I Know Youll See This Baby

I know youll see this baby

I wanna be soft with my sub

Praise them after they bring me coffee and play with their hair as they wake up

Gentle kisses and back rubs after rough scenes

Hugs when they're sad

Pausing the scene to check on them

"Is that too tight, baby?"

Gently grabbing their neck from behind and tilting their head back to kiss me, my other hand on their waist

Surprise stuffed animals

Getting cozy and watching movies

Holding hands through thunderstorms

It's not all about rough sex and making them cry (even though they look so pretty when they do)

I fucked up my elbow, so I can't do like half my exercises and I want to put my head through a wall.

My wonderful amazing fiance got drunk today. He told me he admired my determination. The fact that I was so dedicated to a look I was willing to kill myself meant 'this person doesn't take shit' but then when I went full force intorecovery 'this person really doesn't take shit'. Then he described me as aggressively working to better myself whether misguided or not

This has made me feel better than anything else could have

This is Mickey. He was thin when we first got him. I was struggling with the weight gain so I thought it was good you could feel his bones. I fed him exactly as I learned and now you can't feel his spine when you lift him.

I guess it helped come to terms with my own lack of visible bones.

I cant talk to anyone abòut this so im dumping it here.

My beloved and i got back into kink. We hadnt done any thing for 2 years and he only had 2 sessions under his belt before that.

We played. Session one fine fun even. Session two he brings out the belt and i love it. Session three was yesterday. More belt. Very fun. This afternoon my ass starts to hurt.

It's not too bad but a straight wooden chair is too painful. I sit on a pillow for 2 hours playing WoW. I can no longer comfortably lay on my back. Beloved went to put more lotion on. Bruises. Big ones.

I said i wanted bruises one day. I didnt mean now. Serves me right. I guess i expected him to somehow magically have perfect control of his tools. We have retired the belt until i have a higher pain tolerance and he has better control