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Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance

Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance
Depending On How You Look At It, This Could Be Psychological Thriller, Or You Could Say It Has A Romance

โ€œDepending on how you look at it, this could be psychological thriller, or you could say it has a romance aspect to it, or it could be horror. But above all else, when I could see this film from Indiaโ€™s perspective as a coming-of-age story of a girl, thatโ€™s when I felt that I could direct this film, that it became interesting to meโ€ฆ Rather than leaving her nest in search of a commendable, positive, beautiful set of values, India leaves as a devil, in search for evolution into being a complete evil incarnate. So in this respect, this is a completely subverted coming-of-age story.โ€ย  โ€” Park Chan-wook, Stoker: A Filmmakerโ€™s Journey

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2 years ago

โyour mighty warriorโž ( I. )

golden eyes

Your Mighty Warrior ( I. )

summary: you never thought you'd see your lover's golden eyes again. and when you did, he didn't recognize a single part of you. pairing: neteyam x omaticaya!reader wordcount: 2.8k contains: angst, major spoilers for atwow, mentions of character death, blood, memory loss, sad guilty lo'ak, loโ€™ak x reader is platonic! notes: the first part, here we go! if i get things with the timeline messed up just ignore it haha. my heart breaks for lo'ak in this, but i hope you all enjoy!

paskalin : term of endearment oeyรค tรฌyawn : my love tanhรญ : small, bioluminescent freckles

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Your Mighty Warrior ( I. )

The water is still in the night. Its chaosโ€”violent waves that crash and collideโ€”disappears once the darkness blankets over the sky. The surface of the water reflects the stars, small freckles of light in the face of the ocean. Although gentle tides push and pull, the vast sea is silent as it sleeps.

There is a beat to be heard; a pulse from under the water, under the ocean floor, from the very core of Pandora. A strong, mighty rhythm that shakes the ground. But this heartbeat does not come from the Great Mother.

In the quiet of the night, the reflection of the sky in the ocean is disrupted. Calloused fingers break through the barrier, reaching past the thin veil. He grasps the air like a rope. The crown of his head splits the sea in half. The moon pulls him to her; his body, strong and powerful, ascends.

โ”€โ”€

It was his mother who pressed his eyes closed when they were void of life. The blank face of your lover glared into your soul. The grip he had on your hand--desperately clinging onto you like it would heal the hole in his heart--vanished, and you were left to imagine his fingers were still intertwined with yours.

You remember the wave of realization on his father's face, how his ears slightly dropped and his bottom lip quivered when he noticed that the bullet had gone straight through his eldest son's chest. Crimson collected in his shaking palms. You knew then that there was nothing to be done. Nothing except to sit next to Neteyam, your prince, as his soul moved onto the Great Mother.

His funeral was inevitable. After the war was over, it was time for the Suli's to say goodbye. You stayed with his brother, Lo'ak's hands placed in yours, as Neteyam slowly sank deeper towards the ocean floor. His frame became smaller and smaller, until he was completely engulfed by luminescent tendrils. Your lover was no more.

The family struggled to carry on without him. You remained close with his siblings, thankfully. Kiri mourned by your side. For a time, it had been just her and Neteyam. He was born less than a month before her and she considered him to be her twin. Tuk was young, but old enough to understand, โ€œHe is with Eywaโ€.

Lo'ak, however, was almost never to be seen. If you managed to catch a glimpse of him, he was silent and reclusive. He even ignored Tsireya, who asked you multiple times if he was alright; you never had an answer.

Despite your great loss, the village of Awa'atlu continued on. Every morning, the fishermen and farmers rose early, the healers prepared their supplies, and the hunters readied their ilus to dive through the sea.

Life continued on as if Neteyam's soul had never been ripped out of your blood-soaked hands, as if his eyes had never looked their last to you. It broke your heart.

โ”€โ”€

Although Jake Suli had finally recognized his youngest son for his true potential, it was too late. Lo'ak put the blame for Neteyam's death on himself. He accepted that he would forever carry that weight with him, no matter where he ran to or hid.

You knew that when he was nowhere to be found, he was somewhere far off in the sea on Payakan's fin. He stayed out late and missed ceremonies and Suli family meetings; it was Neteyam who always pushed Lo'ak to participate. But even when he laid underneath the stars on the back of Payakan, the ocean water gently lapping at his skin, the guilt still sat in his chest like the bullet in Neteyam's heart.

Without his older brother, Lo'ak ceased to exist. He refused to meet his eyes or even speak to his mother. He made himself an outcast before his family could. You recognized that the void in Lo'ak's life was the same one tearing you apart, so you felt that it was your responsibility to look after him.

"We must be strong," Neteyam had told you the night you left your home in the forest. You said goodbye to your family to be with him. He'd placed his palm over your heart. "In here."

It was eerie how you could still feel his touch as if he were right in front of you. Neteyam would've wanted you to stay strong for Lo'ak, and you would do anything to honor your mighty warrior.

Unfortunately, looking after Lo'ak wasn't easy when you could never find him. Two days had passed and you hadn't seen him once. You knew not to worry--Kiri noticed your concern and said she'd seen him with his tulkun just outside of the reef. "He didn't seem like he wanted to come back."

By that night, you'd given up. After a great feast held for the birth of Tonowari and Ronal's child, you separated yourself from the others and sat alone on a far-off shore. The ocean life illuminated the darkness around you, small specks of teal and gold light scattered in the water. Your feet had sunk into the wet sand as the calm waves kissed your ankles.

While the ocean held many wonders that continued to fascinate you, it left a bitter image burned into your memory.

There was fire off in the distance, gunshots and explosions, but they were all the least of your concern. You shook as you held his body in your arms. The water had turned violent, as if the Great Mother knew of the war taking place. Sharp, chaotic waves crashed against a rocky landing. Crimson pooled in the grooves of the rock, running down the sides to where it diluted in the vast sea.

You never allowed yourself to remember anything past that. The ocean had not redeemed itself just yet. You pulled your knees to your chest so your feet were out of the water. The silence of the night would never be peaceful; if it was quiet enough, you could still hear his voice in your ear.

Fortunately, the silence broke. Soft footsteps in the sand were trailing towards you, and wide, golden eyes met your small frame. Lo'ak had not expected you so far away from the village, alone, at night. "(y/n)," he froze. "What're you doing here?"

"Lo'ak," you let out a breath of relief that you'd been holding for the past few days. You stood and brushed the sand off of your legs. "I've- We've been looking for you. Your mother and father have been so worried."

He frowned at the mention of his family--of his father. He refused to even imagine what they could possibly think of him. "I was just out," Lo'ak tried to dismiss the topic and swiftly walked past you, his shoulder barely brushing yours. "I'm fine."

The remnants of your heart cracked once again. Even when a hand reached out for him, grasping onto his fingertips, he'd pull away. The fear of rejection--the thought of placing his trust in someone with only betrayal in return--was too great. Lo'ak would abandon others before they could abandon him.

"Lo'ak, please." your hand gently grabbed his shoulder to turn him back to you. He stood a few inches over you and refused to look down to meet your eyes.

There was a soft spark in his chest, and you could see the flame beginning to grow. "What do you want, (y/n)?" He retorted with a sigh.

"You know what it is, Lo'ak." You brushed your hand down his arm to meet his palm. You placed his own hand on top of his heart. He sighed, breath laced with heavy regret and guilt. Lo'ak knew that whatever he'd been hiding for the past few months would be coming up right there in front of you.

He practically collapsed onto the sand, feet set in the water and arms wrapped around his legs, but he quickly pulled himself away from the shore, just like you had earlier, once the memories began to feel too real. You sat right by his side and looked off to the dark horizon. The two of you stared with broken hearts. "Have you gone to see him?"

There was silence, apart from the gentle lapping of the waves and the village in the distance. "No," he regretfully looked down at his lap. "Have you?"

You shook your head, "No." Your response wasn't much better.

For as much as the two of you missed him, neither of you had gone to the Spirit Tree like the rest of the Suli family. The only images of Neteyam that you had left were the memories still burned into your vision. โ€œIโ€™m afraid to forget him,โ€ Loโ€™ak admitted. He bit the inside of his cheek. โ€œBut Iโ€™m too scared to see him again.โ€

You looked to him with sympathetic eyes. For the first time since his brotherโ€™s death, Loโ€™ak broke. Three tears left a trail down his face to where they dropped off his skin and onto the sand. โ€œI donโ€™t know much about spirits,โ€ you began. You set a firm, reassuring hand on Loโ€™akโ€™s shoulder. โ€œBut Neteyam loved us with all his heart. Even as he rests with the Great Mother, he loves us.โ€

He tried to nod along to your words as if he would better believe them. Loโ€™ak gently gasped before a quiet, broken sob left his throat, โ€œI know itโ€™s my fault.โ€ His shoulders heaved. โ€œIf I hadnโ€™t made him go back for Spider or- or if I stayed behind instead of him..โ€

โ€œOh, Loโ€™ak,โ€ you cooed, turning towards him and engulfing him in a hug. He leaned his forehead down onto your shoulder. This was the first comfort heโ€™d felt in months. โ€œWe canโ€™t tell ourselves those things.โ€

His tears collected on your skin. โ€œMy brother,โ€ he whimpered, โ€œis gone.โ€

Your fingers gently caressed the back of his head, tracing over his braids. You shushed him, โ€œThereโ€™s nothing we can do.โ€ How could you affirm this to Loโ€™ak when you couldnโ€™t even accept it yourself? You pulled away so you could look him in the eyes.

โ€œI miss him too much.โ€ Loโ€™ak wept.

Holding his face between your gentle hands, you nodded. Together, your tears soaked the sand beneath you; the two of you couldโ€™ve created an entire ocean. โ€œI miss him, too, paskalin.โ€ Your thumb soothed cheek and wiped away the tears from his eyes. โ€œBut we must stay strong for him.

โ€œAll we can do is remember. One day, weโ€™ll be strong enough to see him, I know it. But for now, we must be strong,โ€ You put your hand over his heart. The beat of his soul turned steady; you remembered how Neteyamโ€™s slowed to a stop, and for the first time since his death, you pushed the memory away without a single tear. โ€œIn here.โ€

Loโ€™ak closed his eyes and calmed his breath, allowing the feeling of your palm on his skin to soothe him. Heโ€™d opened himself and poured out his heart. Now, he could heal.

The night continued on, and you stayed with Loโ€™ak throughout the dark reign. He could take however long he needed. You would comfort him through whatever war he created in his mind. The tide came in, brushing water against your knees, but the two of you remained.

Finally, he opened his eyes. โ€œWe should return to the village.โ€ Before, Loโ€™ak spoke bluntly with a dismissive mask to cover how broken he truly was. Now, his voice was firm and strong.

โ€œAre you sure?โ€ You warned. He stood and you cautiously rode with him.

His hands, which had been balled in tense fists, released themselves. Loโ€™ak nodded, โ€œIโ€™ve been too focused on my brother that Iโ€™ve forgotten the rest of my family. Do you think theyโ€™ll forgive me?โ€

With a sweet, proud smile, you offered, "They already have."

โ”€โ”€

The path back to the village was peaceful given that you and Lo'ak had come to terms with your grief. He had warned you that his parents would most likely be angry when you returned since it'd been hours since they'd last seen you and days since they'd seen him. You'd consoled him, "We'll get through it together."

It was strange that in Neteyam's absence, you and Lo'ak were able to replace the void with each other. Although he was only a year younger, you'd always felt a sisterly love for him, the same way that you felt for Kiri or Tuk. Now that your connection with Lo'ak had healed, maybe you could too.

Life ahead was beginning to look a little brighter in that moment as you walked on the shore.

But your peace was short-lived.

The village was close enough that you could see the pods, docks, and several Metkayina men with glowing lanterns that noticed you and Lo'ak approaching. They called out and, together, the two of you rushed to them.

"What is wrong?" Lo'ak prodded, trying to look past their broad shoulders at the commotion that was collecting in the village.

You tried as well but they were too tall compared to you. "You must come with us," one of the men said. The flames in the lanterns gently flickered but you could well enough see Kiri running in the distance. Her eyes were wide with fear like she'd seen a ghost.

"Kiri!" You exclaimed.

She pushed past the men and, out of breath, embraced Lo'ak. "Brother!" There were tears falling from her eyes, only you had expected her to happily cry at the sight of Lo'ak. Instead, she wept. "You must come. Come, (y/n)."

Kiri led you both back to the village, the men following after you to provide light. Almost every person in Awa'atlu--man, woman, young, and old--crowded near the shore. They yelled and gasped, cursing and praying. The three of you struggled to push past everyone, accidentally stepping on tails and toes and bumping elbows and shoulders.

Everyone seemed to look at you and Lo'ak with sympathy. Lo'ak sensed it as well, and looked just as confused as you were.

The crowd was like a hurricane, and in the center, the eye was calm. Jake and Neytiri kneeled on the ground, Tuk crying into her father's arm. Tonowari, Ao'nung, and a collection of soldiers held the people back. Ronal sat across from Neytiri, muttering a prayer with her eyes shut. Kiri ran to her mother's side. Tsireya rushed to Lo'ak as he collapsed.

Your heart stopped.

On the ground, where the ocean met the sand, a figure laid. He had strong legs and arms, a strapping abdomen, and calloused palms and fingers. There was a scar on the outside of his right thigh. Tanhรฌ scattered across his body like the constellations reflected on the ocean.

Your prince. His ghost would forever haunt you. What had you done wrong? What had you done for the Great Mother to curse you like this? Just as you could feel your wounds beginning to heal, your heart crumbled again.

You fell to your knees, placing your hand over your mouth to cover the ear-splitting wail you released. You could fully see your Neteyam now. Just as you had remembered it, but his eyes were gently shut. Neytiri cried alongside you, and your heart almost broke even further until you heard her whisper, "Thank you, Great Mother. Thank you."

What was she grateful for? Jake noticed your confusion, and with a hopeful smile, he took your hand and placed it on Neteyam's heart. Underneath the weight of your palm, you felt a gentle pulse. A steady, soft rhythm that rocked your core. Your tears stopped, a cry stuck in your throat.

You looked down to his body and gasped. "Oeyรค tรฌyawn," you whispered out to him, hoping he would hear it. Through just two words, your voice called out to him.

Golden eyes, that you thought you would never see again, opened.

His father gasped; his mother laughed; his sisters cheered, and his brother bowed with his forehead touching the ground. Neteyam's mighty heartbeat reached across Pandora.

"Ma 'Teyam," you smiled. You could taste your own tears as they reached the corners of your mouth. For the first time in months, you weren't crying from a split in your heart--you cried at the feeling of it healing. You were foolish to think the Great Mother would curse you. "Thank you, Great Mother."

Only two minutes had passed until you noticed the laughter and cheers of others had disappeared. The night had become silent again. Your smile fell when you recognized that Neteyam had not yet embraced you. In fact, he stayed frozen on the ground.

His eyes were still open, but they were wide and full of fear. Tuk reached for his hand, and he quickly pulled away with a scared gasp. He flinched when his own mother caressed his cheek. "Neteyam," she pleaded. Finally, his eyes met yours. You looked to him with desperate affection, practically shooting beams of love towards him. Your stomach dropped when you noticed it.

Your prince did not know who you were.

Your Mighty Warrior ( I. )

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Ghosts By Katherine Blower
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The Archer | Neteyam x Avatar!Reader

Summary: Your traumatic human life ended, making room for a new one amongst the Na'vi. You were a stone-cold areal hunter, death from above, but when your dad comes back from the dead with a mission that will endanger your life, what lengths would you go to to protect Neteyam and your new family?

Pairings: Neteyam x Avatar!Reader

Word Count: 20,2k (in progress)

Warnings/notes: much angst (you have been warned); mentions of death, violence, disease, mental illness, injury, blood; established relationship, swearing, smut (18+ , minors DNI)

A/N: The sequel to Illicit Affairs is here, and it will follow (all) the events of The Way of Water, so massive spoilers will be mentioned all throughout. I am so excited for this series, and I can't wait to share it with you. I love hearing your thoughts and comments and replies and asks, so please don't be shy, the serotonin fix it gives me is real, and I'm a phd student, i need that shit ok thank you enjoyyy xx

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I wake in the night, I pace like a ghost, the room is on fire, invisible smoke And all of my heroes die all alone, help me hold onto you

I've been the archer, I've been the prey Screaming, who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay?

CHAPTER I: Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince

CHAPTER II: Out of the Woods

CHAPTER III:

CHAPTER IV:

CHAPTER V:

3 years ago

Patroclus: If I died how much would you miss me?

Achilles: Itโ€™s cute that you think dying will get you out of this relationship.

2 years ago

๐’‚๐’—๐’‚๐’•๐’‚๐’“ ๐’Ž๐’‚๐’”๐’•๐’†๐’“๐’๐’Š๐’”๐’•

โœฟย - smut

โ˜๏ธŽ - angst

โฆ - fluff

๐‘๐‘’๐‘ก๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘Ž๐‘š ๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘– ๐‘‡๐‘ ๐‘ฆ๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘˜'๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘›

about youย โ˜๏ธŽ โฆ

midnight glowย โฆ

the gift of eywaย โฆ โ˜๏ธŽ

sail across the ocean, part twoย โฆ

loving you was never a regretย โฆ โ˜๏ธŽ

where your heart truly liesย โฆ โ˜๏ธŽ

๐ฝ๐‘Ž๐‘˜๐‘’ ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘™๐‘ฆ

to be writtenโ€ฆ

๐ฟ๐‘œ'๐‘Ž๐‘˜ ๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘™๐‘– ๐‘‡๐‘ ๐‘ฆ๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘˜'๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘Ž๐‘›

she looks just like a dream โฆ โ˜๏ธŽ

๐‘‡๐‘ ๐‘–๐‘Ÿ๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘Ž

to be writtenโ€ฆ

๐ด๐‘œโ€™๐‘›๐‘ข๐‘›๐‘”

to be writtenโ€ฆ

๐‘๐‘’๐‘ฆ๐‘ก๐‘–๐‘Ÿ๐‘– ๐‘ก๐‘’ ๐‘‡๐‘ ๐‘˜๐‘Žโ„Ž๐‘Ž ๐‘€๐‘œ'๐‘Ž๐‘ก'๐‘–๐‘ก๐‘’

full fics to be writtenโ€ฆ

headcanons/blurbs!

scissoring with neytiri โœฟ