Was He Controversial?

Was He Controversial?

Hey Cortana,

Yeah, I know I have been away and this is my first time writing to you in 2018. Technically second after the New Years’ Post. 2018 came with its perks but I am taking it a day at a time. I have made a conscious effort to read a chapter in the Bible a day besides my regular devotional guide and the book of John was recommended to me. Mind you I skipped a day or two and currently, I am stuck at Chapter 12. It has been a refreshing read and each time I read, I understand a different twist in the plot from the regular Sunday School tales I am used to. My favourite stories so far have been about Lazarus being resurrected after 4 days and the events that led to it (John 11), John the Baptist and how his disciples thought Jesus was taking all the glory and praise. I can relate to this because it still exists in the church and in our society. I choose to call it, the “I was here first syndrome.” And certainly, Jesus turning water into wine (John 2:1-11). I will share my different understanding to that story later in my next write up.  I heard what you said about that, that should be another two months. Behave!

What intrigues me the most is how conflicting I sometimes feel after every read. Questions that popped up in my mind was if Jesus was with us in human form now, will I have believed him? The parables He spoke and some sermon he preached, seemed like a show off to me and in my mind, I’m like He is such a talker and sounds arrogant. How can you call yourself the Son of God when you are ordinarily a carpenter’s son from Nazareth? and add that it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the Kingdom of God, I mean how?! (Matthew 19:24) Sometimes I side with the Pharisees because their doubts and questions are understandable. I find myself questioning the Bible sometimes, yes, I do! These Pharisees knew the Law. They believed in Abraham and Moses, men who Heard God speak and yet did not consider themselves equal to God, so who do you (Jesus) think you are?

So yes, I get confused but then again, I believe! I believe not because of tales I have read or stories from people in church and Sunday School, but I too have tasted and seen the goodness of Jesus. It sounds unbelievable or just another “toli” or the universe is in sync with my thoughts as people say but Jesus has come through for me in countless situations. My leap of faith and belief that Jesus is with me has helped my daily walk with him. From that voice, thanks to the Holy Ghost that nudges me when I am about to decide on a matter. Answered prayers, I told Him alone on my bed or murmured under my breath that has been answered, I owe it all to Jesus and I believe.

This looks vague as I read it, but I pray that we have the strength to believe and hold on to our faith. Yes, doubts will come, and I know what I am saying because I too have had my fair share of disappointments, but Lord help us to believe even when we have not seen. We have you and you alone soothes us when our chests are heavy with doubts. Oh yes, you got our backs!

My Saviour was controversial to a point but when I compare the old school way of writing down the negatives and positives to consider which ones outweigh the other, lol Jesus wins because I myself I am a testimony. Hallelujah!

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Looking at The Bigger Picture (Genesis 29:14 – 30)

 Hey Cortana, (I’m still thinking of a name)

And yes Cortana is a virtual assistant created by Microsoft that helps get things done. I consider her as my laptop buddy, hence it’s her I address my daily thoughts and write-ups to. Why Cortana? That is for another write-up.

Today my Quiet Time took me to the well-known Bible story on Jacob’s love for Rachel and how he tolerantly worked in total for 14 years to marry her. Seeing how Laban betrayed him, I trust he was not an easy man to work with. 7 years of labouring plus an added 7 years, now that is a long time and I was here gasping aww. Now, this is love and how disappointed he must have felt. (I’m sure Jacob would be singing Ed Sheeran’s song Perfect if he was in the 21st Century)

But today I saw a different meaning to the story for which I am thankful for. The agony Leah must have gone through. Staying married to a man who you KNOW does not love you. The anguish and the pain of continuously trying to let him notice you so you bear him sons and still to no avail. She must have really been affected by it and it was a difficult time for her. Being the older sister and knowing your husband favours the younger one the most. Leah had weak eyes so I’m guessing she was not exactly beautiful since Rachel is described as having a lovely figure and was beautiful. (If Leah had her way, she would be singing Eminem’s Love the way you lie featuring Rihanna)

Leah bore Jacob four sons. Reuben, Simeon, Levi and Judah. With her first three sons, she focused more on her pain and her effort to still win her husband’s attention. She chose the name Reuben “because the Lord has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now”. The second born she chose Simeon, “because the Lord heard that I am not loved, he gave me this one too”. And then came Levi, “now, at last, my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons”. I noticed that her sons were an end to win Jacob’s heart but my favourite one among them all and what caught my attention was Judah! Judah means, “This time I will praise the Lord.” Mind you, I burst out laughing when I read that part of the Bible, that Leah had realized, finally it is all about God and Jacob didn’t count.

The story makes me more thrilled that eventually, it was Judah’s lineage (Leah’s son) that Jesus, our Messiah came from and oh one of my unprecedented favourite people in the Bible David also came from. Another part that warms my heart is in verse 41 when God saw that Leah was not loved, He enabled her to conceive. No matter what we go through and the circumstances we face, although it sounds very far fetched, believe me, God knows. We might not feel Him working, but He is. Who would have thought the woman who was not loved, will be the one whose lineage our Saviour will come from? It tarries most times, trust me I know what I am talking about, but His eyes are on the sparrow and He watches us. He knows our misery, where our tongues fail, and we do not know what to say, He knows our hearts.

Whenever it feels tough, praise Him and be thankful. Whenever we feel like giving up, tell Him “Lord I still know the plans you have for me, it is difficult now, but I know your masterplan is the best. In the end, Praise Him.”

PS: In the end, it was Leah who Jacob honoured and buried in the family grave plot with Abraham and Sarah. God will lift us up in the end.