If You Want To Get All Up In Your Jin Feels, Then Boy Do I Have A Fic For You! @joyfulhopelox You Are

If you want to get all up in your Jin feels, then boy do I have a fic for you! @joyfulhopelox you are the BEST.

i wish you knew | ksj

Pairing: Jin x reader (lovers to exes to lovers! au)

Genre: angst, with a bit of fluff

Warnings: just tears

Rating: g

Wordcount: 1.2k

This is a drabble requested by the wonderful @delacyrose224 I had a hard time writing this, because of personal reasons. I took this request to heart and I put my heart out there with this. I hope you like it (the author may have cried whilst writing this). I can only hope i made it justice.

Prompt: Taylor Swift- I wish you would

𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒘𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒈𝒐 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌

𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒓𝒆𝒎𝒆𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒐𝒓

𝑾𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒏𝒆𝒘 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕

𝑰 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒐𝒐 𝒎𝒖𝒄𝒉 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒎𝒂𝒅 𝒂𝒏𝒚𝒎𝒐𝒓𝒆

𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆, 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒏𝒐𝒘

𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅

𝑰 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅

Rᴇǫᴜᴇsᴛs ᴀʀᴇ sᴛɪʟʟ ᴏᴘᴇɴ!

It was a whirlwind romance. A romance that struck you like a car crash; a romance that took your breath away. It was the warmth of his embrace, the look in his eyes, the way he held you in his arms. The sound of his voice as he hummed along to the song playing on the radio. It was during those warm summer evenings that he’d take you out for a drive, fingers linked tightly, promising to never let go. It was those memories that had you holding onto hope, your ears perked up listening for the sound of his car. He would be passing by any second. Any second now you would see the headlights passing by your window, and the familiar thrum of the engine calling you out like it did before.

“I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.” His whisper barely reached your ears, as he held you tightly in his arms. Moulding into him, you sighed in contentment, your fingers raked through his hair, massaging his scalp. Humming deep in thought, you finally responded, your voice too, barely above a whisper. “And how do you see me?” You shifted your position to your side, briefly detangling yourself from his hold to glance at him. He looked flushed, a small dusting of red across the apples of his cheeks. His plush lips curled into a smile.

“I see you as I see air.” He softly answered, his fingers languidly brushing against your back earning a soft mewl from you. Scooting closer to his warmth and letting yourself be enveloped into his arms completely, you lightly pinched his arm in disapproval. Jin’s overdramatic cry of pain was followed by his fingers slightly digging into your ribs, the place where he knew you were ticklish. Your squeals of laughter echoed through the night, the sound of your happiness filling his heart with adoration. “So you mean to say I am invisible?” You reply after you finally managed to get him to stop. Huffing in mock anger you squirm into his hold, trying to move yourself away from him. Laughing at your attempt to push him away, his arms tighten their grip bringing you closer, your face smushed into his chest. You wanted to protest, but his musky scent enveloping your senses was what you needed. Grabbing a fistful of his t-shirt you began to relax into him with a sigh of satisfaction

“No, love. Never.” His fingers resumed stroking down your back, this time drawing random patterns. “Air is precious; without air I cannot breathe; without air I cannot be alive; without air nothing on this planet would be possible.” He kissed the top of your head. His confession made you pause, your breath caught in your throat, tears welling up in your eyes. Burying your face deeper into him, you let out a staggered breath. “That is what you are to me. My sole reason for existence.” He carried on, his hands now at the nape of your throat, fingers tangled in your hair.

You knew that no matter how much you waited, the car would never drive by. His hand would never hold yours, and the more he became your air, the less you became his.

Curling up under the covers, your heart in tatters next to you, you sobbed. You sobbed for yourself, you sobbed for him, you sobbed for the both of you. You cried your heart out into the night, your body unable to move. The pain of what will never be, paralysing you. You ached with need; the need to call him like you used to and tell him about your day; the need to be embraced by him as you cried lying on his chest; the need to tell him that you were okay. That it hurt, but you would be okay. But you knew you’d only be lying to yourself. Nothing would be okay. Not whilst your skin carried the shadow of his kisses. The phantom touches in the shape of his hands that you felt on your body made you uncomfortable. You wanted to get rid of those memories, you wanted to get rid of any thought of him. But how could you, when he was part of you and everything that you did. You fell deep and fast; you crashed hard and painful.

Life is never simple. Life doesn’t care about the wishes of two young lovers. Life doesn’t stop just because you want to hold his hand forever. Just like the heat of the summer, your fire dwindled to a steady heat. Like the remnants of a bonfire, your flame became hot coals. A summer was not enough to keep your love burning, and the scare of your first fight reduced it to smoke in an instant.

“I wish we'd never met.” You’d never thought you would ever end up saying those dreadful words. You could feel the lump in your throat that followed them. The familiar sting of tears gathering in your eyes forced you to blink in an attempt to keep them at bay. You couldn’t let them fall, not now, you would cry after this was over. But the finality of your thoughts broke your resolve, and with a hiccup you let the dam break. Through the hot tears you could see Jin’s agony painted across his face, his eyes glazed. You closed your eyes tightly, knowing that if you chanced another glance at him you’d end up shattering at his feet.

“I wish you’d never said that.” His pained voice cut the last string holding you together, and for one last time, you let yourself seek comfort into his embrace.

You had been staring at the name flashing across your screen for so long your eyes had started to sting. For the hundredth time, you reached your hand out for the phone, steeling yourself for the conversation you were about to have. For the hundredth time you paused, your finger ghosting over the answer button. You sighed as a lone tear ran down your face, the hand ready to pick up the phone dropping back onto the bed. You weren’t strong enough to have this conversation with him. You knew what you’d done to warrant his incessant calls, the memory of the letter you left him that morning ingrained in your brain, burnt into your heart.

The vibrations of your phone died, and with it so did your hope. Staring at the black screen, thoughts whirling through your head like a tornado, you bit your lip. The tears wouldn’t stop, chasing after each other on the planes of your cheeks; and just like that something in you shifted. You felt it then, the warmth of it, it grew until it enveloped you whole. When you finally picked up the phone and dialled the number tattooed on your heart, your hand wasn’t trembling anymore and the tears had stopped.

“Seokjin.”

‘I wish you knew how much I miss you. I wish you knew how much I still love you.’

drabbles masterlist

@hyungieyoongi we are the same once again 👀👀

Tagging @gabriellamonteiro @sunnysidefangirl @joyfulhopelox

which bts lyric belongs to you? tag game

quiz here

tagged by @sierra-fics !! thanks lovey <3 i loooove mikrokosmos for you !

the morning will come again

congratulations, you got spring day. when i think about you, i think about those early cold mornings in winter. i think about that sweater you like so much, that you maybe stole from someone who you miss dearly. i think about aquamarine, soft pink, hands holding. you're sensitive, perhaps introverted as well. if you feel like there's something missing in your life, it's okay. you'll find the last piece of the puzzle very soon.

well !! i feel much too seen and would like to crawl under the covers now !!!! everything is correct except i am the giver of sweaters not the thief haha !!!!

tagging @softbobamilktae and @hyungieyoongi because i’m curious !!!

Content Tag Game

Tagged by @hyungieyoongi!

1. What fandoms have you written for (but do not currently)?

Once upon a time in middle school and high school, I wrote Harry Potter, Teen Titans and Nightmare Before Christmas fanfic...

2. What fandoms are you currently writing for?

BTS and TXT in the works!

3. How long have you been writing?

Since I was little! My family used to own a typewriter, and I would write on that for fun, and then I started fanfic. I recently got back into writing, which has been great for my creative side and my mental health overall.

4. On which platforms do you post your stories?

Tumblr.

5. What is your favorite genre to write?

Angsty fluff for sure!

6. Are you a pantser or a planner?

Depends on what I'm writing tbh. Shorter one shots I'm usually a pantser, but I was definitely a planner for my recent Hogwarts story. And apparently the follow up Hogwarts story I'm creating.

7. One shot or multi-chapter?

Usually one shot, but then Chameleon Boy turned into a monster...

8. What is the perfect chapter length in your opinion?

Somewhere between 5-7K.

9. What is your longest published story? Is it complete?

Chameleon Boy is a whopping 24.3K, and is now complete!

10. Which story did you enjoy working on the most?

Probably Chameleon Boy (I really fell in love with that version of Jin while writing), but also A Sky Full of Stars (thanks for the influence @hyungieyoongi...who knew I needed to write a dad fic?)

11. Favorite request you've have written and why (if any?)

I've never had one, but open to them!

12. Are there reoccurring themes in your stories?

Um, does Jin count as a theme? Haha...In actuality, the only theme really is they're all loosely based on songs.

13. Current number of wips?

Two...one that's actually got some things written, and a nameless Beomgyu Hogwarts fic in the ideas stage. Whoops.

14. Three things you have noticed about your own writing?

(1) I get really wrapped up in plot, which is why my brain doesn't quite work in drabbles...but I don't mind it, because I can think of plot quickly when I hear a song that could work for a fic.

(2) As I've written more, I've gotten better at writing in general, but also my characterizations. I think I've gotten Jin nailed down pretty well, as well as Yoongi and Jungkook to a degree. I just need to tackle Joon and Jimin...they scare me.

(3) I have weird amounts of backstory I could tell you for characters in my stories, or how they would react in certain situations (this goes for members and OCs).

15. A quote you like from a published story

Goodbye, I will never be over Gryffindor!Jin:

“I think you’re just as brave as I am, you just have to let your heart be courageous when it wants to be,” he smiles, interlocking your fingers once again. “Plus I’m a Gryffindor, remember?”

16. A quote from an unpublished story

“I can think of better distractions.” Jin murmurs under his breath, hoping you don’t hear, but to no avail.

“Such as?”

Such as kissing your cherry painted lips, for starters.

17. Space for you to say something to your readers

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING MY THINGS!! Truly, you could be doing so many other things with your time. I have met some of the coolest people through this platform, and I'm very thankful for that as well. :goes off to my emo corner:

Tagged by the lovely @joyfulhopelox!

game: post a pic of you and your top 3 ults and let your oomfs/randoms choose who suits you best.

Hi hello, this is me and three boys I find very very cute…curious to see who people say fits me best!

Tagging @hyungieyoongi @alpacaparkaseok @mochi-molala @sunshinejunghoseokie!

Tagged by @hyungieyoongi…I’m worthy of your friendship 🥺🥺🥺

Jungkook

you got jungkook! you're a dreamer. is this your first life? it must be, since you're so easily amazed. your mind is a bit all over the place, and you get lost in your thoughts like a kid gets lost in a maze. you're good at a bunch of things, and your interests vary from music to sports to art. you're a softie, but remember that it's okay to cry often! your aura is purple, which makes you an intuitive, sensitive person. you remind me of sleep over parties, sharing chips, the loudest of concerts. if you were a star i'd find you even in a cloudy sky- among the other stars, you are the brightest.

Okay bye, now I’m emo.

Tagging: @sunshinejunghoseokie @joyfulhopelox @gabriellamonteiro

Which BTS member are you?

Take the quiz here

I wasn’t tagged by anyone this is just something I found

taehyung

you got tae! you’re an artist. you’re art in its purest form. i love the way your mind works- you’re always full of new innovative ideas and concepts. you’re into retro things, perhaps the dark academia aesthetic as well. you’re quick to understand if someone is worthy of your friendship. your aura is blue, which makes you a person with a deep sense of trust and loyalty. you remind me of chocolate croissants, pullovers, the comforting feeling you get once you come home after a tiring day. you’re someone’s safe place.

I- how did they know-

Tagging @jiminie-and-his-pinky-finger @jinnie-forthe-winnie @dulce-pjm @moon-write @luvjimins

This interview is everything…Jinnie is such a deep thinker when it comes to others, and very emotionally intelligent 🥺🥺🥺

jin for weverse magazine ♡