Hold My Hand | Poe Dameron X Reader

hold my hand | Poe Dameron x Reader

A/N: I started writing this when I was particularly lonely one night, and upon becoming quite lonely again, I continued.

Rating: M, this is sex

Warning: Much smut!! Reader is a lonely little bean.

Word count: 2,058, apparently!!

Summary: “You hurt. It’s okay. I hurt too. Hold my hand.” - Neil Gaiman, The Sandman: Endless Nights

GIF credit: I have no idea, but it’s not mine!

It was such a stupid idea.

He was going to say no.

Or laugh at you.

No, he was too nice of a man to laugh at you.

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Have You Seen This Fanfic?

I once again find myself turning to fellow fandom lovers in hopes of finally tracking down a Bucky fic that has been on my mind for YEARS!!!

It’s a super angsty fic, where the heroine (I can’t remember if she’s a “Reader” or OFC) loves Bucky but he starts dating someone else (I want to say it was Dottie?) Buck begins neglecting his Avenger duties and when the heroine gets into a life or death situation (because Buck refuses to go with her / he won’t answer his phone?) it might be too late to save her.

I want to say it was a five chapter fic, I read it all but the last chapter and of all the fanfic that I’ve ever read this one HAUNTS ME! Buck was such a dick to the heroine and seemed rattled when he realizes he may have caused her death.

Muse Food & My Fics

However long ago when I created this tumblr it was with the intent of sharing the imagines I’d been writing and posting on Instagram (under the same handle) here. A quick scroll through my Archive and I never posted one :-/ 

My relationship with writing has suffered in the last few years. I lost all will to read or write after my first bout of depression. It was actually imagines that got me reading again and ultimately writing again. Bout #2 + life circumstances changing snatched everything from me again. 

But yet again, it is the fandoms that saved me. Leading up to “The Last Jedi” I found myself spending more and more time on tumblr and Ao3 and more and more time mentally with the men of Star Wars. Suddenly my MIA muse began fluttering about again. Random little ideas or scenes scribbled out on edges of paper. The edges of paper turned into a legal pad, which turned into a full notebook...

Last week I reached the final page in said notebook and began a second. For the first time in five/six years I’ve even found myself writing out little scenes or wishing my muse could focus long enough for me to freaking write. But I’m trying to learn from past mistakes - I don’t want to put pressure on myself (Muse Killer #1); so, my muse is throwing around ideas like pollen in Spring but I don’t want to pressure myself...what’s a lass to do?

I have met and followed/stalked some amazing writers on tumblr and AO3, ones that could probably slaughter some of the ideas I’ve had and turn them into masterpieces...but I’m not a huge fan of making requests. I’ve been there, the pressure and incessant selfishness that comes with accepting requests (Muse Killer #2) was one of the things that made me fall out of love with writing. 

That said...I’ve been offering what I’ve called “Muse Food” around tumblr and AO3 - little ideas that I offer with no strings attached. Maybe the writer’s muse finds the idea yummy and takes it and makes it their own, maybe it ends up the untouched dish at a pot luck.

Thinking on all of this, I’m curious what writers - those I’ve read and those I’ve yet to discover - think about maybe posting some of my ideas on here where hopefully they will nourish your muses and I’ll get to see how folks interpret the ideas and make them their own. Equally, I could perhaps help generate some reading material for myself as I struggle through life at the moment (to give some context, my life is split between a crazy work schedule, being a full-time caretaker for condition unknown for my beloved Nana who took me in and raised me, and then my own health). Needless to say, I count on fiction as my life escape! 

Please tag your favorite/fellow writers and let’s see if this is something I should start doing. 

Random sampling of my favorite authors:

@i-said-goddameron | @theysentushope | @reality-imagined | @rebel-scum-stuff | @bae-b-8-imagines | @thirst-order-confession | @kboogie09 | @bitsandbobsandstuff | @captainrogerss | @empressrenwrites | @floral-and-fine | @propertyofpoeandbucky | @shenanigans-and-imagines | @queenofslytherin71 | @imaginestartrek | @lucilleshusband | @outside-the-government | @starshiphufflebadger | @kittenofdoomage | @tintinwrites | @dearlazerbunny

That first journal the statistics are under the cut.

Fandom | Star Wars

Poe Dameron - 40 Ideas

Kylo Ren/Ben Solo/Solo Triplets - 9 Ideas

Armitage Hux - 4 Ideas

Reylo - 2 Ideas

Sorry Finn fans, I look at him and squee at his cinnamon roll-ness and kind of coo over him like a little brother so no muse ideas yet. 

Fandoms | Adam Driver

Logan Lucky | Clyde - 3 Ideas

BlacKkKlansman | Flip - 3 Ideas 

Fandom | Marvel

Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier/White Wolf - 26 Ideas

Captain America/Steve Rogers - 8 Ideas 

Doctor Strange/Stephen Strange - 1 Idea

Venom/Eddie Brock (2018 Movie) - 1 Idea

Real Person Inspired

Chris Evans - 1 Idea

Sebastian Stan - 1 Idea

I’m not a huge fan of RPF, I was for a bit, I even wrote some, but it was always in the mentality of looking at said person in a character-light and not in a person-light. These ideas could probably be tweaked to work with characters. 

Fandom | Star Trek (Kelvin Timeline/AOS)

Doctor Leonard “Bones” McCoy (Karl Urban) - 8 Ideas

Fandom | The Walking Dead

Negan - 1 Idea

The craziest part, I’ve never even seen an episode of TWD. I’ve not read any of the comics either. But you freaking writers and your amazing fics got me sucked in!

Fandom | Undefined

19 Ideas 

This movie has become my Valentine’s Day tradition ❤️

Hey. Don’t forget about us.

Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock in Speed(1994) dir. Jan de Bont

The Mandalorian - Reference Guide for Writers

Despite not writing fanfic since a severe bout of depression a few years ago, I still soak up research in my favorite fandoms just in case my muse returns. 

In honor of all of my fellow Mandalorian fans I figured I’d share the notes I took during the season two opener “Chapter 9: The Marshal” (2x01)

SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT  (and apologizes for my handwriting!!)

Note - Peli’s pit droid “names” are my own creation, it’s just how I refer to them in my head :P 

A hero in more ways than one