Mr Lemmy Killmouster

Mr Lemmy Killmouster

I miss feeling your eyes on me. I miss going to parties with you, and trying to be quick when I need the bathroom, but you're still restless and bristling by the time I get back. I miss getting random texts with instructions. I miss knowing that if I come home frustrated or struggling or angry that it'll all be gone in a couple of hours because you'll take me so out of my head that I forget everything. I miss being cared for enough that even a slight change in my mannerisms would have you instantly on edge, ready to do whatever was needed to catch me before I fell. I suppose I just miss you.

This Last Year

I've had 2 surgeries, which have made things very difficult for myself and my partner. Ive had to take a month off work after each surgery, followed by difficult recoveries and the first recovery didn't go well, leading to the second surgery. I miss being intimate with my partner, I've been too scared to and am looking forward to being completely healed.

EVER FEEL LIKE YOU'RE JUST SCREAMING INTO A BLACK HOLE OK JUST MAKING SURE I WASN'T ON MY OWN THERE.