Just Reblogging Again Because It Makes Me Happy.

Just reblogging again because it makes me happy. 🥹

Benny & Joel

I am absolutely dying over this piece of art that the wonderful @bumblepony surprised me with, commissioned from the amazingly talented @miranhas-art (who has made some of my favorite Pedro character art on Tumblr). Based on a scene from chapter 15 of As Long as You Follow:

Sometimes these evenings were a little different. Sometimes wine flowed a little more generously (for her) while familiar music played from Alexei’s CD player. He danced with her now whenever she asked him to, without protest, because he didn’t have it left in him to ever again deny her anything that he had the power to give. She was at her happiest when he twirled her slowly around the living room, and there was something nostalgic about these steps – something familiar that pulsed under his skin when she laughed as he lifted her arm and carefully spun her, something so free about how she always danced barefoot, her hair swaying back and forth against her back, something special about the way she always kissed him first, because even when he led their steps, she led everything else –

– something exciting about the afternoon where Ellie left a little earlier than usual, sunlight still spearing through the tall living room windows while Lindsey Buckingham crooned through the stereo speakers and Benny twirled through the motes of dust lazily, a glass of wine in one hand, her hair glittering in the light. She and Ellie had gone to the beach earlier in the day when he’d been occupied with fixing the balcony door, and she’d donned another donated dress for the occasion; a cascade of white with splashes of emerald leaves and blossoms, the skirt loose and flowing, and when she danced, a bittersweet thought struck Joel: that this was probably the closest he would ever get to seeing her in anything that even remotely resembled a wedding gown.

Sunburn kissed her shoulders with a rosy glow, a blush mirroring the flush on her cheeks, and when she beckoned for him to join her, curling two fingers in and out as she swayed, he did so with no hesitation, drawn to her like a moth to a flame – though he took her hand, first, spun her around slowly, and then wrapped her up against him from behind, all the better to trail his lips down her neck and over her shoulder, leaving fleeting white marks against her heated and red skin. And there was just something about this that felt different even when it was achingly familiar; there was a rawness to it, an uninhibited surrender in the way she tilted her head back with a longing sigh, finding rest against his shoulder, the way she tipped the wine to her lips and drank long sips, then held it up so he could do the same.

I put these two through so much - and I love that when the opportunity arises, people choose to show them in their better, happier moments. ♥️

I wish I could remember what fic it was, but there was a part in it about Tommy and Joel when they were out on the road, and how bothered Tommy was by some of the things he saw concerning women, how he personally didn't have the taste for that kind of violence - and there was a line about how Joel viewed sex that was something like "and he didn't care for it unless the woman was screaming for it," and let me tell you, that line lives rent-free in my head and yes, yes.

Yeah, sure. You can write your smut where he is rough with his hands and punishing with his pace, where he talks down to his partner and controls every aspect of the scene -

But have ya'll forgotten? "Deep breath in, slow breath out. Squeeze the trigger like you love it. Gentle...steady...nice and slow."

Just wanted to say I love you and your words so very much 🥹 I hope you never change. And also I hope ALAYF never ends ❤️

I love you. But...March...

It has to end.

I'm so tired. 🥹

this sucks so bad i need to [remembers suicide jokes only worsen my mental health] put on the best talent show this towns ever seen

For the ask game, 10, 38, and 69 please 🙏🏼

10.) at what point in the process do you come up with titles, and how easy or hard is that for you? I just pull up the Wiki page for Fleetwood Mac, scroll down to "studio albums," close my eyes, and whatever my finger lands on, I pluck a song title from that. ..I'm kidding. But only kind of. 11.) how many stories do you work on at one time?

I generally have one larger project going on (since I fell back into fanfiction, I have been working on GYOW, and then immediately ALaYF, worth about a half a million words combined) and usually at least one short story I have on the side, for when I need a break from my longer fics. I don't like to dabble too much in too many projects at the same time.

69.) how do you write emotional scenes? do you ever feel what the characters feel?

Depends on my mood, and what's going on. I will say that I tend to draw on real-life experiences a lot, so yes, often the accompanying emotions that I write for my characters are ones I can at least relate to.

1,2,3 for the ask game love 🥰🥰

1.) do you know how you want the story to end when you start, or are you just stumbling through the figurative wilderness hoping to find a road?

I generally know where I want things to end, yes. I have a much harder time with how to start my fics.

2.) talk about a notable time a narrative or character has looked you dead in the eyes and said “fuck your plan, here’s what we’re actually doing.”

You know, I honestly think the majority of my characters have ended up where I always imagined. I'll say that one of my OCs, Alexei Hayes from GYOW, took on more importance than he was originally going to - when I first started writing him, he was only meant to be a secondary character introduced as a loved one to another character, but he really ended up taking on a much more prominent role, and then was pivotal in there even being a sequel at all (and he also seems to be a favorite to my readers). 3.) on a scale of 1-10 how much do you enjoy incorporating romance into the average story?