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Gay as fuck for vehicles and mechanical-related shit and it's only getting stronger as the weeks pass.

The other day was a pride event. I've only gone once before but much later in the day when there were less people. There were so. many. people. this year. Loud. Crowded. Got unfriendly looks. Overall not a great experience. What made me laugh was the way I took one look at a motorcycle nearby and felt myself relax.

Yesterday, a friend was showing me different types of vehicles from other areas of racing. Ohhh my fuckin hell, so many of them were GORGEOUS and the way they were shown off was so erotic at points too.

Today, a bicycle maintenance event. The two teaching about bikes brought in their bikes for example and ohhhh, the sleek black frame of the hybrid and the thick charcoal and orange wheels of the mountain bike were hot as fuck.

Something about the maintenance process was so intimate too, the way to clean chains an shit. Emphasized by the story one of the two had where they knew a guy who'd take a shower with his bike to help keep it clean (esp during winter, you dont want it to freeze). Everyone laughed when that story was told though I'm sure I was the only one who laughed because I could see myself doing that too.

On the walk home, saw a tall black and orange motorcycle that looked cool as fuck and a really gorgeous car with a beautiful red and black design. Then saw more motorcycles and just laughed because fuck I'm so gay for it all.

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Doms being restrained is such a turn on. They could absolutely destroy you, overpower you, but they're held back by whatever restraints adorn their form.

You're allowed to do things to them but they can't do anything in return.

Until the binds break, of course.

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I'm typically mlm leaning, gay as fuck. Men are literally everything I want to be so of course I want to fuck them.

But every now and again I come across the hottest chick ever and I just sit there like oh fuck, she's hot. would.

My dysphoria is probably one of the only reasons I don't lean any further into being bi but even that shit steps to the side when she hits all my interests in one go.

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Man I need to practice more, my sexperience is horribly underleveled rn.

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"I hate what you're doing to your body."

That's because you're comfortable as who you are. I'm not. That's why I'm changing. You can hate it all you like but it's necessary for me.

unless you wanna write my obituary, of course.

being dead sounds just as relieving as transitioning.

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my two friends are talking about some card-related deck building and I have no knowledge on any of it. I feel like some fuckin lowkey high, normie college student or something with how little I understand and my lack of conscious thought.

"How would you make this deck fun" add tits.

"only clowns play this deck" damn, can't believe this deck is getting played by clowns. should really get better fwbs.

"I have a monstrosity idea" oh fuck yeah, monsters. monsterfucker

as far as I'm aware I'm not even horny, these are just my default not-awake responses while my meds kick my ass.

I just got top surgery and my recovery has been going well but a PSA I have for y’all is to not attempt to jerk off until youre a bit recovered. It’s been exactly one week for me. Even though im a horny piece of shit I am going to not jerk off for another week or two.

I tried to do it like twice and I got really sweaty afterwards which made my body more itchy and uncomfortable than it already was. Most likely, you will have drains and a tight post op binder. Jerking off is an exercise and you should obv not do any when first recovering from your surgery. Sex too obv since it involves more exercise than masturbating. I thought I could jerk off cause it would be not as hard on my body as actual sex.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk, if other people want to add on to what im saying then please do so.

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Recently discovered forcemasc. The idea of someone forcing my depressed ass out of transitional limbo sounds like something I really need right now tbh.

Force me to go to the gym. Not going to be a twig anymore after you've got me in the flow of workouts.

Force me to start eating healthier, to ensure our time at the gym isn't wasted. Gotta make sure those muscles grow nice and strong.

Force me to use my deeper voice more often, stop trying to appease others with the "friendlier" voice, we both know it gives me headaches anyway.

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Mm, favorite change would be my voice. It's deep enough to pass (according to others), sounds nice, and feels nice (the deeper vibrations). It's not perfect, it could always be deeper, but it's helpful as fuck. This was one of the main reasons I went on T.

The change that turned me on the most would have to be my tdick. It's significantly easier to get off with as it not only got easier to access but boosted my ability to feel at all (wow I can get off in a reasonably short timeframe vs the ~2hrs pre-t, wild). It also looks and feels hella good when getting hard; watching it rise to double its flaccid size can get me going even more.

Also, my voice when I moan, for the same reasons mentioned already but with more emphasis on the deep vibration feeling. Lol.

All the good boys out there, what is your favorite change on testosterone? What change turned you on the most?

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I would browse so many porn sites and nsft tags for robots if I got dropped into my world, I swear to fucking hell.

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FUCK dude I can't be normal about robots whatsoever. No idea what happened the past few days but I'm losing my goddamn mind over them.

Trying to watch a show about robots? I struggle to finish watching episodes because I'm so fuckin down bad for half the antagonists that I'm hyperaware of the way they move or interact with others.

Trying to browse robot art? Can't even do that without the need to punch the nearest wall because of how fucking horny I am for half them showing up.

My wants feel like needs with the fire of emotion I feel burning in my veins. Any restraints I had previously have begun to rust and break away. Absolutely fucking feral for this shit, fuck.

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Who the fuck gave motorcycles permission to be so fucking HOT. Like fuckin hell dude, I'm out here swooning over bikes showing off their beautiful curves and thickass back wheels like

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Everytime I stumble across an image of a shirtless dude wearing a hat on backwards, I always, always see the visor as cat or creature ears flattened back.

It catches my attention every time.

Probably any monster that's too human-like (physically). Especially the face. I really don't do well with human faces.

Too human-like is just... boring. I want to be interested and horrified, not bored and socially anxious. I want to fuck a monster not a human.

I know we’re all monsterfuckers here, but what monster would you NOT fuck?

MORE DOMS IN HOODS!!!! I WANNA BE FUCKED AND HAVE NO IDEA WHOS DOING IT!!!! WANNA FEEL OUT OF CONTROL AND COMPLETELY AT THE MERCY OF SOMETHING NONHUMAN!!!!! MORE. DOMS. IN. HOODS!!!!!!!!!!!

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oh boy it's valentines day! you know what this means!

*daydreams about fucking robots and monsters but its valentines themed*

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Man, erotic roleplay sounds chill but I'm inexperienced and haven't roleplayed in years / my ability to word is terrible.

Like, it'd be so fun to erp as a monster or robot or something. Not a surface level monster or robot either, something far more difficult to describe in a single word. Overall it would be euphoric, I think.

You know.. if I ever got experienced and better with words. Pretty sure my best bet would be to watch others erp, or get tutorial-leveled through one by someone hella patient and more experienced.

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Man, was watching a show with my friend when one character grabbed the other by the back of his neck and dragged him closer, leaning over his shoulder to whisper dangerously in his ear as he released a heated exhale.

That scene was rendered a lot more compared to the rest of the episode. They knew what they were doing and fuck did it hit the right audience (me). Shot me right in the kink with that one.

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Thinking about fwbs and damn, if any of my friends wanted to bang I'd be down for it.

Like hell yeah, I get my wicked awesome friends. I also get to fuck them (or vise versa) with no extra obligations. Just us having a good time, no strings attached.

That sounds so fun~

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Dysphoria hittin hard tonight boiz.

The trans hell that is passing on a surface level but never passing on a more intimate level. Losing potential interest or feeling like a fake because the parts needed are either missing or not functional like cis parts are.

The trans hell that is everyone treating you differently when they find out, but on a level so small they might not even realize they're doing it. It doesn't matter how much they support you, the way you're treated will never be the same.

I remember why I might lean a lot towards being ace.

And I remember why I prefer being stealth.

Dysphoria fuckin sucks.

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Call me a whore because I'm one whoreny motherfucker.

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I want to be the monster in a monsterfucking scenario so bad.

To be this large, horrifying creature. One that could chase you down with ease and pin you with inhuman strength. One that could shred you with my claws and teeth or choke you with my tail and parasitic-like tongues. One that could absolutely kill you in ways unimaginable.

But yknow, I don't because we're both pent up horny fucks. Sex feels better than killing anyway.

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You know, as an artist who needs to look at anatomy to draw things accurately, I keep forgetting how weird others act about nsft until I'm having a casual conversation about it like it's your average tuesday and everyone else is dancing around the topic like the floor is lava.

Makes it hella funny when I hear someones voice drop to a whisper like its a Forbidden Topic (TM) and I just, 'oh yeah those boobs are drawn really well, the attention to detail is pretty spot on and man I wish I had these skills.'

Lmao.

I want more monsters who can't be described in one word. minotaur, werewolf, orc—they're all great, of course. but what about a horror with no eyes, a huge mouth full of sharp teeth, and long arms with too many joints and six clawed fingers? what if he's got a tail that wraps around your throat while his nub-covered cock massages your insides? he crosses dimensions to fuck you, leeching the energy from your body when you cum around him. he feeds off of you as he pleasures you, and when he's finished, he recedes back into the shadows from whence he came.