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they should. give me one thousand dollars every month so i can commission artists who are very clearly unwell
I love rainy autumn days 🌧️🍂
“I’m so glad I live in a world where there are October’s.”
Hello October! Welcome back spooky season! 🎃
October 🎃
late night studying in october 🍂☕️🎃📚
Since it's already oct 3rd in japan, happy fma day 🌸
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🎮 : Zelda: Breath of the Wild 🔗 : twitch
i'm not internet banned by a storm this week so boxers link is back!
actually.
i might've been wrong about this. bc later last night/all of today i'm actually quite depressed feeling. and over more than just struggling to do my art again.
i'm lonely. i have all of two friends and one is my partner. i've tried for years and years to find new friends and any friends i did have/made in the past, i've not held on to any of them to this day. my highschool friend i still have now is the longest friendship i've had.
all i've ever wanted out of streaming is to find some cool, cozy, fun people to make friends with/stream with/do hobbies with. maybe i'm kinda foolish in thinking i could utilize streaming this way (rather than as a job like most people do). i thought i had achieved that a few years ago but turns out they were just a bunch of assholes and bullies. and the environment of streaming is different now so i barely get any traction on twitch (tho it might also be bc i don't interact much OUTSIDE my stream now either for all the trauma past people have caused me. i'm overly cautious to not repeat damaging patterns again)
i DESPERATELY want friends but bc of my trauma and autism, i over analyze the steps to making friends and it never feels like anyone wants to be friends with me now. how does an autistic adult make friends in this world cos idk how to do it.
(also, i feel like the only people who ever do somewhat engage with me on my streams are weirdo dudes and i don't want weirdo dudes, if anything, i'm so traumatized by Men i just about don't want them around me ever. i'm here for the queers)
normally, i wouldn't really want to post something like this on my Branded accounts but i feel like i don't ever get any traction on tumblr anyway bc of the State of tumblr and i lost cohost to go whine on, plus i'm already juggling way too many accounts for my vtuber stuff anyway, i don't wanna make a separate account to whine on. i might delete this later when i'm feeling less pity party but man. one or two friends that aren't pieces of shit and have a bunch of common interests with me could fix me.
i don't think i get seasonal depression but i do think i get like. 'feeling artistically insecure/forget how to be an artist' syndrome around this time of year and it SUCKS bc this is the time i wanna draw the MOST cos it's my fave time of year ; w ;
"Gentle autumn moments..."
Blessed Mabon witches
i don't think i get seasonal depression but i do think i get like. 'feeling artistically insecure/forget how to be an artist' syndrome around this time of year and it SUCKS bc this is the time i wanna draw the MOST cos it's my fave time of year ; w ;
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i'm sleepy and no energy af. squidin around for a bit
despite FMA being my first and most beloved anime, i somehow never remember that Oct 3rd is the silly meme day for it.. but for some reason over the past week or so i've been wanting to draw Edward aslkdfj did i subconsciously remember this time?
idk why this animatic cracked me up so much knowing how the chara 'singing' is supposed to be
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i was gonna draw but my handsies hurt too much ; w ; so let's cozy farm instead ~
just saw something on youtube that brought my attention to something that i feel a need to make clarification on
yes, im a vtuber. yes, i like/watch anime. no. that does not equate to me approving of NSFW content involving children, fictional or otherwise. unfollow me so fast if u support that shit
idk why it took me glancing at something on youtube to realize that there's most likely vtubers who have a concerningly, normalized opinion and view on that topic but it does explain why there's just as big an issue of nasty, predatory vtubers as there are any other media creator.
an update from a chronically online, spoiled on modern conveniences gremlin. we finally got cell service back yesterday and internet returned today.
we turned out to be one of the very few incredibly lucky households that did not have a lot of damage/debris from the storm and also had electricity the entire time. the town took quite a lot of damage; there's still some houses and businesses without power.
and there was the unfortunate loss of one of my high school friends who passed from a tree falling on their house.
it's been quite a time.
i just learned today that someone i went to school with passed from the storm we had today.
everyone please be safe and alert if u live anywhere in/near the storm path. we're not in an area that often gets more than heavy rainfall and some wind and it's done a number on us this time.
i just learned today that someone i went to school with passed from the storm we had today.
everyone please be safe and alert if u live anywhere in/near the storm path. we're not in an area that often gets more than heavy rainfall and some wind and it's done a number on us this time.