it's my drama. appreciate my flaws & learn from my mistakes. it's okay to cry your heart out but don't forget that there's always a second chance. be strong but don't forget to be yourself. you can be wild and carefree but don't forget to be serious at times. oh remember to laugh too! life is amazing and unfair at the same time... deal with it even if it's not the reality that you wanted!
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Don't Worry About Everything...
Don't worry about everything...
it has been awhile since i went to chruch. And the homily talks abt how most of us are always worrying about everything like what food to eat, what clothes to wear, etc. And then the priest said, "Don't worry about anything. We're all in good hands, God's hands"...
Now, you see tumblr earthlings, we don't hafta worry abt everything. We should enjoy life. Be thankful for what we have and who we are with. Spread the love guys!!!
**lol i think i was so into the mass today for the first time again.
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First encounter... Phone call.
It shoyld be no biggie right? But right after i hold onto that phone i felt like my heart suddenly stopped...
Her: sino to? Si insertmyname? Me: opo. Her: magkikita din tayo. laughs Me: uneasy laugh
Gaaah and after that we said our goodbyes. And still, i feel like my heart is not beating...
Now im more nervous. What will happen later in our lunch? What will be their first impression of me???
That feeling.
sigh
Do u evn know what i feel? Do u evn understand why im acting like this? Do u even care at all???
I seriously need you right now. I feel so weak and worthless. I need your compassion. I need to feel that you care abt me. And that you love me. And that you're with me. And that i am not alone.
I am scared that i might give up on life one of these days and just accept the fact that no one really cares abt me. I am afraid that that one little hope i am treasuring will be gone soon.
What should i do now? I think nothing will work out even if i try. Things will not work out at all. This is the end.
I am so scared to be alone. I am so scared to go through all these by myself. I need a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold & be my support, a person willing to walk with me.
I dont understand why i am feeling this way... Am i stressed out or am i just being too emotional??
I feel like crying myself to sleep and just forget abt all of these. I wish these are just one of my nightmares and tomorrow when i woke up everythig will be fine. Everything will be back to normal. I wont have to worry anymore. I wont have to feel this loneliness and be scared.
What has got into me? What have i done to deserve this? Am i that worthless?
I hate this! I hate this feeling!
30 minutes before i turn 20...
Hahaha can u believe it? Im turning 20 years old in 30 minutes!?! Gaaah i'm really getting old :(
Anyway, there's nothing much i can do abt it other than live life to the fullest and love love love ever special human beings around me.
First of all, i wanna thank God for giving me my family and friends that support, love, care and accepts me for who i am these past 19 years. Thank you so much God!
Second, i wanna give my sincere gratitude to my parents, Umpe, my kuya and joytoy. I love these 5 so much. Actually idk how i am going to continue living without them in my life. They're the reasons why i am fighting for my life everyday. And why i dream for a better future. I wanna thank them for giving me everything i need. And i want to apologize to them too for making them angry at times and for disappointing them since i've been lacking most of the time. Sorry guys. I love you all and i wish we will be together forever <3333
Third, i wanna give a shout out to my friends esp my sis gaga Christine Joy!!!! Wohooo fuckin love yah guys! Thanks for always being there for me and for making me laugh. Thanks because you are there in good times and bad times. Thanks for the advices. Thanks for evrything! I am learning so much from you guys. CJ you'll always be my sis gaga! We will be best friends forever! I wanna thank jess, cass and fiza too for being there to spazz with me when it comes to our asian babies!!! I love you girls :)
Lastly, i wanna make this as my 20 wishes! xD 1. i wish for good health for everyone. 2. I wish to be with my loved ones all the time and spend more memories with them. 3. I wish i can find my soulmate soon. I seriously need to know who are you coz im dying to love you! Lol 4. I wish to travel particularly in Asia aka philippines, korea, taiwan and also in Europe aka Spain! 5. I wish to graduate and finish school soon so i can get a decent job! 6. I wish to get a part-time job so that i can contribute to the family's needs. 7. I wish that i will be able to speak my hearts desire instead of keeping everything to myself whenever i am feeling down. 8. I wish i will stop being moody and grow up maturely :) 9. I wish people around me will learb to appreciate who i am and what i love. 10. I wish to meet my relatives and friends back in the Philippines especially UMPE coz i miss them so much. 11. I wish i'll get to meet new friends this year that will accept me for who i am and will not expect me to be perfect. 12. I wish everyone in the family and the circle of my friends will never forget abt me. 13. I wish this year i will lose some weight so i'll gain confidence and love myself. 14. I wish this year will be awwesome and memorable again just like the past 19 years of my existence. 15. I wish God will not stop from givig me second chances esp whenever im being the black sheep. 16. I wish i will find a sincere and romantic special someone who will make me feel like i am loved and appreciated whether i am fat or lazy or crazy. 17. I wish to meet mu Asian babies soon. 18. I wish to do less mistakes and more success in the future. 19. I wish to gain more strength, loyalty, trust, care, love and passion that i can share to others. 20. I wish i can live my life freely, blessed, loved by everyone, and successfuly with my family and friends together. I just wanna be myself when im with them.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME AND TO MY TWIN!!! Wohooo i'm fucking 20 now!!! Love love love for everyone! Thank you god! I am gonna love life more and be the person i wanna be! I am gonna live my dream! :)
past is past. yes or no?
pain! the reason why we shouldn't wish we want to go back to our past & be hurt again... like the saying, “past is past”. Do you believe it? Yes or no? I’m not sure either. but i guess i won't mind being hurt over and over again. as long as you can be the center of my world... again. I will definitely choose to be devastated over and over again as long as you’ll notice me, you’ll know of my existence and how much I love you and care for you. I don’t care what other will think of me anymore. the important thing right now is that i am able to show my love and feel this feeling i can't even explain.
why do you do this to me? why do you confuse me all the time? why can't i forget you? why do i have to associate everything to you. why am i still holding on to my past. it has been 3 years already and yet i still feel giddy inside when i see your face. unfortunately, i feel the pain as well. the pain that hurt me. the pain that left me this scar inside me.
why do you have to be so important in my life? why you? why?