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a collage i made after hearing halsey sing ‘still a little kid that can’t make friends’. i love ego 🌀

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Margiela, S/S 1999.

Thomas de Keyser, Frederick van Velthuysen and his wife, Josina, detail, 1636

ETHEL CAIN FOR ENFANTS RICHES DÉPRIMÉS A/H 24

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The Bite - Edvard Munch (1914)

i took this photo while walking around a small town back home listening to ethel cain and feeling the cold kiss my face.

one of the saddest things is when someone in your family tells you you would've loved someone who died before you were born. like my mother has told me & my best friend that we would have loved talking to her father. that me & my brothers have the same humor as our late uncle & even look like him. everyone is everywhere & nowhere & here & gone & dying & coming back. it's as though you know them through their shadow or their ghost or your own actions, but you won't ever really know. haunts me, i guess

hussein chalayan photographed by donald christie for the biennale di firenze

fashion/cinema biennale di frienze 1998

Beds I've Slept In, Orion Carloto (2012-2023)

god i love laura marling.

thank you god for inventing drugs

no because i don’t think y’all heard ethel when she said ‘in your pickup truck with all of your dumb luck is the only place i think i’d ever wanna be’

ETHEL CAIN PHOTOGRAPHED BY @ ARTZIETY ON INSTAGRAM

so actually i am a Luca Guadagnino and Yorgos Lanthimos fan first then a girl second.

new orleans cemetery

New Orleans 1986

ethel cain by moni haworth and lotta volkova for the face magazine (2022).

Bones and All (2022) // dir. Luca Guadagnino

“you will never know a love that you fear more than mine”

I’ve been on my knees since I was 5.

In the chapel,

in a bedroom,

in an alley late at night.

Always facing an inflated

godlike

version of some guy.

But as a girl you do what you need to survive.

You open wider, take the body.

Thank your father, you’ve been naughty.

2 Hail Marys, 20 lashings.

“I’ve been sent to punish you for daring to exist.

You will never know a love as meaningful as this.”

I’ve memorized

the lines

since I was 10.

From the Bible,

from the playbook,

from the magazines for men.

If you should mess it up, you’ll start again.

But, still, they only want

the women

they condemn.

I think that I’d have too much fun in hell.

With the pagans

and the hedonists

and sapphics there as well.

Purgatory seems the better fit

I can’t stand waiting in the corner,

but I do love being hit.

There’s not a torture you can prescribe

that I wouldn’t find

a way to like.

Every single second I’m alive

I’m sharpening an axe I’d like to grind.

“I was sent to punish you

for the way I was designed.

You will never know a love

that you fear more than mine.”

- “God Fear a Woman” 2023

Fontainebleau State Park, Louisiana by Lana Gramlich