I Hope I Have What They Have Someday.

I hope I have what they have someday.

Aslan + Lucy

(requested by @authordc)

  ♡ Happy 21st Birthday, Shoma! ♡

▸ To think that 2018 might have been the year we would have lost BTS.

▸ To think that Love Yourself era might have been the last era.

▸ To think that we might not have another album, another era, another song after 2018 from BTS.

▸ To think that BURN THE STAGE might have been a farewell & closure to us.

▸ To think that songs like LET GO might have been a beautiful yet heart-wrenching farewell gift for us.  

▸ To think that once they sang lyrics like

Let’s only walk on flower petals.

(So thanks) for being my light, for being a flower in the most beautiful moment of my life

We may be covered in scars but we can smile if we’re together.  

You never walk alone

▸ But they were also singing lyrics like

Before we say goodbye, let go

The color of the sky we saw, the smell of the path we were on, don’t forget them

In order to release your hand right now, I gotta let you know that I need to let you go

▸ To think that the song lyrics in LET GO make so much more sense & the parts where they sang BEFORE WE SAY GOODBYE, LET GO. The WE meant BTS, all 7 of them.

▸ To think that whenever I would have listened to LET GO, I would have heard pain, desperation & struggles of BTS trying to stay (it’ll break my heart whenever I listen to it now)

▸ To think that we might not have had another tour another LY World Tour.

▸ To think that we might have gotten the last, BTS EPISODE in 2018 where they went for an MT & wrote letters to each other.

▸ Those letters might have been the last letters they wrote to each other before disbanding.

▸ To think that BON VOYAGE 3 might have been another parting gift for us from BTS. The last vacation together.

▸ To think that ARMY BOMB LIGHTSTICK Version 3 might have been our last version.

▸ To think that 2018 might have been the last year where we watched all 7 of them receive awards & perform as BTS.

▸ To think that all the selfies, posts on fancafes & twitter might have been the last uploaded as BTS.

It sends a shiver down my spine & breaks my heart into pieces. I do not want to imagine a world without BTS. But you know devastates & kills me?

▪︎ They hid everything from us, they did share little things here & there but they refrained from sharing too much cause they knew it would make us worry about them.

▪︎ They were under immense pressure & stress, yet they continued trying to make us laugh & smile, posting on twitter, fancafes, being goofy on BTS Episodes.

▪︎ They would celebrate every achievement, milestone, award with us & give us all the credit.

▪︎ They write songs & lyrics to comfort us, to encourage us, understand us, but in reality, they need comforting, they need understanding & they need encouragement.

I do not need several comebacks per year, I do not need them to continuously shoot over 10 episodes or shows during their promotional period. I NEED THEM TO REST. To take a break and do things they like and love. Spend time with each other, with their families & loved ones. Laze around & do nothing. When they are prepared and all 7 of them want to work on an album and make a comeback, we will always be here for them. We will walk on whatever path they take & we will be beside them, holding their hands. I love them so much.

THEIR HAPPINESS MATTERS. THEIR MENTAL & PHYSICAL HEALTH IS MUCH MORE IMPORTANT TO ME THAN ANYTHING ELSE. BTS as a group is important to me. But Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung & Jeon Jungkook the humans, men in their 20s are important to me as well. Their health, well-being & happiness is vital and is of the utmost importance.