Farewell.

Farewell….

Another Moth info post.

What got you into G/T? This info will date me. ./// . For me it was the book "Castle in the Attic" (with this cover)

Really only the first part. Where the tiny knight comes back to life. The last half is going into the knight's world and saving the kingdom. At the time I created my own "OC" knight named Erdrick (Yeah from Dragon Warrior... I was like... 7~8 at the time) Then there was the Nickleodeon shows like The Lil' Bits (A show about tiny elves/fairies/gnomes) that went and had adventures with their animal friends. I always wanted them to meet a human but they never did to my knowledge. IT WAS ALSO AN ANIME. (Mori no Youki na Kobitotachi: Berufi to Rirubitto [Little Pixies of the Forest: Belfie and Lilbit]) And thanks to Unico, Grimm's Fairy Tales, The Little Prince, Noozles and Lil' Bits... it was my anime awakening. This was also done by Tasunoko Productions of Speed Racer, Gatchaman and SDF Macross <- (more later)

(1995 is the wrong year. It was from 1980)

Around 1985~1990 on TV it was The Littles, which I was very opinionated about at the time as I like my tinies being fully human and not "With tails and buckteeth". Thanks children's media for maligning buckteeth to me. Seeing it now I've been told this was basically "OC Borrowers"

You can watch the show on Pluto TV now and there was 2 DVD re-releases. Today being an adult the teeth and tails don't bother me. Also Dinky is the best. From 1995~1999 was kind of a wasteland for me. I had to rely on my imagination! (Yes I know Robotech was a thing, but I didn't see it on TV). I didn't know what I was looking on the internet for so I wandered around for a bit. Everything I saw was aimed at men and was... kinda gross and a bit misogynistic. (Yeah I would have ~16 at this time)

Come 1999 I was told about Chiisana Kyojin Microman (Small Giant Microman). A show about 8cm tall super"humans" (They are really aliens) that save the world from evil tiny aliens. Lest to say I was sold for life! G/T content and IT'S ANIME!

This show was remake/reboot of the late 1970s~1980s toyline "Microman" that ALSO was the origin of Transformers! (People claim it was Diaclone and really Diaclone was dragged into the whole thing that was to be Transformers in the US) It was known as "Micronauts" in the US and THAT became something else in comicbooks. I'm not a comicbook fan. So I had to buy the toys and stuff and try to get any info about the show. They even had repros of the 70s stuff as well as a PSX game based on that. (The PSX game is alright.) Then the anime got a PSX game (Generation 2000) After the 1999 series died off (No thanks to bad marketing decisions) there was a re-reboot around 2003 that was aimed more for collectors and adults where they were no longer from space and were instead genetically engineered. It has some pretty men, but the story is kinda meh. However there are now Microwomen so I guess that's the trade off. Now it was after this point around 2005 where I was introduced to SDF Macross. SDF Macross of course has the opposite of Microman with giant aliens (That are trying to take back the SDF and conquer Earth)

Kamjin the really only hot Zentraedi from the series until Macross 7

So of course I watched it, however not really into SDF Macross and more into Macross 7 where they keep the Zentraedi and even have some G/T stuff with Mylene and Basara. Where the butchered Robotech just.. makes them all human as they had to cram 3 different series together. I don't really like Macross Frontier as it injected a "genetic problem" in the way of Klan Klan for Zentraedi where she's either a giant large breasted woman or pedophile pandering. (Of course it's only a woman we see this affect) They also kill my fave character. We do get Ai-kun which is the only good thing.

Macross Delta seems to have just.. gone away from the whole G/T completely and now panders to the idol otaku fully. And then the wasteland continued until really around now as again, looking up macro/micro would only bring up furry stuff (not really my thing) and GTS (GianTeSs?) was only for horny men and I couldn't find the GT stuff as again.... only stuff for men popped up.

So it's really cool that I tried again (on tumblr) and found stuff. Currently the only G/T anime I watch is Sugar Apple Fairy Tale that has the tiny fairies. Mythril Lid Pod is the best wingman.

Mithril Lid Pod (left) and Benjamin

And that's where I am today. Also finally indulging my fantasies and writing about them. I can do so many words!

Edit: Oh and I got into EDF (Earth Defense Force) after watching people play #5 and they had some giant aliens in it and OH the camera is so good at making your soldiers look tiny.

So she doesn't want to trap him, but puts her hand in his way to block his escape. This feels similar to how men will block a door with their arm or put it on a wall so a woman can't get by. Very much trying to trap him. Does not feel good. Also, she pretty much was playing matchmaker when Sara asked if he's single, said yes, and she invited her to meet Cam. (Also she has his sisters name X3) HOW-E-VER this is like the first time Kate has done something like this so Cam saying how she toys with him.. this is the FIRST TIME. (also part 15+ aren't on AO3. Is this by design?)

Online Dating Can Be Hard 16

I hope you all are having a great day! Enjoy! And as always my work contains strong language.

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Cam didn’t text me all week. Probably because he was talking with Sara. I thought about texting him a couple times but voted against it. I didn’t want to be overbearing. My heart ached. I would wake up everyday hoping to see a text from him. All day I would be on edge waiting, but as night would roll around, I accepted that he wouldn’t text… I was just the old toy he got bored of playing with.

The friend group chat was as active as usual, but I didn’t even give it a glance. I didn’t want to see what Cam was saying and frankly I didn’t want to see anyone period. I just wanted to be left alone to wallow in my sorrow. I didn’t truly understand how deeply I wanted Cam in my life until now. Until he moved so far out of reach.

As I laid on my couch staring at my ceiling fan with Lilith on my chest I tried to will my heart to stop loving him. No matter what, though, I couldn’t get him off my mind. I traced my fingers where he placed his tiny hands the night we danced. The night I almost kissed him. When I should have told him I loved him. Would things be different now if I would have had the courage back then?

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The walk with Sara after game night was quiet. She tried to make small talk but I just wasn’t in the mood. When we finally reached her hotel room she ran her hands over my chest and asked if I wanted to come up. I told her that it was late and I had to wake up early for work so I was going to pass. She badgered me to give her my phone so she could give me her number. She then texted herself my number so she had it. I didn’t want her to have my number, but I was so emotionally numb that I didn’t care anymore.

She texted me consistently throughout the week. At first I would text her back, but by the middle of the week I told her that I was too busy and didn’t want to keep texting her. I wished her good luck with her life and deleted her number. She didn’t text me after that. Heidi noticed my low mood at work and was kind enough not to prod. Every night I went home to a quiet apartment where the only sound was the humming of the appliances. Our group chat continued on like usual, but I didn’t even look at it. I couldn’t bring myself to even see Kate’s name.

I trudged home from work at the end of the week in the first snow of the season. My head down, lost in the dark thoughts that consumed my mind. About a ¼ mile from my home I heard someone call my name. My brain didn’t register the voice till they called again. Kate. I sped up my steps. I knew it was futile, but I didn’t want to see her. I couldn’t turn around and face the elephant in the room just yet. So I let my tiny legs fast walk as far as they could before a dark shadow cast over me. I knew the gig was up then as I came to a stop. I still couldn’t bring myself to turn around. I could feel Kate gently lower herself to the ground but still I remained facing straight forward.

“Cam…” I could feel Kate reaching for me as she spoke. I put my hand up to stop her before turning to face her. Her touch was unwelcomed at the moment and it was best to get this over as fast as possible. “Cam can we talk?” she said. Her voice was level and caring.

Anger started to bubble up from deep within me. “It’s not like I can run away from someone 10 times my size so I guess so.” I snapped.

Kate was taken back.

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Cam’s comment made me sick to my stomach. Never once did I want to make Cam feel trapped because of my size and yet here we were. Part of me wanted to just walk away and give him space, but I knew I wasn’t going to get an opportunity like this again. So, I pressed on.

“Cam, I’m not trying to corner you or anything. I just wanted to see how you were doing and stuff. I haven’t heard from you all week so I figured you were with Sara. I thought about texting but I didn’t want to bother you…” I said, trying to keep my tone even to deescalate the situation.

Cam fired back at me, “Oh now you care about me. After you pushed Sara on me. I don’t even like her! Do you really think I am that pathetic that you have to play matchmaker. And don’t play dumb. I have heard you say to others that you don’t know how I am single. But guess what Kate. I can find my own fucking partner. You don’t have to go meddling with your giant ass fingers in my love life.”

I looked at him with shock and said “I didn’t push anyone on you! I wasn’t trying to play match maker! I only invited her because I thought I was being nice! Then you two seemed to like each other from the start so I figured you liked her.”

Cam glared at me “She liked me off the bat! I didn’t care for her whatsoever. I just was trying to be cordial and nice!”

“I was just trying to be nice too! That’s why I invited her over!” I exclaimed.

Cam waved a dismal hand, “Yeah whatever you say. You just so happened to bring a girl over who seemed to know all about me and immediately fell in love with me just because you were ‘trying to it would be nice.’ Whatever you have to say to yourself to sleep at night Kate.”

 Cam then turned to walk away but was stopped when a hand came to rest softly in his way.

 “Cam stop… Please… I’m really not lying. If I knew she would upset you so much I would have never invited her. I care too much about you and our friendship to do something to jeopardize it.” I said softly.

Cam whipped around with tears welling in his eyes. “Don’t say that!” His voice cracked with emotion. “Don’t say such things haphazardly. You don’t know what your words do to me…”

I held my breath as I looked down at the tiny man who was now shaking in front of me. Parvuses and humans alike were looking at us as they passed, but I didn’t care. “Cam…” I said as I pulled a hand closer to him, but he just pushed it away.

“Stop Kate!” He screamed. “I hate you Kate!” His voice dripped with venom. He continued, “I hate you. I hate that you are so nice but clueless. I hate that you care. I hate how you toy with me! I hate it Kate and I’m done! I can’t take any more!”

I let a deep breath out as I fought back my own tears. “Cam I’m not trying to toy with you and I’m sorry I am clueless… please… just tell me what I can do to make this better…”

Cam scoffed, “Leave. That will make this better.”

I opened my mouth to protest but closed it again. Cam didn’t want me there so I should respect his wishes. I stood and left. I didn’t look back once as I walked home.

Concept Art I found in my Wallpaper folder of the Tower Knight from Demon's Souls

We 👏need👏 more👏 G/T 👏games👏

"But there's plenty of games where we are Tiny and we have to control our character in the normal word" no you don't understand I don't want Giants to be random enemies/blurs in the background

I wanna INTERACT with the Giants I wanna be able to have CONVERSATIONS with them I want them to KISS me