Being Able To Wake Up

being able to wake up

Every weekday so far this week, I’ve woken up earlier than I intended or expected. It’s both relieving since I’ve wanted to fix my sleeping schedule for years but also feels strange since I haven’t fixed the start times of the sleeping quite yet, just the end time. Hopefully I will get both right soon!

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

Switchfoot, Dare You To Move

Cream Cheese Bagels

Bagels with cream cheese ordered from a deli always require redistribution of the cream cheese in the middle - there is always too much of the cream cheese, and it always squeezes to one end of the bagel.

Not that I'm complaining, really, it's a small price to pay for enjoying the meal!

And when I go there, I’ll go there with you - it’s all I can do.

U2, Where the Streets Have No Name

The Difference?

Sometimes trying to do the right things to grow feels more like trying to act strong when I’m actually not. The difference between proactive doing and arrogant ignorance becomes so blurred it’s disconcerting.

In the end, I guess the problem isn’t trying to be strong by doing. It’s more of recognizing that my strength isn’t my own, and when I don’t remember this, I essentially cut myself off from my source and run dry. Then, essentially, I am pretending and arrogantly still trying to achieve the same things I could do before in different situations.

So I guess the difference is not in the action, it’s in the heart’s motive and source of strength.

I’ve watched Elementary and Sherlock, and I prefer one to the other. Here’s why.