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THIS USER MISSES UNUS ANNUS SO MUCH

Memento Mori

I was here, when the channel started. I was sent an ask that was surprised at Ethan and Mark’s twitter bios, and when they showed the suits and spirals and the timer for one year. For the chant Unus Annus, for the community that banded together in shared hashtags and posts, memes and creations.

I fell out of some videos. They weren’t always my cup of tea. I obsessed over others, and talked about them a lot. I created, I drew. I made. I watched, I shared.  

And then, somewhere in the middle, I endured, because 2020 was a test of pain and healing. 

As November 14 neared, I realized I fell in love. In the routine, in the chaos, in washing dishes and laughing about the backlog of videos that I still needed to watch for Unus Annus. I was so in love with creating that I pushed myself to do so, despite being burnt out, that I made pieces that evolved my art to levels my 10 year old would have never realized I would ever do. 

I cried, earlier. Realizing the there was a time when I fell out of love, got disheartened at myself and the world, of what I created before that gap and what I could do now. I set aside a whole day for this goodbye, and I just never realized that the who I am today is vastly different from who I was, yet more understanding of myself. 

You don’t know how much it means to me, to see people look at Mark and Ethan stimming or being haphazard, and say you’re okay. To see Unus Annus make content everyday despite quarantine, no matter how random or bad or good or great, because it’s worth it. That every day is a new day. 

Mark, Ethan, Amy and the editors’ content of Unus Annus was inspiration to create, the aesthetic and theme a reminder, but the community made it alive. Even if the content will go away, you made me live in 2020. 

You don’t know how much that means to me.

y’all wanna go get ice cream or-

yass

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Me

this is a good summary of my mental health

If you frequently find yourself in the fetal position, crying yourself to sleep, and wishing you were with your friends , I think we should be friends.

Me

I can't even