You Ever Just Feel Your Chest Violently Ache, And Whatevers Inside It Thrashes And Screams Against The

You ever just feel your chest violently ache, and whatever’s inside it thrashes and screams against the walls so intense it feels like solid fire . And it just hurts..

It just hurts so fucking bad..

i keep thinking i’ve hit rock bottom until i find out there’s a deeper pit to fall into. its like im constantly falling in a giant, deep, dark pit and i dont know where the end of it is. i dont know if i’ll ever get out. i dont know if i’ll ever stop falling.

Almost. Its a big word for me. I feel it everywhere.

Almost home.

Almost happy. Almost changed.

Almost, but not quite. Not yet.

Soon, maybe.

I feel like dying disappearing hurting myself running away from everything crying my eyes out yelling from the top of my lungs forgetting everyone becoming a ghost leaving everything behind never existing again punching myself until I learn my lesson never speaking again falling from the top of a building crying to my mother for not turning me into an abortion

But I'm here, at my desk, numb heart, blank face.

Forced to keep on living.

And tomorrow I'll wake up again.

Unfortunately.