Ugly Sobbing Because Of The Kids Series I've Been Rewatching...

Ugly sobbing because of the kids series I've been rewatching...

I need to bite someone. Please? Just wanna nom nom on someone's arm or shoulder or leg to self regulate and to stim.

Just like a cat. Just to show that I trust them and feel comfortable

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

Me normally watching a YouTube video: :)

The video being about someone with my deadname: what the fuckk??? ○_○

I want to text him. I want to ask him how he is. I want to know how his day was. I want to just know that he is still alive.

I am trying so hard not to text him. So fucking hard. I don't want to be annoying. But i want to text with him.

Would I see a shooting star right now I would wish for him to text me. Even if it's just good night.

That sounds so desperate. Am I really that pathetic? I could just not care, I can do that on command, but that just leaves nothingness.

It would make things easier tho. I could just not care about him anymore. Indifferent to whatever he does or does not do.

posting on tumblr cause i don’t have anyone to talk to, tired of burdening my fp with my feelings, it just pushes them further away, im so lonely.