pretty stinkin' happy now, even tho everything in my life might not be. I tried to focus on only the good things. I subscribed to positive news outlets, I cleared up my social media fyp's to only be abt wholesome things like small animals, cooking, crochet etc, and I focused on stuff I remembered I'd liked before. And slowly but surely I got better. It took ages and a good handful of breakdowns in between, but I'd say I'm much much happier now than I ever was before.

And after a while you just stop. You stop watering your plants. You stop watching netflix. You stop reading. You stop replying to your friends as fast as you used to. You stop buying yourself nice things. You stop putting an effort into how you look. You stop taking care of yourself like you used to. You stop sleeping. You stop eating healthy foods. You stop petting your dog. You stop socializing.

You stop with everything. You find yourself sitting in your room for hours on end, without doing a single thing. Days feel like years. And you think you can’t do it for much longer.

btw. i made this quick guide of some of the natural size and proportion reference points in the human body. of course this all varies even irl, and you can stylize however you want, so ymmv but thought it might be helpful for some folks.

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