Its Me. Im In Here

its me. im in here

i think ill be sick forever this time

I believe in nothing really,

I think when we die its just nothing at all.

Or at least, there are days I really hope its like that.

And some days, I hate the idea of reincarnation and having to live again.

I wish that I’ll close my eyes and be nothing.

I wont miss the people who lose me or that I’ve lost.

I wish that I’ll feel nothing, nothing bad or good.

Be like the end of a film,

just a character and only stories can be told about me now.

But I will not be there.

I wont think

Think so hard my wires burst and melt.

No more tears over passed seasons.

And I will breath nothing

See nothing

Be no one

Be nobody

No body to starve and tailor

This flesh will be wilting into soft earth

It will all at once stop, like sleeping without dreaming, the tape halting at its end.

Still, sometimes I hope I’ll see you again and again

I just don’t wanna do this anymore

what am i doing

I think im realizing i dont use tumblr like its meant to be used

Wtf am i supposed to be doing? Feel like im sluthing

Getting my tax return when im broke and believing i manifested this>>