He Can't Fully Blame Ward, But A Good Portion Of It Is On Him And The Way He Is Now. The Fact That He's

He can't fully blame Ward, but a good portion of it is on him and the way he is now. The fact that he's got all of these issues and he opted to self medication. Ward didn't want to believe his son was weak and needed help. So why get him what he needed? He could pick himself up by his bootstraps and fix it himself. That's how his generation thinks, right?

Either way, there's a lot of things he wishes he could take back and how he treated Sarah is one of those things he wishes he could take back first. Everything else seems to come secondary - even though she's now friends with the pogues. Those apologies would have to wait sometime later.

He takes a breath, and as Sarah asks if he wants to get dinner with her he lets his mouth curl into a soft smile - a ghost of a thing - but it's there.

❝ I'd like that.❞

sarah can't always blame rafe for his actions. sure he was old enough and of sound mind most times but his actions weren't always driven by his own thoughts or feelings. ward had a way of twisting and manipulating things. a con if you will. like the lengths that ward would go to try to get sarah back. ward was the one who made their sibling bond into a competition for rafe. no matter how horrible sarah had been as a daughter, ward had always had this light. not that she wanted that view or anything from her father.

so as rafe cries, sarah holds onto him. she had people to rely on when she was at her breaking point and she realizes that rafe hasn't had the same luxury. she knows that topper and kelce are emotionally stunted. rose was never going to be a mother, she had never been to begin with. all they had were each other when it came to family and maybe it's their turn to fix things that are broken between them. they will never get any answers from ward and rose probably was too deep in the bottle to give them anything that made sense.

"hey, rafe..." she starts softly after a moment. "you want to grab some dinner or something? we can have a chinese take out night like we use to when we were kids." when they were a family."

He couldn't be more grateful for getting to here with her like this. The boys hate it, but he couldn't care any less about that. He knows that what he feels for her is the real deal. She brought him back to life when he felt he had nothing to live for. Yeah, he did bad things but she's willing to see past it, to help him better himself. Fuck, if angels are real then she's got to be one, right?

❝ You know you're my girl? ❞

Holding him, she finally breaks the kiss and pulls back to smile softly. "I don't know how we got here, but I'm just glad that we did. . ." She tells him, a hand going to caress his jaw. "Even if the boys hate it." As much as Kie cares about what John B, JJ and Pope think, they're wrong about Rafe. . . Yes, while he's done terrible things, he's also cried out for help and now that he's getting the help he needs, Kie is by his side. He needs someone to be there.

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THE PUNISHER (2017-2019)

He wasn't sure he was about to put some belief in a thing like this, but hey ... it's the thought that counts right? When she gives him the instructions that he has to put it outside in the full moon and wear it he glances at her with this funny look. ❝ It's starting to sound like you got me a pet. ❞ he replies, only to let the look turn into a smirk. ❝ If you tell me I have to water it and walk it, I'm giving it back. ❞

She speaks of a French Tourist and he rolls his eyes. ❝ How are you going to go India and then meet a French guy...❞ Was that judgement? Oh yes, that was judgement but served with a smile.

❝ Oh you know, it's been...what it is. You haven't missed much.❞

"it's supposed to be pretty powerful. has a lot to do with the moon and shifts in the universe." autumn explained and returned the appreciative grin. "no problemo. and you're supposed to leave it outside when there's a full moon to recharge and then wear it." she twirled a blonde hair between her fingers and shrugged. "okay. boring for the most part. lots of sight seeing and watching my parents drink their faces off. though, i did meet a cute french tourist on the beach. we hung out for a few weeks. he's been emailing me. how were things back here?"

DREW STARKEY in UP THE HILL (2016)