OC Fact Swap: Kenny, The Main Character Of My WIP Lucidity, Has The Ability To Travel To Alternate Dimensions

OC fact swap: Kenny, the main character of my WIP Lucidity, has the ability to travel to alternate dimensions through her dreams.

Oh, she sounds fantastic! I wish I could do that ;). Tungsten, the main character of Elemtary, has magic en knows a spell to lure memories from objects.

I was tagged by the lovely @create-and-procrastinate to answer some questions about me. Thank you!

Relationship Status: All by myself (cue dramatic music)

Chapstick or Lipstick: I like lipstick. I should wear it more often!

Favorite Colors: Soft, light blue, ocean blue and deep red. L

ast Movie I Saw: Palo Alto, based on stories by James Franco. It has a great atmosphere that completely pulled me into it.

Top 3 TV Shows: The last three I watched are Black Sails (all four seasons at once), The End of the F***ing World (this is so weird and so good) and Dark (not yet finished, but quite entranced).

Top 3 Bands/Artists: I can't choose all time favorites, but right now I'm listening to Death Cab for Cutie, The Bear's Den and Sleeping at Last.

Books I’m Currently Reading: I'm reading Wuthering Heights for university and I just finished The Picture of Dorian Grey (which I adored), so I'm into classics right now! 

Tagging @concealeddarkness13, @authorisada, @theimpossiblescheme and @siljehawthorne. Don’t do it if you don’t feel like it!

But this is a paradox, is it not? Because what is braver than admitting you are not brave? If you can’t face the truth in the mirror, at least you can face the truth right here, in this piece of text. You have shown us. You have told us writers -  scared, trembling, bold writers - that you are afraid to speak out. And in doing so, you have confronted us and yourself with such a vulnerable, honest thing. 

Maybe you cannot stand up to anyone (yet). Maybe you cannot raise your voice (yet). Maybe you cannot confront (yet). But you can write about it. You are doing it right now. You are giving us the murky depth of your heart and you are defying the norm by admitting your doubts.

Why do I write? Why do so many writers write? Because we see the things that are wrong - with the world, with ourselves. And we cannot speak about them. So we put them on paper. Instead of yelling, arguing, confronting, we create a story, a poem.

They say the pen in mightier than the sword. You just told us that you are not a fighting, sword-wielding knight. But you have used your pen, and you are most certainly a writer.

I am not bold

There are a lot of things a lot of people say about how to be a writer. Write every day, get published, get readers to love you, win awards and whatever. But for me there is one thing that all writers, actually all creative people, seem to have in common.

They are bold.

They defy the norm, they defy the conventions, they defy the universe itself.

Writers write from the murky awful depths of their hearts. This goes for all writers not just some genres. There is unique courage in writing a story that tears your own self apart. But they do it anyway and then they stitch themselves back together by writing more! 

Here’s my problem. I am not bold.

I am a coward. I would be the first to say that. I hate confrontation. I don’t ever point out anything wrong. I cannot stand up to anyone without having a complete panic attack. I cannot even stand in front of a mirror and face the truth of myself without my knees shaking. I stay quiet when people around me raise their voices. I stay quiet when saying something would mean something. I stay quiet even if my heart is breaking, especially when my heart is breaking.

I don’t confront. I don’t question. I don’t refuse.

This might be conditioning from my upbringing. This might be the weight of expectations thrown on me. Or this might just be who I am.

At the end of the day, all this means is that I pull back when I should write honestly. I step aside when I should forge on. I delete the words that must have stayed.

At the end of the day, I am not bold enough to be a writer. And I probably never will be.

Help!

So this is not writing-related, but I’d love it if some of you could help me out! I am considering studying in Dundee, but I have no idea what the place is like. Has any of you ever been to Dundee? Care to tell me something about it? I’d love you forever for reblogging this message and helping me gather some information!

More taggames! I was tagged by the lovely @andtheotherwriter to share the first three lines of my WIP, while the wonderful @merigreenleaf tagged me to the share the last line (at least, the last I’ve written so far). This is for Elementary: He had been repeating the name in his mind for weeks. Tungsten. He muttered it when he was standing behind the counter of his father's shop, wrote it in inkt on his lower arm, whispered it into Miltons ears. Slowly, the sound had wrapped itself around him, comfortable like an old jacket.   

And the last one: Tungsten sat down and cried. He's going to be okay, I promise! I’m not tagging anyone because this has been going around for a while now and I’m not sure who’s already done it, but if you haven’t, feel free to take this note as a tag!

OC fact swap.

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