This Monologue Was Everything...
This monologue was everything...đ©·
âItâs literally impossible to be a woman.
You are so beautiful, and so smart, and it kills me that you don't think you're good enough. Like, we have to always be extraordinary, but somehow, we're always doing it wrong?
You have to be thin, but not too thin, and you can never say you wanna be thin. You have to say you wanna be healthy, but also, you have to BE THIN.
You have to have money, but you can't ask for money because that's crass.
You have to be a boss, but you can't be mean.
You have to lead, but you can't squash other people's ideas.
You're supposed to love being a mother, but don't talk about your kids all the damn time.
You have to be a career woman, but also, always be looking out for other people.
You have to answer for men's bad behavior, which is INSANE, but if you point that out, you're accused of complaining!
You're supposed to stay pretty for men, but not so pretty that you tempt them too much or that you threaten other women because you're supposed to be a part of the sisterhood, but ALWAYS STAND OUT and ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL. But never forget that the system is rigged, so find a way to acknowledge that but ALSO, always be grateful!
You have to never get old. Never be rude. Never show off. Never be selfish. Never fall down. Never fail. Never show fear. Never get OUT OF LINE. It's too hard! It's too contradictory, and nobody gives you a medal or says 'thank you!' And it turns out, in fact, that not only are you doing everything wrong, but also, everything is your fault.
I'm just so tired of watching myself, and every single other woman tie herself into knots, so that people will like us.
And if all of that, is also true for a doll just representing a woman, then I don't even know." -Gloria the barbie movie
this is it. this is exactly it oh my god.
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Iâm Back...
I am attending my last exam tomorrow. Soon, Iâll be posting regularly again. At least, I hope so...
These are what youâre gonna get before long:
The last part of âMy Guardian Angelâ
Fast updates on the series âNoona! Please! Help!â
Slow updates on the series âThe Other Sideâ
Personal review on Jinâs single âThe Astronautâ
Short drabbles, if I have the time and mood
Noona! Please! Help! - Part 3

Fandom: BTS Characters: Younger Brothers BTS and Elder Sister Narrator Genre: A Little Dramatic and A Little Comedic Word Count: 1.1K Words Warning:Â Angsty (Itâs me), mention of child abuse, self doubt, did I mention angst? Note: Itâs a siblings AU story of BTS with the narrator as their elder sister. I tried to write something different from what I usually write about. I had fun making this. Hope it makes you feel good too. Happy Reading Everyone :)
Summary: Her little brothers canât attend to a single task without her help. Be it a dance competition or asking out a girl for a date, they always seem to be finding everything too hard to go through without her by their side. âOur lucky charmâ; thatâs what they like to call her. But what if she turns out to be a misfortune in different situations in one single day?
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - More to come

Who Will Pay the Rent?
9:24 a.m. 1st September, 2015
âJust a few more minutes left.â Yoongi sighs heavily, âyou could have easily saved the bother to come here, today.â
âWhat happened?â I ask, taking the empty seat beside him. âI thought you said that weâre winning today. Whatâs up with that long face?â
âIt seemed like that at the first half.â Yoongi nods towards the field, âas you can see, the tables took a 180 degree turn.â
Honestly, I donât understand a thing about basketball. It is better to just take Yoongiâs words as they are. I ask him the important question now, âhow much do you owe them?â
Yoongi intentionally avoids eye contact and keeps looking at the match without a reply. I notice that he is sweating like crazy. I understand now that it is not just about the game.
âDonât tell me you have to sell a kidney to pay them.â I jokingly say to which he doesnât budge. I grow agitated. âYoongi! Câmon, tell me what it is?â
He sighs and says, âItâs just worth my rent, thatâs all.â
âYour rent?â I ask, âlike for the month?â
Yoongi nods and stays silent. We both remain silent for the rest of the game. I wish I could offer to help him. It is most likely that he will not accept anything directly from me. I, on the other hand, am not in a place to help him either.
My phone vibrates in my pocket and I quickly take a look at Jiminâs message saying heâs going inside the exam hall right now. I write a small âgood luckâ reply and put my phone back inside the pocket.
Yoongi starts to stand up from his seat, âLetâs get out of here! Itâs not like anything can change in the last few minutes.â
I nod and follow him out of the stadium. He asks me if I want something to eat to which I shake my head.
âNoona!â Yoongi says, âStop worrying about me. Itâs not like Iâm going bankrupt or something. Itâs just some stupid amount of money, thatâs all.â
âSo,â I start hesitantly, âwho will pay the rent?â
âIâll manage that somehow, Noona. I always do.â
Yoongiâs the one among us whoâs the most desperate to make a lot of money. Thatâs why he goes into these betting games and all. I once heard from Jin that he had found Yoongi starving himself because he lost all his money on some games and Jin had helped him that one time even though Yoongi refused to be helped. I donât really approve of his ways but who am I to stop him? I did not raise him. I donât even understand his ways of thinking.
I still feel like I should advise him to stop this nonsense and try something else. Something permanent. He is a genius and I know he will be able to figure something out if he wants. But I also feel like today is not the time to lecture him on life. Not when heâs already so stressed about it.
I decide to head to my next destination. I am not going to leave Yoongi in this state. So, I ask him, âIf you donât have to be anywhere, will you come with me?â
âI can manage some time. Where will you take me, Noona?â
âWeâre going to meet Jimin.â

Jiminâs exam will be finished at around 11 a.m. So, Yoongi and I wait for him outside the hall where there seems to be a huge crowd of the guardians of the other students. I mentally pray that Jimin will be able to outsmart them on his test today.
âI never understand Jiminâs appeal for education.â Yoongi says.
âI think itâs the same one as yours.â I offer an explanation, âCome to think of it. At the end of the day you both want to win at life. By elevating your status. Either with education or with money.â
âYou know what, Noona?â
âWhat?â
âI hate it so much that youâre always right!â There is a faint line of smile on his face as he says the last sentence.
âYoongiâ I suddenly feel an urge to talk to him seriously. Yoongi barely talks about his real issues.
âNoona?â
âIâm asking this because Iâm really worried about you, okay?â
Yoongi frowns, âI think I know what youâre going to say. Iâm sorry for making you feel that way. I really am. Iâm sorry, Noona!â
âOh no, dear!â I quickly add, âYou donât have to apologize. I understand that youâre going through tough times.â
âNoona!â Yoongi looks at a distance as he speaks, âDo you remember maâs face? Like, not the one as we see in her pictures. The face of her when she was sick. That face she had before she could finally rest after years of pain she went through.â
I donât know why Yoongi is suddenly bringing this topic. Is he really missing ma all of a sudden or just trying to change the topic? Yoongi glances at me for a second and I can see his eyes glistening.
âIf only I had the money, I would have taken a bus from school to come to see you.â Yoongi sniffs, âhe wouldnât let me go no matter how much I begged him to. Said it was a âwaste of good money seeing some sick peopleâ. I donât think I can ever move on from the fact that I never saw ma and pa again after I left that house.â
âYoongi!â I can barely make myself audible.
Yoongi never talked about the times he spent with our uncle who took him in when ma fell sick. Yoongi was only four at that time and he was the only one who never came to visit us occasionally during the five years when ma and pa were still alive. When I used to ask pa about it, he would always say that Yoongi was too busy with his school. I only got to see him first at their funeral. Only after Yoongi left uncleâs place for good when he was finally eighteen, we started meeting almost regularly.
âIâm sorry, Noona, I turned up this way.â Yoongi looks at me, his eyes bloodshot, âI didnât really have an opportunity to be any better than this. Of course, I wonât use this as an excuse. Iâm all grown up now and Iâm trying to be more responsible. I swear, Noona, you will be proud of me like all the rest of our brothers one day. I will make that happen.â
âBut I am proud of you!â I say, âI am proud of how strong you are. I am proud that after all those shits you went through, you still grew up to be such a kind and sweet soul.â
âThank you, Noona! But you donât really have to cheer me up.â Yoongi shrugs his shoulders, âI know me.â
âAnd I know you too.â I slowly move towards him and pull him into a hug, âI see you, Yoongi. I see you!â I slowly pat him on his back as I can sense him fighting the urge to hug me back.

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a long, canon compliant marauders fic where year 1-3 (or 2) are in remusâ perspective (from the beginning of their friendship until the other three boys find out heâs a werewolf), year 4-5 are in siriusâ perspective (running away from his family, the prank), year 6-7 are in jamesâ (the aftermath of the prank, how he matured, his relationship with regulus and then lily)
and finally the war years, in peterâs perspective, where itâs finally explored the reason behind his betrayal, the peak of a change that had started years before but that we (and the other boys) didnât notice.
Singularity

Fandom: BTS
Pairing: Namjoon Ă Reader
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âShit!â I huffed out as I had to climb the stairs up to the third floor and my poor lungs wouldnât want to cooperate as always, âI forgot my water bottle at home again.â
âYou can have mine, no problem!â a boy handed me his half filled plastic bottle.
I usually follow one rule while drinking water from other peopleâs bottles. I ask them if they touch their lips to the bottles opening while drinking and usually refuse to drink from the same bottle if they do.
That day, however, I didnât have the mind to do that as I straight up uncapped the bottle to finish the whole thing in one go. When I looked up to say âthanksâ and âsorryâ, he was already gone. As it was almost time for the next class, I supposed he hurried to get to his. I remembered the boyâs name to be Namjoon.
Namjoon was a boy I would often see in between classes. Sometimes we would nod, ask when the next class was or simply smile at each other. And then, weâd go our separate ways. I knew him just like that. I didnât remember ever having a full conversation with him.
I didnât see him again after that day. But I heard some rumors about him around the campus not long after. He was accused of saying something that sparked controversy. Since I didnât know him in person I never expressed my opinion on the matter. But I had a lingering wish to meet him again, to return his empty plastic bottle that I still carry in my bag.
That wish came true when I finally saw him again.
He was having lunch at an empty table at the corner of the cafeteria. There was no one around so I walked up to him right away.
âIâm so sorry I could not return your bottle that day!â I had told him.
âWhat bottle?â He looked at me with genuine confusion.
I took out the said bottle from my bag to put on the table. Namjoon let out a chuckle at its sight. âYou wanted to return this?â
âI know, it might not be a huge deal to you. But I literally canât sleep in peace until I return what I borrow from someone else. Be it a pen or book or whatever.â I explained myself clearly to which Namjoon nodded and took the empty bottle off the table.
âIâll take it back then.â He said, âHope it gives you some peace.â
He shook his head slightly and laughed. For some reason, I felt overwhelmed seeing him laugh like that. His eyes completely vanished behind the wrinkles as he laughed. He looked so unreal. I couldnât make up my mind why I was feeling that way at such a small act of someone I barely knew. But I had a feeling that it was a moment I would never witness again. I felt the need to capture it in a picture so that I could look at it whenever I wanted to.
However, I didn't take his picture that day. Instead I stood there for a while, enjoying the moment as it was. He didnât invite me to sit next to him. I wished he did.
The next time I heard about Namjoon was from a group of friends talking about college in general. I wasn't minding their gossip until I heard them speak about him.
"Good grades aren't everything, you see!" One of them said, "you need to have a better character to not be kicked out of school like that."
I was shocked to find what happened to Namjoon regarding those rumors. As much as I wanted to interrupt their conversation, I couldn't bring myself to do so. Yet my heart couldn't believe a word of the dirty talks I heard around. Even though I wasn't a friend of his, neither was I an acquaintance, in my heart, I still pictured him as the smiling boy who had helped me at the time I needed it.
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... and I will wait for you! {trans cr. @/haruharu_w_bts}