I Hate That I Can't Go Three Fucking Days Without Having A Mental Crisis. I Keep Being Annoying As Shit

vern (actually) screams into the void tw vent every day it gets harder to pull myself out of this stupid rut I don't understand why I want to have friends but I don't treat them the way I should it's a miracle anyone has even stayed ignore what I say here it's all just my brain working to kill me might delete this later idk clawing at my flesh like it's a god damn scratch post