I Need To Put My LEDs Up :(

i need to put my LEDs up :(

my room

thanks to @istj-mbti for tagging me!

anyone who follows, moots, or just comes across my blog can do it as well!

@starboy505

i need an excuse to get my shit together so here we go:

if this gets 50 notes i'll drink more water everyday

if this gets 100 notes i'll start cycling once a week and logging it

if this gets 200 notes i'll start eating more fruit

if this gets 500 notes i'll apply for a summer job

if this gets 1000 notes i'll actually make plans with my friends

if this gets 2000 notes i'll tidy my entire wardrobe

if this gets 5000 notes i'll get a better skincare routine

if this gets 10 000 notes i'll do something about my mental health

the numbers are intentionally high bc i really don't want to do any of this and yeah there is a deadline of the end of june

(I will boop everyone who reblogs this post, for the record 💖)

i protect my boundaries aggressively but i have to withdraw to protect my peace, if that makes sense.

i’m reactive and i’m aggressive. i run over people’s feelings when i want but will then flip and become a huge people pleaser. (but mostly i’m aggressive, and i tend to get stressed over people running over my boundaries.)

i act with my gut. if i’m angry, there’s a reason why and i want to fix it, but i’m fully justified in it. yes, i experience it a lot

it leaves me with the yuckiest feeling ever, like i’m rotting from the inside out. my whole stomach feels like a black hole and all the positives get sucked in and i want to throw up. typically it’s over social stuff, like if i accidentally mistreat someone or do something cringy. i used to experience it all the time, but it’s slowly fading as i accept and understand myself.

i plan :) can’t be scared if you’ve over thought this situation a hundred times! i’m very comfortable with fear, it doesn’t scare me and is super useful. i don’t know how often tho, probably all the time? it either lines my conscience or isn’t there to bother me.

upfront. if there’s a problem, tell me. if not, obviously it’s not that big of a problem. i’m upfront with my feelings/problems/conflicts and feel that others should be too (although of course i’m going to bring the space for it, not directly upfront to the point of being a bitch, i just want to solve conflicts fast so it doesn’t sit and simmer :(

i get what i want when i want. if i can’t, haven’t thought hard enough or i don’t actually need it. if i can’t get it upfront, i will do whatever means necessary (with the smallest damage) to get it.

i don’t know, i do a lot of stuff. i think i relate a lot to e5’s coping mechanism of “contextualizing”. not quite reframing, it doesn’t have to be positive. when a conflict happens i’m fired up. emotions are everywhere. i’ll immediately start picking through it to find the most useful information (and skillfully avoid the Thoughts™️ that are upsetting me). i’ll think about my emotions and the things that happened til i can calm down enough to properly ignore/fix the conflict (and feelings) that just happened. then i only remember the stuff i want to (negative and positive) and the useful stuff, but i don’t always see the big picture or i’ll ignore some important stuff from the conflict. that’s why i prefer being upfront, i don’t want to guess another’s feelings or actions and be wrong. so a mix of distract and rationalize

questions to type yourself (enneagram edition)

how do you set boundaries with the world around you? (do you assert yourself, do you blend in, do you please others, etc etc)

how do you act during stress? (are you more positive, do you stay calm and try to be "objective," do you get emotional, etc etc)

how do you act in anger? do you experience it often?

how do you act in shame? do you experience it often?

how do you act in fear? do you experience it often?

how do you act in relation to others in conflict? (withdraw, go-with-the-flow, upfront, etc)

how do you "get what you want?" (more demanding + straightforward, believe it should be earned, focus on self, etc etc)

what is your coping mechanism? (do you distract yourself, do you try to act more neutral, stay in denial, try to rationalize, etc)

A year ago I made some silly Trigun fanart that brought all the bigots out of the woodworks, so I told them that everything I draw is gay, including Space Cat. And now he has a boyfriend, welcome Rainbow Cat! 🌈

reblog this if your blog is a safe space on april fools and won’t have any jumpers, screamers, or anything scary or anxiety inducing