I Will Never Be Good Enough For You

I will never be good enough for You

You, the one who was supposed to have unconditional love

I'm stuck chasing/loong for love that is supposed be there from birth

the feminine urge to destroy every part of you that’s like your mother

You're never going to love me. None of you will.

To love someone you have to know them.

To love someone you have to trust them.

To love someone you cannot push your ideals and perception on them.

I'll always be a person you do not like and would rather live without.

The me in my head wants to mutilate the outside me

I wish I was never born because I am nothing but a burden to everyone I've loved. I have felt and believed this for many years now. I am a horrible and toxic person that others belive to be a fucking naive idiot. I wish I could sleep and never wake up. Just put into a room away from everybody.

I know I'll never be good enough. The only real use I have is to be a fake ass to make others feel better about themselves. When I'm being myself, no one can stand it. If you don't like me, then tell me. Don't just fucking string me along, yell at me, and spread lies. At least when I die, I can say I was honest.