UWU

UWU

P.S. this uwu is not big enough.

😍😍😍😍

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eargasm

I’ve never heard a better drum and bass pairing than the Deaks and R.T.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA SAME

When you go to start singing Under Pressure but it turns out to be ice ice baby

SOOOOOOOOOO SLOW 😂😂😂😂

Roger: We can’t slow down! Freddie: (laughs) Right, take two. Brian: I’m trying to slow it a little down— Roger: Well it doesn’t need slowing down, it’s— god, it’s creeping at the moment! Freddie: (laughs) Alright, try— Roger: God, it was so slow! And it was getting even slower. You always try to play this like I’ve never— Freddie: Take two! John: You’re playing the fucking twelve string. Freddie: Take two. John: (laughs) Roger: (fed up) ALRIGHT THEN, I’ll follow you! Brian: (mocks Roger by making crying noises) Freddie: Right, take two.

There are some things in life that you never thought you needed, but you actually do

- and this is it.

Mr. Brian May performing Welcome to the Black Parade with My Chemical Romance.

my emo heart is swelling. 🖤🖤🖤

Y/N: two sugars for me

Ben:

ugggghhh 😍😍😍

Barely Even Friends [Ben Hardy x Reader] Part Seven

Authors Note: Sooo I’m guessing a lot of you weren’t expecting that in the last part 😂 I hope you enjoy this part, things are gonna take a turn! This is also probably going to be the longest part I’ve written 😘

Warnings: A bit emotional here and there.

Song Inspiration: Ignorance Is Bliss - Room 94

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I guess this is how it feels, I guess this is how it’s meant to be. I try my hardest not to think about you, I try my hardest not to watch you leave.

Beep, beep, beep, beep.

This was all Ben had heard for the past two hours as he sat beside your hospital bed. He had his chin resting on his hand and stared at the monitor that you were currently hooked up to. Gwil and Joe had told him to go home ages ago but he refused to move until you woke up. He hated seeing you like this. When the doctors had done an overall check up of you and taken you down to theatre. They had determined 2nd degree burns to your arms and hands and of course smoke inhalation. Ben wanted nothing more than to take your hand in his but the nurses and doctors had made sure that wouldn’t be possible by wrapping your hands in cling film. All the hatred, the arguments, the constant name calling and picking at one another all seemed to swarm around his head as he looked at your battered and bruised body. He felt sick with guilt.

“I’m so sorry,” he sobbed, “I’m so, so sorry Y/N, please wake up,”

He buried his head into his hands and tried desperately not to let any tears fall from his tired eyes.

“Hey,” a soft voice came from behind him.

Ben looked up to see Joe standing by the door with two cups of coffee in his hands. He gave one to Ben who gratefully accepted and sat in the chair beside him.

“How’s she doing?” He asked.

Ben shook his head and shrugged as the machines continued to beep around them.

“You did everything you could, you saved her life,”

“I just did what anyone else would’ve done,”

Joe furrowed his brows as he looked at Ben’s exhausted face, just staring at you, hoping that any moment you would awake.

“Rami and I have cancelled our flights home,”

“What?” Ben said, whipping his head around.

Joe shrugged with a flat smile.

“We can’t leave now, Y/N needs us - she’s lost everything,”

Ben hadn’t even thought about that. Once he’d got there, the whole house was alight, everything was being destroyed around of him.

“Do they know what caused it yet?” Ben gulped, his eyes gazing back at you.

“The police are working on it now,”

Joe couldn’t help but notice how tender Ben was being with you, he never thought he would see the day.

“Maybe you should get home, let the doctors take over now?”

Ben shook his head.

“No, I’m not going anywhere,”

“She’s in safe hands, Ben,”

“I’m not leaving her Joe,”

Joe sighed, patting Ben on the shoulder before standing up.

“You know where we are, we’ll be back in the morning,”

Ben nodded, not taking his eyes off of you as Joe hesitantly left the room before meeting Gwilym and leaving the hospital.

I’m falling deeper everyday, I’m getting lost and I can’t find my way. I’m missing something I don’t know, it doesn’t feel right that I can’t let go.

Seconds turned to minutes and minutes turned to hours all the while Ben sat at your bedside waiting for you to open your eyes. He felt hopeless. Before he knew it, he had fallen asleep in the chair beside the bed, his head resting on the mattress you laid upon. It wasn’t until you began to cough that he awoke suddenly.

“Y/N?” He half whispered.

With another few coughs and a drag of air, your eyes began to flutter open. You glanced around the brightly lit room and saw the one face you were least expecting to see looking directly at you.

“Where am I?” You croked, your breath shaky.

“It’s okay, you’re in the hospital, you’re safe,”

“Hospital? Why? What hap-,”

Then the horrific memories began to flood back into your foggy mind and your heart sunk to your stomach at once. You remembered the heat, the smoke, the terror running through your veins. You went to move but let out a pained gasp as you looked down at your burned hands, wrapped in cling film and the dusty black smears over your legs and arms.

“Don’t move, I’ll go get one of the doctors, you’re okay,” Ben assured you before rushing out of the room leaving you alone and scared.

Your eyes hurt, your chest hurt, your body hurt. You were confused and dazed, trying to piece together what exactly had happened in the last few hours. Why was Ben at your side? Why did he care all of a sudden? There were so many questions you needed answering.

The doors burst open and a doctor and a nurse surrounded you, one adjusting your drip the other coming up to you with a small torch.

“Miss Y/L/N, I’m Dr Copeland, how are you feeling?”

You furrowed your brows and mentally rolled your eyes at him. How did he think you were feeling?

“Everything hurts,” you replied groggily, letting out another cough.

“Do you know where you are?”

You nodded.

Ben was stood in the corner, anxiously biting his thumb nail as they tended to you. The Doctor shone the light of the torch into your tired eyes and nodded to the nurse.

“Okay Y/N, I’m going to ask you a few questions and it’s okay if you can’t answer them all but we just need to get a clear idea of where we’re at - are you okay for your boyfriend to stay here?”

Both you and Ben glanced up at eachother immediately, neither of you knowing what to say.

“Actually she’s not-,”

“Yeah, it’s fine, he can stay,”

Ben was dumbfounded as you sent a small smile his way before turning back to the doctor.

“Good, right, for your comprehension, do you know what year it is?”

“2019,” you replied.

“And what month?”

“March,”

“What’s you’re first and last name?”

“Y/N Y/L/N,”

“How about your date of birth?”

“Y/DOB”

The doctor scribbled some notes down on his clipboard and cleared his throat.

“Okay Y/N, we’re just gonna have a look at your dressings,”

The nurse lifted your hands up and unwrapped them carefully, examining them. You couldn’t look at them, bearing the pain was bad enough let alone facing the sheer sight of them. The nurse began to dress them again as you turned your attention to the floor, trying to avoid Ben’s gaze.

“Good news Y/N, they’re looking a lot better, we will keep bandages on them for now and assess them in a few hours,” the nurse told you with a pleased smile.

“For now, rest and we’ll get you some more pain relief - it seems you are in safe hands,” the doctor said, nodding at Ben before they both left.

Ben sighed and sat back in the chair beside you. It was awkward to say the least, neither of you knew what to say to the other. You couldn’t help but notice that Ben’s face was looking worse for wear as well.

“What happened Ben?”

Those three words are all I need, let me prove to you that I still bleed. I know there’s something underneath your skin, just open up, come on and let me in.

He’d been dreading this question. He didn’t know what to say to you or how to answer. How on earth was he supposed to tell you that you’d lost everything. He shifted a little in his seat, trying to conjure up the easiest way to put it to you.

“Uh - do you remember anything?” He asked.

You pondered for a moment, trying to recall anything.

“All I remember is smelling smoke and passing out - then waking up here,” you sighed, “I bet the house is in a right state, still at least it’s only a little but of damage,”

Ben gulped, his whole body getting incredibly hot with nerves.

“Y/N -,”

“I’m sure the insurance will help cover the cost of a new kitchen,”

You smiled weakly across at Ben’s pale face and crooked your brow in concern.

“What?”

He cleared his throat and scooted the chair closer to your side, taking a deep breath before telling you the one thing that could send your whole world crumbling.

“Y/N, uh - when the fire brigade got there, it was too late,”

You blinked a few times and scoffed lightly.

“Too late for what?”

Ben’s green eyes gazed up towards yours, begging you not to let him go further.

“Too late for what, Ben?!”

He sighed restlessly, pushing his hair back with his shaking fingers.

“There’s nothing left Y/N, I’m sorry - the house was up in flames before they could do anything, everything’s been destroyed,”

You heart raced aggressively against your rib cage and fresh tears began to spill from your eyes.

“What do you mean - how - what -,” you stuttered, panic consuming your body, “The candles, it was drafty and I must’ve forgotten to blow out the ones on the windowsill,” you suddenly felt extremely sick, “It’s - it’s all my fault - it’s my fau-,”

Ben couldn’t hold himself back any longer, he stood up and pulled your shaking body into him, leaving a few kisses on your head.

“Hey, shh, shh it’s gonna be okay,”

You both stayed like that for what felt like ages, tucked up in Ben’s embrace. His comforting hands rubbing your shoulder, his head resting against yours. While sitting there in silence, you couldn’t help but notice the state of his clothes and his face. He looked as though he’d been hurt, but you couldn’t think of how.

“What happened to you anyway, why are you covered in burns?” You asked curiously, pulling your head out from his neck.

Ben looked down at you and sighed before taking a seat back in the chair. You already had a hunch.

“I um - well - because-,”

“You what?”

Ben paused and looked you in the eyes.

“Because I was in the fire too,”

Your eyes moved from side to side in confusion and you let out a small scoff.

“What do you mean you were in the fire too?”

Ben chewed the corner of his lip and began to tap his fingertips anxiously on the mattress.

“I - I ran in there - I got you out,”

You tried to process what he was saying as best as you could. Ben Hardy, the one person whom you could’ve sworn wouldn’t care at all if you were in trouble - saved your life. Gulping, you glanced back at him.

“You - you saved me?”

Ben looked up through his lashes and shrugged before darting his gaze back at the floor.

“Well, I just did what anyone else would’ve,”

“But you ran into a burning building to save me?”

Ben stayed silent.

“You don’t even like me, why would you care? Is this your way of attempting to redeem yourself for all the shit you’ve put me through, playing the big hero?! Who do you think you are?!”

“Uh, I think I’m the reason you’re still alive!”

“It’s not like you’ve ever given a crap before, what made this any different?”

“I couldn’t just let you die in there, I had to do something!”

“Why!?”

“Because believe it or not sweetheart, I fucking care about you!”

Silence prevailed as Ben was successfully able to shut you up for once.

“But I thought -,”

“Yeah well you thought wrong,” he seethed, standing to his feet and heading for the door.

“Ben, wait, please, I’m sorry,”

Ben stood at the door, his hand ready to turn the handle and leave you to fend for yourself. He took a deep breath and faced you again.

“I’m sorry,” you told him again.

You meant it, you were just shocked that it had come to this. Ben smiled gently and walked back to your bedside and sat on the edge of the mattress.

“I didn’t do it to score points or to redeem myself Y/N - you could’ve died in there,” He sighed, “You’re right, I could’ve just left you there but - listen what I’m trying to say is -,”

It was now your turn to shut him up. You sat up as best as you could, considering your body was in agony and planted a soft kiss to his cheek. He flushed a bright shade of red at the touch of your lips on his skin.

“Thank you,” you murmered, blushing just as much as he was now, “For saving my life,”

“You’re welcome,”

An awkward silence fell upon you both and for a moment you wanted to fall unconscious again from embarrassment.

“I’m uh - gonna get us both a tea,” he finally said, relieving you both of the awkwardness.

You smiled gratefully as he went to the door again.

“Ben?”

“Yeah?”

Blushing, you lowered your head before glancing back up into his expectant eyes and smirked.

“Two sugars for me,”

Ben couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle and winked at you as he left the room, closing the door behind him. You sighed deeply and let out another cough as a few tears trickled out of your eyes. Resting your head back against the pillows, you tried to come to terms with the last few hours. Where were you going to go? Everything you owned had been burst to a crisp, all your memories, your whole life had been destroyed. And although that was the most tragic thing to have happened, you still couldn’t shake the fact that Ben Hardy, your arch nemesis had saved your life.

I guess I’ll act like I’m okay, just promise me you still feel the same.

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