Day 3 Talking To The New Guy In The Class: Today I Havent Talked Too Much With Him, Cuz Hes Meeting New

Day 3 talking to the new guy in the class: Today I haven’t talked too much with him, cuz he’s meeting new people so we went away. So today I just talked to him like 5 minutes.

He’s still shy, but he’s really nice! I want him to be my friend.

-I’m a heterosexual guy who likes guys too.

-So… you’re bi, actually, aren’t you?

-I wouldn’t call it like that…

I’m fighting with this shit again… If I could just be straight and have a girlfriend… I’d be so happy 😔 But anyway, I’m gay (sorry, bi, actually)

Update 31st day (I think): Okay, during this week, we’ve talked some days about random and worthless stuff, but it doesn’t matter, at least we’ve talked to each other.

Anyway, the important thing is that today he’s typed and and he’s asked me to meet up soon (next week). I can’t even explain how I feel, cuz I’m going to see him for the first time and I need him to like me. I’m so nervous!!!

Omg I can’t believe this!

But idk what I want, and idk if I’d be comfortable with him, like, this is a really great opportunity, like, he might be my first boyfriend! And I’m not sure about that, like, I need to solve some stuff about being bi and you know, that kinda stuff.

But I can’t believe this 😭😭

Excuse me, may I be 12 years old again knowing that things which I know now?

I want to be a completely different boy. I want to be an npc, I want to play a sport, have friends who are boys and just be a normal boy.

Today I’ve upload the first Instagram note dedicated to the guy who I’ve been talking with for one month and might be my boyfriend! Idk if it’s a pretty good choice, but it’s New Year’s Day song, by Taylor Swift. (I didn’t know which song could be better, if 22, labyrinth, hits different or this one)

Update 36th day: Okay, today we’ve finally met up. He came here, so I kinda feel bad that he was the one who had to travel to come to see me, but anyway at least we could see to each other.

We had so much fun!! It rained so it was really romantic to share the umbrella and walking in the rain…

We went to the harbor and then to the city center and he ate a Pain au chocolat and I had a cup of coffee, and the café was really nice and I did love chatting with him there, because we were there like for 40 minutes or something like that.

I did enjoy the afternoon, and I hope that did too and that we’ll meet up again soon.

Omg after 36 days talking to each other by Instagram, it’s just incredible that we’ve seen each others. He’s such a good boy!