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avenhill
1 year ago
Fudgy Triple Chocolate Cookies

Fudgy Triple Chocolate Cookies


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avenhill
1 year ago

paradise [kim mingyu x fem!oc]

Paradise [kim Mingyu X Fem!oc]
Paradise [kim Mingyu X Fem!oc]

summary: going to la union for a temporary escape from your busy city life was supposed to just be all about you, not until you meet a hot stranger at a bar and things escalate quite interestingly for the week.

warnings: slight age gap, dom!mingyu, sub!reader, unprotected sex, choking kink, creampie, size kink, praise kink, dry humping in a semi-public place, biting kink (slight), cum-eating

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your city life proved to be exhausting, still navigating everything at 21 despite being independent and already moved out of your parents' house but the corporate life was a bitch to deal with on top of your mother nagging you to fulfill your filial duties as the eldest child to provide when they are still fully capable of supporting themselves and your younger sibling. so here you were, driving alone in your car on the way to la union to unplug for a week. the car ride was boring and tiring since your friends were all busy and you didn't want to ride a bus alone. finally, you arrived at your hotel early morning and got everything settled before you slept to make up for the exhaustion.

after a good few hours of decent sleep, you decide to get ready for the beach and put on a light red bikini that was just held together by strings that was properly showing off your huge tits. you also put on a skirt and a thin knitted coverup while your hair was up in a cute claw clip and grabbed your small tote bag on your way out to have some fun while the sun sets. as you reach the seaside, you decided to lay your towel on the sand and put your bag on it as you enjoyed swimming in the water basking in the sun. while being alone with your thoughts and letting your worries be washed away by the refreshing saltiness of the water, you couldn't help but wonder if you were going to get some action tonight— after all, it has been a while since you've gotten laid. many men have come and go but not one has actually ever fully satisfied you. it's not that you were the problem but you were extremely picky with men and rightfully so.

[11:00pm]

after washing up back at your hotel room to grab dinner at the bar, you put on a pink dress with a thigh-high slit that was backless with just a pair of lace panties underneath. as you make your way into a chair by the bar counter and order your food, you mind your own business. after all, the fun doesn't start until the alcohol gives you enough courage to get fucked by a handsome stranger.

sipping on your cocktail was already affecting you and noticed that a tall handsome guy, with sharp gentle features and a short cropped haircut was eyeing you. his sun-kissed skin looking perfect under the strobing lights, athletically built body showing off through the shirt he's left the few buttons open with biceps practically begging to rip through its sleeves. but you weren't going to make it easy for him, catching his stares and waving back at the mystery guy. luring him to come over to your spot, and it fucking worked like magic.

his aura was intoxicating. the moment he leaned in to whisper something in your ear, he immediately had you hooked. "so what's a pretty girl like you doing in this place?" he smirked. you felt taken aback by his deep voice, his breath being minty with a hint of the gin and tonic he was drinking earlier. "just looking to have fun,although i've heard the real fun starts in the bedroom" you bite back with a smile from your pink glossy lips. he laughed at the smooth rebuttal and reached his hand out to introduce himself, "feisty, i see...it's so rude that i didn't introduce myself. i'm mingyu by the way," he said. "and i'm _____," you shake his hand. "you know, i could show you a fun time what do you say?" his huge hand grabs the small of your back, the tension and close proximity making you yearn for his touch. the flashing lights and the music thumping on full blast against the speakers felt so right under the hot twinkling stars on a summer night,

"don't worry baby, they're too busy to care about what we're doing" he whispers as he holds you tighter and grinds his clothed member against your ass harder, "fuck, let's get out of here...my room." you whine as you begin to face him and grab his hand, leaving after paying your tabs.

once it was all settled, you and mingyu began to walk back to your hotel with hands intertwined together no one but the stars and the waves crashing against the shore witnessing romance brewing between the two of you as the music began to fade into the distance. the walk back to your place consisted of laughter and getting to know each other more, you began to learn that he was also getting away from the chaos of the city—family stuff, in his own words. not long after, the two of you made your way inside the elevator and pressed the floor where your room was.

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you grab him by this nape and pull him in for a kiss, tasting your sweetness on his tongue and glistening pink lips which turns heated the moment your hands travel down his toned abs and into his boxers, feeling up his manhood—lengthy, thick and hard. you pull his pants down along with his underwear as his dick springs free slapping against his stomach past his belly button. "will it fit?" you give him your best doe eyes as you begin to jerk him off, spreading his precum around the slit of his bulbous mushroom tip. "don't tease me, i need to be inside you now." he moans, the lust in his eyes darkening as he takes his dick in his hand and rubs it up and down your wet folds before inserting it slowly. his tip feeling hot and heavy against your wetness, moaning at how his dick feels inside you. "am i hurting you?" he says gently, leaving soft kisses on your forehead down to your neck to ease the pain as he slowly inserts his manhood deeper as you two find a good pace. "no, it's okay...you can move," you say as he's fully sheathed inside you, feeling him go slow and deep as he kisses you once more while you grab his hair. your bodies in sync as your heart beats faster with every thrust and moan you let out screaming and worshipping his name like a god. "you're so tight and wet, so pretty like this..." he moans as he plays with both of your tits thrusting into you faster, his huge biceps shining with sweat as you beg for mingyu to give you your release. "daddy, please go faster...i'm close," you whine out as you grab his hand wrapping it around your neck. his tip repeatedly hitting your cervix as his pace becomes sloppier and rapid, "such a nasty girl, wanting her daddy to choke her...huh?" he smirks, showing off his canines as he nips at your jawline while thrusting faster inside you and all you could do was moan and whine at the intense roughfucking. "i'm cumming...where do you want it, princess?" he says in between breaths, sweat trickling down his forehead. "cum inside me...please, i need you" you whine, completely high on him blinded by pleasure. after a few more thrusts, the two of you both reach your orgasm together as he creams your pussy, his cum and yours leaking out of it— he doesn't hesitate to go down and eat you out, his warm tongue adding to the overstimulation you've been feeling as he makes figure eights with it while he holds you down by your thighs. the sight of a handsome guy like mingyu in between your legs making you cum for the nth time tonight was unexpected but you needed this, as you tug on his messy hair, he looks at you while eating you out like a starved man and once he licks you all clean, he leaves another kiss on your forehead.

"didn't expect to pick up a hot stranger like you tonight..." you smirk, shifting to sit up on the bed while he grabs a towel to clean the both of you up and runs a bath. "i've had my eyes on you since you walked into the bar , i'm glad the night ended with you under me," he teasingly winks as he motions for you to come sit in between his legs and starts to wipe you down. but mingyu couldn't help leaving slow and soft kisses down your cheeks and down your jawline as he cleans you up, "babe... don't start now, i can barely walk," you laugh, trying to suppress your moans. "i can carry you anywhere, don't worry," he whispers as you lean your neck to face him and pull him in for another kiss. after cleaning the two of you up, mingyu carries you in bridal style into the bathroom and helps you get into the bathtub and follows suit behind you and engulfs you in his warmth, his biceps hugging you flush against his chest as you grab on his forearms biting at it softly and kissing it. you don't know if he''ll remain a stranger for the night or someone you'd be spending the rest of your life with but surely you hope it's the latter. he smirks at your antics and kisses your cheek, "happy 2nd anniversary, my love."


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avenhill
1 year ago

svt as mundane things they do for their s/o

Svt As Mundane Things They Do For Their S/o

seungcheol walks on the side of the sidewalks that are closer to the street.

jeonghan knows by heart your order at the restaurant you love.

joshua always pulls chairs and holds doors open for you.

junhui double checks your order whenever you two eat at a new place so he can make sure there's nothing you're allergic to in it.

soonyoung makes sure to always grab two pots of leftovers from his mom's house - one for him, one for you.

wonwoo is the one who cleans your glasses for you, you don't even need to ask.

woozi plugs your phone to the charger when you fall asleep at night and forgets to do so.

seokmin ties your shoelaces for you whenever they untie and he's around.

mingyu is always refilling your water bottle, you don't even notice that it never gets empty.

minghao rides the escalator behind you, especially when you're wearing a dress or a skirt.

seungkwan restocks your favorite snacks at his place and scolds/whines at jeonghan if he eats them. they're meant for you and you only.

vernon doesn't mind giving you his jacket whenever you're cold, that's actually the reason why he's always carrying one around.

chan doesn't mind carrying the bags for you when you two go grocery shopping together, especially the heavy ones.

Svt As Mundane Things They Do For Their S/o

a/n: okay, now the plan is to write a little drabble about every single one of these. lmk what you think. ā¤ļøšŸ’


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avenhill
1 year ago

comfort • l.j.h. & k.m.g.

Comfort L.j.h. & K.m.g.

Pairing: lee jihoon x afab!reader x kim mingyu

Genres: smut (minors dni!), established poly relationship, teeny tiny angst of just having a bad day, basically just a sexci kind of comfort au

Warnings: poly/threesome sex ig, reader just having a bad day and the boys wanna make her feel better, swearing, gyuhoon dynamics, mingyu's a lil mean tbh, oral (fem receiving mostly), mentions of eating dinner, blowing on the coochie hehe, unprotected sex wheeeee, mhm bulge kink ig a lil, cum-eating hm, poor eating hygiene don't be like them lmfao idk i'm bad at this pls just lmk if i missed anything as always 🄰

WC: 2.4k

A/N: requested by the bestiest of bestie wives @onlymingyus a while ago but still seems like a good time to post it... Idk how "comforting" it ended up being but I hope you still enjoy it loml šŸ’–šŸ’—šŸ’“šŸ’ž

Comfort L.j.h. & K.m.g.

When it takes precisely two minutes longer than it normally does for you to come out of the bathroom, Jihoon knows something is off. He's very well accustomed to timetables and habits, especially when it comes to his partners. That's why he sits on the couch in your living room, waiting for you to walk by on your way to the kitchen where Mingyu is finishing up dinner prep.

He can hear the tiny sniffles you're more than likely trying to hide and frowns. You should never ever be shedding tears unless it is from sheer euphoria. The bathroom door opens and you shuffle out, pausing when his searching gaze lands on you.

"What's Gyu cooking?" you ask, voice sounding small and vulnerable so Jihoon simply pats the empty cushion next to him.

"More than likely a favorite dish of yours. He spoils you too much."

"And you don't?"

"No," he says as if he's not smiling when he kisses the top of your head, "I don't."

You bury yourself into his broad chest and strong arms, feeling safe and protected as you make yourself comfortable on his lap rather than beside him. "I beg to differ."

Jihoon's quiet for a couple minutes. He's not the best with words but his actions have always spoken clearly of the things he struggles to verbally express. You know that and welcome the comfort of his sturdy body and awkward but heartfelt caresses up and down your back.

He still feels slightly helpless when you start to sniffle again. "What's wrong?"

You shake your head, letting it rest on his shoulder. "Nothing."

"Doesn't sound like nothing."

"I'm just... tired," you admit, and although Jihoon nods you can't help but feel guilty.

"You've been working really hard and long hours."

"But you — "

"You've both been working absurdly hard." The two of you look up as Mingyu stands in the doorway with a frown, drying his hands with a handtowel. His wavy black bangs are pulled back in a cute little ponytail so they wouldn't get in the way while he was preparing dinner and his pout is on full display. "Neither of you has been getting proper resting time as of late."

A smile makes your lips curl up. The three of you constantly brought out each other's best similarities while making up for your obvious differences. It was the most loving and healthiest of all the relationships you had ever been in.

"C'mere, Gyu." Jihoon beckons the tall man over who continues to pout.

"Why? Dinner's gonna get cold."

"Don't you think there's something better to eat?"

You let out a quiet gasp when the hands rubbing your back encourage you to turn over so you're facing Mingyu, your back now pressed against Jihoon's firm chest. He lovingly grazes the underside of your covered breasts before trailing down to help you spread a leg over each one of his thighs.

Mingyu smirks with a shrug — devilish canines on display — and drops to his knees. "I guess naughty boys do always want dessert first."

Crawling towards where you sit, his large, warm hands replace Jihoon's on your thighs. You whine at how you can feel the way his open sigh heats through your thin sleep shorts. Fingers pull at his hair, tugging the (your) ponytail holder out so his bangs fall loose.

He giggles. "How am I supposed to see?"

"Do you really need to see to please her?"

"I like to enjoy the view of this pretty pussy, though. You know that."

"Don't talk about me like I'm not right here," you huff in embarrassment at the two of them causing Jihoon to chuckle.

"You're right, baby. We're supposed to be taking care of you... now get to work, Mingyu."

The younger man would protest as he usually does, their constant bickering not uncommon even during sex. However, he doesn't want to keep you waiting and takes off your bottoms only to peer up at you through his bangs with a knowing grin.

"No panties?"

"That's the rule around here, isn't it?"

"I'm just thankful that you listen."

"Of course she does," Jihoon interjects, "unlike a certain someone."

You're about to protest on behalf of Mingyu but end up letting out a silent gasp instead by the sudden motion of his tongue lapping at your cunt. You're not exactly wet considering this wasn't something you'd planned on happening tonight. But Mingyu's grunts of appreciation at your fingers brushing the hair off his forehead paired with the smooth actions of his plush lips gliding across your outer pussy lips are enough. Rather far too quickly, your arousal begins to gather but is quickly slurped up by his mouth.

Jihoon's busy spreading love and attention to your upper body. Normally he's more callous and collected, pinching harshly at your nipples or featherlight touches that have you begging with tears for more. But tonight, he's gentler. Kneading your tits without hesitation. Pushing them together and then cupping them upwards like the best support bra. Circling your areolas before rolling your tingling nipples between his thumb and pointer finger. And then his hands are diving under your shirt, repeating the same breathtaking ministrations on bare skin.

And he's loud. You can easily hear his unrestrained sighs of pleasure directly in your ear as he kisses up the side of your neck. Feel the way he hardens and stiffens against your ass as you lightly grind against Mingyu's mouth and subsequently, Jihoon's cock.

Normally, he's more distant. Commanding. Not pressed up against you but sitting across the room. Focused on creating the mood or guiding the direction. Watching you and Mingyu warm each other up before he physically joins in on the fun. But tonight, he knows you want the intimacy of both your boys. Once again setting things in motion and giving you everything you want, sandwiched between their two bodies.

In fact, it's Mingyu who's the meaner one tonight. You realize this too late, the excitement building as you practically ride his face with his cute nose bumping pleasantly at your clit. He's about to send you hurtling into a sweet orgasm that only dwindles out when two large hands suddenly still your hips. He nuzzles the side of your thigh as he catches his breath and with an intentional huff, blows on your fluttering hole.

You clench around nothing with a light sob.

"Don't tease her."

"The dinner I worked so hard on to nourish my loves is getting cold. I warmed up this cute pussy but should I let it cool down as well?"

"Mingyu — "

"I'm just kidding, Hoon." Mingyu interrupts and stands up, towering above the two of you sitting on the couch. He may be tall but his next actions truly give away the small puppy dog character he possesses. "I'll make sure our pretty princess gets what she wants. Cumming on my cock, that is."

"Who says it's gonna be your cock? Didn't even ask her." Jihoon clicks his tongue. "This is about you, darling. Tell us whose cock you want."

He tilts your chin back so your noses are almost touching, your other lover's firm grip remaining on your hips as your arousal starts to drip onto the couch. Mingyu hisses and attempts to catch it with his fingertips and licks them clean, although you miss the incredible visual because you're looking at Jihoon through your eyelashes. He's easily granting you the control that usually needs to be begged for. But with the ball suddenly in your court, you're uncertain about how to proceed.

Mingyu's dick was lengthy whereas Jihoon's had more girth to it. Either was delicious in any one of your holes. But if you had to be honest, Mingyu was better suited nestled in your cunt — his impatience at needing to be inside you always winning out plus his length managed to hit spots that you didn't even know existed before you met him.

Jihoon's thick cock was able to fit inside easier after Mingyu stretched you out enough but there was nothing better than the heavy weight of it on your tongue. The delightful ache in your jaw when you hollowed out your cheeks around him. Unlike Mingyu, there was no fear of damage to your esophagus. Jihoon was calculated and patient. Not necessarily gentle but he definitely had more control than Mingyu.

You hesitate. Knowing none of them would ever feel bad about who you choose because ultimately all three of you mutually chose each other. Still.

"Sweetheart, you've got to make a decision... I know you want to be filled up."

"Mhm, but Jihoonie... "

Mingyu groans when Jihoon sneaks a hand down to spread your cunt open. "Tell us, who do you want in this precious hole?"

You decide to make up your mind. Grabby hands towards the man standing in front of you. He grins cockily in triumph, quickly shedding his pants. His long, red dick slaps against your stomach as he leans over you to peck at Jihoon's lips.

"Knew you'd pick me, baby girl," Mingyu rasps. He takes your awaiting hands and wraps them around his length, encouraging you to guide it inside your cunt. He lets out a deep moan when he bottoms out, bracing himself against the back of the couch, and smirks eye-level at Jihoon who simply rolls his eyes. "So good for me. Fuck, this pussy is worth dying for. Always so goddamn tight."

You're gasping as he begins his brutal thrusts, powerful enough to cause your body to slightly jerk up and down over Jihoon's, ass deftly brushing against his crotch. You reach behind, fumbling for his cock that's deliciously hard but he halts you.

"Don't worry about me," he whispers in your ear, "just focus on Gyu doing his best to make you feel good."

"But — "

"You can sit on my cock and keep it warm while we eat dinner."

"Oh, she likes that," Mingyu informs unhelpfully, "shit — tightened up so much."

"You two love it when I talk dirty, huh. Gonna have to shut Gyu up some way though."

It's your turn to giggle, eyes sparkling when Mingyu's hips stutter against your own at the implication. "I have a few ideas."

You lift your shirt up to display your breasts that bounce in time to Mingyu's thrusts. He takes the hint and leans down to lather one in sloppy kisses and love nibbles. Jihoon hums in contentment and returns to twisting the neglected nipple between his fingers. At the same time, his other hand teases your clit before running a hand across where Mingyu's dick is entering you.

Mingyu lets out an animalistic grunt at the sensation, his pace erratically speeding up. Your tongue tangles with Jihoon's in an erotic dance as you bring him close to your lips by gentling pulling the back of his neck.

In and out.

Mingyu's burying his cock deep within you and Jihoon's fingers drift up to splay across your lower body where he can feel the bulge of his partner wreaking absolute havoc and pleasure in rearranging your guts. In fact, he can feel MIngyu twitch once more at the filthy gesture.

"She gonna cum yet?"

He answers Jihoon with a moan. "Yeah... she's clamping down so hard... fuck, 'm gonna cum too."

"Go on, loves. Cum for me. Fill up her pussy and milk his cock for all it's worth."

And you do. Wrapping your legs around Mingyu's back, bringing him closer into you. Gyrating your hips as you squeeze his cock even tighter inside your cunt prompting your exhilarating release and causing him to lean his forehead against Jihoon's unoccupied shoulder, gently teething at his collarbones as he fills you up with his delightful warmth.

"I think I'll die. Happily."

Mingyu slumps against you and you squeal. Although his weight is always a welcoming presence, it's suffocating being squeezed between two bulky men. Jihoon playfully nudges Mingyu so he can pull out his dick, rolling off to the side so the other man can collect the cum between your legs with an approving hum. You open up your mouth and Jihoon chuckles, letting you lick his fingers clean as he teases Mingyu.

"Our chef can't die."

"Is that all I'm good for?"

"You're the one who wouldn't stop talking about us eating."

"Because you should!"

"We should listen to him," you sweetly mumble in Jihoon's ear but let out a pleased sigh at the two comforting pairs of hands that run up and down your body. "You'll let me sit on your cock while we eat, right?"

"As promised. And if you are a good girl and behave, I'll do the dishes."

Mingyu suddenly sits up straight. "Deal. I'll eat her out again while you do that."

"Wha — "

"We're just taking good care of you," Jihoon's voice is low so Mingyu can't hear him when he heads back into the kitchen. Naked. "If you can get him to be quiet instead, I'll come back and let you cum on my face."

You share a smile, nodding in agreement. There were many, many ways to get Mingyu to behave, your heading spinning as you struggled to pick one. Jihoon's not done yet though, continuing to hold you in his lap.

"And I want you to start taking more breaks. More time for yourself. You deserve it, deserve the rest."

A kiss is placed against his forehead. "I know, I'll try. And you too — you work just as hard without stopping."

He rolls his eyes but Mingyu pops his head back in and shouts, "Yeah! You both rest or I'll go on a cooking strike."

You giggle as you stand up on wobbly legs and put on your top, squealing when Jihoon playfully delivers a light slap to your ass.

"We better listen to him or he might set the kitchen on fire... on purpose."

Mingyu greets you at the kitchen entrance with a proud smile, a corny candlelit dinner prepared on the table. The microwave dings with the last dish he had to reheat and you nudge Jihoon in the side.

"Surprised it didn't burn down while we were in there."

"These are fake candles. They're meant to look real," Mingyu announces like it's new technology, babbling quickly in his excitement, and you snicker as you seat yourself back on Jihoon's lap.

"I'm impressed."

"Yeah? I just want to make things nice for you guys."

"You always do. Now go put on some pants, Gyu. You can't eat naked!"

"What about you two?"

"Oh don't worry," Jihoon chimes in, "nobody is cumming while we're eating. That's for later."

Comfort L.j.h. & K.m.g.

onlyseokmins: September 2022 Ā©


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avenhill
1 year ago

03:35 pm

03:35 Pm
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genre: fluff, meet-cute? - wc: 581 [ a/n: i read 'the seventh day' by yu hua, which was recommended by wonwoo! (no mention of a specific book here besides the genre) ]

"i'm sorry dear," the librarian whispers, "the only version of this copy was signed out an hour ago."

you nod, glancing at her apologetic features. the woman removes her glasses and lets them hang by the chain attached to the temples.

"no worries at all, miss," you reassure her, turning away to find something else to read, "thank you."

she smiles kindly as you disappear between the shelves, tracing your finger on each book. it feels almost daunting, lurking from aisle to aisle, waiting for something—or anything to catch your eye.

as you approach the end of the fiction novels, you figure it might as well be the end of your search. with a sigh, you continue your path, only skipping past the shelves and towards the exit.

just as you reach to pull the doors, something—or rather, someone—catches your attention. he's standing at one of the small checkout desks by the window, engrossed in a book. his dark hair falls slightly over his forehead, and his glasses sit at the tip of his nose.

"oh, would you look at this," you hear the librarian say to the young man who's stepped up to the counter, "this book is quite a pick, wouldn't you say?"

you watch him raise a brow at the woman, the man—who you now realize is holding the exact book you were searching for.

"really?" he asks, looking down at the book in his hands. ā€œit’s a popular one, i suppose.ā€

her eyes crinkle as she hums, averting her gaze to the computer. a smile spreads on her face when she spots your figure above the screen. "in fact, that's them right there."

you feel your face flush as he follows her gesture, his eyes meeting yours. like a deer caught in headlights, you stand there awkwardly, having no idea what to initiate. should you leave or—

he hesitates for a moment before mumbling something to the woman. after you hear another beep, he walks over to you, the book still in his hand.

ā€œhey,ā€ he says, raising his hand to display the book. ā€œi just heard you were looking for this.ā€

your eyes widen, slightly embarrassed. ā€œy-yeah, i was, but it’s okay. you got to it first.ā€

he shakes his head, offering the book to you with a soft glint in his eyes. ā€œit’s no problem. i insist you take it. i’ve read it a couple of times already.ā€

you stare at the book, then back at him. ā€œyou sure? i don’t want to take it if you were going to sign it out today.ā€

ā€œi’m sure,ā€ he says, his grin widening a little. ā€œbooks are better when shared, don’t you think?ā€

his words make you chuckle, and you reach out to take the book, your fingers brushing his as you do. ā€œthank you, that’s really kind of you.ā€

ā€œit’s no problem,ā€ he repeats, his gaze softening as he watches you. his hand reaches for your empty one, ā€œwonwoo.ā€

you gladly accept his, taking note of how gentle he feels, ā€œy/n,ā€ you reply, feeling your heart skip a beat.

"you think we could maybe...uh, talk about the book some time?" he asks, putting his hand behind his head.

you're quick to agree, the thought of seeing him again making you visibly giddy. ā€œi’d like that.ā€

ā€œgreat,ā€ he says, his eyes twinkling with a quiet excitement. ā€œi'll see you around?ā€

you clutch the book close to your chest, smiling like an idiot. ā€œsee you around.ā€


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avenhill
1 year ago

what 2 am with them looks like

What 2 Am With Them Looks Like
What 2 Am With Them Looks Like
What 2 Am With Them Looks Like
What 2 Am With Them Looks Like

seventeen Ɨ gn reader comfort, healing (kinda, idk) warnings: mentions of making love, food wc: 1.3k author's notes: this was a random thought, and has been in my drafts for so long, so i decided i had to complete it. writing this gave me a peace i didn't know existed, so i love this work very much. i hope you guys love it too <3

What 2 Am With Them Looks Like

āž¼ choi seungcheol

in bed. he's probably fucking you into the next week, making you cum at least 5 times before he kisses you gently and washes you up and prepares to sleep. if not this, then you're probably on your side of the bed. the other side of the bed remains empty, because your cuddly clingy boyfriend is wrapped around you, strong arms trapping your movements and legs tangled together.

āž¼ yoon jeonghan

dumb conversations. lying in bed, your head resting on his arm, your arm wrapped around his torso that shakes with the laughter. it's probably one of your lame jokes that only he finds funny, or one of his hilarious stories about seungkwan and chan, but it's got you both clutching your stomachs after a while. he pulls you close with his arm that's under your head and presses a light kiss to your forehead before finding another interesting topic. when do you sleep that night, that's a question you both have no answer for.

āž¼ hong jisoo

deep conversations. you're both sitting in your bedroom, hugging pillows as you slip into deep conversations about the universe and your future. you aren't sure how you got here, you were in your bed to sleep one moment and in the next, you're both sitting as you talk about your wedding and your house and the stars and the moon and his mom and his job; the conversation flows easily into the next topic. he only stops when he sees you suppress a yawn for the 3rd time before kissing you and suggesting you both go to sleep.

āž¼ moon junhui

watching cat videos. it all started a few hours ago, with you and jun on either side of the bed, scrolling through phones. you roll over to him, perfectly landing your head on his chest as you show him your screen. "look junie," you said as you shoved the phone into his face. he chuckles before holding your hand and focusing on the video of an orange cat tripping over it's own feet. he laughs watching it, and it ends up in you lying on his chest as you both watched every single cat video available on the earth. your laughs filled the room and tears filled your eyes, but it felt so good, spending time doing silly things like this.

āž¼ kwon soonyoung

passive watching soap operas. its the time of calm and quiet after the rush of the day, so when you turn on the tv after dinner, you stay like that until late hours. except the focus has moved from the drama on the tv to drama from work. from sitting at the ends of the couch, you end up tangled somehow - his head resting on your lap or him sitting on the floor, hands held with yours. the tv drones on at a low volume, but by then you've both shared all the tea from your work and are giggling over the littlest of things. in the morning, you're both probably on the floor, one of the cushions as a pillow and keeping warm by hugging each other.

āž¼ jeon wonwoo

playing games. after much practice and pain, you'd finally gotten better at the games wonwoo often played. most nights you'd be a team going against your other friends, but sometimes you prefer to play against him. and when that happens, it ends in either of the two ways: you're winning and start shaking your hips, or he's winning and decides to deliberately lose to help you win. either way, he wants to see your happy lil dance.

āž¼ lee jihoon

in his studio. jihoon's seated in his studio, working on a new track. when you arrive, he immediately pulls you to him, making you sit on his lap as he hands you his headphones. you look at him, confused, but wear them anyway and listen as he plays the track he was just working on. as you fall deeper into the melody of the song, he grips your hips in anticipation. it was a song to you, from him, containing the most heartfelt emotions he'd felt for you, but couldn't communicate properly. so he decided to put them into a song, a language he speaks so well and one that you understand.

āž¼ lee seokmin

having breakfast cereal. you'd gone through great lengths to find and buy the brand of cereal you both highly enjoyed. so now that you have it, why wait for the morning? when he wakes you up in the middle of the night, anxious and groggy about your reaction, he'd worried you'd judge him. but maybe it's the sleepiness hanging in his mind that he forgot you both basically share the same braincell. so the next minute you're stumbling into the kitchen, looking for bowls and cartons and giggling over spilling milk and noisy spoons. by the time you're done, your stomach's filled with food and heart's filled with love.

āž¼ kim mingyu

moments of soft intimacy. the evening goes by peacefully: you both come home, tired and exhausted; have a silent dinner mingyu lovingly prepared and talk about work; after some leftover work you both head to bed. but slowly, the stroke on the cheek becomes kissing, drawing shapes on your back as you kiss and nip at the base of his neck. mingyu's vulnerable now, only with you, but neither of you are in a rush to haste. his hands cup over your ass and thighs; your hands are braided in his hair. his palms knead the flesh of your breasts; your fingers gently brush across his chest and abs. whether or not you make love comes later, but you sleep peacefully in each other's embrace.

āž¼ xu minghao

sky-watching. when you poke him awake, he's definitely concerned, but the first thought that pops to his head when you say you cant sleep is to go sit in the balcony. so now, at 2 am, you're in the balcony, a cup of warm tea in your hands and xu minghao at your side. its silent, but its a comfortable silence that wraps around you like a blanket, and warmed up by the tea he specially made for you. and although for others, the silence might seem awkward, minghao knows that this is exactly what you need to escape from the thoughts racing around in your mind.

āž¼ boo seungkwan

late night walks. seungkwan's energy peaks after he comes home and sees you, so walks to tire you both out becomes a staple in the routine. youre walking the streets in matching hoodies (that's because you take one of his) and even in the cold, he makes it a habit to hold your hand in his. you wander through new streets every night, discovering new neighbourhoods, having a quick snack from the convenience store, and usually stumble over a park or play area. you can feel seungkwan's eyes light up and the next thing you know, youre on the swings, side-by-side. with the little squeeze of your hand, he lets you know he's ready to go back.

āž¼ chwe hansol

watching a movie. to hansol, any logical being would be asleep at this hour. (un)fortunately for him, you weren't as logical as he thought. but maybe he enjoys it because why else would he allow you to keep him awake at this ungodly hour, watching 'Tangled' for the twentieth time now? all frowns erase the moment he sees pascal on the screen, and a smile places itself. he becomes so engrossed in the movie he doesn't even notice that you'd fallen asleep about halfway through the movie. when he does notice tho, he silently closes the laptop and places it away, before slipping back into the bed to get his precious sleep.

āž¼ lee chan

listening to him talk. chan loves to talk, and you love to listen to him talk. while mostly by this time you're both dead asleep, sometimes you end up in the balcony, the wind playfully ruffling his hair as he goes on and on about something he's so so passionate about. it could be the most trivial things, but the way his eyes go wide as he's expressing his emotions and the way they catch the moonlight in them like little stars. you're gonna be pretty tired the next morning, but when chan's with you, you couldn't care less.


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avenhill
1 year ago

when you start to ignore them — seventeen as your crush

hyung line / maknae line

minghao’s not dumb—he felt it when things shifted. the way you suddenly stopped giving him those small gifts, the attention, the lingering gazes when he caught your eye. he didn’t know why, but he knew something had changed. he never mentioned it, though. minghao’s never been one to chase attention, but yours? yeah, he got used to it. maybe too used to it. the weird part is, he started to crush on you too. he’d look forward to your little gifts, the way you’d brighten up around him. he thought he’d play it cool, but now? now he feels like he’s the one waiting.

one afternoon, after another day of you barely acknowledging him, he corners you. his voice is calm, but there’s something sharp beneath the surface. ā€œdid something happen between us?ā€ you blink at him, caught off guard by the sudden confrontation. ā€œno… why?ā€

he tilts his head, eyes narrowing. ā€œyou stopped talking to me. stopped giving me attention.ā€ his lips curl into a smirk, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. ā€œi thought you liked me.ā€ the words hang in the air, and for a second, you swear you see a flicker of irritation in his eyes. ā€œor was that just for fun?ā€

mingyu’s used to girls crushing on him. he’s tall, handsome, and charming without even trying, so it never surprises him when people start showing him attention. he thought you were just like everyone else at first—another person fawning over him. but then, you stopped. and fuck, that’s when he realized it was different.

he never thought much of it before, but when your gifts stopped showing up, when you stopped hanging around him, it hit him hard. he didn’t expect to miss it, didn’t expect to miss you. but here he is, sitting in the practice room, scrolling through his phone, wondering why you’re suddenly ignoring him. ā€œhey,ā€ he catches you outside the dorms one evening, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. ā€œyou’ve been… quiet.ā€

you raise an eyebrow. ā€œquiet?ā€

he nods, swallowing. ā€œyeah. you used to, y’know, be around more.ā€ he glances away, almost embarrassed. ā€œi kinda miss it.ā€ there’s a pause, and when you don’t respond right away, mingyu’s chest tightens. ā€œdid i do something wrong? or… were you just over it?ā€ his voice is softer than usual, less cocky, and it makes you realize how much he actually liked having you around. maybe more than he let on.

seokmin doesn’t take it well. when you stop giving him attention, he feels it immediately. it’s like a cloud settles over him, and he doesn’t know how to shake it.

he tries to laugh it off at first. ā€œoh, what did I do now y/n-nie?ā€ he jokes, flashing you one of his signature grins. but when you don’t laugh, when you just shrug and walk away, his smile falters. it eats at him for daysssss!! he hates it. hates how much he’s thinking about you, about the way you’ve been avoiding him. he misses your presence, your gifts, your attention.

finally, he can’t take it anymore. one night, after practice, he pulls you aside, his expression serious for once. ā€œwhy are you ignoring me?ā€

ā€œi’m notā€”ā€

ā€œyou are,ā€ he cuts you off, his voice a little sharper than usual. ā€œyou used to care, you used to… i don’t know, you used to make me feel special. now it’s like i don’t even exist to you.ā€ his voice cracks.

ā€œwhat the hell ive done?! or are you just tired of me?ā€

seungkwan’s first instinct is to make you jealous. when he realizes you’ve stopped giving him attention, stopped following him around, his pride takes a hit. so, he starts flirting with others more openly, trying to get a reaction out of you.

but it doesn’t work. you don’t even seem to care, and that only makes him more frustrated. after a week of his failed attempts, he finally gives up and decides to confront you. ā€œwhat’s going on?ā€ he asks one day, crossing his arms over his chest, clearly annoyed. ā€œyou’ve been ignoring me, and it’s pissing me off.ā€

you raise an eyebrow, not really in the mood for his theatrics. ā€œpissing you off?ā€ he huffs, rolling his eyes. ā€œyeah. you used to be all over me, and now… nothing. did you find someone else or something?ā€

there’s a pause, and for the first time, seungkwan’s usual confidence wavers. ā€œi don’t like it,ā€ he admits quietly, his voice softer now. ā€œi miss you.ā€ it’s a rare moment of openness from him, and you can tell he means it.

ā€œcan we… can we go back to how things were?ā€

vernon doesn’t say anything for a while. he notices when you stop hanging around him, but he’s not the type to make a big deal out of it. he figures you’re just busy, or maybe you’ve lost interest, and he tells himself it’s fine. but deep down he knows its not.

after a few days of silence, vernon starts to feel restless. he misses the small things—the way you’d smile at him, the way you’d always bring him snacks, when you click your fingers on his face when he zooms out or laugh at his dumb jokes. without you around, everything feels off. he catches you one day after class, his hands shoved in his pockets as he looks at you. ā€œsup’, you good?ā€

ā€œyeah, why?ā€

he shrugs, glancing away. ā€œjust… you’ve been kinda distant.ā€ he pauses, trying to find the right words. ā€œi don’t like it. actually, i like having you around...ā€ his voice is quiet, almost shy, and it takes you a second to realize he’s being serious. ā€œi mean, i get it if you’re over it or whatever, butā€¦ā€ he trails off, rubbing the back of his neck. ā€œi really miss you. that’s all.ā€

chan’s reaction is instantaneous. the moment you stop giving him attention, he starts giving it right back. it’s like he can’t stand the idea of losing your presence, so he tries to fill the gap himself.

suddenly, he’s the one following you around, offering you snacks, little gifts, even bubblegum. ā€œhere, thought you might like this,ā€ he says with a grin, holding out a pack of your favorite candy.

ā€œuh, thanksā€¦ā€

he smiles, but there’s a hint of nervousness in his eyes. ā€œyou’ve been kinda quiet lately. figured i’d return the favor, y’know?ā€ he keeps it up for days, going out of his way to get your attention, to make you smile. and when you finally ask him why he’s doing it, he just shrugs, his usual confidence slipping a bit.

ā€œi missed you,ā€ he admits softly, his eyes dropping to the floor. ā€œyou used to do all this for me, and i didn’t realize how much i liked it until you stopped.ā€ there’s a beat of silence before he looks up at you again, his voice quieter now. ā€œi guess… i just wanted to remind you that i care too.ā€


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avenhill
1 year ago

kind gestures svt would make to their s/o without them realizing

Kind Gestures Svt Would Make To Their S/o Without Them Realizing
Kind Gestures Svt Would Make To Their S/o Without Them Realizing
Kind Gestures Svt Would Make To Their S/o Without Them Realizing

warnings: descriptions; headcanons; gn (mostly) reader self insert;

pairings: svt x gn reader

gender/aus: super fluff

Scoups

Protecting you from getting hurt.

He's a protector… period. We all know that already. He's the leader of seventeen, the leader of carats, this man is used to taking control of the situation and it's almost instinctive for him. Cheol simply doesn't notice the way he puts his hand on the edge of the table so you don't hit your head when you get up. He doesn't notice the protective hand on your back, urging you into the first seats. He notices even less the way he wakes up in the middle of the night because he knows you're moving around in a strange and potentially dangerous position for your back. It's just natural.

Jeonghan

Brushing or drying your hair.

On those occasions when you've had a bad day, your head is throbbbing and all you want is to be looked after by your boyfriend, you can bet that Jeonghan will do it. He'll follow your hair care routine step by step to the letter. Jeonghan has such a light hand that you fall asleep whenever he's gently brushing your hair. When your entire post-bath routine is complete, he'll arrange your sleeping body on the bed, he'll lie down next to you and you'll sleep together until the next day.

Joshua

Stands behind you when you're wearing skirts or shorts to avoid any accidents.

If you need to climb stairs, he'll be right behind you. If you need to pick something up, he'll hold the end of your skirt between his fingers so that it doesn't ride up. If you drop something on the floor (and Shua can't get down faster than you), he'll take a few steps to the side to cover you. It doesn't matter if you're wearing protective shorts or not, Joshua doesn't want you to become the object of evil looks or comments.

Jun

Does never admit that he hates your musical taste.

You will turn on the speakers before cleaning the house or just for vibing around and Jun already know what's coming. He absolutely hates the loud songs you listen to, but he'll never actually say it. If he's really invested into pampering you, he'll even nod and say ā€œwow, that one's good, babeā€. He doesn't like the songs, but he loves seeing you dance to them happily. Eventually becomes attached to the music because it reminds him of you.

Hoshi

Put on or take off your shoes.

He will do this without hesitation. The minute you leave the house, Hoshi will take the shoes from your hands, kneel down in front of you and help you put them on. If it's a pair of sneakers, he'll make an extra effort to tie the laces. If they're heels (especially with straps) Hoshi will make a point of dragging his nails along the back of your calf, just because he thinks it's funny to see your leg fail. He's a prankster.

Wonwoo

Google the things you mention.

If Wonwoo doesn't know about something you like or something you've mentioned, he'll research it later. He wants to be a part of every part of your life and uses these little details to reaffirm his love for you. So if there's a new skincare routine that you're dying to try, Wonwoo will research everything about it so that he can accompany you when you buy it, or help you when you apply it, or nod when you explain the function and order of every. single. product. You were talking to him about some "primer" and "foundation" stuff that he's not aware of? He'll google what it is as soon as you finish.

Woozi

Solves your problems so you don't have to worry.

Woozi might do bureaucratic things for you. You know those grown-up things that nobody wants to do? Like, you need to call the bank? He's already got the phone in his hand. Do you need to make a doctor's appointment? He'll do it for you. Filing your taxes or making the grocery list? Don't worry about it.

Dokyeom

Carrying you.

Dok is a strong boy, like he has big arms. And he likes it when you look impressed by that, it's a surprise every time you remember that your adorable puppy boyfie is actually a HUGE man. So every time you're coming back from an event, or somewhere you've had to wear heels, Dok will lift you up bridal style and carry you to the car, then to the door of the house, or to the bedroom…

Mingyu

Cares about your food (what a surprise).

If you order something with strawberries, he'll order it too just to give you his strawberry, because even though he likes strawberries, you like strawberries more, so he doesn't mind going the rest of his life without eating strawberries. If you're eating while walking in the street and Mingyu sees that you're struggling to eat while holding a can of soda, he'll hold it out to you and keep offering it to you until you've finished eating. Mingyu just wants to see you well fed, because he's happy to see the little weeds you make when you eat something you really like.

Minghao

Discreet PDA when you're tired.

Minghao will discreetly intertwine his pinky in yours if he notices that you're starting to feel overwhelmed in a crowded environment, he'll be your main object of comfort. In fact, he'll do this even if you only really like physical touch, despite not being the biggest fan of pda. It's the perfect blend of affectionate and discreet.

Seungkwan

Takes high care of your health.

He is always the first one to ask you how your doctor appointment went out. He buys you vitamins and cooks you proper meals. Boo is just always reminding you of drinking water and stretching when you've been sitting in the same position for a while. He just can't stand the thought of you in pain or ill. He WILL come up with the "your body is a temple" talk, you can't escape it.

Vernon

Gives up some of his habits for you without you realizing it.

He's said to be mostly a disorganized person, but as soon as you start living together, he'll subtly change a few habits to make you comfortable - especially if he knows you like things tidy. So don't be surprised if he starts folding both of your clothes and making your bed in the morning for the next few weeks. He'll do these tiny little things. He probably wouldn't turn into Mr. Cleanest overnight, but he would do these little tasks for you.

Dino

Carrying your bags and opening doors.

Dino never lets you carry anything, or open doors or anything that requires using your hands. You don't have to because, after all, he's there to do all that. It doesn't matter if it's light, if it's heavy, if it's just your cell phone… he'll carry it for you. No argument there. And yes, I'm totally influenced by that video of his. If Dino sees you with anything in your hand, he'll rush to take it from you. If you need to call the elevator, he'll rush to do it before you even think about it.


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avenhill
1 year ago
A Change Of Heart

A Change Of Heart

MDNI

collegestudent!reader x jerk!mingyu

wc: 2.4k

a/n: sorry for not posting in a while !

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In the bustling halls of Yonsei University, Mingyu seemed to be the epitome of the perfect jerk. His charming smile could light up a room, and his playful banter had a way of making girls swoon. Yet, behind that charismatic facade, he was arrogant, impulsive, and, frankly, a complete pain. Your friends would often roll their eyes, sharing knowing glances as he strutted around, acting like he owned the place. You, however, remained immune to his charms. Or so you thought.

"Mingyu's at it again," Jenna, your best friend, whispered, elbowing you as she pointed toward the crowd where Mingyu and his friends were causing a ruckus.

You observed him from a distance, standing in the center of his entourage like a king among peasants. It made your blood boil. "Why does he even try?" you mumbled, shaking your head.

"Because he's Mingyu," Jenna replied, giggling as she watched him turn his attention toward you. "He has a soft spot for you, you know."

ā€œMore like a bullseye,ā€ you retorted, crossing your arms. You could feel his gaze prickling against you like a heatwave.

Mingyu sauntered over, a confident grin plastered across his face. "Hey, why so serious? You should lighten up," he said, a hint of mischief dancing in his eyes.

You rolled your eyes. "Maybe because you're annoying."

"Ouch. That stings!" he laughed, feigning hurt. "Come on, don’t tell me you’re still mad about last week when I beat you at that game?"

You shook your head. "It's not just that, Mingyu. You’re a jerk, and your tricks don’t work on me."

"Tricks? Me? I’m just being charming," he winked, leaning closer as if sharing a sweet secret.

Your heart raced, but you swallowed the flutter and stood your ground. "Trust me, it’s not charming. It’s just… sad."

ā€œSad? Think of it as my unique way of showing interest,ā€ he retorted playfully, undeterred.

His friends snickered behind him as you felt frustration bubble within. ā€œYou know what? Just leave me alone. I’m not interested in jerks, no matter how charming they think they are.ā€

A beat of silence fell between the two of you, the subtle tension crackling in the air. Mingyu’s smirk faltered, and for the first time, you saw a flicker of something else in his eyes—hurt?

ā€œOkay,ā€ he replied quietly, backing away. "If that’s what you want…"

For a moment, you felt a pang of regret. But you brushed it aside. You couldn’t allow yourself to get caught in his games. You turned on your heel and walked away, heart pounding, but relieved to finally stand up to him.

The next few days passed in a haze. You tried to focus on your studies and hobbies, but your mind kept wandering back to the encounter with Mingyu. Your friends noticed the change in your mood, and Jenna was quick to bring it up.

ā€œAre you okay? You seem a little… off,ā€ she probed one lunch break.

ā€œHonestly, I just—I’m so done with Mingyu’s antics,ā€ you confessed, stabbing your fork into your salad. ā€œHe thinks he can charm me just because he’s popular. It’s exhausting.ā€

ā€œI get it, but you have to admit, he’s persistent. He must really like you,ā€ Jenna replied, a teasing lilt in her voice.

ā€œWho cares? I’ve told him no, and I mean it.ā€

But, as the week dragged on, you began to notice you missed him—his obnoxious confidence, the banter, even the way he could make you laugh despite your better judgment. The tension was palpable, and it surprised you how much you longed for his presence.

Then, one afternoon, as you left your last class, you unexpectedly ran into Mingyu by the lockers. He stood there, leaning against the metal frame, arms crossed, looking a bit lost.

ā€œHey,ā€ he greeted, his voice softer than usual.

You hesitated but replied, ā€œHey.ā€

ā€œYou… okay?ā€ He glanced away, avoiding your gaze. It was unlike his usual bravado.

ā€œI’m fine,ā€ you replied, trying to sound disinterested, even as you felt a rush of emotion stirring within you.

ā€œListen, about what you said the other dayā€¦ā€ he began, pushing himself off the locker and straightening. ā€œI really didn’t mean to come off as a jerk. I was just trying to, well, get your attention.ā€

ā€œWell, you’ve got it,ā€ you shot back, surprising even yourself.

He run a hand through his hair in frustration. ā€œCan we start over? I promise I won’t be a jerk. I want to show you I can be… better.ā€

You held his gaze, searching for sincerity in his words. There was something about his earnestness that pulled at you, and for the first time, you wondered if perhaps you had misjudged him.

ā€œOkay,ā€ you conceded, a small smile creeping up your lips against your will. ā€œBut no more ā€˜charming’ attempts, Mingyu. Just be yourself.ā€

He grinned, and you felt an inexplicable warmth at the corners of your heart. Maybe, just maybe, his intentions were more genuine than you had thought.

As the days turned into weeks, you and Mingyu started spending more time together. He seemed to put in genuine effort to show you a side of him that was softer and more thoughtful—no more cocky comments or arrogance. One evening, while studying at a local cafĆ©, you found yourself laughing freely, truly enjoying his company.

You placed your pencil down, wiping tears of laughter from your eyes. ā€œI can’t believe you actually did that!ā€ You giggled, recalling one of his ridiculous childhood stories.

ā€œHey, I was just a kid!ā€ he defended, chuckling along. ā€œBut it’s who I am now. I’m trying to show you that I’m not just some jerk.ā€

ā€œAnd I appreciate it,ā€ you replied softly, the intimacy of the moment washing over you.

There was a moment of silence, a palpable tension enveloping you both as his gaze locked onto yours, that same old spark of chemistry igniting once again. Unlike before, it didn’t feel antagonistic. This time, it felt warm—inviting.

ā€œCan I… kiss you?ā€ he asked suddenly, his voice barely above a whisper. The vulnerability in his question caught you off guard.

ā€œYes,ā€ you breathed, your heart racing as he leaned in. The moment his lips touched yours, it felt electric. It was soft and tentative, but there was an urgency buried beneath it, a longing to bridge the gap that had held you apart for so long.

As the kiss deepened, you melted against him, feeling everything you had held back; the sweetness of his charm and the warmth of his body enveloping you as he pulled you into his arms.

ā€œWanna go to my place?ā€

Mingyu leaned in, his lips tracing a scorching path along your neck, nipping at the sensitive skin just below your ear. You arched your back, gasping at the sensation, your nails digging into the couch cushions. His hands roamed down your body, unbuttoning your shirt with a deftness that spoke of his eagerness, yet never once breaking the spell of his kisses. Each button released was a whispered promise of what was to come, each inch of skin revealed a new chapter in the story of your desire.

When your shirt was open, he took a moment to appreciate the sight of you, his eyes devouring the curves of your body as if you were a masterpiece. He cupped your breasts gently, his thumbs brushing over the hardened peaks, eliciting a soft whimper from your lips. You could feel your body responding to his touch, your skin tightening with need, your nipples begging for more. He leaned down, capturing one with his mouth, his tongue flicking and teasing as you threaded your fingers through his hair, pulling him closer.

He stood, pulling you up with him, and you stepped out of your shoes, the cool floor a stark contrast to the heat of his skin. He guided you down the hallway, his hand on the small of your back, a silent promise that he would lead you to where you both wanted to be. The bedroom door creaked open, revealing a space bathed in the soft glow of candlelight. The scent of vanilla filled the air, a sweet aroma that seemed to envelop you both as you stepped over the threshold. The bed was large and inviting, the sheets a crisp white that starkly contrasted with the dark tones of the room.

Mingyu turned to face you, his eyes dark with lust. He took your hand and led you to the edge of the bed, his other hand unbuckling his belt, his sweatpants falling to the floor. He was beautiful in his vulnerability, his need for you mirrored in every line of his body. You reached for the button of your own pants, but he stopped you, a smoldering smile playing on his lips. "Let me," he murmured, his voice a seductive caress that had you melting into a puddle of desire. He knelt before you, his eyes never leaving yours as he unzipped your pants and pulled them down, his fingers grazing the sensitive skin of your thighs.

The anticipation was unbearable, the tension between you a living, breathing entity that demanded to be sated. You stepped out of your pants, leaving you in nothing but your underwear, which he took his sweet time removing. His eyes raked over your naked body, a silent testament to his appreciation. He kissed his way up your legs, each kiss leaving a mark of fire, until he reached the juncture of your thighs. You felt yourself growing wetter, your body ready and willing for his touch. He paused, looking up at you with a question in his eyes, and you nodded, unable to form words.

With a gentle tug, he removed your panties, tossing them aside. His hands slid up your thighs, his fingers tracing the sensitive skin, before he leaned in and kissed you intimately. The sensation was overwhelming, a jolt of pleasure that had you gripping the bedpost for support. He took his time, exploring every inch of you with his mouth, his tongue dipping and swirling in a dance that had your knees threatening to give out. You could feel your orgasm building, a crescendo that grew louder with each passing second.

Finally, unable to wait any longer, you pushed him away and climbed onto the bed, pulling him with you. He didn't resist, his own need clear in the way he kissed you, his hands roaming over your body with an urgency that matched yours. You reached for the hem of his boxers, pulling them down and freeing his erection. You took him in your hand, marveling at his size, before guiding him to your entrance. He hovered there for a moment, his eyes searching yours, and then with a deep, guttural groan, he pushed into you, filling you completely.

The sensation was like nothing you had ever felt before, a perfect union of bodies and souls that had you crying out his name. He moved slowly at first, giving your body time to adjust to his size, his movements deliberate and measured. Each thrust was a declaration of his desire, a silent promise that he would give you everything you needed. Your legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer, urging him deeper. His hands found your hips, holding you in place as he picked up the pace, his rhythm setting the beat to the symphony of your passion.

The sound of your skin slapping against his filled the room, a primal music that seemed to resonate with the very walls. The bed rocked beneath you, a testament to the intensity of your love making. You could feel your climax approaching, a tingling in your toes that traveled up your spine and exploded in your core. Mingyu's eyes never left yours, his gaze holding you captive as he brought you to the edge and pushed you over. You screamed his name, your nails digging into his back as wave after wave of pleasure crashed over you.

He followed you, his own release a powerful crescendo that had his body tensing and his eyes rolling back in his head. He collapsed onto you, his breath hot against your neck, his heart pounding in time with yours. For a moment, you lay there, tangled in the sheets, lost in the aftermath of your shared ecstasy. The candlelight flickered, casting shadows across the room that danced over your sweat-slicked skin.

As your breathing slowly returned to normal, Mingyu rolled over, pulling you with him so that you were nestled in the crook of his arm. He kissed the top of your head, his hand tracing idle patterns on your back. "I've wanted this for so long," he murmured, his voice a warm rumble in the quiet of the room. You snuggled closer, feeling his words resonate deep within you. This moment, this connection, was everything you had ever hoped for.

You whispered your own confession into the darkness, your voice a soft, contented sigh. "Me too." The words hung in the air, a promise of more nights like this, more moments of unbridled passion and love. He tightened his hold on you, his fingers playing with the ends of your hair. "We have all the time in the world," he said, his voice filled with certainty. And in that moment, as the candles burned low and the night stretched out before you, it felt like you truly did.

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avenhill
1 year ago

saw requests being open and had to wait for thoughts (cause i naturally don't have any) BUT-

wonwoo, seungcheol and reader playing games but every time seungcheol curses (which is, all the time), he has to watch wonwoo fuck you stupid.

(was going to send cheol having to watch you ride his thigh instead of cock but then thigh-riding cheol is already written so i tweaked it a bit)

— bet | c.sc & j.ww

⋆ pairings; seungcheol x fem! reader x wonwoo ⋆ genre; smut, fluff, humor ⋆ w.c; 2k+ ⋆ warnings; unprotected sex, grumbling, cuck! coups, wonwoo is a fucking tease, spitroasting, unprotected sex, multiple rounds, creampie ⋆ a/n; sending virtual kisses to your brain, ris. this thought possessed me and here is this *coughs* monstrosity.

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ā€œhey! kissing wasn't included!ā€

seungcheol's protests fall deaf to your ears as you moan against wonwoo's lips. he kisses you, tongue prodding into every corner of your mouth.

it isn't even the first round tonight. you forgot just how many times you came, clenching around him as he split you open. you moan his name, your orgasm building up again. your abused hole flutters around his girth, and he groans, picking up his pace.

seungcheol groans, a curse word on the tip of his tongue, but he stops before it can spill out. he can't even keep his eyes on the damn game. you look way too pretty, and it's not his cock that's making you moan and whimper now.

ā€œugh,ā€ it's all he can mutter, refocusing on his game to ensure he doesn't get killed.

why did he agree to the stupid bet wonwoo proposed? as much as seungcheol hates to say it, his ego prevented him from thinking through it before accepting the bet. and now he regrets it.

of course, your consent was taken into account. the only time seungcheol would give up his ego is when it concerns you. but you, surprisingly, agreed. and his ego was again hurt.

your moans reduce to sighs when wonwoo stops his movements to glance at his friend, who once again failed to control himself. a smirk plays on his lips, and it makes your cunt flutters around his cock.

you suck in a sharp breath, gazing into the depth of his eyes. his hair is messy, and it covers his eyes. wonwoo resembles a predator with the way he looks down at you.

but you don't expect to be roughly pulled off the couch by a strong pair of arms that most definitely belong to your boyfriend. your hole clenches around nothing, and you miss wonwoo's cock immediately.

without a second to waste, seungcheol's mouth is on yours. he kisses you harshly and roughly. like he's trying to erase the feeling of wonwoo's lips from your mind. you kiss him back with the same intensity, having missed him and the familiarity of his warmth.

ā€œah, ah, someone's forgetting the bet.ā€ wonwoo mocks seungcheol, his tone airy and light. he doesn't really care about the bet. he's merely amused by his older friend and his actions.

he waits, letting seungcheol do what he wants. his lips hungrily move on yours, and his hands find purchase under your t-shirt, feeling you up. you moan into his mouth, and his harsh touches leave your body blazing.

your boyfriend pulls away, hands moving to hastily undo his pants. as he does so, you finally notice wonwoo's presence. he hasn't moved from his place on the couch. he leans on the handrest and watches you with a lazy smirk.

seungcheol harshly turns your head towards him. his fingers squeeze your cheeks, making your lips pucker up. he bends forward and kisses you with such force that it makes your head dizzy.

ā€œeyes on me.ā€

you keep your eyes on your boyfriend but can't help but feel drawn by wonwoo. his eyes are intense, staring holes into you. but before you could give into the urge to look at him, seungcheol strips bare, except the boxers adorning his pelvis.

he steps closer to you and tilts up your chin with his forefinger. he looks at you with such adoration and lust, and you melt into his touch. and what was supposed to be a tender moment is ruined by wonwoo.

ā€œoh wait, didn't you curse when the game ended?ā€ his smirk laces with his voice. though you don't turn to look at him, you can see his teeth flashing with a smirk.

seungcheol's jaw tenses, and he closes his eyes, trying to compose himself. he steps back while keeping his eyes on you, and you maintain eye contact.

the couch dips when wonwoo moves closer to you. he lays a hand on your thigh, silently asking for permission. you give it to him by leaning into a kiss. it's softer than the rest you shared tonight.

his tongue darts out to meet yours in a deep kiss. his hands caress your sides, your breasts, and your ass. a pinch to your nipple makes you moan against his lips, and arousal gathers between your legs again.

your lips move against his as his tongue glides over yours. the wet noises of kissing fill the room, and your cunt flutters around nothing, missing his cock. you open your eyes mid-kiss to find seungcheol staring at you.

wonwoo breaks the kiss and moves away from you, leaving you confused. he only offers you a smirk.

ā€œ'm gonna take your mouth. is that ok?ā€ he questions you. your eyes find seungcheol's, asking for permission silently.

you nod, and wonwoo smiles, shifting to stand before you. his cock, all hard and dripping with precome. your mouth salivates, and you feel your cunt flutter with excitement.

you wrap your hand around his base, giving him a few experimental pumps. wonwoo exhales a shaky breath, eyes closing with content. before you can take him in your mouth, you feel the couch dip beside you.

seungcheol shifts in his seat to move you to his lap. his boxers long gone, and his dick curves against his stomach, twitching with need. the thought of being filled with two cocks at the same time makes you feverish and dizzy.Ā 

you feel his cock graze your ass and whimper, neglecting wonwoo in the process. but he doesn’t allow it, opting to prod your lips with cock. you look up at him and wrap your lips around the tip, licking the pearls of precum oozing from his slit.Ā 

at the same time, you feel seungcheol’s tip enter your core. your hands fly up to grab wonwoo’s hip for support. his cock slowly enters you with a delicious stretch. no matter how many times seungcheol molds your cunt to the shape of his cock, it will never fail to amaze just how good he feels each time.Ā 

wonwoo grabs your attention again by carding his hand through your hair, resting it at the back of your head. you suck his tip, swirling your tongue around it while trying to fit more of him into your mouth. your cunt flutters around seungcheol, the length of his cock buried deep inside.Ā 

you gag when you reach the base of his cock. wonwoo lets out a groan of satisfaction while seungcheol remains silent, his hands caressing the small of your back.Ā 

hollowing your cheeks, you move your head up and down his cock. you hum, savoring his taste in your mouth and the way his tip brushes against the back of your throat.

you clench around seungcheol, grinding on him to get him to move. but he stops you, firmly holding your hips in place. you want to turn around, but wonwoo promptly stops you. the hand resting at the back of your head tugs your hair as he thrusts his length down your throat.

you gag and loosen your jaw. tears sprout from your waterline, threatening to fall down as wonwoo abuses your throat. he groans and curses, and the sound of you gagging fills his ears.

unable to control yourself, you clench around seungcheol's cock, chasing some movement. you receive a spank in reply, causing you to make a noise muffled by wonwoo's length.

his cock twitches in your mouth, urging you to suck him harder. your nails dig into his hips, leaving moon-shaped marks. his pace gets overwhelming, and any rational thought melts in your brain. only the sound of him fucking your mouth imprints on your mind.

he pulls out without warning. you gasp for breath and splutter. closing your eyes, you try to relax, but just when you thought you could rest seungcheol moves.

the grip he has on your hips is harsh as he thrusts his cock at an animalistic pace. the force of his thrusts makes you jerk forward, holding wonwoo for support.

you whine around the latter's length. he brushes your hair aside and caresses your face. though the smile he casts down at you is warm, you know it's nothing but a tease.

he gathers your hair at the back to maneuver your head. but he waits for a moment, observing seungcheol's rhythm. wonwoo pushes down your face when the older one pulls out. he pulls out when seungcheol pushes in.

they continue this pattern, making your eyes roll to the back of your head. you're completely mind-fucked, having your holes used by your boyfriend and his friend.

but there's something about seungcheol's thrusts that makes your head spin. as if he's trying to remind you who you really belong to. the jealousy seeps from him, translating into harsh thrusts that have your body trembling.

his cock hits all the right spots with precision. the sounds of skin slapping echo throughout the room, even louder than your muffled moans. his warm thighs press against yours, and his balls slap against your cunt.

your focus is brought back to wonwoo when he pinches your nipples. his cock is buried inside your mouth, your warm walls providing him the utmost pleasure. his pace is bearable, but he's deep inside your mouth, and you feel your throat constrict around his length.

soon, wonwoo starts to match seungcheol's animalistic pace, throwing you off the edge. being filled by two cocks at the same time fills you with ecstasy. wonwoo hits the back of your throat, followed by your boyfriend hitting that spot.

tears cascade down your cheeks and drool down your chin. the band in your stomach tightens, and your moans get louder. seungcheol's pace turns erratic, his cock twitching inside you.

the orgasm finally crashes over you, sending waves of pleasure through your body. wonwoo pulls out like clockwork, giving you time to breathe. he jerks his cock with the help of your drool and holds your head, making you watch him.

seungcheol fastens his pace, fucking you with more desperation. the frustration built up in his body finally catches onto him. the frustration of having to watch you being fucked dumb by his friend over and over again.

with a final thrust, he succumbs to his pleasure, releasing his load inside of you. warm ribbons of cum decorate your walls. seungcheol moans, emptying every single drop inside of you.

wonwoo follows suit. with a groan, he cums, coating your face and chest with his fluids. he topples back on the gaming chair, and you, on seungcheol.

he wraps his arms around you as if it's a reflex. you catch your breath and lean into his touch. You missed his touch. yes, wonwoo is hot and can fuck you dumb. but seungcheol's touch provides you with warmth and pleasure.

you chuckle, patting his arms. his embrace is tighter than usual, and you feel the pucker of his lips behind your neck. you turn around in his arms, and as you thought, he is pouting.

you kiss him with a low coo. he melts into the kiss, softly kissing you back. you curl your arms around his neck and caress his nape and hair. he holds you securely with his arms around your waist.

ā€œalright. uhh, imma head out, now.ā€ wonwoo announces awkwardly. you chuckle, bidding him goodbye and telling him to take care. seungcheol grumbles a farewell, too.

ā€œi'm never cursing again.ā€

ā€œhey, that wasn't that bad.ā€

ā€œwhat do you mean, it wasn't that bad?ā€ you laugh at his expression, and he continues to grumble about it.

ā€œmaybe i should fuck one of your friends each time you die in a game!ā€

ā€œsounds hot, i'm down. a friend of mine actually finds you attractive, should i hit her up?ā€ you tease him, watching his frown deepen.

ā€œugh, fuck you.ā€

ā€œoh,ā€ you gasp, ā€œwonwoo, he cursed agaā€”ā€ your yelling is muffled by his hand, which he quickly replaces with his lips. he crashes his lips on yours, tugging at your hair enough to inflict slight pain. it's all tongue and teeth.

he shifts, bending you over on the couch. his hard cock grazes your thighs.

uh oh, it's going to be a long night.

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tags; @seungkwanschicken @aaa-sia @dokyeomkyeom @bangantokchy

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avenhill
1 year ago

hi! love ur writing sm :(( got me kicking my feet and smiling at my phone like a dumb idiot lol hahahshsa, could you write how ot13 would react to their s/o kissing them or be very pda live on a variety show/live broadcast? (their relationship is public and adored) thank you!!

svt s/o being publicly affectionate with them on a live show | [ ot13 ]

Hi! Love Ur Writing Sm :(( Got Me Kicking My Feet And Smiling At My Phone Like A Dumb Idiot Lol Hahahshsa,
Hi! Love Ur Writing Sm :(( Got Me Kicking My Feet And Smiling At My Phone Like A Dumb Idiot Lol Hahahshsa,
Hi! Love Ur Writing Sm :(( Got Me Kicking My Feet And Smiling At My Phone Like A Dumb Idiot Lol Hahahshsa,

[🫧] seungcheol

- he would be flustered for a quick second but kisses you back a hundred percent. keeps you close to him for the rest of the variety show. voicing his support to you throughout the show even if you’re on opposing teams.

[🫧] jeonghan

- he would be shocked. gives you a quick kiss back before acting that nothing happened. you can see the light pink blush on his cheeks if you were close to him. teases you throughout the show, if you were all playing a game. you bet he’s gonna try and cheat.

[🫧] joshua

- his eyes goes wide like when he’s angry but he’s not angry. he just wasn’t expecting the kiss. he holds your hands throughout the show, beaming at you whenever you get a question correct.

[🫧] junhui

- would let you do anything you want to him. whether it was a small kiss or a hug. he’s really happy to be with you at that moment on the show or a live broadcast.

[🫧] hoshi

- would be the one to cuddle up to you. he’s makes it known that you’re his beautiful s/o. a clingy man, whines when you move away from him. gets really excited when they ask him a question about you. ā€œwhat’s their favorite food?ā€ ā€œoh my god. I KNOW THISā€.

[🫧] wonwoo

- not big on pda for the public but you are but you’re mindful. asking if it’s okay to hold his hands, give him a hug and he assured you that it’s okay because it’s you and he trusts you with his life.

[🫧] woozi

- man goes RED. all the blood goes to his cheeks immediately when you turn affectionate to him. would also let you do what you want, he likes seeing you happy. holds your hands after the live ended and all the way home :)

[🫧] dokyeom

- also a very affectionate man whether it was on camera or off camera. accepts all you’re affectionate gestures, kisses, hugs, holding hands. he thanks his fans everyday for supporting his relationship. really likes it when you first initiate affections.

[🫧] mingyu

- happy puppy, reciprocate all your affection back. really happy when you hug him. he makes sure to cover the camera when you kiss. you can see a faint blush on him, the members tease him.

[🫧] minghao

- subtle blush on his cheeks. would return the gestures of course. wouldn’t do anything more but hugs, kisses are meant to be shared in private with you and him. no viewers.

[🫧] seungkwan

- sides eye you but he warms up later to show pda. holds your hands throughout the live show. hugs you whiling jumping around when you win a game. ā€œYOU WON!!ā€. just lets you continuously pinching his cheeks :D

[🫧] vernon

- wide eyes and looked at you as if you committed a sin right infront of him. his cheeks goes pink IMMEDIATELY, awkwardly patting your back while bringing you in for a small hug instead. he prefers to be more affectionate towards you in private rather than public.

[🫧] chan

- doesn’t mind showing pda in public and doesn’t mind you being more affectionate in public, esp in the eyes of his fans. kisses you back when the cameras are turned another to another area (to his members). he’s happy to return all your affection gestures!!!


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avenhill
1 year ago

SEVENTEEN RIGHT HERE


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avenhill
1 year ago

seventeen's reaction of you calling them 'baby boy' for the first time

warnings: stablish relationship, suggestive, mention of explicit content, use of 'mommy'

------------- minors do not interact ------------ āœ‚ļø

seungcheol was surprised when he heard it. he was complaining about something that happened at work, a big pout on his lips as he keeps talking, and you just couldn't help it "such a baby boy" you joked, laughing. "what did you call me right now?" he asked, his brows shuting as you giggle "you heard it right, baby boy" you shoot back.

jeonghan got so cocky when he heard it for the first time. you, on the other hand, just said it mindlessly "understood, baby boy". "say that again" he said, smiling at you, making you looked confused back at him "what? baby boy?" you asked, his face changing as he was playing a devilish grin at you "should i call you mommy, then?"

joshua wasn't expecting it at all. he was waiting for you at the car, suddenly the windows rolled and he called you "we gonna get late, love! hurry up!" he said. you ran around the house, shoes getting in on the way "im coming, baby boy" you said back, locking the door and getting on passenger seat. he looked at you, almost horrified "don't ever say that again" as you laugh.

jun got flustered, all giggly, and ears red. you got yourself home at the view of your lover layed on the sofa, eyes glued on the tv screen, fully concentrated at the cartoon. "hello, baby boy" you great with a smile. he jumped on his spot, realizing it was you, his face brightening up in shyness "oh! hi"

hoshi couldn't stop bickering with you. he was the very definition of brat, a playful smile on his lips every time he got a reaction of you. "stop! are you a baby boy or something?" you shoot annoyed. "a what? try calling me that on bed next time" he replied it right away, your mouth opening in surprised at his dirty words "soonyoung!"

wonwoo had been hours staring at the computer screen, you approaching, purposely covering half of the screen "what are you doing?" you asked as he tried to peek behind you "how many hours more?" you sulked and he looked at your face with doe eyes "dont say it like that" he replied. "what can i do? i have an addicted baby boy at home, i guess" you said and his cheeks turned red as he got up to hug you tightly.

woozi was on the studio when he received your call. "hey, what are you doing? im passing by, do you wanna grab lunch?" you asked on the other side as he replied "sure, i meet you in 5" "'kay! see ya, baby boy" woozi knew he couldn't hide his expression, a rush of heat coming up his face as he was glad it was through the phone and you wouldn't see him like this, he was weak.

dokyeom saw everything but this coming when he met you in a tiny short that did a poor job at covering his thighs. you came closer checking him out "you look good" it was the first thing you said, seeing his bright smile making its appearance on his face "hello to you too" he replied. "what do you think we stay at home today, baby boy?" you hugged him, letting it out as he got shy without leaving his smile that makes you weak to him and so is he to you.

mingyu always knew you found it funny that people looked at him as some scary big man, and he is what he is. it wasn't a surprise when your friends met him for the first time, saying he was different than they expected. when the subject changed, you came closer to his ear, whispering "could die to let them know what a good baby boy you are to me" he grinned, scratching his nose attempt to hide it from everyone else.

minghao was caught in the heat of the moment when your innocent kisses suddenly got into messy ones. "baby..." you briefly unattached your lips, your hot breath fanning his lips "would you have me, baby boy?" you whispered. his grip tightening on your waist, pulling you to him as he whispered back "get on my lap, baby girl"

seungkwan was clingy. he needed you to keep patting him as he rested on your shoulders; every time you stopped, he grabbed your wrist again "why!!?" he pouted looking up at you. "oh my gosh! alright, baby boy, lay here" you said, patting the cushion on your lap. "please, keep calling me that" he said smiling, letting a peck to your lips.

vernon and you were playing a phone game as a duo, the laughs and excitement filling the room every match. you shouted for his help on the game, him coming to save you as he started to defend you from the bad ones "yes!! yes!! grab him!! catch him, baby boy!!" you cheered him on. his movements haulting, almost dying on the game too as he gets too flustered and light headed with the nickname but decided to just let it go.

dino was quietly resting on your arms while you talked to your friend on the phone. the gossiping ended up on the boyfriends subject, her getting surprised that dino was the youngest of his friend group "uhum, he's the baby boy" you said it and he suddenly shifted on your embrace, mouthing "baby boy?" to you as you smiled and nodded. his expression in a mist of endearment and embarrassment as he just accepted it.


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avenhill
1 year ago

based on your feelings, tell me whoch svt member would get married first. like most to least. i hope you understood what i mean šŸ„²šŸ‘šŸ¼

keep in mind this is who would get married first not who's husband material cuz that's two very different things šŸ‘†šŸ¼

most

(i'd like to call the three first ones the grandpa line)

jeonghanĀ -> i'm 99% sure he's already married

seungcheolĀ -> we know how loud seungcheol is with his love for his members, so i can't even start to imagine how he'd be with his significant other. he'd like to marry as soon as possible to show off his partner to the whole world.

joshua -> mans is husband material and he's ready to live up to it

dkĀ -> idk, he's such a romantic soul, i'm sure he loves the idea around weddings and sharing his love for you with his family and friends

minghaoĀ -> i just know this man will have the most breathtaking wedding venue, and that 2/3 out of the guests will be bawling their eyes out

mingyuĀ -> you might think "hm, natalia, that's very low for mingyu!" and yes, but here's the thing - he is 100% husband material, but i don't think he's that ready to be husband yet. like, yes yes, i love the husband agenda as much as you, but... sometimes he just gives such boyfriend vibes AND he mentioned some time ago in an interview where he thought he'd be already married by 26 or 27 and now he's like ??? hell naur

wonwoo -> i just know wonwoo is such a romantic at heart, even though he doesn't want to show that, and he'd love the idea of getting married.

(this is where it's starting to get tricky)

junĀ -> idk, this is based purely on my gut feeling

seungkwanĀ -> i don't think boo would be in that much of a rush to get married

dinoĀ -> he wants to live a bit before committing to such a big thing as marriage

vernonĀ -> boyfriend? husband? who cares, as long as you're together

wooziĀ -> i think he likes to take things slowly, so i don't think he'd be in a rush to get married

hoshi -> he's too much of a boyfriend, i'm sorry

least


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avenhill
1 year ago

pincushion - jww

Pincushion - Jww
Pincushion - Jww
Pincushion - Jww
Pincushion - Jww

pairing: tailor!jeon wonwoo x bookbinder!reader genre: 1960's, romance, angst, fluff, smut (MDNI 18+) warnings: swearing, alcohol, smut (p in v, unprotected sex, oral sex), no use of y/n, afab reader, an overabundance of 60's references oops word count: 19.9k summary: when a newly appointed tailor stops into your shop one autumn morning, you're unaware the impact he would have on your life for better or for worse.

Pincushion - Jww
Pincushion - Jww
Pincushion - Jww

1963, Autumn. The small knife in hand cuts through the thin leather with relative ease, stopping at the point you’d marked with a small piece of chalk, you switch to cut the other end of the material. You eye the coffee sitting on the opposite end of your work bench, watching the steam rise from the cup that you’d barely taken a drink from. It’s only nine in the morning and you hadn’t slept well the night before, had there not been any orders to fill you would have slept in a while longer.Ā 

With the leather finally cut into its allotted pieces you go to move to the bound paper you were trying to cover before you hear someone walk in. The chimes above the door at the front of your shop sound off with a soft resonance, the same sound that had echoed the room for years. Footsteps tread carefully into the center of your shop, you can’t eye the stranger from your closed off workshop unless you open the heavy wooden door.Ā 

A quiet ā€œHello?ā€ rings out, they sound apprehensive and unfamiliar to you. There’s a tinged worry that treads on the lone word, leaving you all the more perplexed as you set down the leather and the semicircular knife onto your workshop table and head out into the main gallery of your shop.Ā 

ā€œCan I help you?ā€ Question falling from your lips as soon as you begin to push open the oak door, finding a taller man looking down at one of the fabric laden books on one of the display tables.Ā 

ā€œOh,ā€ his attention turns to you from the book, to the doorway you’d entered from and then back to you.Ā  The horn-rimmed glasses adorning his face slipping down the bridge of his nose. ā€œI’m here to pick up an order for Seungcheol Choi.ā€ His slender hand moves from its once stagnant position to push the glasses back up before moving to his right-side front pocket, ā€œI can show you the receipt if you need itā€”ā€

ā€œThere’s no need,ā€ you shake your head and raise your hand. Seungcheol had been a longtime customer of your family’s shop, you assume it’s mostly because of a mutual acquaintance with the Hong clan, but you would never be the one to edge into that conversation unprovoked. ā€œI’ll go and grab your order,ā€ a short smile and you’re turning on your heels and striding into your storeroom/workshop once more.Ā 

When you walk back out a few moments later, the books wrapped in brown paper to protect their covers, the stranger is once again looking down at the assortment of books atop your display tables.Ā 

ā€œSo,ā€ you begin as you hold out the bound books to him, ā€œare you new? I don’t think Seungcheol has sent you before.ā€

He takes the books gingerly, his gaze returning to the soft leather-bound journal after he gives you a short nod in thanks. As if it took him a moment to process the question he blinks and turns back to you, ā€œSorry— My name’s Wonwoo Jeon. I started working for Seungcheol last week.ā€

ā€œIt’s nice to meet you,ā€ you nod, trying to register the face with the name as comprehensively as you could. ā€œTell him to give me a ring when he needs his next order, I know he goes through those fairly quickly.ā€

ā€œI will,ā€ Wonwoo smiles, ā€œBefore I go do you think I could buy this?ā€ His head nods down to the maroon colored leather-bound journal he’d been eyeing earlier, ā€œIt’s absolutely gorgeous.ā€

A small smile gracing your lips, ā€œOf course, it’s unlined though. Is that alright?ā€

ā€œIt’s perfect, thank you,ā€ he says as you pick up the book as his hands were already burdened with his boss’ order. ā€œHow much do I owe you?ā€

ā€œNo charge,ā€ you shake your head, fingers tightening along the spine. It’s smooth but the ridges of the leather run coarse under your touch, ā€œThink of it as a congratulatory gift for getting a job under Choi. I know he has a reputation for being a bit of aā€”ā€

ā€œHard-ass?ā€ Wonwoo muses, eyes widening as he realizes how he’s just insulted his boss. ā€œAnd really, I can pay for that, I’m sure it must’ve taken you a while to make it.ā€Ā 

ā€œI’m not sure if that’s the exact term I was looking for, but it does fit,ā€ you laugh, raising the book up. ā€œDon’t worry about it, do you want me to wrap it?ā€Ā 

ā€œIf you could,ā€ he offers a smile as you move to the roll of brown paper atop the register table.Ā 

It only takes a minute for you to cover it, you’d done hundreds, if not thousands, of wrappings for novels and books. Once you finish tying the twine bow atop the journal, you gently stack it on the books Wonwoo holds.Ā 

ā€œI hope to see you here again, Mr. Jeon. That is, if Seungcheol doesn’t scare you off.ā€

ā€œHe’s like a weird mix of my dad and what I’d expect Hardy Amies to be,ā€ you weren’t sure exactly who Amies is or what Wonwoo’s father was like, but you did know Seungcheol. Oddities and all. ā€œAnd don’t worry, I have a stronger resolve than most,ā€ he shoots you a wink before spinning on his heels and heading towards the door. He calls out, ā€œThanks again for the book!ā€ before shoving the door open with his hip and losing himself in the crowd of the street outside.

1963, Winter There was nothing quite like the holiday season in New York. Shops elevated the grandeur of their storefronts to catch the eye of window shoppers. Your own shop had seen an influx of patrons, as was typically the case around this time of year. But the demands were great, your hands had the slew of papercuts and hastily put on bandages to show it. Not that you minded it all too much, it was great revenue and it had paid for the camel hair coat you donned this evening.Ā 

The city was abuzz with life and festivities along almost every street, and while the excitement from Hanukkah and Christmas had died down over the last few weeks, most now looked towards the reining in of a New Year as December thirty first arrived.Ā 

ā€œWe’re going to be late,ā€ Vernon’s arm slides under yours, the crux of his arm locking into yours as his pace quickens along the dimly lit street. The sound of his derbies clicking against the pavement reverberating around the nearly empty row of houses.Ā 

ā€œIt’s ten and we’re going to a New Year’s Eve party, I doubt we’ll be late, Vernon.ā€ You let out a scoff, fumbling with your bag for a moment, not sure what you were searching for in the first place. The streetlamp’s orange glow does not aid you in deciphering the numbers etched into the doorways of the homes.Ā 

ā€œSays the person who took five years to pick out a jacket, I’m surprised we got out of your apartment before my hair turned gray— Wait a minute,ā€ his fingers of his free hand trailing up to the dyed platinum locks on his head as he turns back to shoot you a glare, ā€œIt did.ā€

ā€œYou’re such a drama queen,ā€ eyes rolling, you nudge him with your shoulder ā€œIt’s not my fault your stylist bleached you instead of dyeing you.ā€

ā€œI feel like an idiot, they can’t even see me to fix it for another week.ā€ He groans as the pair of you make your way to a brownstone tucked away neatly into one of the city’s streets. It would be innocuous from the others aligning the strip had you not been able to hear the gentle buzz of chatter and the occasional laugh drift out from the screened door.Ā 

ā€œDid Hong invite the whole block?ā€ Vernon murmurs as he lets go of your arm so that he can jump up the short handful of stairs to the front door two by two.Ā 

ā€œIt would explain how dead the rest of the street seems,ā€ Musing, you follow him, more carefully as you’d always seemed prone to falling up stairs. The voices grow in volume and now you can even hear the scratchy sound of some music floating from the door. There’s no one at the door to greet you when you walk in, just an array of faces that you seem to recognize while others are brand new acquaintances, Vernon and you drop off your coats in a nearby closet and shuffle your way inside in search for the nearest drink station.

ā€œI’d say his house is beautiful, but I can barely see anything. How does he know this many people?ā€ Vernon questions as he slides out of the way of someone’s elbow almost hitting him in the stomach. ā€œAll I want is to get slightly drunk tonight but I bet the alcohol’s already gone.ā€Ā 

ā€œIt’s the Hong household you know that’s not going to happen,ā€ a snicker leaves you before you feel a gentle tapping on your shoulder. Stopping in your tracks you’re fully ready to meet Joshua Hong’s smirk and subsequent banter, but it takes you a minute to realize that it wasn’t your childhood friend that had garnered your attention at all; instead, it’s a somewhat less familiar face.

ā€œFancy seeing you here.ā€ Wonwoo’s cheeks are slightly flushed with a smile, the contents of his champagne glass half-empty as he poses the question, ā€œCan I get you a drink?ā€

ā€œOh, sure.ā€ You return his smile, nodding your head as he begins to walk off, only stopped by someone calling out to him.

ā€œI didn’t know Pincushion would be here,ā€ Vernon’s voice draws nearer behind you, it seems like he realized you weren’t trailing after him anymore. You feel his hand land on your shoulder as he continues to talk to Wonwoo, ā€œHow are you?ā€

ā€œI’m good, thanks.ā€ He taps his shoe on the floor, only stepping forward a little bit to let someone pass by behind him.

ā€œPincushion?ā€ You question, looking from Vernon to Wonwoo with a quizzical look on your brow.

ā€œThat thing he wears around his wrist every time he comes in?ā€ Vernon shrugs, ā€œI couldn’t remember his name the first time I saw him, but I could remember that. Hence: Pincushion.ā€Ā 

ā€œIs that what it’s called?ā€ You recall the ball of velvety looking green fabric you’d seen on Wonwoo’s wrist the last handful of times he’d come to pick up the tailor shop’s orders.Ā 

ā€œYeah my grandma used to have one and I stole the needles from it to use as swords for my toys when I was a kid,ā€ his shoulders shrug as he looks past Wonwoo and spots something beyond him. ā€œI see one of those guys with a tray of drinks, I’ll get back to you in a bit.ā€ And with that he’s off, sliding around you and Wonwoo to brush his way through the crowd in a frantic sprint to grab himself a glass.

ā€œDoes he know that there’s an open bar in the other room?ā€ Wonwoo asks aloud as he watches your friend disappear into the crowd.

ā€œNot yet but give him twenty minutes and I’m sure he’ll be all over it.ā€ Vernon wasn’t one to drink heavily often, it was more of a holiday thing where he only did it if he knew he wasn’t going into work for the next few days. Needless to say, Christmas and New Years are binge drinking galore for him.Ā 

ā€œSo, book binding? How’d you get into that line of work?ā€ You’d been so concentrated on looking for your friend’s brightly colored hair that you almost didn’t hear Wonwoo when he asked.Ā 

ā€œFamily business, dad’s too sick to come in.ā€ Your eyes flickering over to him, a small shrug of your shoulders.

ā€œI’m sorry to hear that,ā€ his brow contorts into worry for a moment, as if he’d offended you somehow.Ā 

ā€œDon’t be, if anything I think he’s playing it up a bit just so mom has to be around more often,ā€ You smile, it was really only minor back issues but the doctor had prescribed bed rest and your father had been milking it for months now.Ā 

ā€œSmart man,ā€ a short laugh into his drink before he takes a sip from his glass. ā€œSo, how do you know Joshua?ā€

ā€œOld family friend, plus he’s as rich as all get out so it’s nice to see what it’s like.ā€ You note, looking up to the chandelier overhead. If it were anything but Tiffany you’d be surprised. ā€œWhat about you?ā€

ā€œYou didn’t hear this from me but Seungcheol might be secretly dating one of his sisters and she invited the whole shop just as an excuse to see him.ā€ The two of you lock eyes, a playful smirk on his lips dancing in the warm glow of the room. ā€œI’m not complaining.ā€

ā€œI don’t doubt it,ā€ chuckling for a moment, you then look up as if you’ve realized something. ā€œI should probably go and greet the host; can you imagine how rude of a guest I’d be if I didn’t?ā€

A ceding nod as he steps away from you, gesturing with his glass towards a side room off the main hall, ā€œI think I saw him in there a few minutes ago.ā€

ā€œThanks, Wonwoo,ā€ you move to pass him, heading towards the doorway before you stop for a moment, your head tilting in question, ā€œWant to meet back up later?ā€

ā€œI’d love that,ā€ a gentle thud in your chest as you nod at him, beginning to move again and question the feeling that had plagued you enough to ask him that.Ā 

You don’t find Joshua in that room, or the next, or even upstairs in his own bedroom. You do, however, find him on the second-floor fire escape, the butts of several cigarettes at his feet and a glass of whiskey in his hand. It’s cold, had you known this would be where you’d speak you would’ve brought your coat with you.

ā€œJoshua Hong,ā€ You begin, crouching down to duck through the open window, catching him as he’s begun to lean against the brick exterior of his home, ā€œHiding away from your party again?ā€

ā€œThe guest of the hour,ā€ A grin as you walk towards him, ā€œHow are you? I haven’t seen you at all in the past few months.ā€

ā€œI’m good, good… It’s been so hectic with the seasonal shopping and all, who knew journals were a hot commodity for gift-giving?ā€ You sigh, elbows resting against the cold fence of the escape. The time between now and the last you’d seen him had been great, but it had always been far and few in between when it came to his jet setting tendencies.Ā 

ā€œSounds hellish for sure,ā€ Musing, he takes a sip from his glass, the scent of whisky hitting your nose as it nears. His other hand rests atop the rusted metal of the fire escape, impatiently tapping as he looks out into the backyard of his home.

ā€œAnd what about you, Mr. Start-Up? Tear down any more conglomerates recently?ā€ You query, noticing that he was on one of his inward treks again. Something must’ve come up with his family.Ā Ā 

A snicker, as he offers out his glass to you, noticing that your hands were painfully empty, ā€œNo, but we’re working on a pretty big acquisition right now. It’s all mind games and if I didn’t make a shitload of money I’d be out of this business.ā€Ā 

ā€œLucky you though, you’re able to retire at thirty-five if you really wanted to,ā€ musing as you swirl around the contents of the glass, the ice inside clinking around.Ā 

He laughs, the cold air mixing with his breath in plumes of white that spiral into the nighttime. You push yourself from the wall, bringing the glass to your lips and downing the rest of the contents as quickly as you can, ā€œThis isn’t the time to be hard on yourself, Joshua. I think the countdown’s about to start,ā€ a look at the small wrist watch on your wrist, the time indicating that you had about five minutes until the new year began.

ā€œShit,ā€ the word elongated exasperatedly as he leans over to catch a glance at the clock face, ā€œLet’s get back out there.ā€

The two of you amble inside, your cheeks cold with the winter air and hands a little stiff from holding the glass for too long. You set it down on one of the various demilunes scattered around the hall as you make your way back into Joshua’s living room. He’s lost along the way, pulled into a group of businessmen to talk or fawning girls to cajole with, you’re not sure which at this point. All you’re trying to do is find someone you know.Ā 

You can try to push through the crowds to find Joshua, but at this point it’d be like trying to part the Red Sea with your own two hands and it was infeasible to say the least. Or you could head to one of the drink stations around the house in hopes to find Vernon, but he was as elusive as a snake and it’d be a miracle if you could find him before the clock struck midnight.

ā€œSixty!ā€ A choir of voices ring out from a nearby room, you think you can hear Joshua’s voice rising above them all, but it might also be your ears playing tricks on you.

ā€œAre they really counting down the entire minute?ā€ The voice next to you startled you so much that you jumped, turned, and saw Jeon Wonwoo looking off in the direction of the countdown. His brow furrowing in confusion, ā€œI at least thought it’d be the last ten seconds or something.ā€

ā€œJesus Wonwoo,ā€ hand over your heart as you try and catch your breath, ā€œYou almost scared me to death.ā€

A laugh, ā€œSorry about that, I’m a little light on my feet.ā€

It also didn’t help that you could barely hear with the throng of people surrounding you. The gaiety electrifies the room, as it does the entire world when on the eve of a brand-new start.Ā 

ā€œDid you want me to help you find one of your friends? I’m sure they couldn’t have gone too far,ā€ his height somewhat advantageous to him as he scans the crowd, not seeing you shake your head as the countdown reaches thirty.

ā€œI think I’m fine just staying with you,ā€ you don’t notice the way he tenses ever so slightly at your words, a more rouge tint to his cheeks as he looks back to you with a sheepish smile.

ā€œAre you sure?ā€ Eyes widening as your gazes’ lock and you feel the familiar warmth creeping up the back of your neck.

ā€œIf that’s okay with you?ā€ You question, the countdown hitting fifteen.

ā€œThat’s great— fine, it’s— yeah,ā€ he trips and stumbles over his words, trying to find solid ground somewhere on the confab plain. It’s at that moment the countdown comes to ten, and the pair of you join in for the last seconds of 1963.

Five, four, three, two — 

ā€œHappy New Year!ā€Ā 

The clock had struck midnight and he was the closest one to you, you can’t remember if it was you or him that pulled the other closer to share a kiss. The kiss was chaste, but it resounded around your ribcage like the booming of the fireworks being shot off a distant skyscraper. A smile on your lips as you mouth back your own, ā€œHappy New Year!ā€ Despite it being innocent in nature, you know with the way the feeling buzzes on your lips you yearn for something more.

1964, Early Spring. The two of you’d spent time together since that evening, outside of that transactional relationship formed in the commerce of you selling your journals and him picking them up for Seungcheol whenever he could. It was outside of that realm, more personal as the days, weeks and months had transgressed.Ā 

By some miraculous circumstance, and no less of your incessant mentioning, you and Wonwoo had been seeing each other on a regular basisĀ 

ā€œSeungcheol?ā€ The door of the tailor shop opens with nothing short of a struggle. The heavy oak pressing back against your foot as you pry it open, your hands too full to push it.Ā 

ā€œNeed some help?ā€ A voice behind you, startling you so much that you almost drop the large stack of books in your hand. You look over your shoulder to see Wonwoo standing behind you, his head tilted as if to question how you’d made it this far on your own.

ā€œThanks,ā€ allowing him to brush past you, he steps into the shop and holds the door open wider as you enter. ā€œWhere is everyone?ā€ Noticing that the usual handful of other tailors didn’t seem to be aimlessly roaming the store waiting for a customer to arrive.

ā€œBusy,ā€ He notes, motioning for you to hand him the plethora of journals. Obliging willingly, you hand them off and stretch your arms, surely the strain from the hardbacks would pull your finger muscles. ā€œThere’s been an emergency tailoring session, some big shot’s in town and needs alterations done for some party they’re throwing tomorrow night.ā€

ā€œExplains why no one came to pick up the order today,ā€ you muse, ā€œShouldn’t you be helping with that?ā€

ā€œI will be in about an hour,ā€ he sighs as if he’s already imagining the work that he’ll need to put in this evening. ā€œBut someone had to watch over the shop today.ā€Ā 

ā€œDo you want company while you wait?ā€

You’re not sure how you’d gotten roped into staying with Wonwoo until well after the sun had set and the last customer had come in for the day. The lights of the shop are off, save for the small lamp that sits above Wonwoo’s workstation. He sits at his little desk in the back corner of the shop as he sews and hems away. His eyes scan the notes the patron had given when they’d dropped off the clothes, you had to squint to try and read the messy scrawl etched onto the parchment. You sit some desks away, flipping through some editorial detailing the up and coming designers of the fashion world but nothing was particularly catching your eye.

ā€œThree alterations in one night, Seungcheol’s really trying to work us to the bone,ā€ Wonwoo sighs exasperatedly, his hands falling atop his desk, a needle held between his right index and thumb while his other hand holds the garment he’d been attending to.

ā€œDoesn’t it take a week to do something for just one piece?ā€ You ask, not too versed on the schematics of it all, just acutely aware of when your father had needed suits adjusted as he aged.

ā€œNormally,ā€ he glances over to you, a hazy impatience settling behind his brow as he thinks to the two other pieces he was set to mend. ā€œBut it’s nine-thirty now and the guy wants them done by noon tomorrow,ā€ Wonwoo almost barks out a laugh at the absurdity of it all, ā€œI didn’t even get the roughest pieces, Mingyu’ll be up all night and finish five minutes beforehand if he’s lucky.ā€

ā€œWhat are they making him do?ā€ Magazine set aside as you stand to stretch, your legs numb with the fuzziness of pinched nerves.

ā€œSome simple inseam stuff like I’m doing, but also taking in a few jacket sleeves and fixing shoulder divots,ā€ He says as if you know what he’s talking about, upon seeing the puzzled expression that paints itself on your face he explains a little more, ā€œIt’s nearly impossible to do with the amount of time we’ve been given.ā€

ā€œWhy’d Seungcheol accept this job then?ā€ Pins and needles poking through your skin as you walk over to him to take a look at what he was working on.

ā€œBecause the client’s paying us a fortune,ā€ setting the needle down he pulls a pin from the cushion around his wrist to situate it into an odd angle in the fabric in front of him, ā€œI might actually be able to take you on a real date if I finish this in time.ā€

ā€œI’ve kind of liked the ice cream socials,ā€ you shrug your shoulders, as he turns to look at you, ā€œAnd all of the gritty little dives, it’s more memorable that way. Plus, it makes me a cheap date.ā€

A small ā€˜tch’ leaving him as he turns back to his work, ā€œYou deserve more than that.ā€

ā€œAs long as you’re there I’ll be fine,ā€ you lean down to press a kiss on his cheek, ā€œNow I’ll stop distracting you, I’ll make dinner or lunch or something because I know you’ll be dead on your feet tomorrow.ā€

ā€œTry and get to bed early,ā€ he says as you go to grab your things from where you’d left them up front, ā€œI know you like to overwork yourself too.ā€

1964, Summer When you’d been invited to Wonwoo’s small apartment, you’d expected a small dinner and then maybe you’d go and watch television or explore the city afterwards. What you hadn’t expected was to see dark plumes of smoke emitting from under the doorway. You don’t knock, instead you barge into the apartment to find Wonwoo unlatching his windows and opening them to let the smoke escape, the source of the plumes coming from his small kitchen.Ā 

ā€œWhat happened?ā€ You call out as he turns to you, your hand rising to your face as if it could vanquish the putrid smell.Ā 

ā€œI cooked,ā€ the last window opens with a struggle, Wonwoo’s arms ache with how much force he had to exert when opening it. He shuffles over to you, seeing that you’d walked into the kitchen to find the source of it all.

ā€œYou… cooked….ā€ A charred, black entity sits in a pan that Wonwoo had presumably pulled from the oven minutes prior. ā€œWonwoo what is that?ā€

ā€œA loaf!ā€ An almost excited tone cutting through your confusion as you turn and tilt your head at him.

ā€œA… loaf of?ā€

ā€œMeat!ā€ At least he’s trying to sound cheerful, but that was his disposition most of the time. His hand guides your gaze over to a handwritten recipe atop the counter, he must’ve gotten it from some program. ā€œI followed Julia Child’s recipe.ā€Ā 

ā€œI’m not trying to be mean but that looks like a brick.ā€ Gaze flickering back to the meat-brick.Ā 

ā€œYeah,ā€ a sigh as he picks up a nearby spatula, grazing it atop the burnt meat, it scrapes atop it rather than giving way at all, ā€œIt’s about as hard as one too.ā€

The utter exasperation breaking through in his voice cause enough for you to laugh, the absurdity of it all pricking tears into the corners of your eyes. ā€œWe can try and salvage it,ā€ you offer once you calm yourself down enough, the occasional chuckle flitting like a bird around your ribcage.

ā€œLet’s just go to Le Pavilion or something, there’s also a new movie out too, we can try and catch it if we eat fast enough.ā€

And you do. For some reason Wonwoo orders the most expensive dish on the menu and doesn’t even like it, offering it to you instead with an abysmal pout that almost has you reeling in the small interior of the restaurant. The atmosphere is warm and jovial, met by the sinking sun as the two of you exit the venue, hands interlocked with a faint tightness as if you never wanted to be without him in your grasp again. Wonwoo and you then walk to a theater some blocks away, hands still held and a bubbling silence between you.

The film that Wonwoo had mentioned earlier had been Mary Poppins, some Disney film starring Julie Andrews and Dick Van Dyke; you’re sure you’d heard Andrews somewhere before, but you couldn’t quite put your finger on it.Ā 

ā€œI didn’t realize they could combine live action and cartoons like that,ā€ Wonwoo’s voice full of childlike wonder as the pair of you exit the cinema. The smell of popcorn wafts out of the theater’s doors and the bright bulbs of the marquee overhead creates a strange glow contrasted to the nighttime sky.Ā 

ā€œI didn’t either,ā€ you note as a few kids brush past you and begin to race down the street, their voices carrying off into the night. It brings a small smile to your lips as you watch them gallivant around, not a care in the world as they continue to chase one another.

ā€œDo you want me to walk with you back to your place?ā€ Wonwoo offers, extending his hand out to you. You don’t answer aloud, instead just take his hand into yours and begin to walk the steadily emptying streets.

ā€œHave you always lived in the city, Wonwoo?ā€ It takes a moment for you to speak again, instead of just admiring the way that the lights glint off of passing windows and the rumblings of the cars that pass to your left drown out in the other amblings of the city.

ā€œNo, my family actually lives up north a little way away.ā€ He hums to himself as he thinks, ā€œI thought I’d always be stuck up there too, but I got the offer from Seungcheol and moved here as fast as I could. Although I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss it at times.ā€

ā€œI see,ā€ you mutter, not knowing the feeling of leaving your home. It was a foreign concept to say the least, for almost the entirety of your life you’d known you were going to take over your father’s shop one day, and you’d been complacent in the matter. You’d had your hobbies that you dabbled in, but this was a nostalgic comfort that would and had transitioned into your livelihood that would take you nowhere other than the little shop you call your own. ā€œWould you want to move back?ā€

ā€œMaybe when I’m older, sure. But I want to see the world first,ā€ he nods his head, a twitch in his hand as he holds yours, ā€œthere’s so much I haven’t done or seen.ā€

It was a reckless ambition, but Wonwoo lived in that fantasy of the unknown, he had for all of his life. That was what he knew and all he abided by. You’d be fooling yourself if you didn’t worry for him at times, but he’d made it so far and you were curious to see where he was going. There was a creative longing, a desire to make, within him that no one else you’d come across had.

ā€œI love you.ā€ The words aren’t romantic when they fall from your mouth, when they’re swept up in the humidity of the summer air and ring around both his and your ears. This was more of a reckoning, a realization of the culmination of your growing feelings towards him since you’d met him almost a year ago now. A weight you hadn’t realized was there lifting from your chest, a songbird free from a gilded cage.

Wonwoo pauses, his feet stopping on the concrete as you continue to walk, only pulled back when you meet resistance. So, you stop yourself, turning back to look at him, a little ā€˜o’ on his lips and a confused look gracing his features. Had you said it too early? Or did he not reciprocate your feelings?

ā€œYou beat me to it,ā€ a small pout emerges onto his lower lip, ā€œI love you too.ā€

1964, Autumn ā€œI can’t imagine those are comfortable.ā€ You’re sure the clacking of your shoes could be heard miles away, with the obnoxious way they hit the sidewalk. They were pinching your toes too, and you might as well have put a band-aid on the backs of your heels because they were definitely going to be blistered tomorrow morning.

ā€œThey most certainly aren’t, but they are cute.ā€ You note, standing on your toes so you can click the red slippers together three times at the heel. ā€œ

Wonwoo stands at the bottom of the stairs that lead up to your apartment, offering out his hand for you to grasp when you carefully make your way down the steps. As opposed to the cool air that had begun to settle into the city, his hand offers warmth against your bare skin as his fingers intertwined with yours.

ā€œWhich way is Vernon's?ā€ He questions, looking over your costume for the evening.

ā€œHe lives over in Flatiron, kind of near the shop so it won’t be too far of a walk.ā€ You notice him looking at the checkered dress and bright shoes. ā€œWas Dorthey not a good idea, Mr. Holmes?ā€ Noting his outfit of choice, the pipe held in his free hand, the detective cap as well as the cape to match.

ā€œI think you look cute,ā€ Looking away from you and towards the street you’d begun to walk down.

Vernon’s apartment was small, it being so led to more intimate parties than one would find at Joshua Hong’s home, in a way you appreciated it a little more. Bigger parties with unfamiliar faces made you feel as if you had to act less like yourself and more robotic in your interactions.

ā€œI’ll let you in if you promise not to chuck my house to Oz,ā€ Vernon asks as he jokingly cracks open his front door as the two of you stand in front of it, ā€œAnd Pincushion here doesn’t try and solve a murder or two.ā€

ā€œHmm I guess that’s doable, right?ā€ You play along, turning to Wonwoo to confirm.

ā€œIt might take some restraint but I’m sure I can manage.ā€ Hand under his chin as if he’s deep in thought.

ā€œI’ll take what I can get,ā€ Vernon sighs and swings the door open, ā€œDrinks in the kitchen, I think Chan’s trying to do a comedy-musical routine in the living room. I’d steer clear because he’s trying out ā€˜audience participation’ tonight.ā€

ā€œThanks for the heads up,ā€ You laugh as you walk inside, the warmth of the room exacerbated by the sheer number of people crammed into the tiny space. ā€œI actually kind of want to check out Chan’s thing,ā€ You mention to Wonwoo after you find a space where the two of you can stand unimpeded.

ā€œI don’t know if I can stomach that quite yet, want me to grab you a drink in the meantime?ā€ Wonwoo asks, looking towards the kitchen and the few people filtering in and out of it.

ā€œThat’d be great,ā€ a smile and then Wonwoo’s off to struggle his way through the packed room.

Lip bitten, you try to look through the crowd, but the drawls of laughter tell you almost exactly where Chan’s giving his tri-annual standup show. It’s shoulder to shoulder and you can barely hear him over the other going-ons of the party but from what you can ascertain it’s pretty funny.

ā€œHappy Halloween!ā€ A hand on your side as they call out, you turn, and it takes you a moment to recognize the face under the Gomez Addams’ mustache and wig.

ā€œJoshua!ā€ A smile as you move to hug him for a moment, pulling away with your hands resting on his forearms, ā€œI thought you were overseas?ā€

ā€œI was supposed to be, a nasty storm delayed us by a few days over in Spain so I’m not leaving until Wednesday.ā€ He says, looking over your outfit. ā€œDidn’t you wear this like two Halloweens ago?ā€

ā€œWhat no one knows won’t hurt them,ā€ a playful nudge on his shoulder, ā€œAnd if I were to remember, this wig looks very Elvis of you.ā€

ā€œYou might be able to remember correctly,ā€ The black strands of hair that were pulled back are still reminiscent of the shape they once held. ā€œHey, I was wondering if I could talk to you alone?ā€ Joshua smiles, a nervous tinge to his voice as he continues, ā€œIt’s a little loud in here and I can’t really hear.ā€

ā€œOh, yeah,ā€ brow furrowing at the attitude shift, ā€œBut first I should tell— Wonwoo!ā€ The confused expression on Joshua’s face is somewhat laughable as you wave your boyfriend over, spotting him exiting the kitchen with two drinks in hand.

ā€œThere you are,ā€ Wonwoo says as he walks over, placing a kiss on your cheek as he hands you a glass. You’re not too sure what the contents are, but it’s warm and smells spiced and oddly autumnal. ā€œHey Joshua,ā€ he greets with a small nod of his head as you take a small sip from your glass.

ā€œHey Wonwoo,ā€ a return of the nod, ā€œI should probably let the two of you go, I just remembered I have some calls I need to make.ā€

ā€œWhat did you want to talk about?ā€Ā  You ask as Joshua begins to turn on his heels. It freezes him, he looks back to you before offering you a warm smile once again.

ā€œIt’s nothing important, I’ll catch up with you some other time, yeah?ā€

The party goes one without much note after, the most affable thing being that routine that Chan had been preparing.Ā  At one point you and Wonwoo had slipped out citing an acute tiredness as an excuse to just walk the city some more. By this time of night, the kids that had gone out in search of candy were slowly waning, now only the belligerently drunk wandered the streets in search of the home they probably lived in.

ā€œYou have to admit that the joke about Red Skelton was pretty funny though,ā€ insisting that Chan wasn’t the worst comedian you had ever seen. Sure, his act could be cleaned up a little but there was definitely potential.

ā€œWhat was it— I know a guy who bought a $99 color TV set. Now every Tuesday night he watches Green Skelton?ā€ Chuckling as he recalls the joke, Wonwoo shakes his head ā€œThat was pretty good.ā€

ā€œThat’s the one, he’s no Jerry Lewis but he’s trying his best,ā€ you laugh as you arrive at the entrance of your apartment, ā€œDid you want to come in?ā€

ā€œI’d love to,ā€ he says, and your heart skips several beats, ā€œbut I’ve got a client coming in early tomorrow.ā€ And then your heart drops, ā€œI’ll come by tomorrow after I’m done?ā€

ā€œAlright,ā€ you nod and you say your good nights, he places a kiss on your cheek before turning on his heels and walking into the darkness of night.Ā 

You fumble with your hands, trying to unlatch the small picnic basket that had acted as your purse for the evening, in search of your keys.Ā 

ā€œActually, do you have room for one more?ā€ You’d been too distracted trying to get your keys that you hadn’t heard or seen Wonwoo come back to your stoop.Ā 

ā€œI thought you said you had work tomorrow,ā€ a wayward glance to him.

ā€œI do, but it’s dark and I’m kind of afraid to walk home alone, I mean what if a ghost or vampire gets me? I’m too pretty to die right now,ā€ he states, rocking back and forth on his heels as he waits for you to invite him in.Ā 

ā€œA big baby, more like it,ā€ you scoff, once again turning to look at your door and stating, ā€œIf you are coming inside, can you lend me my own spare? I think I dropped my keys at Vernon’s.ā€

ā€œYeah I think I’ve got it on my ring,ā€ he rummages around his pockets for a moment until you hear the familiar jingle of his keys. There are only four that adorn the metal hoop; his apartment’s, his mailbox’s, Seungcheol’s shop, and the most recent addition: yours.Ā 

ā€œRoommate not home?ā€ He questions as the two of you make your way inside, kicking off your shoes as you beeline to your kitchen.

ā€œAt some B. Altman holiday extravaganza with her beau,ā€ pulling two glasses from a cabinet and grabbing a nearby bottle from the small section of your kitchen dedicated to alcohol, ā€œNightcap?ā€

ā€œA small one,ā€ Wonwoo nods as you come into the room, he’s standing over your record player, turning it on and beginning to play whatever was on the platter. You set the glasses down onto the coffee table and pry the cork out of the bottle, pouring two small glasses as he falls into the sofa beside you.

ā€œI hope Delamain’ll do?ā€ You set down the bottle and pass a glass to Wonwoo, only settling down on the couch once your own glass is in hand.

ā€œIt’s perfectly fine,ā€ he sips at his glass, setting it down on the settee as he muses some more, ā€œWhat record is this?ā€

ā€œElla Fitzgerald, mom gave it to me for my birthday last year, it’s one of her favorites.ā€ Sipping from your own glass steadily turns into you just downing the liquid in one go. The glass hits the end table with a clink when you set it down, Wonwoo’s free hand resting on your thigh as he listens to the music wafting through the air.

ā€œIt’s lovely,ā€ he sighs out as you rest your head on his shoulder, the scent of his Pour Monsieur cologne invading your senses as you settle. The meticulous grazing of his fingers over your thigh causes you to sigh, wanting to sink further into him.

ā€œCan you kiss me?ā€ The words fall breathlessly from your lips, as his fingers trace the hem of your dress. And he does, turning his head to crash against you with such voraciousness that your teeth click against each other before he steadies and falls into motion with you. The pair of you stay like that for a moment, before you feel his hand slip under your leg, urging you to sit atop him.Ā 

You straddle his waist, feeling a hardness beginning to strain against his trousers as you grind down onto his lap. He lets out a moan, probably the sweetest thing you’d ever heard, his eyelids fluttering as you do it again. A smirk graces your lips, your hands trailing from his chest to the button on the front of his pants, the fabric coarse under your touch as you move to unfasten it. Before you could, you feel a pair of warm hands atop yours, you looked up to see a wide-eyed Wonwoo.Ā 

ā€œI didn’t think I’d be doing this today, so my underwear isn’t exactly mood appropriateā€”ā€ He says all too quickly for you to comprehend fully, ā€œJust don’t judge me too hard.ā€

ā€œThey can’t be— Is that Mickey Mouse?ā€ You catch the name on the waistband of his underwear, hesitating on releasing any more of the animated character for your eyes to see.Ā 

ā€œAnd I think you’ve just killed the mood,ā€ he groans, his head falling onto the back pillow as his hands fall atop the couch cushions.Ā 

ā€œNo, I didn’t,ā€ you lean down for a kiss, rolling your hips over him, feeling that he was almost fully erect. His hands fly back to your sides, guiding you along as he lifts his pelvis to meet yours. ā€œI think they’re cute but maybe leave them home next time.ā€

ā€œNext time?ā€ He mused, looking up at you through clouded eyes, a joking tinge added to his voice ā€œWhat makes you think there’s going to be a next time?ā€

ā€œCall it foresight,ā€ shoulders shrugging as you look down at him, your head tilted ever so slightly ā€œand you don’t seem like the hit it and quit it type, baby.ā€ He’d slept over at your apartment before, maybe you’d had a few drunken makeout sessions but nothing ever this sobering, this far. In hindsight maybe you should’ve been nervous, let the butterflies in your stomach take over and calm you down. You’re not sure why you’d taken such a confident route with him, it just seems like he needed it.Ā 

ā€œBaby,ā€ the word fell out as a whisper as you saw the faint pinkness of his cheeks in the glow that emanates from the lamp to his right, ā€œCan you spare me any further embarrassment and just take them off already?ā€

ā€œIt doesn’t feel like you’ve got anything to be embarrassed about,ā€ your hand brushing his away from the front of his pants, you sit up on your knees, ā€œMind kicking them off for me?ā€

He readily began to comply as you tried to maneuver without inhibiting him, you noticed him watching you, a hunger in his gaze that sent shivers down your spine. His hands still for a moment and his head twists to look towards the kitchen where the entryway is.Ā 

ā€œFuck— is someone else here?ā€ He asks and you listen to the familiar sound of your front door unlocking; it doesn’t open but you can hear loud footfalls and an even louder voice talking outside of the door.Ā 

ā€œSooyoung?ā€ You call out after you were sure the voices had stopped, walking to the kitchen when you hear your roommate's keys hitting the kitchen counter ā€œI thought you were staying at your boyfriend’s?ā€

ā€œThe asshole broke up with me because he wanted to be Holly Golightly. Him! He might have astoundingly good looks for it but I think I’m a little prettier, don’t you think?ā€ The door of the fridge slamming shut, a rustle around the utensil drawer as she looks for a spoon. She did look stunning as the Hepburn character; you have to admit. ā€œThey’re re-airing that episode of Perry Mason if you want to watch it.ā€

ā€œWonwoo’s actually over so I think I’m just going to call it a night,ā€ You say, leaning against the doorframe, watching her begin to dig into a tub of ice cream. ā€œI’ll be sure to rant about your ex with you tomorrow.ā€

ā€œYou’d really do that?ā€ A sigh as she shoves the spook into her mouth, ā€œI’ll try not to wake you guys up when I get up for work tomorrow.ā€

ā€œThanks, Sooyoung,ā€ a smile before you slip away and head back into the living room. ā€œAlright Woo, it’s time for bed.ā€

ā€œAlright,ā€ Wonwoo pushes himself off of the couch, buttoning his pants and shouting out a ā€˜Goodnight Sooyoung!’ before ducking into your room. With his long strides he walks to your bed and subsequently falls into it as you turn to close the door behind the two of you.

ā€œDon’t you want to change, Dr. Holmes?ā€ You note his still costumed self as you look at his sprawling figure on the bed, ā€œI think I’ve got your bed clothes from the last time you were here… Not sure if I cleaned them though.ā€

He huffs, ā€œForget it, I’m going to sleep.ā€ He crawls to his side, blanketing himself with your duvet as you go into your bathroom to remove your makeup and change.Ā 

You can hear him softly snoring as you exit the restroom, your face still a little damp and the scent of your cleanser tingling your nose. Sooyoung’s turned off the music in the living room, the garbled sounds of the small black and white tv quietly floating in under your door. It takes a moment, but you climb into bed next to Wonwoo, pulling the duvet up to your chin before you shut your eyes and fall into a dreamless slumber.

It isn’t sunny out when you wake up, you don’t want to look at your clock for fear that your alarm was about to go off and you’d miss the opportunity to sleep in a few minutes more. An arm draped over you, even in sleep Wonwoo was a cuddler. Normally you weren’t opposed unless it was the summertime and it was unbearably hot outside.Ā 

ā€œYou know,ā€ you hear him mumble tiredly, as if he senses that you’ve woken up too, ā€œI always thought your apartment would be much more… bookier.ā€ With the way his voice rasps with fatigue you’re not sure if he’s fully awake or half asleep.Ā 

ā€œWhat were you expecting? Books wall to wall?ā€ eyes still closed as you pull your duvet closer to you, feeling his arm tense around your waist.Ā 

ā€œKind of, something akin to a fairytale library,ā€ his breath hot on your back, the hairs on the back of your neck raising at the sensation. ā€œLike uhm— some Grimm story… Oh,ā€ voice perking, ā€œCan we go for that Halloween next year? You didn’t even tell me what you were going as until I saw you tonight.ā€

ā€œYou want to have a couple’s costume?ā€

ā€œYeah,ā€ breathing slowly as if he’s falling back asleep again,ā€Maybe Lucy and Ricardo, that’d be fun.ā€

The next time you wake up, the sun’s blaring into your eyes with an intensity you had never asked for.

ā€œShit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit,ā€ Wonwoo’s mumbling and shuffling around your room, sunlight was pouring in from your windows and he looked heavenly even in his manic state.

ā€œWhat’s wrong?ā€ Stifling a yawn behind your hand as you watch him frantically feel his pockets.

ā€œIt’s nine-thirty, We— I overslept,ā€ another string of curses escaping him as he looks around your room, ā€œDo you have a phone I can use?ā€

ā€œIt’s on the dresser.ā€ You point lazily to the red rotary.

You hear the dial tone ring a few times before someone on the other end picks up, ā€œMingyu can you put my client on the line?ā€ A pause, ā€œYes I know I’m late.ā€ Another pause before Wonwoo speaks again, ā€œHello Mr. Smith? Yes, this is Wonwoo Jeon. I'm running a little late for our appointment, I had bit of an emergency and— Huh? Oh, yes, of course. I’ll be there as soon as I can.ā€

ā€œAre you in trouble?ā€

ā€œOnly minorly,ā€ he frowns, ā€œYou wouldn’t happen to have a suit perfectly tailored for me to wear, would you?ā€

ā€œCan’t say that I do, why don’t you just go in what you’re wearing?ā€

ā€œI am not going dressed up as Sherlock Holmes for this client. I have some pride, you know.ā€Ā 

ā€œYou’re literally wearing Mickey Mouse underwear,ā€ you snort, ā€œit doesn’t look that bad anyway, just don’t wear the hat and lose the pipe. Maybe the cloak too but it’s kind of sexy.ā€Ā 

ā€œDon’t try to tempt me,ā€ he groans, buttoning and zipping his pants, ā€œI’m late enough as is.ā€Ā 

ā€œI’d offer you an iron if Sooyoung hadn’t broken mine, that shirt looks super wrinkly now that I see it in the sunlight,ā€ you note, he still looked nice though. He would probably look nice in anything he wore.

ā€œUgh, really?ā€ Hands running over the wrinkled fabric he sighs to himself, ā€œI’d say I’ve looked worse, but I normally have myself together.ā€Ā 

ā€œGood luck. I, for one, am going back to sleep.ā€ You sigh and fall back into your blankets, not wanting to leave the sanctuary of warmth quite yet.

ā€œNow who’s the baby?ā€ He scoffs and you hear him tread to the side of the bed, a kiss planted on your forehead as you crinkle your nose up at him. ā€œI’ll call you later today?ā€

ā€œI’ll talk to you then.ā€

1964, Late Autumn. The rain began only a few minutes into your trek to the cafe, your umbrella weeping with the droplets as they roll off its surface as you trudge down the street. There’s a rumble in the distance but you’re not sure if it’s the local train station or thunder somewhere off beyond the city. Your other hand in your pocket, running your finger along the ridges of your shop’s key. While you know you’d locked it, you can’t help but have the underlying fear that you’d left the door wide open so that anyone could just walk in. Although you’re not quite sure what they’d take, a few blank notebooks don’t seem like it’d do too well in any sort of underground market.Ā 

By the time you pull yourself from your thoughts, you’re standing in front of a small cafe that feels more like a second home to you than your own apartment did at this point. The door swings open, you stand in the entranceway so that you can close your umbrella and leave it in the small stand upfront before you head fully inside. It smells like autumn, or at least the coffee’d variant of it. Pumpkin, nutmeg, and a few other scents you can’t quite pinpoint wafting through the air as you walk up to the counter to place your order. You pick out a few pastries as well and ask that they’re brought out when your coffee is ready. A hand to remove the paper-wrapped book under your arm so you can reach for your wallet, realizing then that the water had soaked into the leather. The wrapping paper now a little damp from where it’d brushed against your coat, you pick it back up as well as grab the receipt from the barista before scouring the cafe for what you’d come here to do in the first place.

Wonwoo’s dozing off when you find him in the back corner of the coffee shop. His jacket slung on the chair beside him, a scarf thrown haphazardly atop it as he leans with his head tilting backwards, pretty much dead to the world. Had the two of you not been frequent customers you’re sure that he would’ve been kicked out by now. But there he was, black turtleneck, tailored pants, and the cartoon bandages he loves so much wrapped tightly around his fingertips.

He doesn’t wake up when you accidentally scrape your chair on the ground when you pull it back to sit across from him nor does he wake when you drop the paper-bound book atop the table with a loud thud. Wonwoo does, however, wake when you brush your hand gently atop his, nearly falling out of his chair as his eyes open wider than you’d ever seen someone’s do.Ā 

ā€œThat wasn’t funny,ā€ he frowns as you snicker, glancing over to the counter trying to act as if he’s regained his composure, ā€œdid you already order?ā€

ā€œFor me? Yes,ā€ you place your bag in the chair adjacent to you, shrug off your raincoat and hang it on the back of your chair. ā€œFor you, what is it that you get? Flat white, two sugars, low fat milk?ā€

ā€œThat’s it,ā€ he hums, leaning his head back once more. It must’ve been another sleepless night for him.

ā€œYou should be thankful I’ve got an exceptional memory,ā€ you frown as he can’t see you, he overworks himself too much and if you ever try to bring it up he brushes it off with a wave and an excuse of ā€˜I’m just doing what I love’.Ā 

ā€œYou know,ā€ he begins, leaning his head back up, opening his eyes to look at you. There was something shining behind them that you’d only seen on a handful of occasions; he has an idea and he’s not sure that you’ll like it, ā€œI was wondering if you’d model a dress for me? Not for a fashion show or anything. I just think it’d look good on you.ā€

His gaze breaks from yours to look at the aisle behind you, you turn and see the barista coming with your drinks and assortment of baked goods. After a few repetitious ā€˜thank you’s she leaves and the pair of you are left alone once more.Ā 

ā€œAre you flirting with me?ā€ An eyebrow piqued as you looked at him. He’d asked you to do some of the strangest things before, going from the mundane ā€˜I think we need to get annual tickets to the opera just in case I forget your birthday and it’ll be a birthday present’ to ā€˜I swear to god if we don’t rescue this cat right now I’m never calling you again’. But it was two am and a sorely inebriated Wonwoo had thought that a raccoon was a cat as it rummaged through the garbage. That had also been the night where he’d serenaded you with his own rendition of Blossom Dearies ā€˜Dance Only With Me’ and Sinatra’s ā€˜I’m a Fool to Want You’; he’d broken down crying at the latter and you’d forced him to go to bed early. He only went on the condition that you’d hug him as he slept. It was certainly an interesting way to spend your first date together.Ā 

ā€œDo you want me to be? I’d say it’s fairly doable,ā€ He winks as he drinks from his mug, blowing on its contents beforehand to cool the brew.Ā 

A laugh, the brown paper under your fingertips wrinkling as you strain your fingers and push it towards him. It slides across the wood with relative ease, your finger partially tearing the paper where it had been dampened by the rain.Ā 

ā€œI brought you your book.ā€

ā€œUnlined and all?ā€ He asks as he sets down his cup, shifting himself forward to get a better look.

ā€œUnlined, flexible binding, the works.ā€Ā 

ā€œYou’re a lifesaver,ā€ he sighs, taking the still wrapped book into his grasp.Ā 

ā€œI know,ā€ you smile, watching as his fingers toy with the twine that kept it together.Ā 

ā€œHello? Paging Ms. Bookbinder, you there?ā€ Wonwoo’s hand waves in front of your face, suddenly you’re back in reality and trying to remember the conversation. You didn’t realize you’d zoned out that hard.

ā€œYes Mr. Reichelt?ā€ You question, looking down as his finger’s unlace the twine you’d wrapped around the paper packaging.Ā 

ā€œDon’t call me that I am much cooler than Franz Reichelt, and less dead, for that matter.ā€

ā€œCan you say that after you drink your coffee?ā€ You poke jokingly while he eyes his mug with a wary glance.

ā€œAnyway, were you even listening to me?ā€ He leans towards you, elbows resting on the tabletop and a slight curvature to his smile that looked far too playful for the current moment. It stilled your heart for a second before you shake your head at him.Ā 

ā€œNot really, no.ā€ You confess, sipping from your cup, ā€œWhat is it?ā€

ā€œI was asking if you would let me make a dress for you. I’ve had this idea in my mind for weeks and I finally got this mulberry silk imported from Lyon and it’s too good not to use immediately.ā€

ā€œI don’t even need a dress like that, Wonwoo.ā€ You frown, picking at one of the pastries in front of you, pinching off a piece before stuffing it into your mouth. ā€œI’m not exactly the type that goes to parties where I’d need a silk dress.ā€ You think that the last party you’d attended you’d worn a sweater and a dress from your roommate’s closet, nothing remotely close to what he was proposing.Ā 

ā€œYou don’t even know what it looks like,ā€ he pouts, ā€œAll I need are your measurements, you won’t even have to see the thing if you don’t want to.ā€Ā 

A sigh, ā€œFine. When do you want me to drop by?ā€

ā€œDoes Tuesday around ten work for you?ā€

ā€œI should be able to get Vernon to look over the shop while I’m gone.ā€

1964, Winter. The ringing of your shop’s bells draws you to the front room, your hands wrought with binding glue, you try to rub them on the apron you wear to rid yourself of the sensation. Before you can ask what the customer needs you stop in your tracks, head tilting to the side, ā€œIsn’t it your day off?ā€

ā€œIt is,ā€ Wonwoo’s voice is cheery as he walks in further, looking at the array of newly bound books sitting out on display.

ā€œWhat are you doing here?ā€

ā€œAm I not allowed to want to see you?ā€ You fluster at the words, hard to hide the small smile that forms on your lips.

ā€œI mean, you can, it’s just that I’m working.ā€ You motion to the store, to the few customers browsing the items.

ā€œYou’ve spent however many nights watching me hem skirts and taper jackets; I think it’s time I return the favor.ā€ A nod of his head as he pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose, ā€œWhat can I do to help?ā€

ā€œWhat the hell’s Pincushion doing here?ā€ Before you’re able to open your mouth, Vernon comes out of the back room with a stack of books in his grasp, ā€œI thought you’d be holed up in your shop by now.ā€

ā€œIt’s my day off.ā€

ā€œAnd you’re spending it… hereā€¦ā€ The thud of books landing on a nearby table as the skepticism in Vernon’s voice rises.

ā€œYep.ā€

ā€œHe must really like you,ā€ Vernon scoffs, going to grab a different selection of books off of another shelf. He turns to you and asks, ā€œCan you grab me the leather samples from the back? I think Maisel’s coming in today and you know how he gets.ā€

ā€œShouldn’t I be asking you that?ā€ You shake your head and head to the back room to search for the swatches.

While he waits, Wonwoo notices a small web lingering in the intersection of two walls, the sunlight glinting off its strands having been what alerted him to his presence in the first place. At first, he thinks to sweep it away with a broom he knows is hidden somewhere in your storeroom. You weren’t the biggest fan of bugs or arachnids; he was surprised you hadn’t rid your shop of it by now. But he can’t find it within himself to brush the web asunder. It had worked hard to build and craft its home; he knew firsthand how difficult creating something from nothing was.Ā 

ā€œHer name is Jorōgumo.ā€ Vernon had walked up behind Wonwoo with little announcement. The younger jumps, turning his head to look at the other. ā€œI offered to kill her… him…? For her but she said it was eating the bugs and to let it be.ā€

Wonwoo eyes the fat-bodied spider, ā€œWhy is it named that?ā€

ā€œIt’s a fairytale from Japan, there’s a spider that looks like a woman. It entices men to follow her and then eats them while they’re distracted,ā€ Vernon explains, the sound of the storeroom opening behind him.

ā€œAre you bullying Arachne again?ā€ You frown, handing the swatches to Vernon and looking up to the small web in the corner.

ā€œI am not bullying Jorōgumo.ā€

ā€œIf I’m keeping a spider in my shop, I am not naming it after a monster.ā€

ā€œAnd a heretic is better?ā€ Vernon scoffs, tapping Wonwoo on the shoulder, ā€œWhat do you think, Pincushion?ā€

ā€œI’m just wondering why both the myths have to be women,ā€ he shrugs his shoulders and looks to you, ā€œDo you think you’d be free this evening so I can take your measurements? I finally have some free time to start working on that dress.ā€

ā€œI think so,ā€ a nod as you look at Vernon, ā€œMind looking after the shop for a bit?ā€

1965, Early Spring ā€œDidn’t you already measure me?ā€ Wonwoo’s hands hold a rolling measuring tape as he holds it up to your forearm as you ask.

ā€œYeah, but I want to make sure this is perfect.ā€ Tape lowered; he writes down the number into one of the journals he’d brought with him to your apartment. Trailing away from that your eyes look to the bouquet he brought when he’d come over.

ā€œWhat’s the deal?ā€ Brow furrowing at the pink, red and white blooms, ā€œYou never give me flowers.ā€

ā€œIt’s a special occasion,ā€ Beaming, he’s as bright as the sun. A jilted visage against the cool tones of your apartment’s interior. He looks up to you with a vividness in his eyes, ā€œYour boyfriend’s going to Paris.ā€

ā€œWhat do you mean Paris?ā€ A hitch in your voice as you ask, a strange and warped confusion overcoming you.

ā€œSeungcheol got me an apprenticeship with one of his friends, he’s going to be in town in a few weeks to talk about it with me and I want to show off the dress there.ā€ He’s speaking at a mile a minute, a clear excitement as he beams.

ā€œDon’t fall for some mysterious Parisian woman while you’re there,ā€ You poke, still unsure about how you even feel about this.

ā€œI doubt I’ll have time to even wander the city. With all of the workshops and sessions we’ll have. It’s going to be the opportunity of a life— owā€”ā€ he says as you gently hit his shoulder. ā€œI won’t fall for some other girl, I promise,ā€ He laughs and continues to take your measurements.

1965, Late Spring ā€œDid you have a good time tonight?ā€ The lock clicking into place as he asks, your footsteps falling on the floor as you make your way to his workbench in the center of what would’ve been his living room had he not made it into a makeshift workshop.Ā 

You note the tools, the fabrics and array of swatches that litter his home, the pincushion he wears on his wrist as he works settled onto the tabletop. It’s as if the apartment is a representation of him, messy in ambition but persevering through the struggles as he tries to find the limelight of his own. A smile forming as he walks over to you.

ā€œI had a wonderful time, thank you for inviting me.ā€

It had been a small gathering at the tailor shop, a small dinner with Seungcheol, Wonwoo, Seungcheol’s friend and Wonwoo’s future mentor Jeonghan, and yourself. The entirety of the night you’d felt a knot forming in your stomach, the anxiety of Wonwoo’s future endeavors weighing heavily on your shoulders. You want to be happy for him but the closer it gets to Wonwoo’s departure for Paris leaves you feeling more and more despair at the event of it all.

ā€œThank you for coming,ā€ Wonwoo’s hands find your sides as you lean your backside against the rough wooden edge of the table. ā€œYou made it all the more bearable,ā€ smiling softly in the dim lighting of the apartment, he leans forward and places a soft kiss on your lips. The wine from earlier lingers on his breath, you’re sure it does the same to yours, the darkness of the red already making you warm and your body feeling weightless, almost as if you were floating in a pool of water.Ā 

You part, staring into each other’s eyes, a silent conversation before he’s leaning in again to find your lips. His kiss seems as if it seeks to steal the breath from your lungs. To devour you entirely until all you can think of is his closeness, the softness of his lips atop yours, of just him. The woolen fabric of his overcoat is rough under your fingertips as you move your hands from the workshop table to his shoulders, gently pulling at the cloth to urge him to discard the garment. His hands leave your sides momentarily as he shrugs the jacket off, the fabric falling and pooling on the floor at his feet. A metallic clang echoing around the space as he leans forward to lock his lips with yours.

ā€œWonwoo,ā€ you breathe, soft pants escaping the both of you as you turn your head from him, your eyes trailing to the sewing scissors that had clattered onto the floor. Another rustling of fabric and you realize he’s discarded his suit jacket as well.

ā€œLet it be,ā€ a hand under your chin, guiding you back to the comfort of his lips. He presses himself into your touch, the way your fingers dance along the smooth cotton of his starched shirt, fiddle with the buttons and run your fingertips atop the small engravings adorning them.Ā 

ā€œAre we really going to do this in your workspace?ā€ You look up to his darkened gaze, your voice caught in your throat as his own fingers move to toy with the neckline of your dress. Gentle, electric touches that have you reeling.

ā€œDoes that bother you?ā€ His lips leave yours once more as he places soft, yearning kisses to your cheek, trailing down your jaw and then to your neck. He raises a hand to pull away the neckline of the dress to allow him better access to the apogee of nerves nestled at the point where your shoulder and neck meet. Teeth biting ever so gently that you would have mistaken it as a light graze had you not felt the sharp pinch. It pulls an almost whining sound from your vocal cords, causing your head to tilt to allow him more space to roam.Ā 

Lips curling into a smile as he pulls away, his hand sliding from the table to your arm, then raising and gently pulling at your hair, ā€œYou didn’t answer me.ā€Ā 

ā€œGod, fuck, no it doesn’t bother me,ā€ you trap his lips in yours, tilting your head up so the orange glow of the street lamps outside shine into your eyes before you shut them, finding yourself lost in the entity of your lover. The slowest ministrations of your hips trying to roll against his, to seek out friction and closeness and the yearning of him to once again be a part of you, ā€œWonwoo.ā€ Your tone is darker, needier, wanting as he presses his clothed self flush against you.Ā 

A huff of air escaping you as he once again pulls his lips away from you, and then the gentle rolling of his hips against yours ceases as well. Eyes opening to find him looking over you, not scrutinizing, it seems as if he was rather admiring the picture that sat before him.

Head tilting, the presence of desire absent for a moment as he muses, ā€œI think it looks amazing.ā€ He hums as he lowers himself to his knees, somehow the softness of his voice makes you want to comply with every word uttered, ā€œCan you sit on the table for me?ā€

Hands brushing against tulle and satin and a plethora of other fabrics you could care less about at this moment in time as you find your hold on the table as you move to sit atop its surface, your heeled shoes clattering to the floor as you do so. Wonwoo’s fingers caress your calves as he leans himself closer to your core, his warm breath making your mind conjure some of the most unspeakable thoughts.Ā 

ā€œI’ll have to let the designer know he did an amazing job,ā€ you smile, involuntarily shivering as he slides his hands upwards, the hem of your dress inching towards your stomach the further he ascends.Ā 

His face merely inches from your core now, your hips squirming at the proximity. ā€œI think he’d be appreciative of the feedback,ā€ Wonwoo smiles, his face now obscured from vision due to the collection of fabric, you have half a mind to tear it off of you, not that you ever realistically would. It’s far too precious.Ā 

The rip of fabric, the coolness of the air hitting your now exposed sex, you whine in protest as he begins to slide the now torn fabric of your underwear away from you.Ā 

ā€œI’ll get you some more,ā€ his right hand hovers over you, he uses his middle finger to swipe up the length of your slit, causing you to draw in a sharp breath.Ā 

ā€œAre you a lingerie atelier now— Fuck,ā€ you begin to joke before he begins to tease your clit with the tip of his finger. He moves his middle finger slowly, languidly as he draws deep breaths and stifled moans from your lips.

After a moment, your own hand moves to your breast, trying to fondle the flesh through several layers of fabric. He changes his approach, moving lover to tease your entrance before he slips his finger inside of you and with a moan you roll your hips to try and meet him halfway.Ā 

It’s not until he eases in another finger and begins to slowly draw them in and out of you as well as latch his lips to your clit that your vocalizations rise in volume. The digits curl inside of you, his tongue swirls around the sensitive bundle of nerves and your head finds itself lost in the euphoria of the moment, your hand falling away from your breast to find itself running through Wonwoo’s locks. He hums against you as your fingers tighten their hold, nearly sending you over the edge.

ā€œAre you close?ā€ You look at him, lips coated with the sheen of you, a tinge to his voice that straddles between curiosity and a carnal question.Ā 

Hand moving from his hair to his cheek you can only nod, trying to roll your hips to the increasing speed of his fingers inside of you. His eyes watching you as you do finally reach your climax, chortled breaths escaping you as well as a slew of incoherent words and his name. Wonwoo can feel the way your walls spasm around his fingers and sighs to himself as he pulls them from you, wishing that it had been more than just his digits that had made you cum.

You sit up, a little dazed and a lot more aroused than you were when you’d first stepped into the apartment. Wonwoo rises to greet you, your lips clash together and you can taste yourself on his tongue as you vie for dominance.Ā 

ā€œSwitch with me?ā€ You ask, parting for air, voice whispering as your hands move to once again toy with the hem of his collared shirt.

And he does, backing away from you enough so you can land your feet on the floor and trade places with him. Your turn to take control for a moment, you feel the hardness of his cock through his pants as you tentatively palm it, trying to elicit some sort of sound from him.Ā 

ā€œCome on, Woo, I know you’ve got it in you,ā€ you tease, running your hand up and down the etching of his member, slowly and meticulously trying to draw him out of his shell.Ā 

ā€œHave whatā€”ā€ he cuts himself off as you run your fingers over his cockhead, a low groan as if he hadn’t wanted you to hear it.Ā 

ā€œHave that,ā€ you lean forward, pressing a kiss to his cheek. The taste of salt greeting you, the sheen of sweat on his face glittering in the lights dimly illuminating his apartment. You fall to your knees, sending shivers down your spine as the cool air that balloons the skirt of your dress as your knees hit the floor with a dull thud. Hands sliding up his thighs, you move to his belt to hastily unfasten it.

It falls away, as do his pants and underwear, you were going to mention the lack of cartoon characters adorning it, but you were too preoccupied taking him into your mouth to comment.Ā 

Tongue running over the slit on his head, it draws the sweetest sounds from him, saccharine-like honey that drips from his moans and rings around your ears. His hand running through his hair, his other gripping the table as he tries to stop himself from bucking into your mouth as you take him further.Ā 

Your knees ache from the rough floor, the pain not deterrent enough for you to forget about the wetness between your legs. Fidgeting as your head bobs up and down on his length, you don’t think he takes notice. Yet Wonwoo was more perceptive than he let on at times, considering his hand now rests upon your hollowing cheek.Ā 

ā€œGet up,ā€ Wonwoo urges, his voice hoarse as he tries to gently nudge you away from his cock. ā€œI want to cum inside of you.ā€ When you do let him leave your mouth, a thin line of spittle trailing from his head to your lips you hear him sigh out again. It was so easy to get a reaction out of him, he almost feels like putty in the palm of your hand.Ā 

The indents from the wood settle into the flesh of your thighs as he helps you stand and lightly pushes you back onto the table. His belt clattering onto the floor as he fully kicks off his pants, his shoes, and briefs.Ā 

You wonder at this point if you should take off the dress, but as your hand begins to reach for the zipper, he stops you, ā€œNo, keep it on.ā€

He kisses you again, taking his hands to gently pry your legs open so he can align himself with your core. Lips parting, you feel his cock brush up against your entrance before he pushes himself into you, his hands moving to trail up the sides of your legs. Slowly, feeling every inch enveloping him as his fingers tighten their hold on the skin of your hips.Ā 

ā€œFuck,ā€ he moans, fully sheathing himself inside of you. His brown eyes meeting yours, tongue darting out to wetten his lips, ā€œDo you need a minute?ā€

When you shake your head no you fully expect him to start rutting into you with reckless abandon as he did most nights you stayed together. But he doesn’t, instead he starts to roll his hips into you, not trying to fuck the life out of you, rather trying to gauge how and what made you feel good.

ā€œWoo,ā€ you mutter with half-lidded eyes, hands trailing up his arms and to his shoulders, your nails digging into the now exposed skin. It was sure to leave marks, but only small crescent moons that would fade away come morning.Ā 

It’s whispered ā€˜I love you’s’ that fall from his lips as your forearms wrap around his neck to pull you up and draw him in closer, a thrumming in your chest each time he says it. And you repeat it back to the best of your ability, to find a constancy in him that hadn’t ever made itself presentable to you in a lover or significant other before.Ā 

For a moment you’re able to lose yourself in him, to forget that he’d be leaving you soon and your heart along with it. You’re enveloped in the presence of him and you wouldn’t have it any other way, you wouldn’t let it be any other way.Ā 

Wonwoo’s thrusts become more sporadic as he reaches his end, one of his hands leaving your side and moving to your clit to try and bring you over with him one more time. You’re sensitive and strung out on him, legs tensing as they try to close, stopping around his waist as you press your forehead to his shoulder.Ā 

He cums with little warning, other than his hand moving from your clit and back to your side as he stills himself within you. The sweat collected on both of your bows intermingles when he presses his forehead against yours. His breathing slows as he regains his composer, kissing you as he slides himself out of you. When he pulls away to slide on his briefs you land your feet on the ground with shaky legs, holding the edge to balance yourself.

Wonwoo turns back to you and almost has to stifle a short laugh, your face contorting to the feel of his essence leaving you, it’s strange but not overtly bad. Just not something you’re fully accustomed to.

ā€œLet’s wash up, hm?ā€ Hand taking yours, he leads you to his small bedroom, only stopping midway so he can help you out of your clothes. He unzips the dress, the cool air of his apartment fully encasing you as he pulls the fabric off your shoulders. You feel his lips press a soft kiss onto the nape of your neck and he catches the scent of the perfume you’d applied earlier in the evening. The dress falls, pooling at your feet and you step from its depths and onto the hardwood floor. Before you’re able to reach for the dress, Wonwoo’s swept it up, already moving to hang it in his closet.Ā 

The two of you shower together, reminiscing on a handful of occasions with him that you’d fully devoted to memory but also of the future as well. Wonwoo was excited to leave, every mention of it fractalizing your heart just a little bit more, not that you’d let him know, you just put on a smile and tell him how happy you are for him.

You borrow a shirt from him to wear to bed, exiting the bathroom while he brushes his teeth and combs his hair. While he does, you wander his room, looking at the shelves that adorn the space. Most books atop them are about tailoring or sewing, things that wouldn’t typically draw your attention. You then spot a few that are familiar, the bindings nostalgic under your fingertips as you trace them, no names or words that address their titles.

ā€œI never realized I made you so many,ā€ You muse, looking at Wonwoo who’s just exited the bathroom.

ā€œI have been your loyal customer for a while now, you know.ā€ He notes, falling into his bed and collecting the blankets, he pats the mattress beside him to beckon you closer.Ā 

You fall back into the bed beside him after you saunter over, encased in the blankets for a moment by the duvet he tosses atop you before you look at him, ā€œI don’t want you to go.ā€ It’s a simple statement that carries all too much weight for those six words alone, they lie heavily in your chest, saying them aloud does nothing to stop that.Ā 

ā€œI know, I know,ā€ There’s a hurt in his voice as he knows just how difficult it’ll be to part from you. ā€œWe’ve still got almost two months left before I go though, let’s try to make the most of it, okay?ā€

1965, Summer It had only been a month since Wonwoo landed in Paris. His French is awful, and he only knows how to call things pretty, cute or something lewder thanks to the teachings of his fellow apprentices. There are bags under his eyes from another sleepless night, a cigarette hanging from his lips (a terrible habit he’s picked up as of late), and the mute sounds of some song playing out of the bar he’d just crawled out of. It’s probably Bridget Bardot but he can’t tell from his position, not that he can understand anyway, he’s barely been able to comprehend his own thoughts.

His fingers ache, only nude bandages that are a little too pink wrapped around them because he can’t find the cartoon ones that you’d given him tucked away in his things. His eyes feel strained, tired, and pulsing from overanalyzing stitching and searching cloth for tears, pulls or other impurities. Montmartre was beautiful, not that he was able to see it often as he was constantly working. And if he wasn’t working, he was probably trying to catch up on lost rest.

This was his dream, a part of it though, the other half had you somewhere tucked away in the echelons of his fantasy life. Although he was doing what he wanted, what he loved, there was something about you being in absentia that had him feeling empty. He’d written countless letters but only signed and sent a handful, worried of saying too much and worried of saying too little. To you and his father, his father that had sent him on this path at a young age. ā€˜Make something of yourself,’ he’d said when Wonwoo was seven, ā€˜you’re too ambitious not to.’

If he could laugh at him now, he would. But his father was an ocean away, retreated somewhere in the depths of Wonwoo’s childhood that he’d rather leave behind.Ā 

Yet on the other hand, he’d written you what felt like every day and struggled with each composition. Wonwoo had never missed someone’s voice as much as yours, the gentle feel of your hand intertwined with his or even the sounds of your footsteps trailing through your shop. He’s supposed to be happy, why isn’t he happy?

The cigarette burns, the acrid smoke filtering into his mouth as he inhales, a plume of what’s left leaving him when he huffs out, the cigarette dropped onto the ground, smoldering away. Hand flitting through his knotted locks, the dampness of sweat clinging to the pads of his fingertips as he brushes over his brow.Ā 

Most people had dropped everything to work under Jeonghan, a certified maestro of their craft. And Wonwoo had dropped everything, not begrudgingly at first, but as the dog days of the beginning of summer and the end of spring drew near there was a rising anxiety within his chest. If you had asked him not to leave as he was standing at the terminal’s gates, he probably wouldn’t have gone at all.Ā 

He’s been giving up more and more lately; sleep, adequate meals, a solitary living space. Wonwoo’s worried when this serpent of work will seek out to devour you away too. It’s not that he wants to let you go, but if he’s to make something of himself he might have to, as cruel and malicious it may seem. In that you waiting for him was burdensome, not to him but to yourself. While he’s off gallivanting in an ancient city you’re in your shop, was he just supposed to expect you to idly sit by and wait for him? He’s not sadistic enough to tether you down to the unknown.Ā Ā 

1965, Late Autumn. You’d come home that morning with a new record tucked under your arm, the words ā€˜Rubber Soul’ peeking over the paper sheath that the store had given you as you set it down on your countertop after discarding your shoes and jacket by the door. You hum to yourself, shedding your bag, reaching for the new record, and bringing it over to your player, Sooyoung’s worn copy of one of Billie Holiday’s albums resting on the platter. With gentle hands you remove it from the spindle, tucking it away in its cover before releasing Rubber Soul from its own and setting it onto the player. System turned on, you place the needle on the record and adjust the volume so the first few riffs of ā€˜Drive My Car’ begin playing through the speakers.Ā 

Nodding your head to the rhythm, you set down the cover and make your way to the kitchen, noticing the small pile of postcards and letters you’d received from Wonwoo over the last few months. He’d been so busy he hadn’t really had the time to call or write a lot for that matter. But it wasn’t like calling was free, especially an international connection. With each new card that he sent to you, there seemed to be less that he wrote of and more empty space adorning it.Ā 

ā€œHey,ā€ You hear Sooyoung say as she exits her room, her purse in hand as she heads to the hall tree to grab a coat, ā€œI’ve gotta head in, someone completely ruined the display for the winter collection.ā€

ā€œI thought you were in charge of that?ā€ A tilt of your head as she passes by. Sooyoung’s one of the floor managers of the flagship B. Altman some blocks away, and that left her unnecessarily stressed by the minute details of the store.Ā 

ā€œI am, but I let one of the new girls try and set it up,ā€ a frown as she opens the door, ā€œThat’s what I get for trying to take on a protegee. I’ll be back around dinnertime, okay?ā€Ā 

ā€œI’ll see you then,ā€ waving her off with a hand as the door slams shut, the sound of your friend’s key locking the door before the apartment falls into silence once more, the only sound coming from the next song on the vinyl.Ā 

Stifling a yawn with your hand you head to the living room, plopping down onto the sofa as you reach for a magazine atop the table. It was one of your roommate’s detailing a plethora of fashion information, this seemed something like Wonwoo could take to more so than yourself. Before you’re able to get lost in the pit of missing him again the phone on the table next to the sofa begins to ring.Ā 

ā€œHello?ā€ Magazine tossed aside, you reach for the phone, pulling it to your ear as you lay reclined on the couch. Fully expecting a family member or one of Sooyoung’s friends over the line you sound a little more crass than normal.

ā€œWhoa,ā€ a familiar, achingly distant voice calls out, ā€œDid I do something wrong?ā€Ā 

ā€œWonwoo?ā€ Eyes widening, your grip on the phone tightening before your brow furrows and you sit up, ā€œWhere are you?ā€

ā€œI’m actually in a phone booth outside of Jeonghan’s shop right now,ā€ A short laugh, there’s something quiet about it, ā€œI feel like I’m in some sort of film.ā€

ā€œIt sure sounds like you are,ā€ distancing yourself from the line for a moment as the connection pops and crackles. Ear returning to the phone you feel your heart swell as you lean against your wall, ā€œI’ve missed you.ā€

ā€œI’ve missed you too,ā€ He sounds apprehensive, as if there’s something ruminating behind his lips, but he was too afraid to say it. ā€œI’m sorry for not calling sooner, it’s just been extremely busy here.ā€

Twirling the phone cord absentmindedly with your finger you shake your head, not that he could see you, ā€œIt’s alright.ā€ The disquiet in his voice puts you on edge, ā€œWhat’s wrong?ā€Ā 

ā€œI’ve been thinking,ā€ He’s holding his breath, and you don’t realize that you are too.

ā€œOf?ā€

ā€œEnding this. Us.ā€ There’s a pause, a bated breath, and a clearing of his throat before he begins to speak again. It sounds robotic, rehearsed, even. ā€œI don’t want to leave you waiting for me when I don’t even know when I’ll be back.ā€

ā€œIf you don’t think I’d wait for you you’re ridiculous,ā€ A confused tone to your voice, you blink several times as if that were the cure-all to comprehend what he was suggesting. ā€œIs there someone else?ā€

ā€œGod, no, of course not. It’s justā€”ā€ A break in the facade for a moment before it turns static again, ā€œYou deserve constancy. I don’t want you waiting around for me when you could be happier somewhere else with someone else who’s actually there for you.ā€Ā 

ā€œAre you serious?ā€ With the thought of him being an ocean away you could barely go as kicking and screaming as you wanted to, but you can’t. It’s hard to collect your thoughts with so many jumbling around your head.Ā 

ā€œI’ll get Seungcheol or someone to stop by and get my things,ā€ voice muffled, there was a small banging coming from the other end, as if someone’s hitting the outside of the phone booth that Wonwoo is situated in.Ā 

ā€œNo,ā€ you frown, a heavy feeling settling into your stomach. ā€œI’ll drop the dress and your things off at the shop.ā€

ā€œKeep the dress, it was a gift,ā€ his voice insists, sounding defeated and tired.Ā 

ā€œI don’t want it, I want you, Wonwoo.ā€

He would rather watch the stars flicker and die from their sepulchered facades in the expanse above, watch the oceans shrivel and continents shrink, than be the source of your privation. It’s as if he can hear your heart break over the line. It isn’t loud, it isn’t ear shattering— it’s a hairline fracture that webs out and settles into every fiber of your being. He knows it because it’s the same thing he’s afflicted upon himself.Ā 

ā€œI’m sorry, I love you but there’s no feasible way that I canā€”ā€ he pauses, and you hear a voice tinned by the crackling line. It’s French, sounds angry and causes Wonwoo to speak into the phone once more, ā€œI— I have to go. I’ll call you back later so we can talk about this, okay?ā€

ā€œOkay,ā€ the word is lifeless as it leaves your mouth, you hang up and pull the phone away from your ear as if you could still hear his voice after you’d killed the call.Ā 

You are a bag of bones, skin, and whatever else deigned itself rotted enough to crawl its way inside of you and flourish. Amber leaves looking more titian as you leave your apartment, a muted tone as you walk the streets and to your shop. The lights inside aren’t as bright as they once were, sounds far too muffled by the blood rushing to your ears as Vernon asks you what’s wrong.Ā Ā 

1966, Winter ā€œTry this one,ā€ The bartender standing in front of you sets down another glass. He’d been talking to you on and off the whole night trying to get your opinions on different drinks he’d been concocting to try and get put on the menu.

ā€œWhat is it?ā€ Amber liquid swirled around what looked like a dried slice of orange. The whiff of something floral and reminiscent of anise hits your nose, causing your face to scrunch. ā€œThat’s not straight absinthe and cognac, is it?ā€

ā€œCognac Tesseron, Peychaud’s Bitters, simple syrup, and just the smallest taste of absinthe,ā€ Carefully crafted and delicately handled you pick up the glass and observe it some more. ā€œI’m thinking about calling it the Forget Me Not, but we’ll see what management thinks of that name.ā€ Voice tinged with that oddly specific Brooklyn accent he turns to his other clientele, leaving you with the newest cocktail. Lips carefully pressed to the glass you drink, mulling over the flavors as you do so. After thinking about it you set the glass down, lips pursed together, it wasn’t a bad taste you just wished there were more acidic notes to it.

Alone. You sit alone in the dimly lit bar that denoted itself as La FĆŖte. Why, you aren’t sure, but the cacophony of spirits mixed into the glass between your fingers is the only thing that has made you feel well the entire evening. Some comedian stands on the stage a few meters away, giving off a routine that isn’t hitting as well as it should be. There’s muffled laughs and chortles from the audience in front of him, yet you’ve barely heard a word he’s said.

ā€œMind if I join you?ā€ A voice rings out to your right; you’re unable to see who it is until they take a seat next to you.

ā€œMr. Hong,ā€ Eyebrows raised as Joshua turns to face you, ā€œWhat brings you here?ā€ You hadn’t seen him in a month or so, not after that had happened.

ā€œVernon told me I could probably find you here, and Sooyoung also told me about trying to cheer you up since the gifts she got you weren’t working,ā€ A smirk playfully bouncing on his lips. ā€œYou look awful.ā€ Hands folding atop each other as he adjusts himself in the seat.

ā€œWhat makes you say that?ā€ Scoffing as you bring your glass to your lips, taking a sip of your drink before setting it back down.

ā€œVernon did say you were going through something heavy.ā€ His tone lowers, becoming more sympathetic and less lighthearted than it’d been a moment before.

The gentle ambiance of the bar around you, as well as the slew of alcohol in your drink, mellows your inhibitions and voice. It was the calmest you’d felt the entire night. ā€œI just needed a break from all of this,ā€ hand motioning towards your head.Ā 

ā€œI can understand thatā€ Pausing for a moment he opens a nearby menu, perusing the selections. ā€œI just came from a conference in D.C., aren’t you going to ask why?ā€

ā€œHmm, why?ā€ You pose, head tilting as you turn to look at him.

ā€œWe’re acquiring some major stock in Marriott,ā€ He says with a playful lilt, ā€œForcing a bunch of bigwigs to give up their assets is an adrenaline rush I won’t get anywhere else but there.ā€

ā€œSounds… fun?ā€

ā€œIn reality it’s just a bunch of stuffy old men with their own hands up their asses,ā€ he hums, ā€œAlthough I guess I have to get used to it; I’ll be one of those men someday.ā€

ā€œJoshua Hong you will never be like any of those men,ā€ sigh losing itself in your glass as you bring it back to your lips.

ā€œI appreciate the sentiment,ā€ as he closes his menu, he calls the bartender over, ordering some drink that sounds all too extravagant for your taste.

The pair of you sit in silence for a few moments, your glass now set atop the marble bar as your eyes wander around the warm, eclectic interior. ā€œAre you merging them with that Canadian group? I can’t remember their name.ā€ Snapping your fingers together as you try and recall. You look back to Joshua, who was beginning to take a drink of another one of the bartender’s creations.

The glass now moved away, and he frowns into the back of his hand; you wonder if it’s due to the alcohol. Head shaking in the negative he answers, ā€œI actually left that partnership a year or so ago, decided I didn’t want any of ā€˜Daddy’s Help’ and tried my own hand at it.ā€ Leaning back, he adjusts the lapels of his suit jacket, ā€œAnd I’ve been doing a pretty good job if I do say so myself.ā€ His confidence is a manic beast at times, but it never fails to make you roll your eyes. ā€œWhat about you? Gonna commercialize your shop anytime soon?ā€

ā€œAs if,ā€ You snort and look towards the darkened windows of the venue, ā€œI’m perfectly fine in my shop,ā€ Elbow resting on the counter, you lay your cheek atop your hand as your hair falls around your face, looking up at Joshua as your cheeks warm with embarrassment, ā€œIt’s all I can manage.ā€

Joshua laughs, it’s hearty and you feel your pulse rise along with the heat in your cheeks, ā€œDon’t sell yourself short.ā€ Shoulder shrugging, he returns to his drink while you sit up, rubbing your cheek.

ā€œWe’ll see when I get there,ā€ smirk showing itself again as his fingers trace circles on the light marble of the bar. ā€œOh, weird, crazy question really,ā€ His hand moves to his jacket, fumbling around one of the inside pockets for a moment as he searches for something.Ā 

ā€œWant to go to a wedding with me?ā€ A piece of elegantly cut cardstock tossed down onto the bar, you don’t recognize the names scrawled onto the front of it in some pretentious calligraphy.

ā€œAren’t you dating that girl?ā€ Fingers pulling the card closer, trying to recall the name, ā€œYoona or something? Why don’t you take her?ā€

Joshua almost chokes on his water as you speak, hitting his hand against his chest to get some air. ā€œGod no,ā€ He coughed, setting his water glass down. ā€œYoona’s just a family friend, more like my big sister than anything else. If anything, my sister will get married before me.ā€

You nod your head in understanding, ā€œAh, is she still dating Seungcheol?ā€

ā€œYeah, I wouldn’t trust them to tell me if it was raining outside or not,ā€ he muses. Suddenly his demeanor turns mischievous, you’re not sure how to properly describe it as he leans in towards you, the smirk back with a vengeance. ā€œBut why were you interested in who I’m dating? Are you curious?ā€

It takes most of your willpower to lean back away from him and roll your eyes as you scoff out, ā€œAs if.ā€ He only increasingly gets closer before you put a hand on his shoulder and playfully push him back.

ā€œAnd what about you?ā€ Does he seem nervous? You hear a genuine interest in his voice, but you aren’t sure if you’re exaggerating it due to the miasma of spirits clouding your senses. ā€œHas any prince charming come up and swept you off your feet yet?ā€

ā€œDoes it look like it?ā€ Eyebrow raised, you motion to yourself, ā€œVernon told you why I’m here, didn’t he?ā€ Frown settling onto your lips you finish your drink, setting it down back onto the bar with an audible clink.Ā 

ā€œHe may have mentioned it in passing,ā€ Joshua mutters, finger rubbing along the rim of his glass.

ā€œI haven’t spoken to him in weeks, months even and he has the audacity to send in an order?ā€ You try your best to sound indignant, but the truth was that it’d felt like a stab to your heart to see the hastily signed ā€˜Wonwoo Jeon’ adorning the invoice. Your heart had almost stopped then, you’d thought that you and he were, at that point, separate entities once more. ā€œHe made it blatantly clear he wants nothing to do with me anymore, he can go woo as many Parisians as he’d like, I’m over it.ā€ Not yet, you aren’t. But maybe repeating it enough will make it a reality.

ā€œYou know what I think?ā€ Joshua asks, finishing the rest of his drink as you look at your empty glass.

ā€œI’m not drunk enough?ā€

ā€œI think you’re plenty gone. But I don’t think you’ve ever let anything destroy you this much, or if you have, I’m a terrible friend for not realizing it. And with that being said, I will personally take up the reins to try and get you out of this slump,ā€

ā€œAny other thoughts, O wise and wonderful mood maker?ā€Ā 

ā€œYeah, this comedian’s garbage. I’ll take you to a Lenny Bruce set one day and you’ll laugh your ass off.ā€

ā€œI appreciate it,ā€ a snicker leaves you. ā€œAnyway,ā€ your eyes move to your watch, checking the time, ā€œI should probably head back to my place, it’s getting late and I’ve got an early morning tomorrow.ā€ You rummage around your bag for a crumpled mess of bills that you toss onto the counter in front of you.

You stand and begin moving towards the exit when Joshua speaks up, ā€œWant me to walk with you?ā€

ā€œIf you want to,ā€ pausing, you turn back to him and offer a smirk of your own, ā€œit’s not too far away.ā€ The two of you walk in silence through the winding interior of the bar as you make your way to the front entrance, you see through the large wooden doors that it is pitch black outside, thankfully the streetlights adorning the sidewalks keep things fairly visible. When the doors open and the two of you step outside you can’t help but let out a ā€œShit, it got cold.ā€Ā 

ā€œHere,ā€ Joshua shrugs off his already unbuttoned suit jacket and hands it to you, you can see the thin dress shirt he’s wearing, and you wonder how he’s not shivering himself. ā€œDid you leave your jacket inside?ā€ He asks as you drape the soft fabric over your shoulders.

ā€œAt the shop,ā€ Standing outside, your toes on the edge of the sidewalk, your head cranes, trying to remember which way you’d walked here. ā€œIt’sā€¦ā€ you look at the signs at the end of the street, ā€œthat way,ā€ hand motioning towards your abode once you recognize the names. ā€œIt’s about a fifteen-minute walk, I can always call a cab or something, so you don’t have to worry about it.ā€

ā€œIt’s alright,ā€ His shoulders shrug as the two of you begin walking, ā€œIt’ll help the alcohol get out of your system.ā€ Had he seen you stumbling on your feet on your way out? If he did, he doesn’t say as the two of you walk the uneven streets, pushing through masses of tourists and civilians parading around the city. It’s not long until the crowds wear thin, leaving you, Joshua, and the occasional pedestrian roaming the streets. ā€œI’ve always loved this city,ā€ Joshua muses as the two of you stroll through one of the many parks dotting the town.

Nodding, ā€œIt’s lively for sure.ā€ Your hands move to close his jacket tighter around your bare shoulders, ā€œI don’t think I could imagine leaving it.ā€

ā€œMaybe for a summer home though?ā€ Joshua laughs, moving his hands to his pockets. ā€œI remember how you’d stay inside whenever it snowed or went below thirty when we were kids.ā€

Biting the inside of your cheek, ā€œI wouldn’t say it’s that much of a problem anymore, I’m just a big fan of the sun in all its glory, not when it’s obscured behind a wall of clā€”ā€ Perhaps you would’ve finished that sentence had the heel of your, admittedly too high-heeled shoe not gotten caught between one of the junctures of the sidewalk, causing you to fall forward. You feel a pair of hands on you, one wrapped around your waist and one on your shoulder, as the ground rapidly rises to meet you.

Eyes closed you hear, ā€œAre you alright?ā€ as you’re hoisted back up onto your feet, never feeling the impact of the ground.Ā 

ā€œI’m fine.ā€ Once his hands had left you, you raise your hands to your cheeks, feeling the rushing blood warm your palms, ā€œI guess I’m a little tipsier than I thought.ā€

Joshua looks at you for a moment, and then down to your feet, ā€œI think you broke a heel.ā€ Finger raised; you follow it downwards to look at the heel almost completely detached from the sole. ā€œHere,ā€ voice quickening as if to distract you from it, he takes your arm and puts it over his shoulder so you can lean some of your weight onto him, ā€œwouldn’t want you to fall over again.ā€ After offering him a quick smile and a small ā€˜thanks’ of gratitude you begin to walk again.

After a minute or so of walking, the pair of you take a turn onto one of the main drags of the city, the cool air soaking into you. ā€œDo you mind if we stop for a second?ā€ You ask, thinking you may have twisted your ankle when you tripped.

ā€œOf course,ā€ the two of you make your way to a bench along the sidewalk, you sit while Joshua stands next to you. It’s a moment of quiet before he speaks up again, ā€œAre you feeling alright?ā€

You can only shake your head in the negative, for fear that you may explode should you open your mouth.

ā€œWhat’s wrong?ā€ He questions, sitting down next to you, his hand falling atop yours in an act of subtle comfort.

Everything. Your throat becomes dry as you lean forward and embrace him, unable to vocalize the horrid deluge of hopelessness and heartbreak washing over you.Ā 

You had seen the shop where Wonwoo was apprenticing when you’d gone into Seungcheol’s one morning, it had been featured in some editorial that he subscribed to. Seeing that it was a beautiful boutique and was quite revered among local and international audiences hadn’t dampened the blow at all. Wonwoo hadn’t been lying when he said it was the opportunity of a lifetime.

It still hurts. You’d been selfish in trying to make things work, too absorbed in it you hadn’t felt him slipping away until it was too late. Vernon had sat you down one day and told you to shape up. Wonwoo wasn’t coming back and the sooner you realized it the sooner you’d get over him. You don’t remember how long you cried into his shoulder for. For the eidolon of him was beginning to fade now, the lingering remnants of it still striking you to the core whenever you catch a glimpse of it.

ā€œI just want to go home,ā€ you try your best to sound strong, hating that the veneer you usually kept was able to slip so easily. Pulling away from the other you move to stand, kicking off your shoes and moving to hold them before you begin to walk.

ā€œAren’t your feet going to get cold? It’s nearly the middle of winter,ā€ Joshua calls out after you as he catches up, unsure of how to go about comforting you.

ā€œI’ll be fine,ā€ your toes cold on the concrete, ā€œIt’s only a few blocks away.ā€

It’s silence once more as the pair of you two amble to your apartment, the windows dark when you approach, Sooyoung must be out again. A sigh leaving you, alone again.

ā€œThanks for walking with me, Shua.ā€ You stop, turning to your accompaniment and smiling softly at him.

ā€œShua?ā€ His brow raises at that, ā€œAre you sure you’re not still drunk? I don’t think you’ve called me that since we were twelve.ā€

ā€œYeah, I know. But I mean it, thank you.ā€ Your other friends had tried to console you but Joshua’s attempt had been the most successful so far that had gotten you to even budge ever so slightly from the slump you’d found yourself in.

1967, Summer. The sparkler hisses as Joshua hands it to you, the bright end flickering with every centimeter the flame engulfs. A smile on your lips as you look at him, an equally bemused smile gracing his face as he steps away and begins handing out sparklers to a few other guests. After the host finishes handing out the sticks a large chorus of ā€˜Happy Birthday’ begins to ring out, directed at Jihoon Lee.Ā 

You didn’t really know the guy, but Joshua said he was hosting a birthday bash at a lake house up in the Catskills this weekend and it was a good excuse to get away from the city for a bit. It was a work friend of his, not sure from which endeavor but you aren’t complaining. Work at the shop had been far too busy to manage with just Vernon and you, you’d been looking at several applicants, but you had a difficult time sifting through the resumes. This was a much needed, and much deserved, break away from it all.Ā 

Before the sparkler has a chance to burn down to your fingertips you blow it out and set it onto one of the porcelain plates atop the table in front of you. A small crowd had gathered to sing and with the rapidly setting sun it was difficult to see familiar faces among the crowd.

ā€œLooking for someone?ā€ A pair of hands placed on your hips as the question sounds out, the familiarity of it making you smile a little brighter.

ā€œJust you,ā€ You turn, looking at Joshua.

ā€œOh?ā€ He questions, leaning in for a brief kiss before pulling away, ā€œYou’ve got that look on your face.ā€

ā€œWhat look?ā€

ā€œThe one that means you’re thinking of something,ā€ A sparkle in his eye, the light from the nearby dock casting a green glow onto the lawn.

ā€œJust work things,ā€ you admit, ā€œEven if I’m miles away from the shop it’s still on my mind.ā€

ā€œWork’s a sickness, isn’t it?ā€ He mutters, ā€œWell, they’ve already started to cut the cake, want to head in and grab a slice?ā€

ā€œSure,ā€ you say as his hands leave your sides, taking one of your hands in his and heading through the lawn and into the brightly lit interior of the home.

ā€œSeungcheol said he’d be arriving a little later, my sister’s ready to blow a gasket but, when isn’t she?ā€ Joshua laughs as you make your way to a nearby table, grabbing a plate with a precut slice of cake on it before turning back to him.

ā€œIs this from the same bakery who made my cake last year?ā€ You ask with nearly a mouthful of cake.

ā€œI told you I made that cake,ā€ he says jokingly, grabbing his own slice, ā€œAnd if it were, would you say yea or nay for them making the wedding cake?ā€

ā€œYea. Definitely, this is by far the best buttercream I’ve ever had,ā€ you nod, ā€œAlthough I do need a drink.ā€

ā€œAmaretto sour?ā€ Questioning as he sets down his plate, ready to go off and mix your drink himself.

ā€œYou know I can’t,ā€ a frown settling on your lips as you take another bite, ā€œJust water.ā€

ā€œI’ll be back in a sec,ā€ Joshua says and heads to the bar in the next room over.

You move out of the way of the other partygoers looking for food and make your way to a window that looks out at the road in front of the house. As you watch, you see the bright headlights of a car pulling into the drive, trying to careen past the other vehicles lined up there. It must be Seungcheol.

It’d been a while since you’d last seen him, having to mail his orders to him now that you’d moved shop locations. So, you head to the front door, anxious to see an old friend. The door opens with a swing of grandeur, Seungcheol Choi stepping inside with a clear look of panic on his face.

Seungcheol spots you as he enters, rushing over to you, ā€œShe’s not angry, is she?ā€

ā€œYour wife?ā€ You question, putting a finger under your chin in thought, ā€œShe’s only told half of the people here how upset she is, so I think you still have time to save yourself.ā€

ā€œI’d better get in there then,ā€ he sighs, almost brushing past you before he stops, ā€œI should also tell you thatā€”ā€

You don’t hear what he says, though. Because you hadn’t realized that there was someone standing behind him until they step through the dark entranceway and into the bright lights of the foyer. For a moment it feels like time has stopped, the plate in your hand straining from the pressure your fingers now exert on it as you lock eyes with someone you hadn’t ever expected to see again.

It’s you who breaks away first, mumbling about needing to find Joshua while it feels as if your heart seizes upon itself in your chest. Before you’re able to rejoin the party, you feel a hand gently grasp your arm, ā€œCan we talk?ā€ The question is quiet, almost lost in the atmosphere of the celebration as Wonwoo asks.

A strangled gulp as you nod, setting the plate down on a small mail-table before you brush past him exit out of the front door. He follows you wordlessly, from the gravel path that wraps around the house and to the backyard that overlooks the lake. You keep walking, wading through grass that comes up to your knees until you’re standing on the wooden dock, the gentle sloshing of water hitting the posts giving you something else to focus on.

Face green in the glow of the dock light overhead, it beams around the soft fog rising from the water as you hope it would swallow you up instead of you having this conversation with Wonwoo.Ā 

ā€œYou never returned my calls,ā€ he says, standing several feet away. His tone isn’t accusatory, it sounds hurt.

ā€œI kept forgetting.ā€ Liar. Nails digging into your palms as your hands clench with an anxiety that hadn’t riddled you for two years. ā€œAnd you only called four times.ā€

ā€œFive.ā€

ā€œFour.ā€ Resolution in your voice as you try and stand as firmly as you can. The shoes you’re wearing are pinching your heels and you want nothing more than to kick them off into the water. You turn to look at him, trying to stay calm. ā€œWould you have picked up even if I did call back?ā€ A tangle in your stomach as you recall having Sooyoung answer the phone for the next handful of weeks after the two of you had parted, each time he’d called Sooyoung would say you weren’t home.

He hesitates, at least his body does, the words, ā€œOf course I would have,ā€ escaping him before he could prepare himself with a more eloquent response.Ā Ā 

ā€œYou seem to be doing well,ā€ It’s silent until you break it, noting the suit he was wearing was from a higher end retailer.

ā€œSo, do you,ā€ a break in his voice as he notices the crack in your demeanor, ā€œI didn’t see you at Seungcheol’s wedding, I thought he would have invited you.ā€

ā€œMy mother got sick, so I missed it,ā€ you recall having to forgo the event last year. Did that mean Wonwoo had been back that soon?

ā€œYou still have the dress.ā€ There had been a melancholy deep set into your bones that had lasted for what seemed like lifetimes, now resurfacing more and more the longer you look at him. You’d forgotten about what you were wearing, the same dress that the tailor had labored unknown hours over and that had been the figurative wedge between you and him. Maybe this was some deity’s cruel sense of irony. ā€œI still think it’s one of the best I’ve ever made,ā€Ā 

ā€œIt’s a little tighter now but it’s still one of my favorites,ā€ you can’t lie. Be it from the laborious love that was sewn into every stitch or the bygone memories associated with it, it was and still is one of the best pieces you own.

ā€œI really was an idiot for letting you go, wasn’t I?ā€ Hands shoved into pockets, he’s not sure what to do with himself.

ā€œYou did what you had to.ā€ Brow hardening, a remembrance of the last time you’d spoken.

ā€œDon’t say it like that,ā€ a soft plea, he’d never meant to hurt you.

ā€œThen how should I say it?ā€ Bitterness you thought forgotten riddles every word you pose.Ā 

ā€œYou know I tried to visit your shop when I first came back,ā€ Deterrent of the conversation, he looks across the water to the distant shore. ā€œBut it was empty, some guy passing by had said you packed up months earlier and just left.ā€

ā€œThere was a water main break, ruined most of our inventory and we had to rebuild from scratch in a new place.ā€ You still remember the dread you’d felt that morning, walking in to find everything in shambles.

ā€œWith Joshua’s help?ā€

ā€œJoshua helped.ā€

ā€œCongratulations on your engagement, by the way,ā€ eyes flickering to the ring on your finger, the light of the dock glinting off the main stone. ā€œHe’s a lucky man.ā€

Wonwoo sounds bitter, you can understand why but you can’t understand one thing. ā€œWhy did you come? I’m sure that Seungcheol said that I was going to be here.ā€

ā€œI don’t know.ā€ The answer is simple, but there’s a heaviness to it that you can feel. ā€œI’m supposed to be flying out to Milan tomorrow. I guess I just wanted to see you again.ā€

ā€œDid you expect me to fall into your arms, Wonwoo? To take you back?ā€ Lip bitten, you’re sure you were going to draw blood if you kept at it any longer.

ā€œMaybe I did when I came back last year, when I’d tried to see you.ā€ He frowns, ā€œI think now I want to make sure you’re happy.ā€

Happy. It feels as if that word dances off of the water behind you, across the sound and into the forest. Were you? The encroaching despair that had taken aim and marked you when Wonwoo had left was gone, a memory overwritten by the years that had followed, by the people who had followed. The shedding of yourself that came when he left took a while but without a doubt you can truly say this is the most complacent you’ve ever been.

The door to the lake house opens some ways behind Wonwoo, the lights from inside spreading across the lawn in an obscene spotlight on the two of you. A silhouette stands in the doorway, it’s easy to tell who the figure is as he leans against the door frame. You smile as you look at the outline of Joshua, heart swelling as it once had for the other man in front of you.

ā€œYeah, Wonwoo, I’m happy.ā€

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avenhill
1 year ago

perilla leaf/ shrimp debate | ot13

Perilla Leaf/ Shrimp Debate | Ot13
Perilla Leaf/ Shrimp Debate | Ot13
Perilla Leaf/ Shrimp Debate | Ot13

the perilla leaf debate: whether it is appropriate for one’s significant other to help peel the perilla leaf of a friend

Perilla Leaf/ Shrimp Debate | Ot13

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² choi seungcheol

does absolutely not fuck with the idea. you’re not touching anyone’s food, he’s not touching anyone's food, and someone else is definitely not touching your food. he would genuinely give you a silent treatment if you helped your/ his friend with the perilla leaf or a shrimp because choi seungcheol is a possessive bitch, and he’s not afraid of letting everyone around him know about that (as if the hand on your thigh wasn’t enough). the only person that you can touch your food, and help you with it is him. end of story.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² yoon jeonghan

he wouldn’t mind you helping out your friend with peeling the perilla leaf or the shrimp, jeonghan is all for acts of service, and helping those who need it. even if the person would try to use the peeling as an excuse to flirt with you or get closer - still, no reaction from jeonghan. that’s just lame in his opinion, like seriously? a leaf? and i can imagine him scoffing loud enough for your friend to hear.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² joshua hong

does not pay attention to it, because if he was in your place he’d help his friend out as well. like, it’s so obvious to shua that neither a perilla leaf, nor a shrimp could question the quality of your relationship, and loyalty to each other, so why focus on something as silly as that? it actually causes the opposite effect for him - he finds it really endearing how you pay attention to the people around you, and how eager you are to help them.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² wen junhui

jun definitely wouldn’t say anything even if he was bothered by it, but i’m not really sure if he’d pay that much attention to it anyway. if you were around people you both knew very well, like the boys and their significant others, he wouldn’t mind it whatsoever. but if you were out with people he didn’t know that well he’d be more attentive then, but still - he wouldn’t make a scene out of it by any means. he’d maybe get a bit, i don’t know, sad? for a moment, but it would quickly go away. it’s just a leaf/ shrimp after all.Ā 

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² kwon soonyoung

(he’d probably be the one in need of your super duper peeling skills) the only thing he’d be truly bothered by if you helped your friend would be that they stole your attention from him, and kwon soonyoung needs your attention. the peeling itself is not that big of a deal, though i think a small part of hoshi would be a bit jealous, maybe he’d give you a bit of an attitude because peeling a shrimp can’t be that hard, right? but it’s nothing too serious, soonyoung is usually dramatic like that so it’s nothing new for you.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² jeon wonwoo

okay so, here’s the thing. if you help someone or someone else helps you, and it’s purely platonic - wonwoo has no problem with it. you’re all friends, it’s all good. BUT, if he sees that the person you’re helping out is flirting with you, and is using the excuse of the perilla leaf or the shrimp - it’s a big no no. he wouldn’t say anything, he’d definitely stay silent, but his face would say it all. would eye the person from head to toe with his sharp eyes (bonus point if he takes off his glasses to be more dramatic). wonwoo is nice until someone tries to steal you from him.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² lee jihoon

jihoon does not give a fuck whether you help someone or if someone helps you. for one, it’s just basic manners to help someone if they’re struggling, and why would he get jealous over you peeling a shrimp of all things. he doesn’t really get the whole perilla leaf debate either, it’s just plainly stupid to make a discours over two leaves sticking together as if that could determine the loyalty of your partner.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² lee seokmin

seokmin’s first reaction would be to pout, because it looked kind of intimate how you helped your friend, and from anyone else’s perspective it looked like you and your friend were together, and not you and him (and as a romantic soul, he can’t help but be a bit sad because of that). but then a realisation would quickly dawn upon him - you were helping your friend because you cared about them, you were paying attention to them, and your first and only reaction was to immediately help them. so in the end dk kind of melts over you , and your attentiveness.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² kim mingyu

my man does not care, he’s there for the food. so what if you help someone, or someone helps you, you’re all friends, right? it’s kind of stupid to get jealous over a literal leaf or a shrimp, like - if you help someone out it means you’re polite, and that you pay attention to those around you, which mingyu finds so much more attractive than being territorial over your partner. as someone whose main love language are acts of service, mingyu is all for helping those around you.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² xu minghao

doesn’t care either. even if said friend would have troubles with peeling the perilla leaf, and would ask you for help just to flirt with you, hao would not care at all. he is too confident in your relationship, like the trust he has in you and your love is so hot. besides, using a literal leaf as an excuse to flirt is pathetic. either way - flirting or not, minghao would not pay any attention to you peeling the leaf or a shrimp.Ā 

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² boo seungkwan

wouldn’t say anything out loud, but would definitely side eye the person that would ask you for your help with the shrimp. like, can’t you just peel it yourself? you really have to ask my partner to do it for you? but seungkwan wouldn’t make a scene out of it, it’s not that serious anyway, so why waste his energy on a shrimp. there’s a small chance boo would give you an attitude for a while, though, but that’s just because he wants your attention on him, not on someone that’s not able to peel a shrimp on their own.

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² vernon chwe

vernon would not even notice you helping your friend with the leaf, because it’s literally your friend - he’d do the same if he saw someone struggling. we know he’s very laid back about this kind of stuff, it’s not like you’re going to fall in love with your friend just because of a leaf or a shrimp, so it’s not something he would pay much attention to.Ā 

š™ššŸ§øą¾€ą½² lee chan

would probably swat your hand away from peeling that shrimp, not because he’s jealous or bothered by it - but because he wants you to keep eating your own food. chan is a little love bug that thrives off helping those around him, so in general he would not mind you helping others, whether it’d be peeling perilla leaves, shrimps, and whatnot. but he would still gently take your hand away, and encourage you to eat, and he’d help the person in need himself.

Perilla Leaf/ Shrimp Debate | Ot13

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avenhill
1 year ago

ᔣ𐭩 harder to hide than I thought | kmg įÆ“ā˜… :

The night air wraps around you like a blanket, cool against your skin as it streams in through the open car window. Your hair dances with the wind, catching the dim glow of passing streetlights as you ride alongside Mingyu, his focus fixed on the road ahead.

The radio hums softly, barely audible beneath the steady hum of the engine, and in the silence between you, your thoughts race.

You glance at Mingyu, stealing a moment to observe him when he’s unaware. His hands grip the steering wheel with ease, strong and sure, like they always are.

You’ve always admired his hands—how they can be so gentle when they brush away a stray eyelash from your cheek, yet firm when they offer support in times when the world felt like too much.

His profile is illuminated by the passing lights, and for a brief second, you let yourself imagine that he might turn to look at you and see everything in your eyes that you’ve been too afraid to say.

ā€œI wanna be yoursā€¦ā€ The lyrics of the Arctic Monkeys’ song play softly in your mind, looping over and over like a broken record.

It’s ironic, really—how a song could capture your feelings so perfectly, so painfully. You do want to be his. You want to be the one he turns to when the world gets too heavy, the one who holds his heart as if it were a fragile piece of art.

But could he ever want the same? Could he ever see you as more than just the friend who’s always been there?

You wonder if he’s ever noticed the way your voice catches when you say his name, or the way your breath hitches when his fingers graze yours, even accidentally. You’ve been in love with him for so long that it’s become second nature to hide it, to tuck it away in the corners of your heart where it can’t hurt you. But it does hurt. Every single day, it hurts.

You think about confessing—about finally letting those three words slip from your lips. I love you.

How often have you imagined saying them, watching his reaction, waiting for his response? In your daydreams, he smiles, maybe even laughs, and tells you he’s always felt the same. But reality is harsher, and you know it.

What if he doesn’t? What if those words shatter the delicate balance you’ve kept all these years, leaving nothing but broken pieces of what was once the most important friendship in your life?

It’s selfish, you know. It’s selfish to want more from him, to want him to see you as someone worth loving in a way that’s deeper, more intimate. But how can you not?

How can you keep pretending that your heart doesn’t beat a little faster every time he calls your name, or that your world doesn’t feel a little brighter just because he’s in it?

You turn to the window, letting the wind carry away the tears that prick at the corners of your eyes. The stars are out tonight, twinkling in the dark sky, and for a moment, you wish upon them like a child. You wish that he could see you—really see you.

That he could understand how every time you’ve been by his side, it’s been out of love, not just friendship. But wishes are for dreamers, and you’ve always been too pragmatic to rely on something as fleeting as a star’s light.

Mingyu’s voice breaks through the silence, startling you from your thoughts. ā€œYou okay?ā€

You force a smile, the practiced kind that doesn’t quite reach your eyes. ā€œYeah, just tired.ā€

He nods, accepting your answer without question, as he always does. And that’s the problem, isn’t it? He’s so used to you being fine, to you being the strong one, that he’d never think to look deeper. To see the cracks beneath the surface.

As the car rolls to a stop at a red light, you find yourself on the verge of saying it—of confessing everything that’s been lodged in your chest for so long. But then you see his face, relaxed and content, and you hesitate.

What if he doesn’t feel the same? What if, by speaking your truth, you destroy the one thing you can’t bear to lose?

The light turns green, and the moment passes. You close your eyes and lean back against the seat, letting out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding.

Maybe one day you’ll find the courage to tell him.

Maybe one day you’ll decide that the risk is worth it, that your heart can’t keep holding onto this love in silence.

But tonight isn’t that night.

So you stay quiet, letting the night drive on, with the wind in your hair and the weight of unsaid words hanging in the air between you.

Mingyu is still by your side, unaware of the turmoil in your heart, and you can’t help but think that, for now, this is enough.

You’ll be his friend, his confidant, his anchor. And if that’s all you’ll ever be, then you’ll bear it with grace. Because loving him is both the easiest and the hardest thing you’ve ever done, and you don’t know if you’re ready to find out what happens when the truth finally comes out.

For now, you’ll let the night take your secrets, and you’ll keep pretending that your heart isn’t breaking with every mile you travel together.

 Harder To Hide Than I Thought | Kmg :

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avenhill
1 year ago

i love love love the clingy fic. do you think you’d be open to making one for all the members?

seventeen being clingy with their s/o | ot13

I Love Love Love The Clingy Fic. Do You Think Youd Be Open To Making One For All The Members?
I Love Love Love The Clingy Fic. Do You Think Youd Be Open To Making One For All The Members?
I Love Love Love The Clingy Fic. Do You Think Youd Be Open To Making One For All The Members?

thank you so much for this request! I turned it into a headcanon, so I hope you won't mind it.

ā˜¾ā‚Š ⊹ currently playing: blue hour by txt

side note: the length of each member's headcanon has nothing to do with who I like more or less

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš CHOI SEUNGCHEOLĀ 

okay, we all know that Seungcheol is the presidentā„¢ of clinginessĀ 

hand holding, hugs, cuddles, kisses, head pats, you name itĀ 

he would have no problem stopping whatever he was doing just to give you a hugĀ 

btw, his hugs must be the best (silently crying in the corner)

they make you feel so safe and fluffyĀ 

would sometimes tease you for your clinginess, but then you can just say ā€œno cuddles tonightā€ and he’ll be apologizing on his knees

morning and goodnight kisses are mandatory, and there is a big chance he’ll get pouty and sulky if he doesn’t get oneĀ 

wouldn’t mind a clingy and affectionate significant other whatsoeverĀ 

and if you weren’t a person that liked physical touch, he would respect that 100%

nonetheless, would slowly but surely try to warm you up to the ideaĀ 

I think cuddling him would be one of the best ways to comfort him in any situationĀ 

simply holding him tightly and stroking his hairĀ 

he would love if you’d poke his dimples (it only makes him smile even wider)Ā 

I think he’d love the idea of cuddling with you before sleep, but somehow would end up on the other side of the bed, in the weirdest position in the morningĀ 

would also love when you’d fall asleep in his arms during a movie night, for exampleĀ 

it makes him so so happy, and he thinks you’re the cutest thing in the world (because you are)Ā 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš YOON JEONGHANĀ 

another very cuddly and affectionate memberĀ 

I think he is more low key than Cheol though

he loves the quiet and intimate aspects of physical touch

definitely holds your hand in public, especially when there are a lot of peopleĀ 

loves laying and napping on your lap, while you play with his hairĀ 

there is a 90% chance that he has his head on your shoulder whenever you are sitting next to each otherĀ 

plays a lot with you hands too (you’re basically his fidget toy)Ā 

loves the quiet nights when there is only the two of you, when he can you full out with his clinginessĀ 

if you’re in the kitchen doing whatever you can bet he’ll stick to you and follow you everywhereĀ 

has the biggest heart eyes and a soft smile whenever looking at youĀ 

will definitely tease you from time to time, but we all know he loves when you smother him with loveĀ 

maybe not the BIGGEST fan of PDA, but would definitely not shy away from showing his affection around the boys

if they have a problem they can leave = Jeonghan’s mindsetĀ 

strives for forehead kisses, they make him so soft and appreciatedĀ 

just give him all the love he deservesĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš HONG JOSHUAĀ 

HUSBAND MATERIAL RIGHT HERE

so so so softĀ 

very low key with his affections, might not be all over you, but is always right by your sideĀ 

always has a hand around your waist when you’re at big gatherings and never lets you go in a big crowd of peopleĀ 

the main hand holder in seventeen, and I’m going to stand by thatĀ 

sitting down? holding hands. waiting in a line? holding hands. going on a walk? holding hands.Ā 

gives the softest, most reassuring hugs known to mankindĀ 

generally, he’s very soft and his aura just radiates with love and reassurance, so there is not a single moment in your relationship where he lets you doubt yourself

head pats specialist - you can do the smallest, most insignificant thing and he’ll still pat your head lovingly with a soft smileĀ 

even though he is not that into physical touch, he’ll never decline your hugs, kisses or cuddlesĀ 

I don’t think he would tease you that much, but sometimes might find it amusing how clingy you get (sometimes he jokingly avoids your kisses just to see you sulk until he doesn’t burst out laughing and give you tons of kisses in apologies)Ā 

expresses his affection through actions, is always there for you

sometimes you don’t even have to ask him for help - he just knows and is there right by you in a secondĀ 

such a attentive listener, you could be rambling about the most random thing and he’ll still look at as if nothing else existed in the worldĀ 

everyone can see how in love he is, simply by the way he looks at you

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš WEN JUNHUIĀ 

on the first glance may not seem like it, but he gets clingy more often than you’d thinkĀ 

he loves giving back hugs, just clinging onto you, while you do your thingĀ 

nuzzling his head in your neck has become a big habit for him (and overall, a BIG fan of neck kisses)

now he’s a menace, so beware, he will tease youĀ 

but it is all out of love, he would never seriously decline your affection

sometimes, he’d just come up to you and stand there waiting for kissesĀ 

will lay in your lap after a tiring day, and not get up, no matter how badly you need to go to the bathroomĀ 

would hug you for the longest time if he’d see you’re upset or anxiousĀ 

is very gentle, but sometimes underestimates his own strength, which ends up with you laying on the floorĀ 

once, he lost you in a big crowd, and since then he has always an arm wrapped around you or at least is holding your handĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš KWON SOONYOUNGĀ 

tiger who? more like a koalaĀ 

will cling to you 24/7Ā 

ESPECIALLY when he’s drunk, he will hold onto you for dear life

comes up with the most random, weird and cliche nicknames for you, and will use it in the presence of other peopleĀ 

sometimes his love can get a bit aggressive, especially if he’s full of energy (but would never do anything to hurt you)Ā 

can get super cheesy, to the point where you have to shut him upĀ 

sometimes he’s just too cute for you too handle, so you’d have no other choice then give him kisses all over his face

which he likes A LOTĀ 

sometimes, to tease you, he’d act like he doesn’t notice your affection and clinginess, just to tackle you in a hug a second laterĀ 

this man WILL BLUSH, and you use that fact a lot to your own advantage (usually when you’re with the boys, just to mess with him)

expects a good morning kiss, because he swears he’s days are always better when you kiss him in the morningĀ 

pouts if you let go of his hand, and he will in fact let you know, that he’s upsetĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš JEON WONWOO

(this man is going to be the death of me)

at first very very shy with affection, but as he gets more and more comfortable you’ll get to see a whole another side of himĀ 

definitely not the biggest on PDA, even in front of the boysĀ 

but I can guarantee you, he’ll always be touching in some way when you’re in publicĀ 

whether it’ll be linked pinkies, holding hands, a strong arm around your waist or just simply standing very very close to you

he’ll never kiss you around the boys, but he will not shy away from pecking your forehead or giving quick cheek kissesĀ 

look like he hates when you cuddle into him, but on the inside he’s freaking out from how cute and adorable you areĀ 

also whenever you show him any type of affection it makes him feel so loved and appreciated (so please give him all the affection he deserves)Ā 

sometimes will come up from behind, give you a quick hug, and leave as if nothing just happenedĀ 

loves loves loves to cuddle when you’re reading, it’s usually him initiating the affection in situations like theseĀ 

it’s just his silent way of showing you his love

okay, I know that this is so basic and cliche, BUTĀ 

cuddling him while he’s gaming (can you just imagine sitting in his lap, watching him doing what he loves, giving him kisses and cheering whenever he wins)Ā 

I can already see his shy smile after you press a sweet kiss on his lips after he wins a battle or somethingĀ 

sometimes if you’re being too clingy, he’ll just send you a side eye and sigh, but not stop you at allĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš LEE JIHOON

now, we know that this man is not a fan of physical touchĀ 

and he still isn’t, except when the affection comes from youĀ 

he has came to terms with the fact that you’ll never stop hugging him, simply accepting his destinyĀ 

definitely will let you know if it gets too much, but he tries to be more open minded when it comes to youĀ 

over the time spend with you, he’d notice the small acts of yours, that he’d miss when you weren't around, like gently holding his handĀ 

he’d notice, that from time to time he’d feel like something’s missingĀ 

and it’d turn out that he just misses you holding his hand

will link pinkies in public, but that’s the furthest he will go (he’d never leave your side though, he’s always there to keep an eye on you)Ā 

if he’s really tired, he will come up to you without saying a word and lay in your lap

gets so happy if you play with his hair then (would never admit this to you)Ā 

is so grateful to you that you respect his boundariesĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš XU MINGHAOĀ 

*sigh*

when it comes to Hao, I think he’s a bit similar to Wonwoo, in the sense that in the beginning of you relationship he would be more closed off and shyĀ 

but as the time goes, he’d open more and more up

his affection would come in waves - he’d have days where he’d need to be left alone (always tells you this, as not to cause any miscommunication) and on others he’d smother you with loveĀ 

he is very gentle with giving and showing affection, will always hold you in a delicate wayĀ 

big fan of hand holding and head pats, as well as just simply being next to youĀ 

your presence in general is very comforting and calming to him, you know each other so well, that sometimes no words are needed to know how the other person is feelingĀ 

he always checks up on you during any parties or gatherings, if your having fun or if no one is making you uncomfortable (will fight if someone is mean to you)Ā 

loves whenever you put your head on his shoulder, his heart will probably beat a little fasterĀ 

also loves when you cling to him in search of comfort, he’s the happiest knowing that he can be a safe place for you

not the biggest fan of cuddling while sleeping (he needs his space), but will always cuddle before, catching up on what he’d missed from your dayĀ 

sometimes, you’re just so cute to him that he can’t contain his gigglesĀ 

then you’re like (•ณ_•ณ) what did I do?Ā 

but then, I’m the biggest believer in a tired, clingy Minghao (u cannot tell me that this man wouldn't cling to you like a koala, while being already half asleep)

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš KIM MINGYUĀ 

is there even a point of saying anything about this man?Ā 

cuddles, kisses, hugs, hand holding, playing with each others’ hair, resting his arm on you, WITH THIS MAN YOU GET A WHOLE PACKAGEĀ 

definitely one of the most clingy, cuddly and affectionate members (nothing knew)Ā 

I mean, he would drop everything and run to cuddle with youĀ 

never leaves your side, follows you around everywhere, and will DEFINITELY always be touching you in some wayĀ 

a hand holding yours, on your thigh, around your shoulder, around your waist, THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESSĀ 

unsurprisingly his hugs would solve like 99 of your problems, it’s like they heave some kind of healing propertiesĀ 

would confidently sulk and pout if you’d reject any of affections, acting like a five year old until you didn’t apologize with tons of kisses and at least an hour of cuddling himĀ 

usually is the big spoon, loves the feeling of having you wrapped up in his strong arms

on occasions, especially when he’s having a hard time, he’ll want to be the little spoon and would not shy away from itĀ 

sometimes you have to remind him that he’s like ten times bigger than you, so throwing himself at you is not a good idea

but, the thing with this menace is that he will tease you

there are times when you’re just so done with him and leave him alone on the couch (which is not that fun for him anymore)Ā 

BACK HUGS !!!

would do it 24/7 if he could, also loves it when you back hug him as wellĀ 

(If I don’t get a Kim Mingyu, I don’t want him)Ā 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš LEE SEOKMINĀ 

you become a giggly mess in each others’ presenceĀ 

sometimes, you’d do the annoying ā€œcouple stuffā€, just to piss of others (insert: Seungkwan’s side eye)

He will return every affection that you give him - you kiss him? He kisses you back. You hug him? He hugs you back

you’re just going back and forth, never getting tired of each otherĀ 

when you’re out together, YOU’RE TOGETHERĀ 

you two are connected by the hip, seeing you apart for more than five minutes is almost impossibleĀ 

likes to hold your hand, and sway it back and forth like a kid when you’re walkingĀ 

a fan of giving and receiving sweet kisses on the forehead (it makes him so smiley and warm inside, give him all the kisses)Ā 

seeing you being so open with your affection towards him, makes him so happy - it’s a reassurance for him, that he’s being a good boyfriendĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš BOO SEUNGKWANĀ 

now this drama queenĀ 

in the beginning of your relationship he would scoff at you whenever you initiated any physical contact, which made you think that he didn’t like itĀ 

after some time, when he asked you why you’d stopped hugging and kissing him, you explained how he’d react in those situationsĀ 

was so angry and disappointed with himself and since then he would never complain about any of your affectionĀ 

it’s not that he disliked it, on the contrary - he loved it, he was just being a dramatic ass and trying to be funnyĀ 

as your relationship progresses the drama in him doesn't stop though - if you let go of his hand or refuse a kiss, he’ll throw a tantrum and make it appear as if it was one of the biggest problems in his lifeĀ 

he could be arguing with Soonyoung and screaming his head off, but the second he heard your voice he’d turn into the biggest softieĀ 

in general, he is the biggest baby when he’s with youĀ 

loves loves hugs, could hug you all day if he couldĀ 

also kisses (cheek kisses especially), makes him so incredibly soft and mushy ♄‿♄

gets shy in public, but never lets go of your hand (I think he needs you more, than you need him)Ā 

also, has the biggest heart eyes for you, and you onlyĀ 

gets so happy when you comfort and reassure him through physical touch, there is nothing better than a cuddle or a hug from the person you love the mostĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš CHWE VERNONĀ 

(I’m so sorry, but the only thing I see when I think of Vernon is his NPC walk)

would just let you do whatever to him, and he wouldn’t even bat an eyeĀ 

although he is one of the least affectionate member, he wouldn’t mind your clinginess AT ALLĀ 

it makes him so reassured that even though he’s not the best with expressing his love through physical touch, you don’t mind it at allĀ 

the only time he’ll refuse your cuddles is when sleeping (WE ALL KNOW HOW HE SLEEPS, THERE IS NO WAY HE’D CUDDLE YOU)Ā 

his way of showing you affection is calling you bro and dudeĀ 

sometimes you’re like (¬_¬) seriously?Ā 

likes to be near you wherever you are - even if there is no more space on the couch, trust me, he’ll squeeze himself in thereĀ 

when he laughs, there is a big chance he’ll lean on you or even hide his face in your lapĀ 

movie nights often ends up in cuddle sessions and since clingy Vernon is rare, those moments are even more specialĀ 

*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš LEE CHANĀ 

MY BABYĀ 

the softest, most precious human being out thereĀ 

loves all the affection, whatever it is, he’ll accept it with open arms

kiss him, hug him, cuddle him PLEASE, he adores all of itĀ 

would not tease you that much, scared that accidentally you’ll think that it annoys him and you’ll stop, which is like the last thing he’d likeĀ 

we all know that he’d baby you, and would not be ashamed to do soĀ 

for once he wants to feel like the strong man that he is, so please let him open the jars for you

will protect you 24/7 (we stan a short, but confident king)Ā 

so sweet and careful with you

not afraid to hold your hand in public, sometimes when feeling bold will even peck your forehead

speaking of, I think it would send Chan into a coma anytime you’d peck his forehead or cheekĀ 

gets all smiley when you hug him, especially from behind (overall, he can never seem to stop smiling when he’s with you)Ā 

kisses with him are so playful and sweetĀ 

I’m also sure when you’re alone he’d be all over you, cuddles during movie nights are A MUST, otherwise you’ll end up with a pouty boyfriendĀ 


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avenhill
1 year ago
avenhill
1 year ago
avenhill
1 year ago

seventeen members as love tropes: jeon wonwoo

best friends to lovers

'and i was so scared to destroy it that i forgot that destruction leaves the door for something new to be built'

'okay, let's go over the list again. phone chargers and headphones?'

wonwoo tries and fails to act annoyed; he's mostly endlessly endeared by your love for all kind of check lists and your diligence in going over them at least three times. he doesn't even try to point out that bags were packed under your supervision yesterday - he's not strong enough to withstand your pouty face and he also knows how restless you get if you don't check everything again. so, he bites inside of his cheek to prevent himself from smiling like a fool and declares: 'chargers and headphones are here. what's next?'

wonwoo indulges you for the next twenty minutes, checks every single item from your list and doesn't look even a tiny bit mad when you two finish. his patience towards you has no limits, just like his desire to soothe your worries and help you feel peaceful. he zips both bags, when you sigh in relief and plop right next to him on the ground, leaning on his shoulder casually. 'thanks, woo. i know it must've been annoying, but i was anxious.'

careful not to disturb you, wonwoo moves closer to the wall to lean on it. 'it's nothing. if to ease your anxiety i have to pack and repack these bags ten times, i'd do it, you know it.'

there's a beat of silence and then your hand wraps lightly around his. 'yeah, i know.'

and you do know. it's probably one the most amazing feelings in the world - to be this assured in another person. you cannot bet on yourself, but you can bet on wonwoo when it comes to being your best friend. he's your pillar of strength, your constant support, your closest person. you never thought it's possible to be this sure in someone and yet. you never question wonwoo because he never gave you reasons to; his loyalty to you is like a pledge he wears on his skin proudly, shows it off to everyone if they ask. earth is round, sky is blue and jeon wonwoo is always there for you. it could've been so, so good if only it didn't make you want to cry.

'hey, don't fall asleep on me. you know your neck will hurt and i didn't pack that gel which always helps ease up the stiffness,' he says gently.

wonwoo is always gentle. it's not really in his nature, but by default it's how he is with you. how can he not be? you're a flower in his eyes and only gentleness and care will help you flourish (which is the only thing he wants for you). his fingers itch with desire to hold you gently as well, to cradle you in his arms and keep you safe and loved but he ignores it. wonwoo is really good at ignoring a lot of his feelings towards you, because flowers can only take gentleness and there's nothing gentle in his feelings. no, his feelings for you are close to forces of the nature in their strengths: unstoppable, uncontrollable, all-consuming. wonwoo is so gentle with you, how can he let you know that his chest is doing a god's work every time, not letting his feelings slip? they can come out and envelop you whole, leave nothing to anyone else and he.. is not like that. can't be like that with you.

'you also started getting neck pains?' you ask, lifting your head from his shoulder. you look worried, searching for something on his face.

'no, i usually carry that gel for you.' wonwoo answers easily, shrugging it off. 'just like other bunch of stuff.'

silence settles again. lately, silence started to settle much more often between you two and while usually it's a good companion, this specific kind of silence hangs heavy. this silence is filled with unspoken words and hesitance, it's charged with tension which none of you dare to break. everything always comes to its' boiling point and you can't help but think that your friendship with wonwoo is hanging by a thread and you can't tell which way it should fall: to the left, where everything will be left exactly as it is right now or to the right, where you'll be in the new territory of confessed feelings? and wonwoo feels it too, can barely sleep this last month due to this heaviness in his heart, which refuses to carry the weight of unspoken love anymore. it's funny how he never really looked for love; when you came, he also didn't look for it. but then time passed and he realized that he's not looking for love anymore not because he's not interested, but because he found it long time ago.

'will we...' you start, taking a deep breath. god, if there's anyone for who you are ready to fall, it's wonwoo. '...talk about it? about this elephant in the room?'

wonwoo's breath hitches. seconds tick away and they last for eternity, making you think that time stopped at some moment. overthinking spiral starts to draw you in, when he voices out: 'which elephant in the room? the one about me being in love with you for longer than i can remember or the one where you never gave back any of my hoodies?'

wonwoo watches as your eyes widen and how your mouth opens and then closes in shock. he watches how you collect yourself, internally applauds himself for not freaking out and keeping that beast called love inside of his chest for now.

'i- the first one.' you mutter, shaking a little. 'definitely the first one and you can also add info on why you never said anything.'

will you understand? will you get that he was actually trying to shelter you from his selfish side? will you accept that his love is too big, too real, too much for someone as delicate as you? that he held himself back for your own sake? his hesitance spurs you to take his hand in his and squeeze it gently. 'tell me. i will understand. you are my best friend, woo. first and foremost - you are my best friend.'

'and then?' he grunts, barely forcing his tongue to move.

you smile and hope grows in his chest. 'and then my boyfriend. my one and only. do you like the sound of that?'

does he like it? god, do you even know what you do to him? beast inside doesn't roar to his surprise; no, it curls up in satisfaction instead, finally calming down. oh. oh. 'i like the sound of that very much,' he musters the courage to say.

maybe he was wrong about his beast all this time. maybe his feelings never meant harm, maybe they can not only destroy, but plant something else instead. you lean in and oh, wonwoo gets it. his feelings were meant to plant more flowers, pretty flowers. just like you.

a/n: if you think that this somewhere along the way turned into something else then you'd be right, but i couldn't stop and i'm posting this anyway. let me know what you think! - nini

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avenhill
1 year ago

your smile | JEON WONWOO

Your Smile | JEON WONWOO
Your Smile | JEON WONWOO
Your Smile | JEON WONWOO

summary | reading date with wonwoo in the comfort of your shared apartment

genre | fluff

word count | 871

pairing | jeon wonwoo x gn!reader

"What should we listen to?" Wonwoo asked right as you walked into the living room with a book in your hand.

"Whatever you feel like. I chose last time." A moment later soft tunes of your favorite album started playing, and along with the LED lights and a couple of candles it only added to the cozy feeling your shared apartment had.

This little act of your boyfriend - putting the music he knows you like, even though it's his turn to choose, puts a small smile on your face, making you even happier than you already were.

Having an afternoon for yourselves, not worrying about work or any chores, you both decided to have a stay at home date, with food and books.

Wonwoo already had his gaming live today at the company, so you didn't have to worry about your boyfriend bailing on you mid chapter and gaming his ass off until dawn, which was always a nice thing.

"Do we have everything?" he wondered, taking a seat next to you on the big sofa, which was now covered with fluffy blankets and lots of pillows.

"I'm just going to grab something to drink, so we don't have to get up later. Oh, and we need chopsticks. Anything else?"

"I don't think so,"

"Okay, I'll be right back."

As much as you loved going out with Wonwoo, exploring the city, going to nice restaurants or simply taking a casual stroll by the Han river, nothing would ever top your at home dates.

Being both so comfortable with each other - no fancy clothes, no makeup, no pressure to look your best and no stressing about being recognised by other people. You could savor the comfortable silence, each with a separate book and your feet in his lap.

A barefaced Wonwoo with his glasses and an oversized t-shirt was just a bonus to all of this. He's really the definition of boyfriend material.

While in the kitchen, beside drinks and chopsticks you grabbed extra snacks for Wonwoo, as he always likes to have something to munch on while reading. In addition you also grabbed an apple juice box, one of the many sitting in your refrigerator.

Quickly making your way back to the living room, you couldn't help, but admire your boyfriend for a second. He was sitting comfortably under one of the many blankets, his glasses at the tip of his nose while he was smiling at something on his phone.

Seeing him so happy was like a cup of tea on a winter morning. Without a doubt, him smiling was the best thing in the world and seeing him do it so often in these past months was the biggest dream come true.

He is one of the strongest people you know, but even he couldn't always hide his sadness and pain, so seeing him getting his happiness back is everything you could've asked for.

"Everything alright?" suddenly you were pulled back to reality, by Wonwoo's gentle voice, that so often lulled you to sleep.

"Yeah, just zoned out a little. Here, your gummies," you handed him all of his snacks along with a water bottle and a set of chopsticks.

"When did you get them? They weren't there in the morning."

"I saw you eating them in your live today," you explained. "So, I decided to buy some. You always like to snack when you're reading and gaming."

Wonwoo usually saw himself as a very stoic person, who was good at controlling his emotions, but you always proved him wrong.

His gaze turned to the softest expression known to mankind and he couldn't help himself but kiss the side of your head in a loving manner as a thank you.

Not being able to resist your boyfriend's sweet action, you put your hand at the back of his head, running your fingers through his short hair, that made him look so adorable when not styled.

"How much of the book do you have left?" he asked, as you both snuggled under the warm blankets.

"I think I'll finish tonight."

"Will your next book be a little bit more, how to say, intellectual?"

"Jeon Woonwoo, stop making fun of my book," you laughed and hit his arm repeatedly, though you doubted he felt anything.

"Not my fault my childhood was based on Wattpad, you dumbass." He laughed and shook his head in a playful manner.

"Sorry not everyone can be as smart as you, Mr. I-know-it-all. " you huffed, putting your bookmark at the coffee table. Not saying anything more, he simply put his arm around you, pulling you closer to his side.

Moments like these made you feel so safe and loved. Wonwoo may not be the most outspoken person when it comes to his emotions, but he never made you doubt yourself in any way.

Everywhere you went, you knew you could always count on him, he was there to keep you safe, protected and happy. The simple touches and small acts of service was all you needed.

So, as you both sit in the living room, each of you in a different fictional world, keeping each other warm, you knew that this was how you'd like to spend the rest of your life.


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avenhill
1 year ago

bestfriend!mingyu hcs

Bestfriend!mingyu Hcs
Bestfriend!mingyu Hcs
Bestfriend!mingyu Hcs

bestfriend!mingyu who always has your back, no matter what. he's the type of friend who would drop everything to be there for you, even if it means inconveniencing himself.

bestfriend!mingyu who is always there to listen. when you need someone to talk to, mingyu is always willing to lend an ear. he never judges and always offers his support.

bestfriend!mingyu who knows all your secrets. you and mingyu share a deep bond, and he knows everything about you, from your biggest fears to your wildest dreams.

bestfriend!mingyu who is your biggest cheerleader. mingyu is always there to celebrate your successes and encourage you to pursue your goals.

bestfriend!mingyu who makes you laugh until your sides hurt. mingyu has a knack for making people laugh, and he's always there to brighten your day with his jokes and funny stories.

bestfriend!mingyu who is always there to comfort you. when you're feeling down, mingyu is the first person you turn to. he knows exactly how to make you feel better and lift your spirits.

bestfriend!mingyu who is secretly in love with you. mingyu has had feelings for you for a long time, but he's afraid to confess them because he doesn't want to risk ruining your friendship.

bestfriend!mingyu who is always trying to find ways to spend more time with you. mingyu loves spending time with you and is always looking for excuses to hang out.

bestfriend!mingyu who is jealous when you're with other guys. mingyu doesn't want to admit it, but he gets a little jealous when you're spending time with other guys.

bestfriend!mingyu who gets protective when someone else tries to hit on you. mingyu hates seeing other guys try to make moves on you, and he'll do anything to discourage them.

bestfriend!mingyu who is always there to defend you. if someone says something bad about you, mingyu will be the first to stand up for you.

bestfriend!mingyu who loves to cuddle with you. mingyu loves the feeling of being close to you, and he'll often try to find reasons to cuddle.

bestfriend!mingyu who is always trying to get your attention. mingyu may try to get your attention by being extra nice to you or by doing things for you that your boyfriend does.

bestfriend!mingyu who Ā is always trying to find reasons to dislike your boyfriend. mingyu may try to find reasons to dislike your boyfriend, even if they're completely irrational.

bestfriend!mingyu who is secretly hoping that your relationship will end. mingyu may secretly hope that your relationship will end so that he can have a chance with you.


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avenhill
1 year ago

don’t be jealous

Dont Be Jealous

in which: mingyu's jealous of how close you're getting with seungcheol

pair: mingyu/afab!reader

word count: 1k

content: smut, a little jealousy, chair sex, completely consensual

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Dont Be Jealous

"No, it goes over there."

Seungcheol grabbed your hand and put the puzzle piece where he thought it fit, but it didn't. You slapped him playfully and said, "Dummy, I told you, it goes over here!"

Seungcheol nudged you with his shoulder lightly and said, "I'm not a dummy, you are."

You placed your palms on his cheeks and squished them, making his lips purse. Seungcheol mirrored your actions, his palms on your face. You grinned and poked his cheeks, Seungcheol's hands now holding onto your wrists. You resisted against his grip while laughing, a smile plastered to your face. Just as you lightly butted your head against Seungcheol's forehead, Mingyu walked into the kitchen in pursue of finding something to quench his thirst.

"Did I interrupt something?"

You quickly tore yourself out of Seungcheol's grip and shook your head.

"No, we were just working on a puzzle."

You got up from the stool you were sitting on and walked over to the fridge where Mingyu was taking out a bottle of ice tea.

"Need anything?" you asked Mingyu.

Mingyu cleared his throat and bent down, his lips by your ear. His voice dropped several decibels as he said, "Follow me."

Mingyu then turned on his heel and exited the kitchen, you shrugging at Seungcheol as you followed him.

"We'll finish it later," you told Seungcheol as you turned the corner.

Mingyu led you to his bedroom, a solemn look on his face. He closed the door behind you while you sat down on his bed. Mingyu pulled the chair from his desk and sat down in front of you, his bottle of iced tea resting on the desk.

"Why did you tell me to follow you?"

"I wanted to talk to you."

"About what?"

Mingyu held out his hand and willed you to hold his hand. You placed your hands in his and were forced to stand up as Mingyu pulled you into his embrace, his arms around your waist. He sat you down on his lap and started planting soft kisses on the side of your neck, his nose brushing against your ear. His teeth nipped the lobe of your ear as he muttered, "I don't like seeing you that close to Seungcheol."

You hummed in a soft tone, "Are you jealous?"

Mingyu nodded against your neck, his lips sucking lightly on your jaw. You wrapped your arms around his neck as you clung to him while leaning your head back slightly.

"Mmh, my little Mingyu is je— Ah!"

Mingyu sunk his teeth into the flesh above your jawline, causing you to abruptly stop your sentence. You could feel him smirk against your jaw as his fingers tugged at the waistband of your jeans. Somehow, as you were sitting on his lap, Mingyu managed to unbutton your jeans and slip the jeans off your waist and thighs. You happened to be wearing a thong that day, which he simply pushed to the side as he rubbed your entrance. He unzipped the zipper hoodie you were wearing with his other hand and slipped it off your shoulders. You were only wearing a sports bra, a very loose one for that matter, and Mingyu managed to slip it off your breasts and down your torso within seconds. He trailed kisses down to your breast and sucked on the flesh right where your breasts started, your hands working on his basketball shorts.

Mingyu groaned against your breasts as you pulled off both his shorts and boxers, revealing his stiffened dick. You scooted forward on his lap, your pussy rubbing against his dick. Mingyu stopped rubbing your folds and started massaging your breast as his other arm snaked around your waist and his lips were rooted on yours. As you continued kissing him, you shifted your position so that you were hovering above his dick. With one hand, you were holding onto Mingyu's shoulder, and with the other, you were holding onto his dick and rubbing it back and forth along the lips of your cunt before positioning it.

You sat back down on Mingyu slowly, his dick sliding through you easily. Mingyu moaned alongside you as you pushed yourself into Mingyu's chest, your whole lower body being pushed back. Mingyu continued massaging your breast, his tongue intruding into your mouth. You raised and lowered your abdomen as Mingyu moved his hips along with yours. His dick seemed to penetrate through you as you sat yourself back down on his lap every time you pushed yourself up. You knees trapped Mingyu's legs as you kneeled on the chair and sped up your gyrations, Mingyu moaning into your mouth loudly. Your breath hitched as you felt yourself nearing your climax, Mingyu's arms guiding your waist as you kept moving up and down.

You moaned and smiled as you came on Mingyu, your lips still pressed against his. Mingyu came shortly after he pulled out of you, his cum covering most of your stomach. With the feeble strength you had, you got up off of Mingyu's lap and waddled to his bed before collapsing onto his bed. Mingyu got up after you and laid down next to you, his nose buried in the crook of your neck as he continued leaving red marks on your neck and collarbone. You sighed and were going to tell him something had it not been for the rumbling of his stomach.

"Are you hungry?"

Mingyu nodded against your neck, his face a light shade of red.

"Let's go get you something to eat."

You sat up and cleaned yourself off with the tissues Mingyu kept on his desk and got dressed while Mingyu just pulled on his boxers and shorts because his shirt was still on. The two of you walked out of Mingyu's bedroom, Mingyu's arm around your waist. You entered the kitchen to find Seungcheol still working on the puzzle.

"Hey, I heard a lot of moaning, are you gu—" Seungcheol started his statement without looking up until he asked, or wanted to ask, if you were okay. However, he took one glance at your neck and his eyes widened.

"What happened to your neck?!"

Mingyu pulled you in tighter and said, "Mine."

You turned your back to Seungcheol, embarrassed because of all the red marks on your neck, and dug your face into Mingyu's chest. Mingyu hugged you into his chest and blushed again as Seungcheol continued staring at the both of you in utter shock and maybe a little disgust.

Seungcheol never approached you the same way again.


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