Yugyeom Nanana Mv

yugyeom · nanana mv

omg.

i love you. i'm sorry. i'm back!!!

Jimin is a born idol. Whatever he does looks cool and every word he says to his fans is affectionate. “I just think I can show something a little more raw about me. That might include a more mature side, too, but what I’m really interested in is showing something closer to my real, personal rawness directly in a format like music or music videos. By doing so, I think maybe I can show something I never have before. […] I want to show off everything I’m capable of at the highest possible proficiency.”

nigga i am in diSTRESS

first of all, i couldn't find your acc through the search & thought you got disappeared 🤔

then i scrolled my follow list, found you, just to find out you ain't active rn 😩

i know the content & commentary are coming (cause issa lot that's happened/is happening 😭) so i'm sending you love in between time ❤️❤️

🪨

NEVER FEAR, I AM HERE. AGAIN.

it made me feel special that you were so concerned about me being gone 😭 that was actually a nice push to come back - to see that someone really cared about me and this little corner of the world we've been creating.

imma be honest about my absence - my hot girl summer started and for the first time in a long time, i was out there doing hoe shit🥴 ya girl has had many a moment of sitting front row at the circus over these past few months 🎪🤡🤹🏽‍♀️ but the brightside is that getting my back blown out real good has helped me to refocus after being in A Mood And A Funk™.

months ago, before the streets were calling my name, before my disappearance, i had been working on this collection of stories that i was excited to share but have been hush about bc (1), if i share the news too soon, i might not ever finish it lmao and (2) i'm so slow that i wanted to have at least half of the series finished before starting to post anything so i could feel what it's like to be the sort of prolific tumblr writer that posts REGULARLY. ugh just imagine not having the attention span of a poodle.

but then - and this is where the human mind gets ridiculous - i discovered a just released collection of stories revolving around the same basic idea and i was BUMMED. and it's dumb bc of course there are so many tropes that are present in the world of fiction and we all have our different styles of writing that really, i knew in my logical brain that what i was writing was undoubtedly going to be different just by virtue of the fact that it was me writing it and it was going to center black/brown readers and that would add another layer and even if the same people ended up reading both, it would be less like "ugh look at this knock off" and more like "OMG LOOK THERE'S EVEN MORE SMUT TO READ".

.....but my illogical brain was like "why even bother?" And so that led to me not wanting to write ANYTHING so I was taking a break from writing for a little while that turned into a longer while.

those feelings worsened a little while when it was first announced that BTS was going on a "hiatus". when i initially heard the news, it wasn't even them that i was worried about because i'm excited to see each of them shine in solo projects and i knew it wasn't the end even without them needing to clarify, but i was reminded of when GOT7 left JYP and it got really quiet and inactive in that community - at least as far as i was seeing. so i got further discouraged to think of that happening in this community 😞but then omg - these 7 men have me RUNNING LAPS LATELY. they've been making my head spin with just how active and still together they are and i started venturing onto tumblr again and i see that we're all still here and there are still spaces for us all to fill and i'm loving that i came back to SO MUCH ACTIVITY from everyone that i follow and i even saw a little uptick in likes on some of my posts and it killed me with kindness.

so i apologize for the sudden and extended disappearance but i am here again and ready to scream about all the things with you again 💜💜💜

tl;dr: i am occasionally a slutty ball of anxiety, community is crucial, my lust is eternal, let's keep partying on!

sweet suga, handyman…🤤 | for @lesbianslovejhope​

+ mister min, sir-

j-hope / agust d.