My Ancestors *watching Me Peal A Mango And Bite Into It Like An Apple Because I Am Too Lazy To Cut It*

My ancestors *watching me peal a mango and bite into it like an apple because I am too lazy to cut it* : Our daughter is eating the golden apple of the gods, from lands far away delivered to her hand by a fair lad, she prospers!

I just got into college

I feel like i am 2 years behind

Ahead of all my peers but I don't feel fine

I feel scared and I feel guilty

'cause my parents will foot the bill

and my physiology's degree in Italy

probably wont pay the rent

i got it figured out when I was like six

but now the time is coming and i just want to weep.

My friend is flirting with soldiers on IG

while I wish I was joking but i think there will be a War

and playing nurse is my thing

but not in real life .

I should be studying proteins

but i am writing this

because i am anxious and life is what it is

I will never be 18 again , the day before school ends,sitting outside with my class as we read poems (there Is the irish man from the 9th century, and the neo-greeks all drinking tea with Garcia L'orca)

Life

The sun is shining, the rain is pourting at the same time. The garden is green and lush for summer and the thunders are strong. I whent outside and danced in the rain for a couple of seconds before going back inside. I got to study, tommorow is the last test, then school is over. The day after i will go the city with my friends and we will have fun...life is good once again.

Give me someone to love

Gods i have so much love to give. I am aching to give it to someone, to pour this all into someone who deserve it.

I am not pretty , I am not beautifull, I have a bit to much flesh on my bones to be but by the gods I am going to hold him when he cries.

I am going to make him soup when he is sick. I am going to buy him flowers because men deserve flowers.

I am going to help him with homework and he will help me

I will be good, I have so much love to give, I swear . I will be good, I just want someone to give me half a chance.

I will learn his birthday and knit him a blanket, I will embroider his name inside my pocket to hold him over my heart.

I will kiss his aches, and give him my heart. I will tell him he is beautiful and maybe he will think i am cute.

Fuck that I will be their emergency phone call, I will want to be his, I will be the sunlight to his midnight rain or any other shitty love song reference.

I will be good, I have so much to give. I just want to love someone .

I want to hug them, and kiss their heads, and bring them somewhere warm . Somwhere safe where they can lay down,drink chamomile and eat lavender bread and maybe, just maybe, try to forget everything for a moment.